/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

Realized after days/hours of applying for any job i can find, going through all of those shitty personality quizes that i will never get any sort of contact or call back because i don't have a cellphone(can't pay for it). And once they see the number i have put down doesn't have any service, they'll just skip over my application because of my little work experience and no reliable skills. I can't even get one of those google voice numbers since you need a active number to use it.
I'm really trying to help out my family with this whole covid situation getting worse, and i don't have the drawing skills good enough to do commission work. I just sit at home tryibg to get better a drawing waiting for an email that will never come, and it all just makes me feel dead inside. I've never felt so worthless before, and am honestly considering dying.

Quit my shitty job i had after saving some money to learn art full time. I don't really have a passion for art, in fact i don't really care for it at all. I've only decided to do this because i've drawn all my life and it's the closest thing i have to a skill. I figured if i didn't like it now, I'll find some enjoyment with as i learn. Now it's been 2 years. While i have gotten better(still not great), i still don't enjoy the process of creating art. I still don't get any emotional feeling when i look at others art. I feel like i wasted my time honesty. Don't really regret it tho. If I didn't try to do this, i would still probably be working another shitty entry level job. I mean im still in that position, but know i have mediocre drawing skills.