/fa/ - Fashion

I can't stand myself

i suppress all my negative thoughts until my brain cant handle it anymore and i go into a panic attack.

happens like once or twice a month.

Its a struggle but I'd never want to be anyone else <3

it's alright i suppose, got a new job, got an interview for uni, got a gf, ll this is short term though

when i think about how i dont know anyone over is 40+ who is happy with their life then i get sad,

>>9625846
Me too, other than that im pretty happy most of the time

living beats the alternative i guess

>>9625803
life is good! life is great! i think we should celebrate! icky sticky ooey goey

I've been hating myself a lot more lately. It's weird cause it didn't even happen directly after I broke up but kinda with a one month delay. Watching Californication has really made me want to get a girlfriend though.

Springtime is usually the most depressing time of year for me, even though I live like right next to the arctic circle and spring really should be the highlight of anyone's year.

On the bright side I might get a job so yay for me.
//end of blog post

>>9625803
My life is okay

I fluctuate between deeply loathing everyone around me, and deeply loathing myself.

I do have some periods of functioning just fine though, that are often quite long.

Have had psychotherapy in the past, as well as using psychedelics for short term (usually about a few weeks) alleviation of anxiety, as well as a short spell of benzodiazepine addiction

currently clean from illegal drugs, and taking Methylphenidate for my ADHD, which, due to the fact that (simplified science) increases my dopamine levels, makes me more sociable and confident, as well as making me function a lot better in my degree :)

Life sucks. I want to stop living but I don't want to kill myself; if I got in an accident and passed that'd be ideal.

But fashion helps.

>>9625803
I see a future so bright for myself I am contempt with my current trails and tribulations.
>love yo-self fool

>>9625911
I'm miserable and alone, and have little will to return myself to former glory because I hate pretty much everybody in my engineering major and the work takes up all my time.

Just copped a sick jacket though, gonna be copping a spring and summer scent with my next paycheck.

>>9625846
This.

>lost job
>no income
>useless degree
>no gf
>ugly
>depressed

I every time I walk out the front door I hope a car will hit me or something. I can't stand going on.

>>9625846
This happens to me when I go long bouts of time without depression.

I've resolved a few issues with my life, and I'm happy with that. I am slowly improving my life situation, but improvement is improvement. The thing that pisses me off to no end, though, is the amount of time that I have spent in mediocrity. I've basically wasted a couple of years of my life that I'm never going to get back. I've spent age 17 to 22 being a faggoty, self-loathing, /r9k/ type. What a waste. . .

But like I said . . . I'm glad that I've turned myself around. And you know what? I'm actually looking forward to growing up. I can't wait for my 30s, I'm going to rock the shit out of those years.

>>9625803

I love my life. Got a fun job, enough money to be comfortable and pursue my hobbies, and a bunch of close friends.

I'm also about to move into a new loft downtown.

Feelin preddy good.

>>9626406
Similar story here. Wasted my time with video games, dropped out of uni TWICE, no gf, which then leads to depression. Had few suicide attempts, last one I had a gun pointed to my head but somehow I chickened out.

Age 17-25 was shit. At 26 I got my shit straight. I'm slowly climbing up, things get better but the depression is still there. 28 this year and I hope things are getting better.

Met a qt but she already have a bf. :(

>>9626433
>last one I had a gun pointed to my head but somehow I chickened out
Thanks for sharing this, amigo. I've attempted suicide with a gun in my mouth. I was 22 at the time. . . I will spare you the intricate details, but I'm glad that I tried this in front of the mirror.

When I saw my pitiful self in front of the mirror, .357 in mouth, tears streaming down my face I immediately felt disgusted. It was such a pitiful scene. Despite this sense of self-loathing, there was this sudden need to improve my situation. I took a deep look in the mirror and I decided not to take the easiest way out of my shitty life situation.

I guess this was my waking up moment, and in a weird way, attempting suicide was the best thing that I've done for myself (by far).

Whoever you are, wherever you may be, I hope you live a happy and prosperous life. You've been at the bottom, you sure as hell don't need to go back there.

>>9626467
We all gonna make it, anon.

For you guys to be such elitists, you seem to have shitty lives. I'm fat but have a decent job, car,loving family members and a gf. haha.

>>9626955

You can be skinny and be depressed
You can be fat and be depressed
You can have a job and be depressed
You can be unemployed and be depressed
You can have a family and be depressed
You can have a gf and be depressed
You can have no one and be depressed

I tried to OD on 30/300 Tylenol 3 last week but it didn't work. I was in the most pain of my life and have probably done irreparable damage to my liver, yet I'm still here.

>>9626955
u still fat tho faggot


haha.

>>9626990
man that's awful, but why didn't you look up what would happen from an acetaminophen overdose?

it takes like 48 hours to even get close to dying from that shit

>>9625803
I thought today was going to be an okay day, not too much to go wrong. Now I got this to deal with.

I can't stand myself. You know that feeling when you can look back a certain amount of time and be like "Wow, I fucking sucked back then?" Basically,my teen years consisted of that time getting smaller and smaller until now, when I hate myself every hour of every day. I figured that would be the end of it, but now I can feel myself hating who I'll be, what I know I'll turn into. It's weird

>>9627001
I was counting on the codeine in it to do it. I guess I overestimated the strength.

I don't hate myself or my life. I try not to hate anything, it's an unproductive emotion. Dislike, yes, but hate does nothing unless someone can change what they are hating.

I don't necessarily think my situation is ideal. I'm paying myself through community college and in my past 3 semesters I haven't met a single person I would associate with outside of class. I get along with people fine, but everybody seems just a bit dull, without interests besides video games or sports. Maybe I seem dull to them, but I just want an adventure buddy.

I've got one friend, and that's it. I only have a land line and we go riding or hiking or driving once or twice a week. He's my only friend, but I'm not his. I suppose that's fine.

I used to have a girlfriend. We were in an LDR. I know I could do better as far as looks go, but I like her. She said she wasn't in a place for a relationship and fell away a bit. I finally got a bit drunk today and decided to try to talk to her again, as a friend anyways. I don't know if I'd even mind if she was with another guy. I don't know if I should even be looking for a relationship, my sex drive is practically nonexistent.

I'm always finding new music which keeps me happy. I love getting out and going for a ride. I've got some talents and skills. I'm attractive and dress okay. I'm learning how to play the accordion, how to work on cars, and a couple of languages as well. I'm happy. I feel like I'll end up in a situation I'm happy with if I keep on doing what I am. Maybe I'll have an idea of who and what I want to be, and that maybe similar people will be able to find me.

Sometimes I get psychotic. Sometimes I break down crying because my cooking was bad or I left too early for class. I'm not perfectly reasonable. I am optimistic for the future, I'm glad I'm alive, and I'm whatever I can make of myself.

I wrote a lot here. I don't know why. Read it or don't, for some reason I want to say it.

>>9625911
This is me

>>9626467
U shouldve killed urself u drama queen faggot

>>9625803
i hate my life because i'm a fat idiot american, i wake up every day wishing i was dead. why couldn't i have been born in australia?

>>9626955
at least I'm not fat

>ITT: the people who critique your fits

this is why no one should take what's posted on here seriously

Death seems kinda comfy honestly

i would never kill myself because i dont want to hurt my family, but i fantasise about the world ending sometimes.

>>9625803

Is self loathing /fa/?

>>9627202
Me too. I don't want to kill myself, I want the world to end so that everyone else is dead too.

I have a shit job, no friends and I'm unhappy all the time so I've pretty much given up and come to terms with the idea that I'll kill myself in the next few years. I'm 26 tomorrow and the idea of having to keep living for another 26 seems terrible.

>>9625803
i'm happy on the weekdays but not on weekends

>>9625803
I don't hate my life. I don't think I deserve it sometimes.

>>9625803
I'm just apathetic to it

Live tomorrow, die tomorrow, same thing

Why would I be here if I didn't want to kill myself

2pac > big

>>9628323
you're not the real tripskank

>>9626433
>Age 17-25 was shit
Same.

Prime years or not, it's never too late to change.

I fucking hate myself

manlet (5'8)

asymmetrical eyes

receding hairline

make a lot of friends but never get that close with people

never really had a boyfriend/girlfreind

I honestly want to kill myself

>>9627066
I feel you anon

i hate myself

i hate myself physically and mentally

i'm working on it though, i've been wallowing in self pity for the last 5 years and i'm trying to improve, that's why i came here a year ago. it's honestly helped

>>9625855
(◕‿-)

I think I'm depressed or something. I got a job, studying a decent course at uni, a gf, physically fit but lately the only time when I feel really awake is when I'm alone listening to music. I feel mentally and physically exhausted just spending a couple hours at uni. I try to be kind to other people but I only really care about myself.

feel like I forgot how to be friends with someone like maintaining a relationship is constantly an uphill battle. My younger brother is the only actual friend I have and would care if I lost him.

I've been hanging out with this girl whos pretty much my gf and I'm having a good time with her but I don't know how long I can keep up this mask of being a normal guy. She probably wouldn't wanna be with me once she sees just how introverted/antisocial I am.

I think I'm actually like pic related but I don't want to be. Its just that being alone is when I think I'm actually experiencing life, any other time is just waiting to be alone.

I don't myself but I hate how the real me doesn't actually fit into normal society and so I have to fake it

I know I just dumped all this lame shit but it helps to write it out and maybe some people can relate

Perfect body.
Perfect wife.
Baby boy on the way that I can dress in sick baby fits.
Poor AF, living on my shit TA stipend.
In love with another one of the TAs.
All I think about.
Why can't I just be happy anon?

I love life
I love school
I love doing my hobbies and sports
and girls love me
My life is awesome

>>9625803
I feel nothing which is worse than when I was depressed. I have a beautiful girlfriend, great friends and a stable job and yet everything is the same shade of grey. I just want to feel something again

>>9625803
I'm ok with myself
I'm ok with my life considering the circumstances and the fact that I don't live in the shithole I was born in anymore
Things are looking up so far though there's always room for improvement
I live below the poverty limit but it's still an improvement, and one day I hope to be delightfully middle class and not have to worry about money.
Everything else is easy.

>>9628823
i actually feeling like you anon,but no gf and all my friends just search for me when they want something.I dont trust nobody in this planet even my parents.

>>9625803
My lfie is so stupid,i would like to kill my self.I dont trust nobody in this world even my entire family,my friends are bunch of goldiggers.I never dressed any decent fit only jeans and t shirt,i always wish to dress a decent fit but i live in 3th world country where everything its too expensive and its 31º.Kill me i wont live in this place anymore!

Life is in general pretty good for me but every now and then I become obsessed with the idea that I need to do things with my life besides enjoy it, to try to do things no one has done or just make an impact on the world.

Stupid I know but I cant shake the fact that it seems without that all we do in our lives is just fuck around and try to have fun which just seems unfulfilling when I could be doing stuff that matters.

>everyone tells me i am extremely attractive
>i have been picked on by males my entire life for this, so self image issues regardless
>22, college dropout
>semi /fa/ (by high /fa/ standards)
>about to move across the country with my 10/10 GF
>hired on salary to legally produce marijuana at a licensed facility

my insecurity is the only thing that interrupts my life. all the betas flock to my gf and she pays them no attention and puts me so far above them. I feel lucky to be in my position but I know I have to man up and do what I need to do to keep the amazing life that has set itself up for me

>this thread
Jesus Christ, /fa/. Get your shit together

>>9628508
I'm you just good looking, and 6"1.

My life is pretty shitty, at least I am good at some things like drawing, which makes me happy, along with getting flirty with girls. It's really hard for me to build relationships, I'm exclusively at home pretty much always and watching movies or drawing.

It doesn't fucking matter.

This thread doesn't fucking matter.

All you need, all i need, is to get our shit together and start producing money.

>>9626955
All of that means literally nothing. I have a family where everyone cares about each other, I have two cars, I'm getting a free ride through college, and I have a gf. And yet every day I want to kill myself

>>9627066

not your blog faggot

>>9630180
Why?

I'm kinda at the point where I've stopped giving a fuck
I drive really recklessly, sometimes think about swerving into oncoming traffic
Drink daily and generally suck at relationships/friendships
Only have a couple of motivations that keep me going, if they fail I'll probably pack it in

I'm just lethargic. My head is always in the clouds and I never really feel awake. I'm a 5'9 manlet with bad skin and I won't be able to pay rent next month. I'm using the rest of my savings on strip clubs, booze and hookers which is fun. I've never had a gf and I don't have friends. My /ic/ skills make me feel somewhat good. I like thinking about making a clothing line and becoming a famous artist as comfort. I don't mind my shitty situation though.

Life is boring, I'm neutral.

I hate myself.

>>9628823

First, you might indeed have clinical depression and should look into getting medication. Trust me on this, I have depression myself and when you feel mentally and physically exhausted when you haven't really done much of anything is a sign of depression caused by chemical imbalance, medication can fix this.

Second, if the girl you're seeing doesn't like the "real" you then she's not worth keeping around. Find someone who likes you when you can be yourself.

>>9627132
this guy gets it.

>>9625803
>20 years old
>in college for a degree I don't want
>no idea what I want to do with my life
>feel like most paths I can choose are ultimately pointless
>don't get enough sleep and spend my days in a caffeine-fueled stupor
>have no friends
>consistently throw myself into spirals of depression by going off on existential tangents
>starting to hate my body
>my music tastes have even been veering off onto stuff that is totally non-melodic and abstract
>my interests are going towards the non-material; have developed an interest in quantum mechanics and anything else that points towards the material world possibly not being all there is
>think about suicide multiple times a day
>something inside me is telling me to keep on living and I'll eventually find my way even though that doesn't seem likely at all
>disgusted with this world and myself in general

>friends that love me
>loving family
>active social life
>told I dress nice
>called cute/hot, hit on occasionally
>hairline isn't receding, nor thinning
>not intense acne
>middle class, suburban
>white
>tall
>constantly hitting up qt's
>great,extensive wardrobe

ya im good

>>9631356
Are you me? I feel the same way but I work out religiously and somehow tie that to my self worth, so if I'm not reading outside or trying to better myself by doing some kind of pullup/push up routine I feel as if I'm wasting my life and not accomplishing anything. It'll get better though dude, somehow

Isn't this a fashion thread...

>>9625803
happy.. sad... i dont know.. neither

im bored right now and i have a feeling of dread in my stomach right but i dont know why. that wont be there tomorrow though

>>9627125
hehhe,, of course not

>18
>pretty high iq
>hate school for my countrys shitty educational system
>pretty handsome 70% white 30% asian
>middle class
>popular af, girls hit on me
>asexual
>nihilistic as fuck, just wanna die without kms

>>9625803

Not me. I went from negative to positive so it's all good.

And if you don't know, now you know, negro

Bipolar as fuck. I try to make myself feel better by buying tons of shit that I don't need. Some weeks I feel good, others I feel like shit. It always depends.

everything is going downhill /fa/
life used to be quite good

>be 20
>have a stable job at foot locker, quite liked it, made mates and would be going out with them and have fun
>have money for clothes cops and life in general
>quit due to manager vs me conflict
>start going out with this girl i used to work with
>everythings going so fine
>fall in love
>3 months later see her making out with another guy i used to work with too

thats where it goes downhill

>cut contact with her
>cant go back to the store see my mates coz she would be there and awkwardness ensues
>start avoiding the friends from the store
>truly heartbroken for the first time in my life
>2 weeks of being superdepressed
>feel like someone just beat the shit out of my insides
>start going out with my best friend to pick up chicks just so i can forget about her
>we do lots of coke
>i have night stands with some chicks
>one nasty girl gives me hiv paranoia and ive yet to be tested
>my friend starts chatting some shit to me for some reason while were high and we start falling apart
>ive gotten addicted to coke
>feel like my heart is not going to let me live like this any longer
>still too afraid to get tested for stds
>stuck in some other retail job
>work 6 days a week just so i can afford rent and food because the hours i get are crap

>no money
>no more friends
>no only girl i ever felt feelings for
>cry myself to sleep for the first time ever last week listening to fucking siouxsie and the banshees

2015 was supposed to be fucking good /fa/
fuck this shit
i want out

>>9631567

nigga you gotta stop all this unhealthy shit. start eating and sleeping right, exercising regularly and so on. you'll get better. drugs and cheap sex lead nowhere

>>9628823
life is funny you either are used to being with people or your used to being alone you can't have both though.
>Used to be popular of sorts in high school every weekend people would call and have some party or some chicks to hang out with.
>Never called anyone and still had something to do every weekend.
>After High School it all changed slowly untill nobody called and I would stare out the window with an overwhelming feeling like I was missing out on something.
>Felt like this constantly for almost a year.
>Now I feel weird when I'm around people and it shows.
>Totally fine when alone just depressed.
>People have an uncanny ability to get used to anything.
>Having trouble going back to the way I used to be and i'm not sure you can.

>>9631597
im too depressed to leave my bed my man
i only leave to go to work now because otherwise im gonna end up homeless and thats a noose for me
i sleep all the time because i just want time to pass by i dont want to do anything, just want to fucking sleep
its really hard to get out of this, i feel normal when i do coke but then again i get mad arrhythmia the next day and it makes me crazy scared for my life

theres nothing to life when you got nobody to trust
i cant trust fucking anyone and it hurts that i always have to be on some fucking guard just to not get switched on
ridiculous shit aint it

>20 years old
>no job
>live in a tiny shithole in Norway
>self confidence issues
It's been shitty lately but things are looking up. Starting a new job in a couple of weeks, hooked up with some qt I've known for a while in a club yesterday, seeing her again in a couple days, and I'm moving to Oslo in August to go to university so should be good.

I have no life or work experience

I feel like most people aren't going to go give me the time of day when they know I've squandered all of my time doing frivolous shit

This has lead to me having some extreme anxiety and being couped up in my room all day

Sometimes I just sit and stare at the wall for an hour overwhelmed with feelings of dread and just wanting to end it all

>>9629312
Are you me? I feel this all the time. I actually believe i will make an impact in this world in some area/field.

>>9631320
>Second, if the girl you're seeing doesn't like the "real" you then she's not worth keeping around. Find someone who likes you when you can be yourself.

is it even possible to find a girl who would be ok with having a bf with depression and who was too tired to do anything? Idk just doesn't seem likely, and I can't say I'd blame them either

get your shit together anon. go out and kill yourself doing something challenging. there's no point in waiting for death. if you can bear to read, read something about Alexander.

In my experience the cure for depression and soul crushing pessimism is terribleness, awe-inspiring grandeur.

>>9631852

meant for

>>9631642

26 and in the middle of my doctorate - I guess I'm happy but there is a lot I want to change:

- Get big, I'm 6'1'' - tall and skinny, I'd get noticed more if I had bigger arms and chest - but it seems like a shitload of work for little gain.

- Attract a qt girlfriend. My last one was nice, but we had ZERO things in common, glad we broke up tbh

- Get good at something, like all these different things, jack of all trades, master of none springs into mind.

Above all, it's ok, a light 7 out of 10, good friends and some social interaction. Complete opposite since last year.


Just FYI, if you're in uni - go see a counsellor, they're free and may clear some stuff for you.

Cool and uncool, at the same damn time

>>9631852
i dont wanna kill myself tho
i dont want to live either
i just want to live a happy fucking life which i havent been able to for the last 21 years of my life
i may be sounding like a whiny bitch but i dont even care anymore
im the loneliest man on the planet

>>9631852
There is nothing challenging left to do in the post modern world, why do you think we're all here posting dank memes out of habit

My life would be better if I was white and not Asian...
>ask a 9/10 qt out
>get denied outright
>"I'm sorry, anon, but as a white girl I would never date an Asian guy. I just find Asian guys like you unattractive and I can do much better than that. I hope you find somebody, though."

The thing is, we had a great dynamic from the start. If only I was white...

>>9631936
>there is nothing challenging left to do in the post modern world
Please tell me you're kidding! You're joking, right!? Believing this kind of bullshit is toxic, it's straight up self foreclosure.

>>9631942

Nah dude, hate to say it but I think it stems from self confidence. She might also have a preference which is true, and maybe doing you a favour for not dicking you around. Move on man, you can't be hung up on one girl.

I'm pretty depressed. I think I'm older than most of the people on this board (I'm 25).

I have a shit job and live with my parents in a dumpy little town. I want to move out to the city, but it's harder than it sounds. It seems more affordable to stay at home and pay off my student loans.

My love life is in complete shambles. The only woman I've ever been able to see myself being with for the long term told me last week (right after we had sex) that she likes me as "a person" but not "romantically." It was a pretty hard pill to swallow. I want to be able to get over her, but there's not a lot of attractive women where I live. The smart ones all move away after high school and never come back because they know this area is total shit. At least I'm good looking and in shape, but that's really all I have going for me at the moment.

hold me /fa/ ;_;

>>9631961
i disagree as a girl, asian guys are unattractive and undateable and we white girls can do much better than that

>>9631978
Oh do fuck off.

>>9631983
I am also a white girl and I just want to say that Asian guys aren't ever the first option when it comes to dating. I just find other kinds of guys attractive and more dateable. I just cannot see myself with an Asian guy, in fact, I don't want to be seen with an Asian guy. This is just my opinion, do with it as you will.

>>9631946
he is right tho

stop drinking the flouridated koolaid

NEET loser with disgusting body, fat gf and I hate all of my "friends"

and I'm only 18. yeah I hate my life

>>9625803
I'm in the college bubble, I got my scholarship and I can spend because my parents support and love me, life is good... For now

>>9631995
Alrighty, then. Would you date an Asian guy, if you were a girl?

>>9625803
I use fashion to materialize my life and make it feel worth living

>>9626403
What's your degree?

>>9632000
aka you're a rich spoiled pampered twat who can't do shit for himself and isn't ready for the real world or to be a grown adult

>>9631990
Fair enough, attraction to physical aspects is important but you can't write off an entire race because of that. I used to think the same about black women and my tastes have changed, same about Asian girls - I have come across some truly cute women, and smart/funny/not completely unwesternised, etc...

Saying you don't want to be seen with a Asian guy speaks volumes about you as a person and the environment you grew up in.

>>9632000
enjoy it while you can. as much as i sometimes felt sad during college I now realize that it was the best time of my life. the post-graduation years are absolutely awful unless you can secure a good job

>>9632013
Thank you for not completely flaming my post. I wasn't, however, trying to be controversial if that is what you think. Don't you think people are entitled to their own opinions? Is it wrong for me to not like Asian guys, let alone date them? I think I, myself, could do much better than Asians. Please don't hate me for that.

>>9632022
i'm a single white male. looking for a bf? live in michigan?

>>9632022
Ok, but your tone of voice kind of implies that Asians are beneath you?... I mean, for instance I had nothing to do with black women, never found them attractive, they just were "there", but I never said, "Oh if I did like one, I'd be ashamed to be seen with her".

You can have your opinion, thats cool - but lets pretend we're sitting at a table and talking like people, you can't disagree in that saying "could do much better than Asians", is a bit harsh.

>>9632013
>I used to think the same about black women and my tastes have changed

some black girls are straight beezys

unfortunately there is a real internet pedestal for them to sit on now thanks to tumblrs cultural marxism

>>9632033
It's not like I'm going to date you just because you're white. What's your name? What's your interests? Tell me more about yourself. Your race isn't your sole defining factor.

>>9632035
If you're accusing me of racism, please stop. Like I said already, I'm *not* discriminating against Asians. I actually like seeing diversity in my community and university, and the Asian population is very welcome. I just don't want Asian guys in my dating life, I can do much better than that. That's all.

>>9632036
I don't understand anything from your post mate.

There is a cultural divide with black girls, and they probably would treat me like the girl who doesn't like asians. Honestly, if I found a girl that ticked all the right boxes in my book, and happened to be black, then fuck yeah I'd date her.
It would even be a bit exciting as it'd piss my parents off and turn some heads, but that makes me look like an edgy fag.

>>9632055
>actually trying to date someone through 4chan

I hope you're just speaking rhetorically

I hate myself and my life but it could be a lot worse and if I had the choice to be someone else I'd probably say no thanks because it's likely I'd end up worse off.

>>9632070
Of course I'm speaking rhetorically, silly! :(

I have a really well paying job for a 23 year old, not wallstreet awesome but pretty damn good. Live at home.

I am currently full blown addicted to oxy and battling it.

I make 5-6 thousand a month and I have actually spent some of my savings to keep my habit, which also includes buying at least 2k worth of clothes a month.

I am utterly depressed, i fucking hate myself and my life. I have a gateway to success yet i am desperately trying to cling on while I watch my life fall apart in front of me. I have been doing oxy for 4 years now, and its obviously the problem, but I can't shake it.

killing myself seems easier

>>9632055
> I'm *not* discriminating against Asians.

Thats exactly what you're doing love!

discriminate
dJˈskrJmJneJt/
verb
1.
recognize a distinction; differentiate.
2.
make an unjust or prejudicial distinction in the treatment of different categories of people, especially on the grounds of race, sex, or age.

We all discriminate, everyone of us - but in the US it's viewed as a dirty word because it's associated with racism which is social suicide if you give into that sort of thing. If we're going to be brutally honest, I'd say I want nothing to do with fatties, people with shit tattoos or people of Roma (gypsy) decent - I wouldn't say it out a loud, but yeah, we all do it.

So you might never date an Asian guy, but I doubt all white girls are like that.

>>9632083
just use heroin instead, way cheaper and basically the same thing

>>9632075
just sell your anime figures and clean up your appearance

you have time to be a perfectly functional normal human

everyone's teen years are a little awkward if people ask where you've been just make a light hearted joke about it

half of your clothes fit and look good, the other half do not suit you in the slightest

>>9632086
I'm not being discriminatory or racist! I just don't want to date Asian guys. I never will.

You know what, let's drop this. This conversation is just useless.

>>9632055
>I can do much better than that

I know this is a meme and all, but I'm not sure if you're serious

You're acting like being Asian trumps all other factors in someones identity and just makes them inherently inferior

What exactly makes you think that?

I honestly wouldn't really care if you just said something like, 'I don't find asian physical traits attractive' but your wording is pretty damn harsh.

>>9632091
Oh dear, sorry to have upset you.

What are you doing in this thread, besides this conversation, anyway?

>>9632090
>sieg being kinda nice/helpful
#woah #wow

Yeah I've sold some of my rarest figures these past few weeks and made a profit of about $500. I plan to sell most of them and keep only my favorites. I've spent all the money I've made so far on clothes that I think are pretty nice.

Yeah I know most of my clothes don't look good on me. I bought almost all of them when I still didn't know what I was doing, though I'm still pretty much in that phase.

Thanks for the advice/encouragement m8.

>>9632107
I'm not acting as if Asians are inferior. I'm not a Nazi! Stop acting as if I'm racist! I have Asian friends at my university.

I don't have to explain my dating preferences either.

>>9632111
I'm not talking to you. Go away.

>>9632125

>>9632115
....you never really socialized much as a child did you?

not an insult, real question

>>9632125

You still haven't addressed

>I can do better than that

What if it's a well educated Asian guy with a prestigious career, similar interests and compatible personality. You're still going to dismiss him because he's asian? I just don't understand your choice of words.

>>9632143
Leave her alone mate, she's not talking to me because I uncovered her seething hatred for oriental people.

I'd just walk away quietly knowing she might be sobbing at her computer and flicking through her Asian uni friends and tepidly arranging some meet up to validate her friendship.

>>9632143
I just don't like Asian guys! That's all. Stop putting words in my mouth. ohmygosh

And if I ever met an Asian guy with those traits, I'd probably be good friends with him. I'd never want to date him or have sex with him. I just find Asian guys unattractive.

>>9632138
Yeah not really I was pretty much alone at recess and lunch break or whatever all throughout elementary school and middle school for the most part.

I got into drugs in like 7th grade, that's when I started making friends. I stopped going to school altogether in 8th grade.

I was a recluse until I was about 18. I was thrown in the mental ward around then and now I go to my groups which is about the only socialization I get.

>>9632159
sounds like a story

i think you just spent a lot of time in school alone, graduated, spent the last few years on the internet and working retail at some soap store or some japanese resturant

go try to make friends, not with guys they'll just try to have sex with you no matter how unattractive yo try to look

http://www.reddit.com/r/socialskills/

i bet you don't drink now, easiest thing to do as a teen, pick up social drinking. start carrying condoms when you go out to drink you'll appreciate the fact that you did

get a hair cut

don't over think when with people, bring your energy level down

it's exciting that you finally have friends...but being super happy that someone is hanging out with you for you is not something deemed normal

>>9632138
Sieg: demonstrating that he lacks ability to form an original, intelligent thought since he was able to talk

quit parroting other posters, "dummy"

-ur friend Pigface

>>9632175
> think you just spent a lot of time in school alone, graduated, spent the last few years on the internet and working retail at some soap store or some japanese resturant

what? I just said I stopped going to school in the 8th grade. I never graduated. Also I've never worked a day in my life.

What kind of haircut should I get do you think? I don't really wanna go short since I'm already gay and don't wanna look like a dyke.

>>9632091
Yup, it is just petty semantics. But regardless of that we are all going to agree that you are discriminating against a specific race lol it's fine a lot of people do it! Just never let it leave this anonymous image board or else you will be shunned for being a racist lol

>>9632154

That's fine you can have personal preferences for physical traits

But the language you use just makes it sound as though all Asian guys are below you

And it makes you come off as a stuck up cunt. Just saying.

>>9632159
jfc

How can your parents let you do thst to yourself? Social services should have intervened.

My situation is pretty dire so I shouldn't be talking buuut I want to say that know what utter despair feels like. I was the kid in high school whose ambitions consummed them. I was told that I had "great imagination" from the age of 9. I would frequently be the only person in my classes who would write 20 pages instead of the 3 that were required. I was always suprised to see that the others dudn't make as grandiose and elaborate contributions as me, I thought everyone was as driven as I. But at the same time, I was arrogant abd deeply troubled. I pushed away anyone who tried to get close, out of fear that my emitional turmoil would be toi much if a burden for them. And bow, after all these years...that flame inside me seems have grown dimmer....the torturous soul I have come to posses has made me crash and burn countless times. Yet I keep getting up, eager for more. How can anyone live like this?

>>9632197
Lol He has extremely poor reading comprehension. Don't pay any attention to him.

>>9632253
>>9632259
it's a troll

and it's a story, there are half truths behind it bit not all of it is truth

don't take shit for face value

no friends is real, but the drug use and 8th grade dropout shit is nonsense

>>9632107
if the girl doesnt want to fuck a chink she doesnt have to you pathetic fucking faggot.

look at this liberal pinko faggot, hard pill to swallow when you realise that whitey doesnt want to fuck you isnt it gook?

i hope shes still here, i hope she understands that she is perfectly within her rights to shut down inferior races any time she likes

>>9632264
oh. dunno what's so hard to believe. It's the truth but I guess there's no convincing you of that. not that it matters.

I had really bad social anxiety and was traumatized by a bad trip along with withdrawal from another substance which altogether just made me a mess that didn't want to go to school. I gradually started going less and less over a few weeks until I stopped going altogether. that's all there is to it. and yes, this was in the 8th grade.

>>9625803
I love myself. Loving myself is holding me back from achieving things by taking responsibility for my actions. I should be hating my life but I love myself too much to hate my life. I am so narcissistic.

>>9632278
fucking chinks make me sick, no wonder its so easy for a gaijin to go and fuck every jap girl in tokyo, the men are pathetic manlets.

what happened to the proud japanese male?

>>9625803
19, college for physics degree
dunno what i actually want to do, im garbage at math even though i find it interesting and like talking and thinking about math and physics qualitatively

i want to create something but im not good at art
gonna try and pick up sewing soon

>>9626403
It's ok, just think about this picture every time you're feeling down.

I am filth and my life is mundane but I have a lot more than some people I guess

Can't say I'm happy though bc my default emotion is mildly depressed

>>9632291
>thinking dumb blonde women are worth anything
l@l

>>9625803
>>9626403
>>9632115
>>9626027

>all of a sudden /fa/ becomes /r9k/.
>all of 4chan is /r9k/

>>9632299
I wasn't implying dumb blonde women were worth anything.
>I was trying to make the anon feel jealous and alone

Dumb people aren't worth anything tbh.

>>9632287
>using a korean teen as an example

he'sgoingallout.avi

>>9632159
Group sounds like it could be helpful as long as you stick with it. I know it can be hard but I think you can do it! :)

I did one session of dbt and at first I think I was a bit resistant but later on I really started to look forward to it/see how it helped. I still see my individual therapist but I'm going to start another group session in the fall. hopefully i master it this time.

it might not seem like it but you're lucky you're getting help so young. a lot of the women in my group were already divorced, over 30 and had wasted most of their adulthood with drugs, prostitution, and ruined a lot of important relationships. you're taking a huge step right now, and even if you experience setbacks, I think you're still on a good path <3

>>9632175
it's not that simple. people with bpd learn social skills in a kind of different way; they've learned really well what society (or a specific chunk of it) wants from them and play that version of themselves for a long time. the main problem is that on the inside, they're hollow and have difficulty knowing who they are, because they try really hard to be what society expects. interests and hobbies and goals change in an instant, usually when the bp gets a new partner or simply wants approval from a new set. it's not irreversible but it requires that the person builds confidence and a stable self of sense by setting achievable, fulfilling goals, having meaningful values in order to create a life worth living.

>>9632301
everyone on this entire website is miserable

>>9632308
i agree wholeheartedly my man
however,
if a person is dumb but willing even to just try and learn i have more respect for them than an established smart person

When I was lonely I hated my life but always had one singular hope, in the form of an eventual girlfriend and companionship.
Now I get laid every weekend and have realized that it doesn't give me any happiness, neither will a relationship because I get bored of the girls I meet all too quickly and I'd never see them again if I didn't want sex. I don't really care for any of the people around me, I just need them in order to have people to drink with.
I think I have plateaued, I don't think I'll ever feel satisfied with life.

>>9632329
this is so fucking sad

>21
>good looking
>not poor
>living at university so always surrounded by people
>dress decent, sometimes people talk about my clothes either to me or behind my back within earshot
>girls smile to me
>no real friends though, none that I hang out with after class
>have gf but she lives back home and she's a wreck, feel like she'd kill herself if i broke up with her, I'm not attracted to her anymore
>always worried about flaws in my hair, body, etc.
>have to check mirrors every 10 minutes to see if I look okay even when I'm alone
>never have fun anymore
>video games don't bring me fun
>music doesn't bring me fun
>the only time I have fun is when I buy clothes
>it's been this way for three months
>not sure if this is depression or not

I think I'm going to have to join a frat next semester. I don't want all the bullshit but it's probably the only thing which would keep me socially active.

>>9632329
this is /fa/ as fuck

>>9632253
>tfw white chick
>tfw korean guy who is sensitive and gorgeous is interested in me but I don't speak korean


welp

also koreans >>>>aguri whiteys

>>9632353
look at this derp, g uys!!!

>>9632022
>>9632055
>>9632125
You really are a basic sheltered white girl.

>b-b-but I have asian friends, I'm not racist

fucking LOL. Are you really this dumb?

Very happy w/ myself, but I'm not /fa/ at all
Maybe as I get more into fashion, I will become more miserable :)

That's all part of the fun tho!!

>>9632377
fuck off asian

>>9632334
hey man, I'm kinda in a similar situation (minus the gf) so, I guess I know that feel
I don't have any crazy advice but, I think it will get better, just get out there and stop caring about people

>>9625803
Used to but less now. I was trying to please my family which is super religious and southern while living my life which is about the opposite but, I'm trying to find a more comfy middle ground so I can have some peace and stop lying to everyone. I'm still not nearly there yet. I have a few friends but I keep them at a distance. I flirt with my coworkers but never pursue anything. I wanted to quit school and live however I could get by until my parents told me they think quitting school for a few semesters might be beneficial and now I have more drive than ever. I think about 50% of my personality is contrarianism and spite but I keep it mostly supressed. I dress how I like which is probably somewhat effay but also normal enough to get me compliments about daily, but I've grown to resent that. And I hate being so poor but I've got big plans. I think my biggest obstacle right now is being just different minded enough from my closest family and friends to butt heads a lot but just as hard headed, in addition with wanting to work in the fashion industry in the middle of a sartorial wasteland. And I don't want to come off as disdainful for my friends and family. I love them to death but we're just not on the same page. All in all, I really want to please everyone and be successful first and foremost, yet something makes me want to do the opposite any chance I get.

>>9631808
>>9629312
me three.
hello brothers.

>>9625803
Well I just pop a bunch of Adderall and Vyvanse and pretend to be really funny and energetic around people but when the pills wear off all I can think about is how much I really hate myself, people in general and that I don't really feel anything positive or negative except for the feeling of being on amphetamines. I kind of like it though, I feel like a robot.

>>9632314
Well, those who try to do good should be respected.

>>9632313
Yes. Tbh /ck/ and /toy/ always seems to be happy though. Everyone on /toy/ seems to have a job that gives them enough autismo bux for their hobby, and they often talk about their wives.

>>9632389
Calm your hormones.

>>9631320
I've been looking into talking to someone about it, but I've also heard so many stories about medication fucking people up even worse from when they originally started. Do I need to be on this medication for the rest of my life or something?

And you're right about the girl too. Its not that I'm not myself around her, its more that right now every time we see eachother we're doing something interesting like drive-in movies or sightseeing. I'm scared she'll get bored of me when I want to take a break from that stuff. It doesn't help that our main form of communication is texting and I'm constantly second guessing if I'm being funny or annoying.

I'm also worried that I portrayed myself as a guy who has his shit together when I don't really. LIke >>9631820 said I wouldn't blame someone if they didn't want to deal with a partner with depression.

I loved my life was going awesome until i was recently diagnosed with stage 3 kidney cancer :/

>>9632508
>/ck/
One side seems to be happily married with great knives and plump wives, well-seasoned cast iron, and expensive cuts of meat. The other is perpetually broke, depressed, and can't figure out how to cook rice, glorifying cheap fast food and Asian foods they've only read about.

used to be a pretentious loser who obsessed about stupid useless shit as expensive clothes. This winter I started a internet business that's going very well (I quit my job) and worked on being more positive and less pretentious and unlikeable, I'm happier now

>>9632547
Do you frequent /ck/?
I like going on there occasionally, but I don't cook enough to make it worthwhile.

>>9632389
I'm not asian. Nice try idiot.

>>9632561
Yeah, but I don't post often

i think i'm pretty fuckin cool tbh
i wish i had more friends and more money but other than that i'm pretty happy with who i am and where i'm going

and i was severely depressed until about a year ago (suicide attempts, hospitalizations, etc)

reminder to you sad guys that things change
it's not easy but it's worth it

>>9628823
...are you me?

>>9632312
tripsk confirmed for borderline batshit crazy. is it weird to find this hot?

i hate my life right now. first time in my 22 years i've seriously considered killing myself. and i've always been against the thought. i've hit rock bottom

>>9630190
its funny because /fa/ is one of the boards that allows and condones blogging

>>9632545
if you're being serious (can't be sure because of trip) i wanna hug u man

>>9632159
so... where does all your money come from

I'm glad most of you are depressed.
This board is the biggest source of buttmad out of every one, (excluding /r9k/).

>>9632083
lmao my bank account is at $8.23 i'm unemployed, i barely go out, im good looking, i've lost pretty much all my friends and i live with my mom. if i get $20 i spend $15 in alcohol and "save" the other $5. what the fuck do you want there's so much you could be doing
watch this www . imdb . com/title/tt1859621/?ref_=fn_al_tt_1 and get some fucking purpose.
give me all ur money before u kill urself my man. or at least be my friend or something

>>9632613
selling anime/video game character pvc figures.

>>9632654
who bought them for you in the first place?

>>9632666
I had an allowance of $300/month for a few months when I was 16ish.

>"very" attractive white male
>High income and stable job for age
>Live downtown in a top 10 world class city
>No debt

But yeah OP, I'm long term medicated depressed as fuck and all around I'm an ungrateful piece of trash. I'm not outwardly acting this way, but I'm complacent and stagnant. A lukewarm human being.

I don't deserve the life I was given and haven't figured out why I was given the tools for success like I was. I feel like somebody else could do more with my status.

>Always been able to get away with blatant disregard of social norms and tend to do so whenever I can.
>People talk about me when I'm not present, always either confusion or praise.
>Women hit on me.
>High grades in uni.
>16 other housemates, appreciate or befriended all of them.
>Loving family on the other side of the country.
>Good at meeting new people.

Yet I don't feel stimulated anymore.

>Fallen in love with a girl.
>She's the only girl that'll ever make blue hair appear natural.
>She's raised the bar on me ever loving someone.
>We've climbed a church together.
>We mess with people on the street together.
>Smuggle wine with us to restaurants, just to see if we can.
>We've done ecstasy together.
>We've kissed, but never made out.
>We've spooned.
>Tell her I love her, tell her she's the most interesting person I've ever met.
She does not love me in the same way, I'm her best friend and she's mine.

>Has one night stands and makes out with guys at clubs.
>Made out with a cab driver last week.
Yet a fucking cabbie is good enough.

I want to end it between me and her, but I'll lose the most interesting person I'v met until now.

>>9632683
it tastes better when you savor it

>>9632654

her parents give her money. plain and simple

shes a basement dwelling mooch, "got into drugs" o so edgy

koishis a huge bitch. im sure shes this bitter irl too. she doesnt have friends because she isnt a likeable person

>>9632668
How old are you now?

>>9632683
Find somebody else, mate. You won't have her, so don't dwell on it. Feelings of unrequited love hurt like hell. It is the kind of pain you don't want for so long. It will burn you out. The only way to get rid of this pain is by finding somebody to reciprocate that love. Don't pine over her anymore.

>18 year old
> great SAT and ACT scores and pretty good grades
>no fucking clue what i want to do with my life
>attractive face, but in the effeminate boy looking way
>5'9 with fucked up body. too thin. very insecure
>my best friends are all going through real shit and I piss most of my time away on /mu/ rather than helping them
>met a qt but so fucking beta around her it hurts
>fantasize about going to war or something so that i can be the man my dad wishes i was

ok i guess

>>9631820

Well yes an no. It's hard to keep a girl around if you're depressed all the time and don't ever want to do anything. But if you're actually taking steps to fix it and you're trying to make improvements in your life the girl should understand and stick by your side if she's worth it, if not then don't waste your time with somebody who isn't going to support you trying to support yourself and get better.

>>9632683
jesus christ just reading that makes my heart ache. get the fuck out of that relationship as soon as you can. it's only gonna become worse you fucking faggot

>>9632708
19.

>>9632702
you sure dont sound bitter

>>9632719
I'll cry for you

>>9632683
You know, it's times like these when you have to go James Bond on the woman. Just watch James Bond and you'll know.

tl;dr: Make a fucking move.

Where did the white girl go? I wanted to congratulate her for sticking to her opinions despite the SJW criticism.

>>9632742
I know, I know. I've got it pretty ok all things considered. just wished i could fully take advantage of all the opportunity around me. sorry

>>9632055

>I can do better than that

So you're too good for Asians is what you're saying? And you're not racist?

You aren't too good for shit, from all of your posts in this thread you are obviously a basic white bitch who has absolutely nothing to offer a partner. You just want a rich white man to take care of you and make you feel special. You should consider killing yourself to eliminate your pathetic ways of thinking from the gene pool.

I'm not even Asian, I'm a white American male but your sense of superiority is baseless.

>>9632683

You need to be honest with her about your feelings and tell her what you really think about her and want from, and either move forward with her or stop having those feelings for someone who doesn't feel the same.

>>9632750
I think you fell for the white-girl-not-dating-Asian-guys copypasta. It always gets angry replies.

My brain is really good at convincing me that I have a lot of good things going for me some days and making me feel entirely worthless and alone on others, so I'm not even sure. I feel like my life is in limbo which is nauseating.

I stuck two AA Energizer batteries up my asshole this morning out of sheer boredom. All puns aside, it really did energize me.

>>9632734
Live in the us?

>>9632748
When did not being a prick become "SJW?"

>>9632610
Idk why my trip makes you wonder if I'm serious but i am lol, its spread to my bones and lymph nodes, only thing i can do is continue working out, eat healthy and hope for the best.

>>9632544

Do some heavy research on the different types of medication before you even go to a doctor. Look at the different subgroups of antidepressants and anti anxiety medications and how they work. Antidepressants have been very successful for many people, and there are some that are better than others, but a doctor will have to help you pinpoint that. I've been prescribed Wellbutrin, it's good for a young guy like me because it has the lowest possibility of causing sexual side effects like some SSRis can. On the other hand though it does raise my anxiety a bit. I should also suggest never taking Paxil, I've only heard bad things about it. Again, just do alot of research and if you find a good psychiatrist they should be able to find something that will work for you.

>>9632798
Not that person, but I hope you pull through. Sending some good vibes your way.

Everyone in this thread : kill yourselves you fucking faggots

>>9632862
We're not sure yet, give us some time.

Except the kidney cancer guy , you'll die eventually

>>9632867
too soon :/

After careering out of control for the last few years I've plunged into a seething ocean of self loathing and despair. I feel completely alone in the stygian depths, with each cry for help I am running out of breath.

you guys need to realize that there's only one you.
even tho you're part of a big number there's only one you,your view in the world is unique belive it or not.
learn how to live with yourselves
learn your place in life
be urself
work on yourself from there dont try to be nobody else

>>9632159
>I was thrown in the mental ward
i never would have guessed.

>>9632992
>actually try to help the losers of this board

>just makes it worse

i think this place is beyond saving

>>9625803
>pretty good looking, very 'pretty' face for a dude
>people i've gotten to know sometimes tell me they were scared to talk to me because i looked too cool
>3rd year in uni majoring in something i have no interest in
>shitty GPA, 2.6
>got back from a semester in paris, met great people i still keep in touch with
>take art classes on the side to stay sane while getting a practical degree, it's working out very well
>recently got a job at an art gallery, boss is super great and supportive
>spending a week with him at an art fair next month so i'll get to know him better, his wife is a creative director at a huge fashion company so i'm hoping he'll talk to her and hook me up with a job
>randomly got asked to model for a small local brand while grabbing coffee, dude is really nice and knowledgeable about fashion
>feels great talking to other creatives, meeting tons of new people and getting free clothes
>went to a rooftop bar party with new friends for a magazine launch, magazine director is looking for 'new talent' and asked me to send in my work
>she dug it and is including some of my work in the upcoming issue

i was at a point where i had barely any friends at my uni and would stay in all fucking day browsing rakuten, forums, and playing games. i worked my ass off to get to this point and i feel very content and proud of myself.

>>9633081
>worked my ass off to get to this point

Yeah no, I'm going to say you did not work your ass off. Nigga shit was basically handed out for you

>>9633007
Yeah

>>9633081
>>9633084
Can only agree. You're a very lucky person. Make sure you have a contingency plan - your luck may run out.

>>9633312
want to fuck?

that's 21 year old sieg, want to fuck 21 year old sieg?

clonazepam really helps.
dressing in all black, or in normcore feels protective
not interested in any job
dont like anything
cant do any hobby or study for more than a few months at a time
no gf ever
went from a pint of whisky down to 2 shots, life is just worse now.
trying to embrace the feels while I wait for death

>>9632281

what kind of twisted up parents let their daughter just get fat and rot in their basement for five years

>>9633328
>basement
who said anything about a basement? I live in my room on the second floor.

tfw 4am (^:

>>9632264
seconded on the edgy "i did drugs" *flips hair* shit.

Maybe Koishi is actually mentally retarded to a much further extent than she lets off, and is literally not capable of functioning outside of the internet. (explains her parents letting her just stay home as post above pointed out).

Or maybe shes just trying to make an emotional appeal so people will stop posting her fat face all the time, but I mean this thread just makes me dislike her more overall.

Koishi seek some actual help if you have problems. Step away from the computer. Step even further away from 4chan.

>>9633328
everything koishi says is a lie

stop beliving shit at face fucking value

---------------

The school leaving age is the minimum age a person is legally allowed to leave compulsory secondary education. Most countries have their school leaving age set the same as their minimum full-time employment age, thus allowing smooth transition from education into employment, whilst a few have it set just below the age at which a person is allowed to be employed.

-----------

school leaving age in Vancouver is 18

>>9633346
well I was officially enrolled in an online course until grade 10 if that makes a difference though I never touched it.

>>9633349
illegal

>>9633346

how retarded does she have to be to lie about dropping out of school

why is that something anyone would even lie about

S E E K H E L P K O I S H I

>>9633351
hmm I dunno man nobody ever came knocking at the door. I don't know why you're so obsessed with proving me wrong but ehh you've made it apparent you have no life on multiple occasions in the past so it's not really surprising.

>18
>about to finish high school
>No job, doubt my employ-ability
>3 friends, no idea how to make more
>They only spend time with me at school, doubt i will see them after i leave
>Too much of a pussy to kill myself, just wrap a belt around my neck and choke myself for a while
>Automatically disagree with everything I hear
>Fat, acne, ugly, not funny, shitty personality, quiet, weak, submissive, can slip into a retard slur when speaking
>At least my psychologist says im a good person :D

>>9633353
wants attention/pity

canada, especially the area he is in is nanny state as fuck, all sorts of shit to get firearms/ammo, hard to drop out

but drugs/alc = easy to acquire

a canadian with absolutely no fucking future is forcibly (by state) in a better position than an american

basically america = no saftey net
you fuck up, you're fucked

canada = you get health, dental, and living all sorted out for you + schooling

>>9633323
I saw it yesterday and laughed
When I read your shittalking about other races , and how superior you , I expected a good looking white guy , blonde hair and blue eyes
Not a fuckkng paki shitskin with ugly goatee , you look like a mix of turkish and paki and still shit talking like you're aryan ? Rofl
>sieg heil
If hitler was back , you'd be in the Auschwitz , you realize that you shitskin paki ?
How hypocrite a person can be
>if i believe im white maybe ill become white one day
You're literally a joke

>>9633353
I'm not though I don't care much if you believe me or not. I only mentioned it because sieg asked me a question.

You really shouldn't bother reading sieg's posts or taking anything he says seriously. He's definitely in the autism spectrum. he's a middle aged, pokemon-loving, obese neckbeard who spends all his time on an anime forum stalking girls. honestly. don't even bother with him.

>>9633355
got back from the gym just now, can't sleep yet
waiting for my bored of playing storm on mtgo

make something else up dude

I FUCKING LOVE THIS THREAD

>>9633367
>If hitler was back , you'd be in the Auschwitz , you realize that you shitskin paki
not true

i guess this is the result of public hs education.

>>9633377
checked

Asians complaining about girls owing them sex
The most serious cases of attention whoring/ fishing ive seen on here
& a bunch of self loathing fat nerds

What a time to be alive

>>9633381
Dont even let me start on you , ill fucking roast you but im not in mood right now.
tl;dr : you and your bf both can fuck each other

>>9633374
waiting for my DL queue to finish*

>>9633371
so your response to someone feeling bad for you/attempting to help you out and get you out of here (since this place won't help you at all) is to insult them?

you're fucking lying through your teeth trying to troll the board with what little intellgience you have, you're probably giggling about the pity/self-loathing act you have going on

shit dude go make some friends and trash the baggier half of your clothing

>>9633392
>attempting to help me
all you've done is tell me that I'm a liar and desperately and quite pathetically tried to prove that.

>insult them
>what little ****intelligence***(you misspelled it) you have
being a hypocrite comes naturally to you doesn't it?

>>9633390
whatever you say nigger :)

>>9633392
Why the fuck are you still here arguing with people 15+ younger than you ?
Go fight with some little girls on anime forum you old fat fuck , you're literally the stereotypical sad middle aged man.
I'd tell you to make friends but only if your paki body odor doesnt kill everyone in 50 meter radius , that's probably why you never leave your basement.
Remember that you only have about 20 years left here on earth you old hag , keep fighting little girls you sad old fag

>>9633399
you are a liar, i can post the law that you claim to have broken, despite it being very difficult to do so in the prov you claim reside in.

you're lying about 3 of the 6 things you have claimed, it's glaringly obvious

I mostly feel worthless and a lot of the time when I look in the mirror i get angry/disappointed

>tfw good looking, hit on atleast once everytime I go clubbing
>recovering ex-fatty still have the fat person mindset
>Lost virginity two weeks ago tuesday
>Find out she fucked 2 guys before me within 7 hours
Shit sux

>>9632547
>One side seems to be happily married with great knives and plump wives, well-seasoned cast iron, and expensive cuts of meat. The other is perpetually broke, depressed, and can't figure out how to cook rice, glorifying cheap fast food and Asian foods they've only read about.
this seems pretty correct

the alcoholic threads on /ck/ always get up to 300 posts pretty damn fast too. i still find it one of the better boards tho

>>9632719
at 5'9" you'll never amount to anything important
you'll never get a gf

just give up and resign yourself to the manlet life. maybe best case scenario you'll become a manager of a local fast food restaurant

>>9633422
whatever you say you delusional retard. go ahead an post whatever law you want, it doesn't change the fact that nothing happened after I stopped going to school. nobody came barging in and making me go back. nothing happened. that's all there is to it. keep spouting "liar liar" like a broken record it won't change the facts.

I'm loving my life. I used to hate it but I made things change. I am now fit and healthy, have a good job so I can buy nice clothes, I am going out with the girl of my dreams and have my career set up. My life used to suck and I hated but I knew that if I wanted to get anywhere with my life I had to change it.

>>9633463
whats the end game kid, your shit isn't even plausible....def not likely, and far from probable.

i wouldn't classify light marijuana use as "getting into drugs" either

lol

but that's more of a personal political belief

>>9633456
>manlets never amount to anything
Hitler : made europe bow before him , was 5'8.
Napoleon : invaded europe and egypt and forced russians to burn Moscow down , became an emperor at age 40 , was 5'7
Do i need to continue ?
Hell , most of important people were short , talk shit about kanye and his ego but you know he always will be better than you , more successful and fucks hotter bitches while your pathetic self sitting infront the computer taking anti social anxeity pills and hoping you will lose virginty some day
You're just projecting your insecurities , you know you are worthless but wanna get a power boner from talking shit to manlets , you're the pathetic one here and everyone can see it.

>>9633490
just because it isn't likely doesn't mean it doesn't happen. catching cancer isn't likely but holy shit look at all the poor bastards diagnosed.

You're argument is weak and so is your life. might as well kill yourself already.

I won't get into what drugs I used as it will just come off as "attention whoring".

"lol"

go fuck yourself you disgusting old man.

>>9633495
manlets.....

>>9633495
>things manlets actually believe

>>9633511
>cant argue
>is pigfuck
Why am I not surprised ? Nobody likes you here , nobody wanta you here , nobody finds you attractive , literally every time you show up you get insulted and dissed , but you keep coming back , do you enjoy being humiliated ? Is that your fetish ? To be cucked and shat on ?

>>9633520
Go back when you amount half any of those " manlets " , I know you're retard and will just reply with " manlets xDDDDDDD " but until you finally learn how to not be stupid as fuck come talk to me.

>>9633522
>manlets

>>9633538
>>9633522
is there anything more satisfying and funny to watch than a manlet engulfed in a fit of impotent little boy piss pants manlet rage

>>9633538
i would come talk to you but my doctor said that looking down at people is one of the causes of my poor posture

>>9631793
>This has lead to me having some extreme anxiety and being couped up in my room all day
>>9631642
im feeling just like this,what i should i do?i would like to have taste for the life again.

your fucked for life if you don't like yourself

>>9630190
What the fuck do you think this thread is m8

>>9633553
>>9633545
>his idol is manlet
>talks shit about how manlets arent worth anything
Why neo nazis are always retarded ?
>>9633555
Le funny meme xDDDDD upvoted xDD soo funny and random

>>9627125
and yet here you are.
People contemplating suicide doesn't imply they don't know shit about anything anon.
You can be highly talented at something and still hate your life.

>Social anxiety disappared after I moved from Ohio to North Carolina. I'm still an introvert but I'm so much more social now.
>I started lifting and I'm happy with my fat loss and muscle gains. I'm perfectly content with the body I have.
>I'm starting graduate work at John Hopkin's University in D.C. next year.
>I volunteer to play with dogs every Tuesday and Thursday late afternoon at the shelter.
>No qt3.14 girlfriend but there is a girl I'm interested in that I'm pretty chill with. At the very least I'm okay being single for now.
>I'm making enough money working as a research assistant to afford some better fitting clothes which has helped my confidence a lot. I also do the odd bit of CSS freelance work for some side cash.
>People ask me out to do things with them and it feels really nice to have people want to spend time with you.
>I don't have any debt because my parents sacrificed a lot to pay for my college. I'm still basically living the poor student life but I make enough to pay for gas, food, rent and new clothes every now and then.
I used to hate myself and everything about me. As I got older and kept investing in myself I started to like myself a lot more. I'm happy. :)

>>9633553
6'2 is a pretty high requirement, most girls who care (a lot of them do) just want dudes over 6'0

>>9633553
>be 6'3''
Thank god :)

I love my life

Anime and this board cured me hating myself.

They taught me to be my own person and do whatever I thought was chill.

People like me more now that I have changed myself.

Thanks /fa/

>>9631356
hey bro

Shit like this makes me wonder if 4chan in general is full of depressed people, or if basically everybody in the world is generally depressed.
I've seen it on /k/, /out/, /o/, /n/, and more, and the reason why they have their respective hobby is usually "because it helps me be depressed".
The motorcycle guys on /o/ seem to be some of the most depressed.

I used to be clinically depressed, but now I'm just bored and apathetic

If anyone says they love their lives and love themselves, they are either willfully ignorant of their surroundings or spiritually dead. Growth comes from discomfort.

>>9633761
how

>>9632970
What if who I am is a chronically depressed leech on greater society? Stop trying to make me someone I'm not with your assumptions and platitudes. My view is that you're a fucking moron, how about you enshrine that as special and precious? Somehow, though, I hardly think that viewpoint is unique.

>>9633794
4chan attracts the depressed. The ability to disappear into a crowd and subsume your identity into a community and a hobby is very attractive to someone on a self-loathing path of self-destruction.

> 23 years old

> work 1 day a week at mcdonalds

> live with parents

> think very highly of myself

> love life

> watch porn all day

> go for a walk around the block and laugh at the normies going to work

> shitpost all day

> get meals made for me by hardworking mother

> play an instrument

> go for a bike ride

> watch some movies

> masturbate some more

> go and exercise if feeling a bit stressed

> laugh at the insecure, sad, weirdos on /fa/ who think buying black headscarfes or skater boi clothing will make them popular and wanted


no fucks were given that day

>>9633657

this quote sums up everything really.

>>9633880
It's just....
It's like doing things that scare you to cure being scared of them.
I don't know how to explain it

I started just doing things that I liked and wearing things that I liked and not worrying what other people thought.

I think it creates a perception of me as more confident, which is true

>>9633915
that's nice
i hope i'll experience that too soon

>20 years old
>Going to college in the same sleepy town I grew up in
>All my friends go to college in the big city, very jealous of them
>Overly sensitive
>Anxiety Disorder, panic attacks almost every week
>Small group of friends at this college, it's impossible to make friends here because everyone commutes and then goes home
>Think I want to be a school teacher but then again I really don't know
>A part of me still wants to be an artist even though I dropped that dream long ago since I thought my art was too shitty and boring.
>Super stressed all the time
>In an open relationship with a girl who pretty much loves me unconditionally and is basically my mom right now

Reading this thread has made me sad. I thought my life was shitty but now I realize I'm actually pretty lucky. I hope you guys find your way some day.

>attractive
>smart
>self absorbed and delusional
>dismissive
>ego is disgusting
>get whatever girl i want whenever i want
>college
>no job
>read, write, gym for hobbies

9/10

>Deeply insecure about my looks, body, and personality, might have BDD
>Girls are still attracted to me and my body which is a very confusing experience
>Sense of impending doom all the time, even things I enjoy doing have this feeling of "wrongness" to them

>no friends
>alcoholic in the making (drunk right now kek)
>lost interest in everything else other than making my stupid shitty art
>I can't dress for shit
>School is going to shit for the last 5 years
>suicidal toughs since -09
>seriously considering about trying to get in the French Foreign Legion in few years as a last resort to make something out of myself

It could be worse but it's not too good

>>9633955
What's wrong with me

>>9633899
I just dislike putting myself out there.
4chan is like a dumping ground for my most controversial thoughts and opinions.
Cowardly? Yes.

>go to gym everyday since 2 years
>not built yet
>spend my time studying, reading books and generally get a culture
>still can't write anything with value
>somewhat attractive and well-mannered
>live in a god forsaken place in italy and can't meet interesting girls
>can't leave because I didn't get my degree yet

>>9633964
You're faggot with no problems but with a need to feel special and oh so troubled.

So you're problem is that you're a faggot

>>9633985
>>go to gym everyday since 2 years
>>not built yet
protip, you need to eat more tha ncoffee, heroin and your bf's cum

>>9634007

>>9634015
12 SCOOPS

>>9633907
what's the plan for when your parents die/kick you out of the house?

>>9633985
I feel you anon. I also live in a small city in Western Europe, I wish I could leave but I'm stuck till I finish uni.

Patience is everything, one day anon, one day.

>>9633985

>go to the gym every day since 2 years
>every day
>not built yet

Well you obviously don't know what you're doing then, you only need to work out 3-4 time a week and learn how to lift and eat properly to actually build muscle. You're just burning yourself out at this point.

>>9627066
Kinda like me. All I want is an adventure. Somebody with whom to always go out and explore....

Of course I hate my life. And myself. No one normal doesn't.

time to complain /fa/

>be 20
>7/10, acne, hair starting to thin
>no work ethic, shit grades in high school
>community uni, shit grades there too
>don't know what I want to do with my life
>no family except mom
>have never traveled/gone on vacation
>self conscious/social anxiety etc., fuck up a lot
>only one close friend who i almost despise

Tfw see peers partying at college, studying abroad, loving families, healthy social life

>>9625803
I'm not happy, but I like my life. Its pretty great actually.

>>9632089
dawg I was smoking black tar when i lived on the west coast for a bit, it seriously saved me so much money. But things went bad there and I had to leave to take this new job. The only good dope around here is powder, I don't like the powder and I have to drive like 30 minutes just to get it form some sketchy nigs. Or I could get pills literally right around the corner.

>>9632641
I live at home too so rent isn't even an issue. Sucks you're unemployed man, I feel for you on that. I mean I could be doing a lot i agree, I just am not happy and this fucking problem I got ain't easy to beat. I've gone clean 3-4 times in my past and I always end up back, and I'm talkin like 6 month long stints before and it just sucks me back in cus im a dumbass.

I'll check the link out though, I need a good kick in my arse to get me moving and give me a purpose.

>>9625803
hate my job, have no gf but skatings good B)

>>9632033
Where in Michigan, anon
I'm from 248 but living in 269

>22 year old femanon
>using IV heroin every day for exactly 2 years, tomorrow
>scarred up my arms so badly that I have to wear jackets over swimsuits at the beach, long sleeves in summer etc
>fear I will never be able to live in a warm region or ever be /fa/ again
>spend all my $ on dope so been horribly dressed for 2 years despite paying attn to trends, trying to get by wearing hobocore shit
>fucking hate my life.jpg

>>9634540

post a fit pls