/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

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>I was abused by my parents emotionally
>Sis decides she wants to be an artist after I've been doing it since I was a baby, parents support 100%
>I'm dirt to all of them
>I went through a split between my parents and my mom's side of the family
>So distant that I find out about my grandma's death in the newspaper, no one told me even though she was the one who took care of me as a child
>Abused in school to the point where the principal urged me to homeschool to protect myself
>I turned him down until kids brought a knife to school and tried to force me into traffic
>I lost all my friends in the process
>Now at home I start teaching myself
>I create an art account, never nsfw
>I meet friends, get job offers and commissions
>Around the 3000 follower mark I meet this girl
>We get along but I was desperate for affection and didn't get she was taking advantage of me
>I get pushed into a relationship, whenever I try to break up she threatens suicide
>She'd post pictures of her arms cut up if I tried to break up with her
>Three years later I reach my breaking point when she posts prom pictures and tells me she was with a guy irl the entire time
>Said I was like an emotional sponge for her and that she never thought of me as a real person
>Just "something on the computer" to help her deal with depression
>It hurts, it hurts, but at least she'll let me break up with her
>No, she's more 'suicidal' than ever before and my conscience won't let me leave
>It's gotten so bad I myself am feeling mentally ill
>I can't think of anything else so I tell my parents about everything
>They have me delete all my accounts
>Everything is gone, my 'girlfriend' of three years, all my online buddies, the potential jobs
>I dedicate a year to changing/improving my art style enough while keeping my soul intact
>I'm a lot more moody, self-centered, and distant from everything
I don't want to work for anyone..I'll make the bare minimum from art but I'll feel satisfied.