/ic/ - Artwork/Critique

I've kinda stopped enjoying things I used to. Just play vidya cuz it's there. I think I have fun with it but desu looking back on the time I spent in game i just sit there with an empty expression just going through the motions and getting mad whenever I die to whatever bullshit. Why do i even bother? gonna vomit some words out to make myself feel better.
Didn't draw for like 2 years and now at my new job I manage to have lots of free time and started doodling again and found that fun. It's fun right up until I want to do anything beyond simple characters since I'm just straight up not as good as I want to be. Proportions all off, perspective not good, that's not how a foot/hand looks, etc. I'm stuck in that loop where I can pinpoint everything wrong with a drawing and just simply cannot rectify it. I know I should be grinding gestures and studying books but when i start whipping those out the life just drains from me. Just a lazy fuck i guess. I know for certain I'll find it fun again once I'm not /beg/. That climb from competent to expert then expert to mastery will just be bliss but the stuff before it is like a cactus to the balls.
Anyone in a similar situation here who managed to crawl out of /beg/?
How did you manage to work through it?
I think i just need to force myself to go through with it just like going on a diet or ripping of a band aid. something like that. Just gotta keep it up till it's as natural as opening up steam and playing a game is now.