/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

>>4102879
I feel so extremely exhausted and tired and exhausted and I really really want to kill myself. I'm barely 5 weeks into my 1st year at a business degree and I'm so utterly miserable.

To start off, business is an extremely competitive field, so what really sets you apart are your internships and GPA, which I stay back till 9pm everyday just to study. I don't have any business background so I am already at a severe disadvantage, compared to other people coming in with prestigious internships.

People told me university was going to be "the best time of your life" but it's been utterly miserable so far and it is going to get far, far worse.

I spent my past 6 years studying at the best educational instituitions in my country and was subjected to so much pressure, I thought uni would be different, but it isn't. I just come home everyday and cry for one hour on the floor. I'm a an extroverted and friendly person so I am making the best of my social skills to network in the business field, which are quite successful so far.

I just really want to draw. I wanted to be an architect so badly since I was young, until I realised how awful the job scene was in my country, or anywhere else for that matter.

At the same time, I chose business because I thought it would get me a job away from my abusive family, a better chance for me to work overseas forever. But I also really want to draw. My life goal is just to draw and draw and draw. I feel so trapped and miserable, I'm thinking of tranferring to another design school in my country, which my parents vehemently object to.

I feel extremely trapped and exhausted, I've been feeling like this since I was 12. I think I am near the end of my life.

Here's a topic I've yet to come across. I am getting into drawing and would appreciate if some of you shared habits and techniques you wish you knew starting out, for example not using chicken scratch, etc. I'm open to all.