/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

>been telling myself I'll draw since Thursday morning
>despite worsening mental state
>get home from work, open a couple CSP docs
>open a couple old pics too to remember what the fuck I did that make me like them
>sketch out figures, hate them, but not enough to effectively scrap them
>sleep a bit
>wake up
>fuck around asking why I'm shitposting and not drawing especially when people hate me already
>figure "oh yeah because I said I'd paint, and not just draw people."
>particular piece I want to do involves a desolate building in overgrowth on a sunny day
>take dense watercolor brush, pale blue, just swash, opaque watercolor, white, dabble a little
>now what

why can't i even force myself to draw
this is childish