/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

Drawing is the only thing that makes me feel good anymore. My narcissistic parents have made me feel shitty since birth. Just finished shoveling the giant driveway and backyard area for my parents and they didn't give me a thank you or acknowledged me. I literally came inside the house with my head covered in snow feeling like I'm going to get frost bite. I can't feel my face or hands, or anything because it was so freezing. I'm only 19 but I've been nice my whole life and they never treated me right, they praise each other while putting me down and I don't even know why. I tried talking to them about it and when they do they flip out for no reason, I never yell or raise my voice with them but they shout at me and it's awful. They treat my sisters like gods because my parents are feminist and openly view women as better and more deserving. They never tell me they love me. Not even when I was small, only my sisters get told that. I could go on and on about this but I won't. I'm tired. I hope I can make something out of myself with art, I want to draw hentai for a living because it's fun, and honestly to spite them for treating me like trash since I was born. And also because it pays better for a shy, meek kid like me. I don't care if I'll be eating ramen every day, my dream is to be a hikkomori living a comfy, safe life alone drawing to make people happy. My parents drove all my relatives away so there's nothing left anyways, aunts and grandparents are aware that they are crazy but there is nothing anyone can do about it. All that's left is to be myself and hope that I can go somewhere with it.

Done venting, thanks..