/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

>start learning perspective and anatomy
>start noticing glaring mistakes in other people's work
>porn and webcomics become less and less enjoyable
>can't fucking stop noticing said mistakes
Good god what have I done?

All I react to is easy instant gratification. I tell myself every day that I'm going to break this incestuous cycle of being a garbage human, follow my dream of being an artist and all that, but I never take the first step. For art, for school, for relations, everything. All my life, all I ever did was failing, not because ever I fucked up somewhere, but because I never even started trying. After all, my missteps never really had consequences... Not yet anyways, but I feel it's coming to get and punish me if I keep this up. It's been this way for so long, I don't know how to make it stop.