/fa/ depression thread

[Anonymous No.11524649]

depression/mental illness thread for all of us who want to look good but never leave the house

safe space to talk about feels w/out judgement

post inspo to keep it fashion related

[Anonymous No.11524658]

>tfw shit nose
>tfw big forehead
At least I can hide the later.

I'm bit uneasey about my height, standing 5'11.

I'm a poorfag and have fucked up most of the opportunities that could elevate me from my situation, but at least I am young.

It's so-so.

[Anonymous No.11524670]

>>11524658
5'11" is tall man, dont let manlet memes get you down there built on other peoples insecurities.

Learn from your mistakes and hopefully you can rake in dough that youll immediately use to impulse buy the /fa/ meme of the week, its the proper way to live your life

[Anonymous No.11524682]

>>11524670
I know, I know, it's nothing that intense as a full on insecurity, but it feels pretty average at times. I guess everyone wishes to be bit taller than they are.

I wish I could afford the /fa/ meme of the week. But hey, I am getting my life back on the track as we speak.

That's a great fit.

[Anonymous No.11524711]

>mild clinical depression
>lost most of my friends a few years ago
>haven't really met anyone since
>manlet standing at 5'8
>underweight, most girls (even skinny ones) weight more than me
>nigger lips
>dumbo ears
>keep buying clothes to at least get some joy once in a while when a new parcel arrives

[Anonymous No.11524882]

I buy a shit ton of clothes but none fit and they all look like shit, something I never notice until a few days after buying. I feel like I have a good sense of fashion but I can't apply it on myself

[Anonymous No.11524958]

my friend from high school died yesterday
i have to keep functioning
i'm in a new relationship and i'm scared this is pushing bf away from me

i am so fucking numb. i slept 12 hours and my voice is raw from screaming

[Anonymous No.11525006]

anyone on zoloft/other med? got an appointment on tuesday, hopefully theyll put me on something

[Anonymous No.11525027]

>>11525006
What are they for?

Only meds I've been on were some anti-anxiety pills that I used in my early teens, but I can't remember their brand name.

[Anonymous No.11525031]

>no job
>no money

The days are just blurring. I just got up at 4pm.

[Anonymous No.11525045]

Starting a relationship with a girl who is ideal in every way except for the fact that she as kid.
Fuck me. It could be worse, at least she was with her boyfriend for years and then he died in an accident.
That's better than the roastie meme, right, boys?
Boys?

[Anonymous No.11525054]

>>11525045
How is raising the wife's son going?

[Anonymous No.11525081]

>>11525054
I don't want to be Carl the KEK but this girl is too good to pass up.
And I've already heard the wife's son joke from all my friends.
>tfw no traditional nuclear family

[Anonymous No.11525082]

I feel like no matter what I do, none of my fits will really pan out because of my low-test hour glass body.It has become a source of insecurity over the last few months and I don't have the time to go to the gym, nor the funds to eat healthier. Would starve myself, but I need all the energy I can muster for my physically demanding job. It sucks having the body of a 60 yr old when you're not even 20 man...

[Anonymous No.11525657]

I fell in love with a girl. She wants to be friends for now and says shit like I'm the only person she thinks she can see herself seriously being with in the future but she says she doesn't love me right now and she's always telling me about other guys she wants to fuck. I have developed severe insecurity over this shit. Be honest am I ugly or something what the fuck is wrong with me that I'm incapable of being loved ?

[Anonymous No.11525670]

>>11525657
>She wants to be friends for now and says shit like I'm the only person she thinks she can see herself seriously being with in the future but she says she doesn't love me right now and she's always telling me about other guys she wants to fuck
She wants you to be her little cuckold toy.

[Anonymous No.11525671]

>>11524649
what kills my confidence is hearing ew what the fuck or stuff like that from teenage girls who i´ve never seen anywhere. even if it wasnt related to my clothing i still think it is and have to pick something else up to feel secure about going out more.

PS. i dont wanna date a girl that is swearing a lot in public, they´re probably not happy with life or anyone.

[Anonymous No.11525675]

>>11525657
I also can't post a picture properly think I should just an hero.

[Anonymous No.11525677]

>5'7
>narrow shoulders
>wide hips
>24 years old but girls always say I look like a boy because of my body

[Anonymous No.11525701]

>>11525670
Should I just cut her off ?

[Anonymous No.11525702]

>>11525657
shes a cunt and you should move on

[Anonymous No.11525703]

>>11524882
>buy a shit ton of clothes but none fit and they all look like shit, something I never notice until a few days after buying.
this this this.
How do I prevent this? This is terrible, it affects like half of the clothes in my wardrobe.

[Anonymous No.11525711]

I've got anxiety and was told I had "low mood" but I feel like it's past that now. I either feel completely empty or just plain sad and irritable unless I drink and try to ignore it. I lack a lot of confidence as well. There's this chick who I know wants to bang, but I'm just a bitch about dropping her a text and making it happen.

Also I've got a pretty big nose and slightly larger forehead, and look awful in profile. I also have an ugly smile but at least I don't have to force it so much.

At least I have some quality inspo saved. Also a quick question - What do you guys think of pinrolling?

[Anonymous No.11525716]

>short
>big nose
>very skinny (male)
>face covered in acne spots and acne
>0 social life
>0 money
>live with my parents
does it get any worse than that

[Anonymous No.11525718]

>>11525701
She's just using you for attention/validation so yes. You deserve someone who adores you as much as you adore them

[Anonymous No.11525723]

>>11525701
probably yes
unless you would like to be her "gay friend"
(i wouldn't mind desu)

[Anonymous No.11525738]

>>11525657
I was exactly in your situation for about 2-3 years.
You should tell her that you don't want to play games anymore and cut her out of your life.

You'll regret it if you keep being around her but you'll also regret it if you cut her out of your life without setting the record straight.

[Anonymous No.11525790]

>>11525738
How did you deal with the feeling of missing talking to her and being around her. She has actually become a large part of my life at this point and I feel like we're extremely emotally close but any time we get too physical she tells me to wait. She'll easily fuck some random attractive fuccboi thought and claim it's because she's got no feeling for them. I just feel like it's because I'm ugly.

[Anonymous No.11525799]

>>11525790
you'll eventually get over it. Though it will be very hard for the first few months and you'll think about her even a few years later.

You aren't ugly, you're just average. The hairstyle also doesn't suit you.

[Anonymous No.11525811]

>>11525790
(not the person you replied to) in my case it'll just have to hurt for a bit, it's like pulling off a band aid, the sooner the better, good luck.

[Anonymous No.11525851]

>>11525701
Obviously, she's just keeping you around for attention and knows exactly what she's doing


She's a cunt and you deserve better

[Anonymous No.11525895]

>>11525716
depends on how old you are

[Anonymous No.11525916]

Why does everyone I know that goes on /fa/ have mental issues or depression?

[Anonymous No.11525919]

>>11525657
Nah dude, you look good. She's just a bitch and you should distance yourself from that crazy ass asap

[Anonymous No.11525948]

i just wanna die

[Anonymous No.11525971]

>>11525948
don't

[Anonymous No.11525993]

>>11525045
>she was with her boyfriend for years and then he died in an accident
it's not like she left him because of some reason. go for it anon

[Anonymous No.11525995]

>>11525657
>she's always telling me about other guys she wants to fuck
leave her don't be a beta cuck

[Anonymous No.11525998]

>>11525916
who else would come here

[Anonymous No.11526005]

>>11525790
cut her off. meet other girls, theyll be able to fill the void

[Anonymous No.11526006]

I don't know what to do with myself. NEETing isnt an option and, in my third year of STEM, most of the papers of which I've failed, the only subjects that interest me are in the Arts faculty some of which I've taken and enjoyed alot.

>>11525916
Most people on this board pretend to because being sad or 'depressed' is a trend at the moment.

[Anonymous No.11526008]

>>11524649
POKEMON GO THE FUCK OUTSIDE

[Anonymous No.11526149]

>>11526006

Yah, I agree with you on people pretending to be sad just to be trendy. I have a couple Steam Friends who goes on /fa/, and they randomly get sad and lash out at me for no reason. It only happens with these /fa/ggots. The people who don't go on /fa/ in my friends list (which is 90 percent of my friends list) do not act like this.

[Anonymous No.11526166]

Paranoid, scared of future, not trustful in people, anxious, feeling some days ok, and some days Im so depressed that everything I think is that I should better kill myself, for over 3 years, and Im just 16 yo. I dont really have any friends. I think that Im the worst piece of shit that has been walking on this planet, all my classmates have hobbies, interests, talents and Im just sitting alone all days in my room, occasionaly playing video games and shit. I had to tell someone, thanks everyone for reading

[Anonymous No.11526180]

depression core

[Anonymous No.11526194]

>me and sister taking care of the family
>recently shes been let go
>have about three months to figure out what to do
its been a weird feeling for some reason im relived but it hits me, all that ive been doing is listening to oldschool arabic music doe
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f65P0QpP2zU

[Anonymous No.11526199]

>gf committed suicide
>I was blamed for it
>become depressed
>became recluse
>didn't talk to anyone for a year or so
>like really not talking at all even basic conversation it crippled me to the point I become a stutter
>fucked up my study
>lied to parents I finished my studies
>attempted suicide, had a gun to my head and idk why I didn't pull the trigger I just cried instead
>small circle of friends, I never told them about all this
>don't even know what keeps me going
Eight years later and I'm posting this on 4chan.

[Anonymous No.11526209]

>diagnosed with cancer
you fags, don't know shit

[Anonymous No.11526217]

>>11526209
fucking hell man
which type if you dont mind me asking?
how did your family react??

[Anonymous No.11526231]

>>11525703
stop buying online.

[Anonymous No.11526254]

>1.75m
>5kg overweight
>big forehead
>weak chin

a-at least i have money

[Anonymous No.11526278]

>>11526199
It gets better anon

[Anonymous No.11526290]

>>11525948
Same.

[Anonymous No.11526295]

>struggle w impulse control
>too unstable to work
>slowly blowing all my life savings on fashion
>whythis.jpg

[Anonymous No.11526300]

yall need Tony Robbins

[Anonymous No.11526362]

>>11526217
Stage I skin cancer.
My family is not around me, and i do not have enough money to get the surgery, but i think i'll call my mom and tell her one of these days.

[Anonymous No.11526448]

>>11526278
I want to believe.

>>11526362
>but i think i'll call my mom and tell her one of these days.
Call her now.

[Anonymous No.11526489]

>>11525711
what is your anxiety about, i've had anxiety for a year after a panic attack while high and now my anxiety is about anxiety if that makes sense. like a fear of the fear. it's really to got me down, i used to be so happy

[Anonymous No.11526498]

>>11526166
bruh
S E E A T H E R A P I S T
youre 16 so u might get b& but please see one, it's a start and in the long run it'll help massively. you'll be okay just remember, you got a whole life to live

[Anonymous No.11526932]

>>11525948
Don't we all.

[Anonymous No.11527034]

>>11525045
>>11525081
be honest with yourself man, think of all the negatives that could come with it and make a serious decision before you get too deep.

i did the same and its been cool but my life before these two was empty and shit. i love having people who love me and a little homie to chill with and although it would be hard for me and the child if the relationship ended it is less scary to me than having my own kid. Prepare to be judged by her family and friends if you are a little different, i have had to fight a few battles but i don't back down, i love this kid and he could do a lot worse than me and if they want proof all they need to see is the boys happiness.

[Anonymous No.11527057]

>>11525006
Citalopram here. Been on/off meds for a year and only just started taking it seriously. Whilst I'm still majority bummed out and experience existential boredom everyday the meds have almost eliminated the worst of the depression (the moments where I'd have to lie down and try and bring myself back into the world). I think I need therapy to move forward from here otherwise I'll waste away

[Anonymous No.11527073]

>>11525677
twink it up

[Anonymous No.11527080]

>>11526362
dude just cut it off with like a boxcutter or some shit my nigu

[Anonymous No.11527081]

I'm only 21 and I can feel the alcoholism coming

[Anonymous No.11527097]

the first and only time I've had sex was two weeks before my 20th birthday. It was with someone I've known my whole life but pretty much only hung out with out of pity for years. She initiated everything, didn't do anything without permission, but I was drunk as fuck. I don't feel or claim to be raped but I don't feel like it was consensual either. Something in between.

Friends and random strangers alike tell me I'm really good looking and need to model but most days I can't even look in the mirror because I become uncontrollably obsessed with every flaw on my face and body.

Got a girlfriend for the first time in two years but I'm still hung up on my first love who I still have kinda frequent dreams about despite not following or creeping on any of her social media or even thinking of her throughout the course of a normal day. Every time I get her out of my system I eventually have a dream that she comes back into my life and we have a magical time together and I feel like everything is okay. Then I wake up and want to kill myself.

My dad fucked my mom in front of me when I was 9 or 10 years old. I've never told anyone. He knew I was in the room but she didn't. I have no fucking idea what to do about this.

Managed to quit cigarettes and pull myself out of a downward spiral of being drunk and high every day. but I'm still upset. I guess I forgot that I hated my life even before I started drug use. At least it's a step in the right direction. I think after I start hitting the gym again I'll be good. Running and lifting make me feel really good about myself so at least I have that.

[Anonymous No.11527101]

>chronic oneitis

[Anonymous No.11527121]

>>11525671
out of interest, what do you wear?

[Anonymous No.11527131]

I know how to dress but I have no money

[Patrick Bateman !!eZg4ZGkAk6j No.11527137]

>>11527097
>I don't feel or claim to be raped but I don't feel like it was consensual either.
Because you gave her permission but regret it? Sometimes sex is awkward and bad, especially if you have it with people you aren't super into. Take it as a lesson about not fucking people while drunk and move on. I have had numerous experiences like this and I'm not claiming I was raped on the Internet.

>Friends and random strangers alike tell me I'm really good looking and need to model but most days I can't even look in the mirror because I become uncontrollably obsessed with every flaw on my face and body.
This is called arrogance and you should get rid of this attitude. Modeling is a joke of a job, there are plenty of pretty people out there. Be useful, not pretty. People tell me I'm attractive a lot and I genuinely look like a cave troll, so you're probably also blowing others' comments out of proportion.

>frequent dreams about exes
Exes are like video games from your childhood: you generally remember them fondly and don't remember the bullshit. Case in point, I'd never go back to play FF6 again because, despite the amazing experience, the grind sucks and the game's pretty slow. Grow the fuck up and live in the present - you're doing your current girlfriend a disservice and looking at a previous relationship with rose-tinted glasses.

(Also, fuck your current girlfriend, seriously. How is she your goddamn girlfriend without having your dick in her at least once? What the hell?)

>I have no fucking idea what to do about this.
Absolutely nothing because it's not a traumatic experience, just a weird thing that happened. Also keep in mind childhood memories are absolutely and utterly unreliable and you're almost certainly remembering details that did not happen.

>Running and lifting make me feel really good about myself so at least I have that.
This is the best thing you've said so far. Now go fuck your girlfriend before someone else does, for fuck's sake.

[Anonymous No.11527142]

>>11524958
Relax baby. It's gonna be fine.

[Anonymous No.11527147]

>>11525006
been on lexapro for a while now. don't really like it tho. still feel pretty gray/empty. just vaguely more functional.

[Anonymous No.11527159]

>>11525657
she's gotta work thru commitment issues but she fears losing your attention. don't let her string you along tho

[Anonymous No.11527172]

who here /hateworking/?
i hate my job. i hate my coworkers. everyday in the office is torture. and i feel im not cut out for this 9 to 5 corporate shit.
i used to be a NEET and i actually miss my NEET days even when i was depressed af. i am emotionally stabler now but i'm highly unsatisfied with the working lifestyle. i think about quitting everyday but i like the money. im in my late 20s and i still feel like a child.

[Anonymous No.11527187]

>19
>never had a gf
>never gone past 3rd base
>baby face
>big forehead

fucc

[Anonymous No.11527222]

>thicc nose
>nigger lips
>big forehead
>never kissed a girl before

just kill me 2bqh familia

[Anonymous No.11527225]

>>11527137

1. exactly like I said not claiming I was raped it's just something that I never wanted to do sober and would not have done drunk unless she suggested, I told her I didn't think I wanted to but then she said all this shit convincing me it would be a good idea that, in my drunk state, I believed. have turned down drunk sex plenty of times before because I know it was a bad idea. something she said I guess. idk

2. I don't want it to be my job. I don't have the right body type for high fashion anyway. I want to be a teacher or musician or both. doing it on the side would be nice.

3. shes the first and only girl I've actually "loved" and she broke up with me because of some dumb shit I did I guess that's why I'm hung up on it. there's not really anything about her that changed that made me like her less. it's not something I choose to dwell on and I do everything in my power to avoid dwelling on it. maybe I phrased this part wrong. the dreams come before the feelings as in I have the dreams and they're super vivid and seeing as I didn't really have any issues with her or her personality it's like "well dream, you're right, it was pretty cool, can't deny that" and it makes me think about it. maybe it makes more sense.

haven't fucked my girlfriend yet because I'm the first guy she's ever been with and we've only been dating ~3 weeks.

4. okay, I'll be the judge of that, man. I remember it clear as day and I remember being fucked up about it when I was a teenager and posting about it anonymously on a different website. you're telling me if your dad walked into a room when you were a kid, saw you in there, and then proceeded to undress and fuck your mom and have you see it you wouldn't be shook at all?

I'm torn on the commentary n advice u give ppl because a lot of it is good and wholesome but also a lot of it is shitty non-advice that assumes the other person is a fucking retard. ur older and more in control than me. good 4 u.

[Anonymous No.11527284]

>>11525657
you're definitely not ugly and you def don't need someone like that in your life, get outta there because if you don't she'll leave one day and you'll realize how much of your life you wasted.

[Patrick Bateman !!eZg4ZGkAk6j No.11527341]

>>11527225
I won't get much more into the weeds here because it'd become a bit ridiculous, but:

Pretty much every response you have externalizes responsibility onto others (and, in turn, removes agency from yourself). Dreams "come," a job would "be nice," a girl "convinc[ed]" you into sex, your dad "shook" you by fucking your mom in the room (without you leaving...), etc. It's a common trait in our narcissistic generation: a sort of "the world operates upon me" mentality that gives you license to protect your ego while justifying inaction or ineptitude. You need to get your dick out of your own mouth and stop dwelling on things from the past that you've given more notoriety than they deserve. Even assuming they are/were horrible experiences, you make them worse by not putting them behind you. As you get older, life is going to get a lot more serious and a lot more difficult, and you need to harden the fuck up before it eats you alive.

In other words, you may not be a fucking retard, but you're certainly behaving like one. Man up.

[Anonymous No.11527343]

>mfw I'm uglier than all of you and I still somehow get laid on a semi-regular basis

[Anonymous No.11527357]

>>11524649

been on /fa/ since 2009

went through the whole dadcore phase, goth ninja, palewave, and comfycore shit

after the last 2 years I just don't really give a fuck anymore. Maybe it was because I was younger, 19-22 year old that was in college trying to find my groove.

I still appreciate fashion and design a lot but I really couldn't care less anymore about what the fashion machine spits out. I know what I like and I wear it, whether it be dadcore, gothninja, palewave, or comfy shit.

[Anonymous No.11527418]

>>11525657
you actually look rly good tbQh

[Anonymous No.11527452]

>>11527341
it was traumatic, I was frozen. I have uncontrollable flashbacks about it at work, school, etc. and the unanswered question of why he did it in the back of my mind. refute that if you will but I don't feel the need to explain myself any further as far as that goes or have a stranger on the internet tell me how to feel about it. I have no ego to protect. When I catch myself starting to wallow in self pity I take a brief time to vent and reflect and then I get up and do something productive. Doesn't mean feelings and events don't still hold a spot in my memory that my mind revisits at times when it wanders. I admit to not having full control of my mind; I constantly have to fight against it. Having control is something that will only come with time and practice. And having those dreams really isn't completely up to me. I've been keeping a dream journal which is apparently the first step in having better control of dreams so there's that. I've already researched and/or taken action towards solving my problems. I really didn't come here asking for advice, just to vent and say how I feel. and once again you've given me more shitty non advice and stated things that I already know lol.

[Anonymous No.11527474]

>>11524649
Technically a NEET my gf works while I make some cash doing odd jobs and whatever. I feel like I'm just a shitty mooch but I love my gf and she loves me. We're happy together but I can't shake off that stigma of a loser bf that does nothing all day. I eat less and less every day and try to cut down on all consumption so I do feel like a burden. I dress up and shower every day to feel like I matter but in between semesters at college I just feel like a fucking loser doing nothing with his life. I never leave the house and when I do its just so my gf and I can buy groceries for dinner. I can feel myself sinking but I can't do anything to stop it.
>I keep telling myself it will all get better soon.
>When?

[Anonymous No.11527482]

>>11524649
Hey guys, I'm going to tell you my day. I'm sorry for my broken english.
I'm a 20 years old living alone in a big city. Yesterday I came home, to visit my family in a smaller city that is not that far away. My father wasn't home, he was away with his friend. This day started normal, I cooked for my mother, she loved it. It was 6pm when she sat me down and told me what was going on. My father had fucked some girl in a buisness trip and she had evidence. I knew from a couple of years ago that he had always been a cheater but this time she had evidence. Long story short, she send his ass to an hotel, I had to speak with each one of them privatly and confort them. Later I had to confort my older sister that couldn't even believe it.

That's how today I had to be the big guy, even tho I'm the youngest of them all. I don't know, I just want to go back to my life and forget about this. Whats going to happen' to my mother? I don't know. My father? Neither, but it's his fault so it's not my problem.

[Anonymous No.11527487]

>>11527452
in closing I understand that you're trying to help and I appreciate it but I didn't ask for help. I already know what I need to do for most of this and I'm working on it. but its hard to make big life changes overnight. completely natural to be frustrated with rate of progress and then move on. such is life.

[Anonymous No.11527502]

>>11527187
could be slightly worse
>19
>never a gf
>only kissed a girl before
>dreary eyes, shit hair
>shit fits because of wide hips

[Anonymous No.11527527]

You guys made me fuck up I want her back now so badly ! Why did I ever listen to u fucks she was the best thing that ever happened to me she made me want to be better and now what the fuck am I supposed to do ? I don't have any other real friends I have no one else to talk to I still feel ugly and now I'm alone. Why did I ever come here for real advice you fucks can't even give good fashion advice .

[Anonymous No.11527544]

>>11524649
all normies with gfs get the fuck out of this thread u normie scum posers go throw a footballa round with your dads you normie fu cks jock chad fucks GET OUT

REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

[Anonymous No.11527554]

>>11527544

[Anonymous No.11527556]

You guys ever get the feeling of disconnection from other people? I was at the beach playing Pokemon Go with a friend and a couple of her friends that I didn't know and while we were walking, they were cracking jokes that didn't match with my sense of humor and just talking about things that I had little knowledge/interest on such as music that I wasn't familiar with and popular movies that mostly everyone but me has watched.

What really got me a little choked up was when one of the guys I didn't know just said "Hey Anon, you're really introverted huh? You've barely said a word."

Took me a few seconds to just say I was busy catching Pokemon and I didn't have anything meaningful to contribute to the conversation, but damn. The way he said it and the way everyone had their eyes on me got me feeling a bit messed up. I guess I'm just a weirdo that needs to expand outside my niche interests and get better at socializing. Feels weird man.

[Anonymous No.11527560]

>>11527556
normie fuck go play football with your friends and nintendo you're a normie fucker

[Anonymous No.11527603]

>>11527474
https://mega.nz/#F!51Q0waSI!4Ut-eePQr9YSjHJJTQs7Ew!F5ZV0TSR
download and read some of these

[Anonymous No.11527613]

>>11527556
Just say that you don't feel like talking and leave if you find the situation uncomfortable. I understand what you mean though when someone makes a joke or similar and it's just not funny and they expect you to laugh at it.

[Anonymous No.11527620]

>tfw you once got with a 10/10 and she ruined all inferior women for you

[Anonymous No.11527632]

>>11527556

do some molly and get in touch with your pathetic soul bro

[Anonymous No.11527639]

>>11527527
She taught me to appreciate people and it's ok to be friends with someone you love for awhile first like what's you guys obsession with being cuckolds I just fucked up what was something I enjoyed more than most things in my life because of pride and now I can't get her back.

[Anonymous No.11527646]

>>11527620
this. I dated a 10/10 now I can't date. One night stands are starting to hurt my soul.

[Anonymous No.11527649]

>>11527502
wtf are you me?

[Anonymous No.11527697]

>>11527556
>The way he said it and the way everyone had their eyes on me got me feeling a bit messed up.

I know that feel Anon.

When I was a high school freshman, we were obligated to remain within campus during lunch, but seeing that I had no friends and I'd do anything to not fall into the "loner who awkwardly walks around by his fucking self for 45 minutes" category, I would sneak out to the prohibited areas. These areas were usually near the exits, so the only time other kids were there was when they were planning on ditching school.

These two girls came once, and they asked me how to leave the school grounds without being caught. I knew the layout, so I explained the details, and right before they left, one of them turned and asked "So you're all alone here every day?"

I said "Yeah." and, before leaving, all that she said was "aw".

That aw left a terrible taste of pity in my mouth. It made me realize the position I was in. It made me realize how alone I was at that age. That punched-in-the-stomach feeling really had an impression on me that day.

[Anonymous No.11527716]

5'6 at 18

tell me i'm going to make it f/a/m

[Anonymous No.11527727]

>>11527716
You are. One of my best friends is like you and gets lots of beautiful and interesting girls. You just have to be a good guy, keep in touch with your interests, don't be shy, be sincere. You have to build your self confidence and become an independent and interesting person.

[Anonymous No.11527735]

>>11527727
>>11527716
lol

[Anonymous No.11527764]

>>11524711
>nigger lips
baka no wonder you lost all your friends you dumbass racist loser

[Anonymous No.11527772]

I typed out this long essay about how I felt, but 4chan fucked up, and it got deleted. I feel better for some reason.

[Anonymous No.11527773]

>>11525657
Drop her you can get someone better no doubt

[Anonymous No.11527774]

>>11525031
>mfw wake up everyday at 5-6pm
>go eat shit food
>shitpost on 4chin
>watch a movie
>eat bowl of cereal and go to sleep
>repeat everyday
at least I dress well when I go out once a week, r-right?

[Anonymous No.11527786]

>>11525657
she's sounds white

[Anonymous No.11527788]

I have a networking internship which ends in about two weeks and I still live at home since I'm try to get into an actual job before I move out and get a place. My dad has some weird fetishization of work though and says I need to get another full time job as soon as my internship ends, even if it's working for McDonalds. I have ~$1800 saved up and I pay $250 in rent to him but for some reason he still says I need to find full time work right away because not doing so is "leaving money on the table" and he's going to kick me out if I don't.

I don't think I could mentally handle working in retail/food service again. Making an extra $200 I don't need isn't worth that and just thinking about being trapped between possibly doing that or being homeless has made me feel like shit from the stress.

Current plan is to just fake like I'm applying to minimum wage jobs also and hope I find a job in my field quickly.

[Anonymous No.11527795]

>>11525671
hearing boys laugh makes me angry/annoyed i don't like seeing them enjoy things at all. the best kind of boy is a quiet one. also theres like a 90% chance they are laughing at something fucked up.

[Anonymous No.11527843]

>Went to an expensive private school for a shitty art degree
>Parents keep asking me what the fuck I'm doing
>Despite having a plan, they keep asking me what the fuck I'm doing or why I'm doing it
>Get told whatever I'm doing is a waste of time by almost everybody in my life
>Pushed away most of my friends
>Work sucks my energy away
>Beer gut
>5'5 manlet
>Little to no hope
Why do I bother living?

[Anonymous No.11527876]

>>11527843
what are you doing

[Anonymous No.11527881]

I wear the shit to fit in and enjoy taking time to make myself look decent.
>still lone
>clinical depression is shit
>probably going to hang myself with an incredibly /fa/ scarf or belt

I shouldn't whine, but I've nothing keeping me here.

[Anonymous No.11527893]

>>11526166
OP here, same age and i feel the same. It just feels like my entire life has been doomed to just be an outsider and never fit in.

[Anonymous No.11527895]

>21
>KV
>man tits
>face like an OF album cover

Will it ever get better?

[Anonymous No.11527904]

>low serotonin levels
>don't enjoy anything
>have to force myself to do anything
incredible

[Anonymous No.11527905]

>social anxiety and depression for almost 7 years
>been to around 10 different psychiatrists
>been on 4 different meds
>everything just gets worse
>suicidal thoughts every day
>self harm frequently, nobody even pretends to care anymore
>wasn't able to finish grade school
>fucked up two work opportunities because of social anxiety
>starting to get eating disorder

The only people I talk to is my bf who I live with and my mom and little sister. My friend who I knew from we were babies still tries to talk to me from time to time, wanting to hang out and do things together, and I just can't.
I'm literally worthless in every way, I'm not pretty and I'm not good at anything
The only reason I haven't killed myself yet is because I don't want my little sister to be sad. I don't even think my boyfriend would care that much...

[Anonymous No.11527912]

>>11527905
Are you from Australia? I think I know you.

[Anonymous No.11527917]

>>11527905
I'm sorry friend. Life is a bitch

[Anonymous No.11527921]

>>11527788
that sounds like a good plan anon

maybe explain to him that an unrelated service job does nothing for your CV after that internship?

[Anonymous No.11527922]

>>11527716
>>11527727
this is so true dude

just go for Asian girls and if you're bi then you'll get laid a lot lol

[Anonymous No.11527923]

>21
>ended up choosing economics by pressure
>what i really wanted to do was fashion design
>will never fulfill my dreams of becoming a fashion designer or photographer

Is it really a dead field if you dont have the right connections? I still have some hope left

[Anonymous No.11527924]

>>11527697
wow yeah

so much of high school was me pretending to have friends so I didn't look alone

why were we so alone anon

[Anonymous No.11527930]

>>11527603
the insistence on using racial slurs and 4chan slang was cringe but thanks for sharing this anon, really cool stuff

[Anonymous No.11527933]

>>11527923
I work in fashion photography. Talent, vision and drive are what you need to make it in the field. If you're consistently producing quality work you'll get noticed regardless of who you know. That said, it doesn't hurt to know people in the industry. Connections are the easiest way to land jobs, but talent is how you keep landing jobs.

I started by shooting my friends, then models that I hired, then models that hired me, then local magazines, then bigger magazines. The most important thing to be doing is producing work. A consistent, quality body of work is your ticket to the big time

[Anonymous No.11527938]

>>11527933
Thanks anon, i think i'm going to invest some time on that.

Did you do any photography or fashion classes?

[Anonymous No.11527940]

Been in a long distance relationship for 5 months. Tell my gf I want to get a place with her. She says the thought scares her and she has commitment issues

[Anonymous No.11527946]

>>11525657
Dude, just wanted you to know I'm (was) going through a suuuper similar thing recently. Girl I'd been talking to for years cheated on her roiding greek god boyfriend with me and was saying how she couldn't wait to be together and shit. She was saying that she loved me whenever we would hang out and fuck, and it's the time I've cared enough about a girl to let one in like that (had plenty of short relationships, hookups but never let a girl say she loved me - lost feelings and broke up with them before I acted like a trapped asshole to them)

Anyway, she eventually broke up with him because he's a fucking cunt and 2-3 days later as we're chilling she looks me in the face and says that she feels incapable of loving anyone right now, and she wants to stay with me and shit but only as exclusively "talking" and shit. She said she wouldn't fuck anyone else, and wouldn't start "talking" with anyone else. I fucking hate that terminology by the way, sorry.

This kinda fucks me up because I can't say I love her anymore bc we both knew she wouldn't or apparently couldn't say it back. She sleeps over a few times, we have the best sex I've ever had in my life probably once every two days for two months straight. Then comes my birthday, which was actually less than 5 days ago and everything is going great, I had NO doubts about us at all. It was going to work out, all that. I was gonna fix her and she was gonna fix me.

Nope. On MY fucking birthday, I'm sitting in a McDonalds waiting for a cocaine plug because oh did I mention that she was completely addicted to cocaine and was withdrawing because our town has had a drought for the "good shit" that she'll only sniff. I'm talking EXCLUSIVELY fucking fishscale cocaine. Fucking rocks sold by Haitians who probably own AK-47s? This was the huge elephant in the room in our relationship. Only some of her small friend group knew and I hid it from everyone that the girl I was hopelessly in love with was a fucking addict.

[Anonymous No.11527951]

>>11527938
I didn't. If you have a good understanding of the technical and creative aspects of Photography you'll be fine. Obviously keeping up to date with current fashion and fashion photographic trends will be beneficial also.

If you don't already know how, learn proper studio lighting now. I shot almost entirely with natural light up until people started paying me money to shoot them, and I had to learn hard and fast. The Strobist is a good guide to proper artificial lighting.

[Anonymous No.11527958]

>>11527620
Fuck this hits home

[Anonymous No.11527960]

>>11527946
cont......

So anyway, I'm sitting in this Mcdonalds on my birthday waiting for the plug to bring the white, and I see one of my old friends sitting at one of the tables away from me and he calls me over. We chat for a bit, there's a mutual friend there and it's a fun experience. It's my birthday, I'm cracking jokes and having a good time regardless of what my real purpose is for in that fucking Mcdonalds. That fucking mcdonalds where it all happened when this old friend looks at me for a second with a solemn stare and I swear I knew what he was going to say.

He hands me his phone, it's open to a conversation with my.... lover. I don't even know what I would be supposed to call her at this point in time. It turns out, when my lover and I went to a party a week before my birthday, this old friend and her reconnected a bit over old times when they volunteered together in middle school.

Now, they didn't fuck but that doesn't make a difference to me in the slightest. The point is that she was talking so fucking down about me to this guy like I was fucking trash. Then they start flirting over text and she's bringing up his apparent old crush he used to have on her. I stopped reading after that.

I look back at my old friend and I struggled to maintain my composure, I promise you that. Over the course of the next minute and a half, I went through the most intense roller coaster of emotions I've had in literally years, but that's kinda helped by the fact I'm a really mellow dude.

I thanked the old friend, said bye and went out to my old car and barely got inside before I broke down and sobbed for what felt like an hour but was really only about ten minutes. I hadn't cried in years and this girl destroyed me without even saying anything to me. I texted her, made it extremely short and said the coke deal wasn't going down. She was upset, but I didn't reply and instead went and hung out with close friends to get incredibly high off Xanax and weed for my bday

[Anonymous No.11527964]

>be me
>5'3
>actual manlet
>130 pounds
>tfw fat thighs and round belly
>poorfag
>can't afford shit I want
>can't fit in shit I want
>forever alone KV

[Anonymous No.11527972]

>>11527960
Sounds like your friend did you a favor.

[Anonymous No.11527979]

"It’s the loneliness of people trapped within themselves. The loneliness of people who have said the wrong thing so often that they don’t have the courage to say anything anymore.

The loneliness, not of distance, but of fear.

The loneliness of people who sit alone in furnished rooms in crowded cities, because they’ve got nowhere to go and no one to talk to. The loneliness of guys who go to bars to meet someone, only to discover they don’t know how to strike up a conversation, and wouldn’t have the courage to do so if they did.

There’s no grandeur to that kind of loneliness. No purpose and no poetry. It’s loneliness without meaning. It’s sad and squalid and pathetic, and it stinks of self-pity.

Oh yes, it hurts at times to be alone among the stars.

But it hurts a lot more to be alone at a party. A lot more.”

[Anonymous No.11527985]

>>11527946
>>11527960

cont.... part 2
Eventually in my self induced numbness I mustered up the willpower to tell her to get the fuck out of my life and that I never wanted to hear from her again. It hurt so bad to do that and even typing it now is making my heart ache.

What really gets me isn't that she was talking to this guy that I specifically told her I thought was a threat, cause he was acting a bit off at that party I mentioned earlier and she said I had nothing to worry about.

It's not even that she probably cheated on me while we were "together".

It's the fact that she did all of this on her own, and still came over and kissed me like I've never been kissed before. Now, trust me I've had my fair share of kisses but this just felt different. Every time I'd kiss this girl the way she'd touch me and would look at me in the fleeting seconds between our lips touching was enough for me to go against my friends' advice that she would do the same thing to me, cheat on me.

It's the fact that she held me while we slept, said all of these pure and loving things to me over all the times that we shared moments together. It's how well we clicked. It's the fact that I can't barely sit by myself and not do anything because my thoughts drift to her and over the last few days I've been literally sick, throwing up 100% water, because I can't eat either in the toilet while I shake and think only of her. I feel like I need to be distracted, or be high all the time or I'm going to kill myself. I know I'm fucking naive too, so don't mention it.

it's the fact that we started talking more than 5 years ago when I was a junior in high school, and when we reconnected fairly recently (2 1/2 months ago) she got a little drunk and told me she had been thinking about me every day since we stopped talking and that her boyfriend was the only keeping her from me. That she always thought I was the one that got away. That she used to love how I would call her my little bunny.

[Anonymous No.11527990]

>>11527985
cont...3
>>11527972
He definitely did. I'm not denying that at all, I think he's honestly one of the most genuine people I've ever known to do that. This girl is admittedly gorgeous and he probably could have fucked her if they kept talking.

>>11527985
I just don't get how someone can literally lie to my face and tell me they care so much about me when in reality all I mean to them is a means to and end. I feel fucking used for my (p shit) cocaine connects. For my affection and support which she even admitted she so desperately needed back in her life.

How am I supposed to get back out there and trust another person after someone who I have such a history with would deceive me like that, and still have the capacity to lay in bed with me and play with my hair, and make me feel so alive again.

I was so incredibly depressed before she came back into my life. She gave me a reason to live again, to get up in the morning without everything in my body telling me to lay in bed all day like a fucking loser. And she broke my goddamn heart.


sorry for the long ass post everyone. This is still really recent for me (think last 1-2 days) and it feels a little better typing it all out.

tl;dr - I suck at these, read it if you want or dont

[Anonymous No.11527994]

ditched my old hs group when i realized i didnt actually like any of them, now im lonely but i think its better

[Anonymous No.11528007]

>>11524958
hang in there, take a break to sort a little out and go talk to people. Sleeping that long isn't anything bad, your brain needs some resting after having to deal with varying emotions. It's going to take time, but you'll be fine. Take it easy with your bf, tell him what you're going through, and try to make the best thing out of it. After 3 weeks or so you can start to increasingly push yourself into coming back into your daily life.

[Anonymous No.11528018]

>>11527527
Fucking kek

[Anonymous No.11528058]

How do you meet new people in a small city? I go to a small university, but the further I reach in the academic world, the more boring the people around seem to become. Not in the way that I'm becoming smarter, but that post-grads seem to only care about themselves in their small normie bubble.

I've been thinking about this quite a bit and I like to think that performance heavy activities isn't the way to go and just going out getting wasted doesn't really create real relationships.

Fuck, my bachelor years were so fun. It's just so depressing to go separate ways with people you just started to care for on a deeper level.

[Anonymous No.11528074]

>tfw pretty
>tfw no money, few clothes, and no desire to go out alone anymore
i wanna be cool, but fuck

>tfw want to model but binge eating wont let you drop the last 15 pounds you need to lose

[Anonymous No.11528075]

>>11525657
you're not ugly, that girl is being kind of shitty, put some distance in the friendship

[Anonymous No.11528087]

>>11528058
what's your postgraduate in
i would love to do postgraduate 'research' for asian studies but good luck getting a job

[Anonymous No.11528106]

>>11528074
If I've learned one thing from life, attractive people have it way easier. Please take advantage of that, for the sake of the rest of us

[Anonymous No.11528117]

>>11527556
>Hey Anon, you're really introverted huh? You've barely said a word
I've had a couple people say this to me, and every time they do it just makes me talk less. People who say that shit have a complete lack of social comprehension and I want nothing to do with them.

[Anonymous No.11528127]

>>11528087
It's a MSc towards the forest industry. You know cutting logs in a efficient way is a big industry and small improvements really matter. I'm really into process improvement and most sawmills work in ancient ways. Hopefully I can start a somewhat lucrative business improving this shit show when I'm done studying!

It's not the hottest of subjects. I'm actually alone in my class. It's kind of weird only having yourself to compare with. You are the best and worst student at the same time. This is somewhat taxing at times, but is rewarding when you are doing good. It is also kind of a peculiar position since you can't hide behind someone else's results. You really have to be up front and take responsibility.

[Anonymous No.11528142]

I have no one to talk to, unless it's about school and other work projects, nothing. I don't feel lonely even if I rarely interact with people outside my house, but I don't feel like I live either. Used to have many friends from different circles but never had a stable group of friends, just jumping around groups without being able to make good friend with anyone.

>>11527946
>>11527960
>>11527985
>>11527990

Lose contact with here. Stopped reading at "she's a fish scale addict". If you think she'll be with you you more than she wants to snort that shit you're delusional. Fish scale is literally her life now, only God can get her out. Trust me, I've had friends that did only cox before and they ended up nowhere in life.

>>11525657
Dude, you're not ugly but not Adonis Bosso tier either. If she talks with you about guys that she wants to fuck she's either trying to make you jealous/wants your attention or she's a slut (read "Adulterous woman" by Camus). Drop her either way.

[Anonymous No.11528147]

>>11525657
you look like mf doom

[Anonymous No.11528151]

>>11527764
Don't care.

Before I moved to a new city my friends were all black and had a sense of humour. If I have to choose between being alone or making friends with people who can't take a joke, I'd rather be alone.

[Anonymous No.11528160]

>be 19
>meet 25 year old woman
>she's rich, highly educated (masters degree in linguistics and after that 5 years of architecture)
>lives in the coolest house ever
>never been big on kids, but for the first time in life think that if she gets pregnant, I'd be happy with it
>she moves to Barcelona to study final year
>eventually breaks up with me
>get depressed
>sleep around
>get herpes
>have since been rejected by 10+ women because of it
>have clinical depression which just gets worse
>start pushing away all friends
>eventually everyone gets tired of trying to get me out of the house
>spend my days just browsing the net and occasionally buying clothes now
>no motivation to finish my degree
>have some money but it doesn't matter, I don't have anyone to spend it with together anyway

Do some of you ever think back and regret doing something really miniscule that ended up having a huge negative impact on your life?

[Anonymous No.11528161]

>>11528142
Yeah I did cut her off. It's just that a small part of me misses her dearly. Now we're relegated to tweeting somber things in each other's direction and I'm left to wonder of what could have been

[Anonymous No.11528193]

>>11528160
You know how people say that you only regret things you didn't do. I think that is bullshit. I regret wasting my high school years in front of my computer, getting fat and depressed. When I look back I, at least know that those three years was and will probably be the worst in my life.

At the the same time it is important to struggle sometimes. Without hardship you won't feel happiness. I can't say that I'm totally content with my life at the moment, but I'm living with the hope that changes will happen.

Would you rather live in a world without emotion, or one with ups and downs?

[Anonymous No.11528227]

>>11528160
>get herpes
we all do, anon.

[Anonymous No.11528262]

Who /no friends/ here ? I get too comfortable with loneliness that i can't have meaningful social connection with other people now. Oh, and i often overdo fashion to compensate on my shortcomings (that really shrinks my self esteem and confidence).

[Anonymous No.11528310]

>>11527964
Go /fa/tcore

[Anonymous No.11528338]

>>11528127
So do you actually attend lectures where its just yoy and a lecturer? Or is all your learning done through internship-like situations

[Anonymous No.11528412]

>>11526231
First guy here.. I don't even buy online. But I currently live in Tokyo and nothing fucking fits. fyi I'm not fat but my frame is completely different from a japanese dude. I keep buying oversize stuff that looks kinda cool in store and then I look like a tent when I spot my reflection in public. I hate it. People here are so fucking /fa/ too and that doesn't help my confidence

[Anonymous No.11528422]

>match a girl on tinder
>we have good chat
>she asks me out
>agree on a date
>text her the day before
>no reply
>spend the night drinking in my room by myself

[Anonymous No.11528431]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KoD4egwMm9c


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OrCgIAB46Nc

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=22m5eU6uxeQ
prolly the most /fa/ form of depression

[Anonymous No.11528441]

>>11528431
Man German rap is pretty lit

the chick in the 'Online' video can get it tho, damn

[Anonymous No.11528446]

>>11528441
its austrian tho
but its sick af
carries exactly the feeling of being addicted to depression

[Anonymous No.11528449]

>>11528446
Sorry just guessed from the language

[Anonymous No.11528455]

>>11528449
dw its pretty similar anyways

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oxK1o6nnLZc

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AdhBuU5oraI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dG3D1vO5JIk

[Anonymous No.11528460]

>>11528338
It's mostly me and a lecturer/professor. Next semester I'm doing a bigger project that I probably will learn a lot from.

My big problem with the academic world is the lost touch with reality. Most people is in their safe haven, doing projects and writing articles just to be able to fund the next one.

[Anonymous No.11528466]

>>11528193
>You know how people say that you only regret things you didn't do. I think that is bullshit.

Totally agreed. I've spent the last 5 years just sitting at home, doing drugs and pushing away everyone until I had no one left.

I know I won't ever get those years back so I'll just try to move on, finish my degree and work on fiending friends again. Just sitting home alone with no one to talk to really tears away at you.

>>11528227
It's funny how statistics say that 1/3 adults have herpes, but you never seem to meet those people...

[Anonymous No.11528481]

>>11528466
I'd imagine that statistic refers to Herpes Simplex, which is cold sores

[Anonymous No.11528499]

>>11528466
Yeah, I mean regret get you nowhere. As cliché as it sounds what is done is done.

I don't know if it's the millennial in me speaking, but I really look forward to being able to do things I enjoy with people I enjoy. At my job the only thing people talk about is what they are going to do on their vacation. I don't want to become that lame ass person who only look forward to things and can't enjoy every day as it is. I know if I work hard enough I will sooner rather than later be able to actually control the outcome of my life.

[Anonymous No.11528511]

>>11527343
/big dick/

[Anonymous No.11528524]

>brown skin
>black nipples
>can't wear white shirts without nips being visible
>hate wearing singlets because hate the looks of a visible singlet lines
>tfw

[Anonymous No.11528541]

Im good looking, tall, do well financially, young, got sick fits according to /fa/, ottermode with low bf, at the peak of this self improvement trip and get a lot of attention from women everywhere I go but I always freeze when they try talking to me and could never imagine approaching myself. Most of my relatives and friends probably think I'm secretly gay cause they never see me with women.

[Anonymous No.11528567]

>>11527893
>>11526166
M O D S
O
D
S

[Anonymous No.11528574]

>>11527080
underrated post

[Anonymous No.11528576]

>>11527097
>My dad fucked my mom in front of me when I was 9 or 10 years old. I've never told anyone. He knew I was in the room but she didn't. I have no fucking idea what to do about this.
i dont see whats wrong with this

[Anonymous No.11528577]

>>11527172
>i used to be a NEET and i actually miss my NEET days even when i was depressed af.
I feel you anon

[Anonymous No.11528581]

>>11527341
>Reads the last psych once

[Anonymous No.11528587]

>>11525657
you're extremely fucking cute desu

[Anonymous No.11528597]

>>11528481
90% of adults have type-1, 30% have type-2.

The reason people have a hard time believing the first number is because a majority don't get any symptoms, and almost everyone who gets type-1 do so as a baby when parents and relatives kiss them.

>>11528499
What do you want to do?

I'm also looking forward to getting a real job once I finish my degree, meet some people that aren't completely pathetic druggies and just living the normie life. I'm just hoping that things will actually change then, but I also know that I'm going to have to work for it and make a conscious effort.

[Anonymous No.11528636]

>>11528581
oh shit is that ricky from team seth

[Anonymous No.11528682]

>>11528412
Try getting into diy. Buy oversized and tailor it.

Just get a half decent sewing machine and that will take you far.

[Anonymous No.11528698]

>>11528597
Good luck anon. You will make it!

I'm going to finish my degree and move from the north of Sweden. 23 years in these parts don't do you well. I'm going to work some dead end engineering work for a bit and then time will tell.

[Anonymous No.11528715]

>>11528698
Cheers buddy!

Don't know if its better down here (save for employment opportunities), would really like to someday move abroad myself. Somewhere warmer and just start all over. Not yet though, going to give Sweden one last honest try!

Lycka till!

[Anonymous No.11528729]

>>11526489
I know what you mean man. Mine often comes on if something fairly big is coming up or if I have to talk to someone important etc. I had my first panic attack at school during an exam briefing. I worry about loads of random shit though. My hands shake all the time, palms get very clammy.

[Anonymous No.11528780]

>>11525657
Hey bro I just got out of situation with a girl that lasted a lot longer than it should have.

Emotionally I am exausted from the whole ordeal because it has lasted about a year and I finally broke it off three week ago. But let me tell you this: if some girl wants to play games and is tell you that you are special or she wants something with you, but then fails to commit or acts out a bunch of inconsistencies with her words to actions, then drop her. You'll do yourself a favor.

I'm looking back at all the GOOD women I had the chance to be involved with this last year and kicking my self I didn't because I was tripping over this one girl who was playing games with me the whole time.

There ARE good women out there, I've already met a few just in these last few weeks. Don't trip over someone who clearly isn't make you a priority.

This line always works for me, but you have to say it and mean it; no wiggle room.

"I want you in my life a very specific way, and i know what I'm worth. If you make me feel anything less than that, or you don't think you can be in my life in that way, then I'm sorry but I'm not going to be here. I at least have an idea of how I make you feel, and if you can look me in the eye and tell me otherwise then do it now so I can stop wasting my time."

[Anonymous No.11528782]

>>11527921

nah, he understands that already, as I said it's mostly that he has a weird fetishization of work and believes if you're not working as much as you can you're wasting time and "leaving money on the table". He says it's would be unfair that I get to sit at home and not contribute while he works 60+ hours a week. I've told him if he's really that concerned about me losing money I could just start flipping clothes again which would bring in more money than doing minimum wage shit but he says I have to get a "real" job, so basically it's mostly him being fucked up and being the type of person who has no hobbies and the only thing he can take pride in is working.

[Anonymous No.11528783]

>>11527940
Drop her immediately. If she's in a ldr, she shouldn't have commitment issues

[Anonymous No.11528792]

>>11528729

Try out propranolol, I never got to the point of panic attacks with my anxiety, but for at least the physical portion with shaky hands and sweat palms and all that propranolol stops that since it's an adrenal blocker. Helps me manage my anxiety since I don't get that loop of realizing how anxious I feel and thinking about it making me more anxious.

[Anonymous No.11528797]

>>11524649
>>11525657
In response to anyone who is worried about meeting girls/guys or people who stay inside too much and know it.

Explore the area around where you live and pick a few hang out spots. Preferably ones that are clearly meant for solitude. So parks, coffee shops (genuine kinds not starbucks.) small cafes, bookstores etc.

Next, pick up a hobby that is related to quiet time. Things such as drawing, writing, reading is my go to with some really shitty writing. Maybe learn some music shit on your laptop.

Go to these spots with your /fa/ fits and do your hobby on a regular basis. These kind of locations are where introverts go to be social. But introverts aren't social in a regular extraverted sense; they need frequent exposure to the same face before they grow comfortable with them.

Eventually after enough time, you're sure to get noticed. Unless you are bum fuck ugly which there's nothing I can do to help you. At this point though it's up to you to think about how to approach whoever has been noticing you.

You all can choose to not believe me if you want, but I've been doing this for a while and just this last week have met three different GOOD women WITH personalities just this week.

It does take some game, but it's different from the shit you'll see posted, say, on /fit/ cause they can't hold an intelligent conversation about much.

I'm really fortunate there is a 24/7 coffee shop in my town and all the young people gravitate there as the day goes on.

Also, stay off tech as much as possible. Even 4chan unless you have specific questions. This website fills a social gap in many people's personalities and can be used as a replacement for real people if you're not careful. And desu facebook/other trendy sites just aren't worth it.

That's all I got, hopefully this will help some people. Fellas, I used to be an ugly fat nervous sumbitch. I have full confidence in all you guys. Get at it.

[Anonymous No.11528819]

>>11527876
Shut up I have a plan

[Anonymous No.11528822]

>>11525006

I'd say to only get on meds if you truly feel you need to. I'm depressed and I sought out the same thing thinking that drugs would fix my problem. I ended up not taking them and tried to find healthier ways to cope, which worked out for me. I still get depressed, but I know how to deal with it a little better now.

I did this because a lot of people I know are on depression meds. My mom was on zoloft for a while, and now lexapro. My other friend who is depressed is also on meds. Pretty much anybody who has opened up to me about their depression and meds has told me how they want to get off of them for one reason or another.

[Anonymous No.11528829]

Im 5'8," thinking of just moving back to mexico when im retired so i dont have to be short anymore

[Anonymous No.11528833]

>>11528797
the hard part is approaching them though.

I've done this too, but then there was a time when i knew was the time to approach thhem, they made it almsot too obvious, but then i didn't do it. like that feeling whenyou're a kid on a diving board and don't jump.

after that day the person would ignore me and walk quickly past me.

maybe it was all in my head tho

[Anonymous No.11528875]

>>11528829
It boggles my mind how many people here care about height I'm 6'3 and life really isn't much better up here just learn to be confident and how to talk to people and you'll be ok.

[Anonymous No.11528910]

>>11528875

Eh, I'm 5'7" and mostly not concerned with my height, but there are problems with being shorter and if someone takes the manlet meme seriously it obviously doesn't help. The biggest problem being is having to be worried about being written off by women for being shorter. Like if you meet someone off Tinder you worry about what if they suddenly become uninterested because of your height, like of course I wouldn't want to be with someone who's shitty about anyways, but it still feels bad to get rejected over it.

[Anonymous No.11528925]

>>11528910
If women are your biggest problem you're fucking lucky. I'm 5'8 and mostly worried about not being taken seriously at work, especially when I meet new clients. Fuck women, they're easy. If you wanna talk about something more pressing, try your livelihood.

[Anonymous No.11528932]

>>11525657
Hasani?

[Anonymous No.11528936]

>>11528932
Nope I'm V

[Anonymous No.11528940]

Hey guys tell me straight up how ugly I am. I'm 19 almost 20 and a kissless virgin and I'm guessing it's because of my face and probably the fact I'm a sand nigger. Thanks

[Anonymous No.11528951]

>>11528940
You are not ugly, just average but not ugly. Build some confidence and talk to women you'll be fine.

[Anonymous No.11528956]

>>11524649
here´s a thing everyone thinks they deserve the best and anyone who disagrees with them or has different values doesnt deserve shit. Nobody deserves anything you take what you want by force and force yourself to look so damn great while having most refined social skills that bitches are all over you.
There´s money and pussy and friends out there and im gonna party and take what i fucking want.

Nice guys finish last i really get that now. By listening to faggots online you´re being a nice guy who gives them a chance. People are cunts offline and online if it was bad before make it a hell this time. The guy with most drive wins not the guy that spends hours on reading shitty self updating online books, social media never pays off

[Anonymous No.11529034]

>>11525657
Besides that your dreads should be way longer or you should get an entirely different hair cut, you look alright familia.
You are her plan B, get the fuck away from her if you have self respect.

[Anonymous No.11529040]

>>11528940
yeh youäre pretty awkward and average looking, but not unsalvageable ´´´or hopeless. keep your head up and dont be proooo proud to start with something humble mate
>>11528956
go back to /b/ men

[Anonymous No.11529042]

>>11528792
I was prescribed some actually but thought it was only for more severe stuff like a panic attack, rather than just the physical affects of being anxious. I know what you mean about the loop, though. I quite often end up worrying about it, especially if I'm visibly nervous. I'm quite judgemental and so assume that everyone else is always watching or judging me.

[Anonymous No.11529044]

>>11528940
Pretty average. Don't worry too much

[Anonymous No.11529049]

>>11528956
go back to /b/

[Anonymous No.11529056]

>>11528940
youre pretty average and awkward looking, but not hopeless. go to gym or do pullups at home or something

[Anonymous No.11529066]

>>11528940
w2c top?

[Anonymous No.11529072]

i'm always over thinking things. sometimes i think about dying or something bad is gonna happen to me. there's a girl i like that i talk to but she's moving soon and recently i told her i have things going on with me mentally. i don't know what i should do anymore i was going for a walk around 8am and had constant thoughts about grabbing a knife or something and just bleeding out i don't even know why i'm typing this it's already hard trying to talk to someone about it

[Anonymous No.11529082]

>>11529042

What mg? As you probably know it does lower blood pressure so if you have a high mg dose it can make you feel a bit sick from that, so if it does just cut it in half or a quarter or w/e. I take 40mg whenever I go out in public.

[Anonymous No.11529083]

lots of the people itt's situations sound like some of my friends lol

my feels are p weak desu, im confident in and satisfied w myself in general and i just feel kind of shitty for even feeling bad about my own stupid problems when theres shit like what some of you are going through happening to people

been chatting online w a qt from my uni p frequently over the summer but we're both super introverted and i dont think anythings gonna happen before i switch schools next semester :/

>>11528576
i dont think its so much a trauma or depression thing, just like, a weird skeleton in the closet memory with sort of fucked implications that you try not to think about too hard but it keeps popping back into ur mind when ur trying to fall asleep

>>11528797
thank u bud, kind of looking forward to the school year forcing me to go out desu

[Anonymous No.11529129]

>>11527452
hey bud, just wanna say i'm rooting for ya.

when i was like 13 i went to live with my dad for a year and found out he was into child scat porn thru his browsing history. just sorta had to file that one away so that we could continue coexisting, but it was a pretty heavy thing for me to carry around, to not tell my siblings so they wouldn't feel the way I did, to reconcile privately with my feelings about my dad. I think the other guy may have had his heart in the right place, but "man-up" is a pretty vague and ineffective thing to tell someone. What you really need to do is come to your own terms with the things that trouble you in your life.

My ex is still in my head after 2 years, I quit drinking and smoking too but it's still there. Just gotta learn to live with your life as it is now.

[Anonymous No.11529158]

>>11529082
10mg. Never taken one so I don't know how it'll affect me, but I may try it next time I'm going somewhere. The little leaflet in the packet says you shouldn't smoke if you've taken it which has kind of made me wary, as a smoker.

[Anonymous No.11529165]

Losing my mother to Crohns (cancer). It's incurable but it is manageable.
Lost my grandfather to heart disease as a child.
these two things have caused me to vow my life to studying nutrition and educating people on the dangers of poor dieting.

But no matter how hard I swim, I'm struggling to keep my head above depression

[Anonymous No.11529179]

>>11528940
not ugly, you need a better haircut and you will be fine anon

[Anonymous No.11529183]

>>11529158

10mg is really low, I started with 20mg, just take one right now to see how you feel. Smoking effects the potency so it'll actually be less effective.

Really the only thing is don't drive or do something dangerous while on it for the first time since it just can give you general low blood pressure side effects like being dizzy or light headed or even fainting, but at your low dose, especially being a smoker, that's very unlikely. Just don't sit/crouch down for a long time and suddenly stand up or w/e

[Anonymous No.11529258]

>>11528875
fuck you, height was never a problem for you.
I'm 5'7 in Germany (right next to the dutch border) and I get comments like "lol you're kid sized" and similar all the time. Males don't take me as serious as someone bigger and I've my dating pool is a lot smaller than the one from people of average height. Most girls are taller than me.

[Anonymous No.11529286]

>>11529258
Demand respect. Be confident your rare where your from go for taller woman if you want dude don't ever let that shit get to you. Fuck the rest you.

[Anonymous No.11529462]

>>11529286
lol

[Anonymous No.11529585]

Every time I think things are getting better they come tumbling down. Literally every time. Every time something starts to get good at this point I just expect it to fail and it does. I'm thinking about just selling all of my clothes and nice things and saving up money to move far away.

A few examples of just this year:
>getting more clout for my design work
>have multiple people wanting me to design shit for them
>entire PC crashes and will not boot, have to shamefully text them and tell them I won't be able to work on it for a while
Also
>finally gain nerve to ask out girl of my dreams
>we go on a date
>thinking it's too good to be true, she has a good time I play it safe
>invite her out a couple more times, she says she's working each time
>assume she's letting me down easy and distance myself to not get hurt
>she still is one of the first people to view my snapchat stories, like my twitter posts, etc
>every time I get reminded of how bad I fucked up

Anyone know of a good way to sell a bunch of a shit? I don't live in a city so garage sale is not ideal, and I'd rather not make a ton of listings for small things

[Anonymous No.11529861]

>Kinda depressed
>Only when I am alone and have nothing to do
>Really hits me when I go to bed
>Shy
>Not particular funny or interesting
>Insecure about appearance
>Don't know how attractive or ugly I am, because no one ever tells me.
>In small group consisting of my best friend, two girls, and me
>Almost never together with them, only when my friend invites me to come.
>They are my only friends
I already feel lonely, I don't want to make it worse. I just want to become more alpha and outgoing.

[Anonymous No.11529922]

>>11525657
you look cool as fuck lol

[Anonymous No.11529926]

>>11525677
haha same

I feel your pain

[Anonymous No.11529974]

who /bipolar/ here

[Anonymous No.11529975]

>tfw when my dad looked like Cillian Murphey when he was young
>mom was very attractive
>i am at best a 5/10, no good jaw, neither good cheekbones

[Anonymous No.11529980]

>>11526362
>stage 1 skin cancer
baka fuckin listen to this mf right here >>11527080

collect nobel prize for curing cancer

[Anonymous No.11530013]

I want this to end already. I'm on a emotional swing for the past year and I just can't keep up with this shit anymore. Because of that state I almost failed the year at school. I feel like my life is falling apart and there's nothing I can do. I could sometimes stay in my room lying on my bed (with little breaks for going to the toilet and eating) for 2 weeks straight. What is the most /fa/ way to kill myself? Thinking about OD on codeine and vodka. Any better suggestions?

[Anonymous No.11530029]

>>11524882
>>11525703
this used to be me. here's something that I started doing that pretty much got rid of the problem: only buy online, and from places with free shipping and free returns. They'll usually let you keep the item for a week or two before having to return it. During that period, wear it around the house a lot, try it on to make sure the fit is perfect, etc. Then after a while you should have a really good idea whether it's an item you should keep or not.

[Anonymous No.11530039]

>>11526006
>Most people on this board pretend to because being sad or 'depressed' is a trend at the moment.

more than people pretending that they sad, the trend is that people are able to now be more open about their mental state. Far more people than u would think are actually feeling like shit on a daily basis

[Anonymous No.11530049]

>>11528524
LMAO same (kinda)
?brownish (very tanned) skin
>brown nipples
I think the answer to your problem are grey or thick white shirts.

[Anonymous No.11530054]

>>11527556
>Hey Anon, you're really introverted huh? You've barely said a word.
lmao this fucking triggers me. people that I feel absolutely no need to talk to think I'm just introverted. the reality is I just don't fuck w you.

[Anonymous No.11530058]

>>11527923
>>ended up choosing economics by pressure
>>what i really wanted to do was fashion design
>>will never fulfill my dreams of becoming a fashion designer or photographer

are u future me.

[Anonymous No.11530093]

>Around 5'10 manlet
>Very skinny but largish calves (so I'll never be able to achieve the SLP sillouette)
>Always look tired
>Shitty thin skin on face makes my cheeks red
>Fine hair that never looks good
>Only kissed a girl and we were both blackout drunk (I'm not even sure if that counts)
>Can't connect with any of my friends, so have slowly drifted apart
>None of them are /fa/ or even have a decent taste in music
>Getting a degree from uni in a field I'm not interested in
>Can't find any hobbies I enjoy
>I'll have a decent paying job in the future, but no opportunities to wear any sick cops
>Tired of mid-tier clothes (APC, Acne, Our Legacy, etc.) but can't quite afford the high-end stuff I want (Craig Green, Marni, Gucci, Yohji, Pigalle, SLP)

[Anonymous No.11530127]

>>11528160
Everyone has herpes and don't know it.

[Anonymous No.11530213]

>>11530093
it just sounds like you have a shit personality t b h

[Anonymous No.11530271]

>>11530013
uh I don't recommend that you could probably end up living and feeling very shitty because codeine isn't that strong. Do some heroin or if you can obtain fentanyl that would be even better, you will feel very much at peace and probably won't realize you died

[>beatles No.11530289]

>>11525006
Xanax. SSRIs pushed me closer to suicide. Hope you have much better results man

[Anonymous No.11530332]

>tfw when surrounded by qt3.14 women but too much of a chicken shit to engage in a conversation with them.

also being 5'6 is suffering

[Anonymous No.11530382]

>>11530271
Thanks anon, I don't have any good sources for the stuff you listed. I'll still try getting myself drunk with vodka and then taking 4 packs of codeine pills (extracted as a liquid, about 600mg). I just want to end it in a clean way.

[Anonymous No.11530501]

>>11528524
You could wear band-aids or pasties. It sounds silly for guys,I know, but it helps keep my nip nops from showing or poking someone's eye out.

[Anonymous No.11530515]

>violent past
>severe depression+insomnia+possibly ptsd and ocd
>anger issues and hate for people
>got a girlfriend and trying everyday to keep her at the best but the douche inside me keeps hurting her and then end up being really sad because i love her

[Anonymous No.11530516]

>>11525657
i had this very weird "relationship" with a girl quite recently.
we met at a new years eve party where we talked for the entire evening and it kinda seemed like a meant to be thing. We went to the same highschool and had a lot of mutual friends, so I also met her at another party later, where I kissed her, but the night had to end early because I got way to drunk and became a self-destructive mess.
Now I was pretty sure that we had something going on at this point. And then a few weeks later, she invites me to her place to watch a movie.
NOW during the ENTIRE movie, she just talks about all the hot guys at our school and all the other hot guys she'd would like to fuck. I just assume that she's a bit skanky, and that's kinda whatever, but when I put my arm over her shoulder, she begins complaining about how she hates cuddling and asks if we can sleep with separate blankets.
So I sleep in her bed without even getting the succ or anything, and after that we don't really talk for like one or two months or so. But then one evening we're sitting at a bar with our mutual friends, and she asks me if i want to sleep at her place. I'm pretty drunk so I just go along with it, and then the entire thing from the last time repeats. Except this time she also talks about all the hot girls she'd like to bang (becuase apparently she's bisexual now), and also talks about how she almost had sex with one of my close friends before I knew her.
I'm tired of the bullshit so I just ask her if we have something going on or nah, then she starts telling me how she never thought we had anything. She sees herself as "one of the boys", and just thought we were great friends (I almost never talked to her except at parties). She also tells me that she's a virgin (which is actually true wtf)
After this happened I just stopped talking to her. I mean she was flirting with me over the course of like 4 months, so either she's lying about her feelings or shes just retarded

[Anonymous No.11530523]

>>11530516
moral of the story: If a girl starts talking about other guys she'd like to fuck she's probably really into you, but it's gonna be a fucking struggle to get a proper relationship with her and it's probably not worth it unless you're really in love with her

[Anonymous No.11530596]

>>11527923
>>21
>>ended up choosing economics by pressure
>>what i really wanted to do was fashion design
>>will never fulfill my dreams of becoming a fashion designer

are you me as well?
I changed from fashion design to economics because it seems like a viable degree. Although I'm having seconds thoughts about that decision. I decided to start working on side projects with my spare time as a hobby and find a job that ties fashion and Economics for the future.

Phew, needed that off my chest.

[Anonymous No.11530635]

>>11530213
true

[Anonymous No.11530659]

>look reasonably well
>get complimented when i put on makeup and dress nice
>barely ever get out of the house

I have all these clothes and this makeup that I barely ever use. I know there's nothing wrong with me I just lack the drive to drive to engage socially. I wouldn't say I'm depressed, just apathetic. I don't even know when I became like this, because I wasn't like this a few years ago.

[Anonymous No.11530748]

>>11530382
Don't use this method, you'll just end up in the ER. Heroin or Fentanul mixed with benzos and alcohol will do the trick, though I doubt it will be pleasant. Make sure no one can find you either, or you'll end up a braindead veggie.

[Anonymous No.11530878]

>>11529861
same minus the friends :(

[Anonymous No.11531025]

>>11529861
nigga are you me?
>In small group consisting of my best friend, two girls, and me

Sometimes I think that I'm a bother to hang with and that even my only friends do not enjoy my company. Whenever we hang I feel just sorta there while the other three act like the biggest friends ever.

[Anonymous No.11531065]

>tfw you find out your friends have a groupchat where they talk shit about you

i mean, i talk shit about people too, just not my friends

[Anonymous No.11531069]

> be depressed
> drink daily, 15+ drinks
> get some benzos to try and quit
> now im just addicted to both

i want off this ride

[Anonymous No.11531141]

>>11527774
Holy shit this is me.
I go out with my friends that live in a different once a week and thats the only time i leave my house besides longboarding to get food.

[Anonymous No.11531164]

My life is a meme.

And the worst thing is. Your life is too.

[Anonymous No.11531172]

>>11531164
what the fuck?

[Anonymous No.11531173]

>>11527905
shit you sound like my sister

[Anonymous No.11531200]

>>11531172
It makes sense if you think about it for a longer period of time.

[Anonymous No.11531208]

>>11531200
Also I told my father that my life is a joke and he told me "like everyone's else" and it turned my life around… a bit. I still feel like a worthless cunt and I want to kill myself but I know now that I'm a worthless cunt.

[Anonymous No.11531216]

>>11531208
Just help me kill myself, this shit's going on for far too long.

[Anonymous No.11531258]

>>11531216
nah mang, how can it be going on for too long when you dont know where the end is. Life is a game anon, you can either roll the dice and hope your fellow hood niggas dont roll you or you can walk away and be a bitch. Your depression isnt ever going to go away but it will get easier to live with, and then whos to say your not stronger then all those normies who have never had to go through the process of suffering and recovering?

[Anonymous No.11531263]

>>11527923
You can just work with an econ degree and go back later.

[Anonymous No.11531271]

Im almost 22 and a kissless virgin who never had a gf and no friends

I dunno why but I feel like I've been so alone for so long that any other alternative is scary and unnatural to me

Im afraid I will forever be like this and I really dont want to

[Anonymous No.11531274]

>>11524682
try being 5'7

people will always think of you as a kid no matter what

women will always treat you differently and will not find you as desirable

you can never do anything about it

[Anonymous No.11531281]

>>11524882
maybe this is a self image issue or a body weight problem

do you workout?

[Anonymous No.11531295]

>>11531258
Here's a post that might explain you my situation. U wrote it ofc. I still have to add some things. Like I've been watching my mother die of alcoholism (she died 4 years ago). My family fell apart. I'm still a virgin. I'm in a shity situation between my father and he's girlfriend (bitch). Also i'm a manlet 170cm (I don't want to convert it right now, I'm writing it drunk on my phone), and I've got uneven teeth (get the London look)

[Anonymous No.11531298]

>>11531295
I meant this: >>11530013

[Anonymous No.11531299]

>>11528940
fix your posture, it'll help. You look like pic related

[Anonymous No.11531306]

>>11531295
*I wrote it* REEEEEE

[Anonymous No.11531310]

>>11531271
im sorta in the same boat except i dont think ill mind being a hermit forever and i dont think that that is a good thing. im not ugly or anything either, i can get a gf without trying and can socialize just fine. i just cant be around people for very long for some reason

[Anonymous No.11531311]

>>11527764
little sensitive bitch

[Anonymous No.11531320]

>>11531306
>>11531298
>>11531295
>>11531216
>>11531208
>>11531200
>>11531164
>>11530382
>>11530013
Long story short. I'm just a human failure. Please kill me if you can.

[Anonymous No.11531341]

>>11531200
What? Shuttttttttt!!!! UPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what the.... FUck off,,,,

[Anonymous No.11531378]

>>11524658
dude are you me

[Anonymous No.11531507]

>>11528151
we are not your friends

[Anonymous No.11531513]

>>11525657
drop her

[Anonymous No.11531600]

What do you do when your best friend is also your ex
And that she found someone new two weeks after your 3 year relationship?

I've been dating loads because I told myself I need to get over her as quickly as she's gotten over me but it doesn't work. I just don't connect with people as quickly, I've been out of the dating game for awhile so it all feels new to me. I feel like I know what to do but it just feels weird, inside.

[Anonymous No.11531618]

>>11529974
No but a victim to one. She ruined my entire last year. Since then I vowed to steer clear of bipolar people forever. I can't sympathize.

[Anonymous No.11531622]

>>11531618
Sorry senpai, I read borderline. Love.

[Anonymous No.11531628]

>>11531274
>look up what 5'7 is in cm
>170
>1
>7
>0
J U S T

You made me realise how lucky I am as I am.
>tfw my face is still pretty mediocre
W-well.
>>11531378
Quite possibly.

[Anonymous No.11531639]

>>11524649
This entire thread is an awesome read. Time for bed.

[Anonymous No.11531640]

>>11531065
I would never be a part of something like this, get better friends or at least confront them.

[Anonymous No.11531666]

>>11531507
>we
what are you a fucking tribe? racist

[Anonymous No.11531667]

>>11531065
Find new friends desu.

[Anonymous No.11531679]

>>11525657
I SUPPORT YOU

Go find another girl. You're cute, buddy.

[Anonymous No.11531683]

>>11527904
mind blowing

[Anonymous No.11531700]

>>11531640
>>11531667
i feel like i'll slowly just let myself out of their circle and start a new, friendless life in uni

i don't think there's a point in confronting jerks tbqh

danke senpai

[Anonymous No.11531706]

>>11527946
Why should I drop her immediately?

[Anonymous No.11531889]

>>11524658
are you me?

[Anonymous No.11531896]

>>11531889
My nose is rather bulbous at the tip. If not for that, it would be such a solid nose.

[Anonymous No.11531902]

>>11531896
im getting a rhinoplasty, you should get one with me

[Anonymous No.11531909]

>>11531902
Probably, but I bet it costs a top dollar. I did some research and basically all the doctors have to do is remove some fat and yada yada under the tip and it is all fine then.

>tfw can't afford rhinoplasty
fug

[Anonymous No.11531963]

>>11528940
you have a good frame get rigged my dude
powerful chin / jaw too

[Anonymous No.11532182]

>>11531909
im just crossing over to mexico to get it cheap

[Anonymous No.11532280]

>>11527137
exactly.

[Anonymous No.11532312]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4gSh7_P1saM

>today's mood
if you want to max out your depression, watch this anime

[Anonymous No.11532314]

>>11529042
It's sooooo helpful

[Anonymous No.11532406]

>>11532182
Don't mess it up, brother.

[Anonymous No.11532466]

>>11525006
after almost a decade of mental health problems I finally talked to a doctor yesterday. good for you getting help anon

[Anonymous No.11532498]

>>11527912
Na, Sweden
>>11527917
Yeah. Thanks anon
>>11531173
Please don't hesitate to tell your sister you love her, it might be too late one day

[Anonymous No.11532564]

>>11525045
Hey carl

[Anonymous No.11532680]

[Anonymous No.11532707]

>>11527795
gonna laugh in your face for an hour next time you´re around

[Anonymous No.11532711]

>>11527121
jeans, hoodie, a T-shirt. why i´d wanna experiment with fashion when people think anything weird is a bad thing? if my stuff is light green they start connecting that shit to anarchy or left wing immediatly and getting super agressive over it

[Anonymous No.11532717]

>>11527774
Dude are you me?
>wake up early
>nothing to do so I watch a movie
>eat whatever shit I have
>bike to corner store get shit food and iced tea
> eat and drink while watching another movie
> eat lunch usually with senpai but they're always working
> play vidya and read some philosophy bs
> watch sitcoms
> can't sleep cause I feel like I haven't done anything productive so my day isn't over
> stopped going to the gym
> short af but a good looking face I think
> no friends to hang out with all of them travel in summer so can't even look effay

Someone save me

[Anonymous No.11532725]

>>11528940

You're not ugly, but you need more test.

[Anonymous No.11532743]

>be me
>17 (ay police)
>fucking browsing 4chang instead of fucking hoes

[Anonymous No.11532750]

>>11532743
>be 17
FUCK OFF

[Anonymous No.11532762]

>>11525657
This happened to me, about three months ago now. I'm not sure if running away from it is helping or hurting.

She was picturesque: 5'10, around 110lbs, Russian/Lebanese descent, small bust and waist with toned legs and a beautifully sculpted ass. She was pursuing her MBA and every part about our life was almost set in stone.

I would have dreams about our future: pushing the kids in their swings side by side, taking trips away and watching a burning orange sun dip into the horizon on our honeymoon. She used verbena soap; it clung to everything and I used to be able smell it on my shoulder at work. No matter how many times I wash the sheets, it's still faintly there.

She's seeing someone else; he's Asian and he works in some kind of thermo science. He's shorter than me, wears the same Banana Republic gingham shirt in all their photos together, and her smile just radiates with him.

[Anonymous No.11532797]

>>11525657
hey man im going through exactly the same fucking thing and its killing me. think its best if we just both break our things off.

just want you to know you're not alone out there with this pain, and it'll all be okay

love ya bud

[Anonymous No.11532863]

Feel like shit most the time.
Dont have any confidence in reality
No self worth
No self esteem
Look like shit to myself even though I know people find me attractive
0/10 personality thats abusive and hateful towards everything thats not animals or family
I think im overweight but I have no validation on anything

At least im not a manlet at 6'0 but it doesn't matter when all I do is make people feel shit and wind up their emotions

[Anonymous No.11532881]

>>11525701
most definitely my dude, don't lose out on meeting other great people just because she's stringing you along

[Anonymous No.11532883]

>>11531628
don't be a cunt mate

[Anonymous No.11532890]

>>11525031
>tfw got freelance work in advertising
>its good work, a godsend after 5 months unemployment
>was an 8 week contract
>ended three weeks ago, i'm slowly burning through the savings i made from this contract
>realize life as a media freelancer will be a constant struggle to find work filled with uncertainty
>realize life in a more normie job will be giving up on my dream
>realize money will always scare me

we can't win

[Anonymous No.11532918]

>>11525716
you are me, except being short

[Anonymous No.11532929]

>>11526194
this post is beautiful and sad

>>11526199
i'm glad you're here :)

>>11527788
get a volunteer gig at a local charity or something, maybe he'd be ok with that

>>11528431
cool vids thanks friend

sometimes i feel the media moment we're in is enough to compensate for depression/hopelessness. like we get to see the world expand and shift with such detail, from our little poverty sadness holes! but other nights its not enough.

[Anonymous No.11532937]

>>11528460
desu on the outside the academic choice makes sense

the real world has lost touch with itself and the idea of cloistering myself in an ivory tower with enough to survive sounds grand

[Anonymous No.11532983]

>>11524649
>mildly severe childhood trauma
>probably have clinical depression and anxiety
>on medication
>met a guy on the internet
>basically fell in love but we're just friends and I get insanely jealous if he talks to other girls and depressed if he doesn't talk to me
>he's going away in several months to pursue a better career
>happy for him but also sad cos I know we'll stop talking
>basically hate myself
>also just got down to 100lb but wear shit fits
>buying clothes is stressful af and so I come here for inspo but usually think most of em are too...I dunno, hispter-ish for where I live?

[Anonymous No.11533046]

I want to get a rhinoplasty, but I wonder whether my family will notice...
If yes, it will be fucking embarrassing, yet it won't hold me back.

[Anonymous No.11533246]

>>11528106
>(You
being attractive isn't helping me at all with getting a job or making money
which is my biggest problem
its easy to "make friends" but real connections are just as hard as their are for anyone else, and when they do come, they suck, for example, my new girlfriend, who went to the hospital but wont talk to me or acknowledge my existence, even though she's checked out

[Anonymous No.11533317]

>>11528636
real name's elmo but yeah
also teamSETH's an old thing, it's teamSESH now

[Anonymous No.11533509]

really need some advice with this shit

a girl i've been into for a long time and i know for a fact has been into me too blocked me from seeing her stories on snapchat all of a sudden. Weird thing is that last time i met her (like 3 weeks ago) she asked if i noticed her posting stories all the time and was also being flirty. Asked her the day after if she wanted to hang out and she said she wasn't sure if she had time before leaving for another country for a little while.

Is she being hard and trying to get attention from me? we don't really stay that much in contact but everytime we haven't talked for a while she starts it again.

Guess I should just send her a message and ask what her deal is? I don't think i'll be able to move on if i don't. Just thinking of how much fucking time i've wasted thinking about her haven't exactly helped my depression

[Anonymous No.11533724]

>>11528193
>live in a world without emotion
This. The feels are too strong.

[Anonymous No.11533842]

>be 18
>6-7/10 face, 5'7
>kissless virgin
>think about what i want from life and it seems totally out of reach because
>insecure
>anxious
>have no interests or skills
>feel even worse

>suicidal thoughts every day
>got no balls to do it
>parents will be sad
>sometimes i even think about a situation where they die and i can end myself without guilt
>feel even worse

>only things that do feel nice are music, art and drugs
>latter seems pretty fucked up
>feel even worse

i can't even do anything because i'm a lazy whiny cunt