/fa/ - Fashion

Can't stay motivated with almost anything, quality of work is dropping, thinking about going to graduate school so I can get a master's

>>13908788
what do you want to do though? graduate school is a bit of meme.

I'm fat. I'm trying to lose weight but I have no will power right now. Went from 210 to 198 since the beginning of summer but I've been at 198 since the beginning of November. It's a big bummer seeing my man tits Everytime I look down or try to dress nice.

I have nothing but good feels

>cool job that I like, although it doesnt pay very well
>have been working on handbuilt ceramics and it's helping me find inner creativity
>gf
>got flights booked to head back home for a month to see my family and friends
>winter and comfy weather

The only thing that gets me down is the uncertainty of my future (in general), and the fact that while I'm so lucky to have everything I have coming into Christmas, there are a lot of people with so little.

We're all gonna make it bros

>>13908800
No idea, I would probably stay in design but I might want to move towards education. I know it's probably a bogus move but I can't teach at a higher level with a BA.

>>13908809
thats awesome bro. i've been planning my whole life to eliminate uncertainty from my future and i have, but i'm unhappy as hell tbqh.

>>13908804
losing that weight isn't impossible and honestly its one of the few things in life that is worth the work. watch what you eat AND do some running. stick to a plan and you can make it anon.

About to enter last semester of college. Mediocre grades. Need an internship and keep failing to get noticed. A couple of the classes that I need to graduate filled up before I could get a slot so I may not graduate on time. I feel miserable. Finals are next week then I get home to face my disappointed parents who wasted their money sending me to college.

>>13908822

I had complete employment and financial security - an ongoing contract at a good pay as a teacher - but it made me super unhappy. Genuinely cried a few times on the way to work - nothing compared to other people, but I knew it wasn't what was gonna make me happy. So I made the change, and it's been a really good decision. I don't really know what the future holds, or what I'll be doing in five years, but i'm keeping one eye vaguely on that, and the other firmly on staying happy and healthy. Seems to be working

>>13908804

Not sure, but perhaps you could get a trial membership at a gym or something. Paying for something is usually pretty good motivation to use it. Eventually you might even built a routine.

>>13908779
>finished uni
>no job
>poor
>fucked back, can't even bend or get a job
>surgery is highly unlikely


and i just sorta got my life on track

I got a brand new hoodie and spilled guacamole on it. I had it for less than 2 hours.

>>13909035
What degree?

I want to be effay so she start liking me and not the random douche.

>>13909067
start by quitting the weeb shit

>>13909067
I know that feel bro

I tried confessing to a girl a week ago and she seemed too overwhelmed to answer, though I know she's interested on some level. She's still pretty mixed up with her ex and everything but it's added to my already high stress levels

I feel pretty overwhelmed too, but with other things, mostly work. I've been drinking way too much recently

>>13909035
environmental studies + GIS
not really liberal arts tier but the number of jobs depends on how much is the government prepared to fork out for the environment.
Would like to learn some programming, get a job as a security guard or get a different degree but i don't have the money or want to become addicted to painkillers

>>13908779
I'm a huge tucking faggot with gender dysphoria and it sucks because otherwise I'd be a pretty decent man.

>>13909103
>gender dysphoria
how often do you consume pornographic material ?

this may seem superficial, but nothing looks good on me. I lost 4 hours yesterday trying different pieces but I ended up frustrated and drove back home. I just want to be effay dammit.

I still have low self esteem issue and social anxiety. I use fashion and my music taste to compensate for it.

>>13909050

>>13909080
based and redpilled

>>13909085
the whole idea of a "confession" is cheesy as fuck. next time don't "confess". show it dont say it faggot.

>>13909099
wow what were you thinking when you chose that meme degree? nvm you probably weren't thinking.

>>13909136
whats your body type?

>>13909085
>She's still pretty mixed up with her ex and everything
abort

>>13909166
between endo and meso, if that makes sense

>>13909188
ox boys

I'm tired that all things I like are
>having outrageous prices
>sold out in the fraction of the second
>made only for 6ft+ buffed up chads
How am I supposed to be effay? I'm already unironically thinking about learning how to make diy clothing at home since it looks like the only way to go.

>>13909158
it wasn't like a kneeling autistic thing. but something needed to be said before I got just-ed

>>13909175
ur right

>>13909201
post results when you'are done

>>13908779
Having a hard time kicking my weed habit.

>Been working to up my style and get /fit/
>Feeling very confident
>Getting mires
>Have very curly hair
>Buzz and fade it shorter
>Like it but upon further inspection my hair is thinning on top
>Confidence gone
My dad has the same hair as me, very curly and slightly thinned on top that he just keeps buzzed. Hoping mine stays that way and not worse.

>>13909235
change up your lifestyle, anon. Relapses caused by cravings in any substance use disorder (ie addiction) are usually caused by 'pre drug cues'. Things like visiting places that you used to smoke up in, people you used to smoke with, even certain smells and sounds.
We're all rooting for you !

>>13909241
Thanks fren. I'm gonna sell my bong, hopefully that will help. It really is the ritualistic aspect of it though. I love rolling something, or grinding up some bud and smoking a bowl. Plus smoking with a girl is the easiest way to get laid. I'll get there though.

I had a gf and she ultimately made me extremely miserable. She started arguments with me every single day and would give me no space or distance. I'm heavily introverted and most likely avoidant, so having her cling to me and whine at me if I didn't spend 24/7 with her was awful.

Since we broke up, I lost most of my desire for a gf but I recently read a manga that brought back my desire for love. But I know that my standards are far too high and I'll most likely die a virgin or single. I don't really feel loneliness but I do want someone who can really understand me and who I can speak openly with about my ideas and thoughts and interests. Perhaps I'm really searching for the female version of myself because I want validation for who I am.

I've used dating apps and while I've had probably about 800 matches in 4 months, I find most of these women to be completely insufferable and bland. It seems to be impossible to find an intelligent, well dressed, cultured, interesting, cute, and modest girl who isn't covered in tattoos or piercings, excessively hedonistic, or layering themselves in 55 pounds of irony. It feels like every woman I encounter or see is just a clone of 5 different types. It's tiresome and I hate it.

It feels like a better idea to just devote my own time to myself and my interests rather than wasting my time, money, and energy with someone who I cannot even relate to.

>>13909255
You're looking in the wrong places, dating apps are for fucking. It's like trying to find a girlfriend in the red light district anon, not worth.

>>13908779
it just feels like nothing can ever go my way

it just gets harder and harder to go on

I have no interest for anything anymore, every day blurs together. I don't care about anyone, my room's a mess, I haven't had an actual conversation in years and I doubt I'll have one because I have nothing to talk about

>>13909255
>It seems to be impossible to find an intelligent, well dressed, cultured, interesting, cute, and modest girl who isn't covered in tattoos or piercings, excessively hedonistic, or layering themselves in 55 pounds of irony.

Damn, well said, anon. Work on yourself. Try to become the best possible version of yourself. Don't go out of your way to make others happy

I’m jobless and going to the gym(using my parent’s pass)
while i try to find a job. I want to feel good about myself and push thru the depression.

i’m too big now to be /fa. I ate the thicc fit pill. My butt will become a chiseled planet of its own. My shoulders will never fit into s l p. I feel strong. Gonna have to say bye to this board soon. Was a good time trying to be skelly but i’m gonna be full gym thot like my heart tells me to

I'm turning 29 today and nothing I planned to do this autumn has turned into reality.
>going back to university
>send in an assignment that is practically done (need a few tweaks) that I have pushed that in front of me for a year now
>not looked for a new apartment in the city the university is in, so I have stayed at my parents house in my hometown since the beginning of the summer
>Have zero friends left in my hometown, so I haven't talked to anyone outside work and family since August
>not checked facebook for 3 months because of the anxiety I feel having contact with all friends I have in the university city
>work 6 nights a week so I never see the sun and I have no energy to go to the gym (which is my biggest passion)
>I work, sleep, go to the local hockey game, sit on the computer, then do it all over again.

Everything is shit and the funny thing is that there's an easy way out, aka finish the assignment and start searching for an apartment and just move.

But at the same time I basically only feel apathy and sadness.

>>13909258
Not sure where else I can really meet girls though. Seems like every woman is like the women on dating apps or unattractive to me.

>>13909307
happy birthday anon. hope things can get better for you

>>13908779
Man I fucking HATE having roommates. I really liked the previous roommates but they moved out last year, and I fucking hate these current ones. They're pretty peek normalfag and i can hardly relate to them about anything. I never see them do anything around the house yet they come to me and bitch at me for not doing anything, and don't even bother bringing up issues with my 4th roommate. (So it turns into a you fix it type deal). I put dishes away, start another load, and nobody else who was home all day even bothers to put dishes away, so on top of having to go around and pick up other dishes, it basically boils down to if I don't put them away, nobody else will.

It's so fucking old. I'm tired of trying to find common ground for us to talk about, too. I hate the fact that I can do a massive cleaning and admire my work only for it to be fucking trashed a few days later only to be bitched about my ethics on the same day. If I ever have kids, then I'll beat their ass if they do this kind of shit.

>>13910483
>It's so fucking old.
how old?

>>13909547
tranny discords

Food in New York is so fucking expensive, my dilemma is either buying groceries for a week or buy new clothes for fits that have been way overdue. I've just trying to stack my money up a little bit. Trying to spend less... Just got paid for two paintings I have done for props in a play for my old roommates to use.

Honestly feels good man.. but every now and then in the down moments I can't help but feel a little bit lonely at the end of the day. Maybe its just the weather, when its cold in NY none of the boys show up to the park. Met a really good friend at my uni in which we hang out and shoot the shit, talk about /fa/ shit, black metal all that.

It's whatever, Y'know?

Went on a long date with this gorgeous and exotic chick on friday, I was still hungover from thursday night though. Date went great, talked for hours and got dinner afterwards. She brought me back to her place (even tho she didn't want to at first 'cause she's in the middle of packing) and got me super high. She gave me a legit professional grade back massage with oils and everything. I played with her and gave her orgasms but I was so high and still hungover I couldn't get hard lmao RIP. Now she's moved like 30-40 mins away and doesn't respond to texts.

It's all so tiresome, /fa/

I went out with a girl a few times last week and she's really into it but I'm not feeling it. I wish we didn't fuck. I made plans to hang out with her today but I don't want to. She's super nice and I feel bad about the whole situation.

sometimes i feel unhappy but then i find old webcam pictures of myself a few years ago when i worked a dead and job and had no friends.
life is not too bad.

>>13909160
I was thinking about our planet turning into a barren desert with acidified oceans in the near future. But then again it doesn't even matter. at least i studied and worked at something that i wanted to do in my life, not something that i would hate doing every single day in my life.

>everything that's not STEM is a meme

>just dropped out of uni
>family hates me for it
>no direction in life
>no friends
>no gf

>>13910527
Do people even like trannies? I've had no luck

I decided not to go to college and instead keep working at a factory, which I'm very happy with and would like to move up in. Everything's going relatively well for me but I'm just now starting to really get over my breakup with the gf I had all through high school, and trying to figure out what I can do to change myself so that I don't make someone unhappy like that again.
>>13912107
I'm starting to want a tranny (g)f but I think I've just been watching too much porn lately and letting that desire take over me. I don't need someone in my life with fucked up mental issues right now when I've got my own shit to deal with.

Trying to find the confidence to call a girl and ask her out. It wouldn’t be so bad if she was expecting it but she’ll probably be surprised when I ask her. I think I have a good shot though.

What’s the best time to try and call her do you think, also what should I do if she doesn’t pick up (vm or no, if yes what do I say)

>>13912148
Do it right now. She will either say yes and be excited, or she will say no and literally nothing else will happen. Just fucking do it, if she doesn't pick up ask her to call you back.

Today I went to hang out with a girl I'm interested in and while I was in the bathroom she just straight up left. I didn't even do anything weird

>>13912153
alright I called her. She didn't pick up though so I just aksed her to call me back.

>>13912240
Proud of you big dog. What's your relationship with her?

>>13912248
we've been labmates all semester (both pre-health majors at university). We've talked a lot in lab and studied together twice so we have some rapport.

>>13909255
dating apps are for hookups, there's only garbage dregs left on there. And yes please just fucking focus on yourself, dont search for a girl to use for validation lmfao. That "intelligent modest girl" is not gonna be on a dating app. Also... you know you can discuss interests with close friends too, you don't need to complicate things with highly idealized romance.

>>13912345
>implying i have friends

>>13912348
you need to make friends then my guy. Best way to meet a girl is through mutual friends anyways, way better than dating apps

>>13912360
i'm not in a good city for making friends. most people are focused on their careers or schoolwork here, or they're not the kind of people i'd want to be friends with

>>13908779
The gubbermint took me license and all me monies because I drink drove

I tell them sorry
they don't care
they still take me monie
I am sorry
they not care
now I never get a grill fren
cause I have no license or monies


I just want my life back

>>13912364
you should have crashed into a tree and burned alive in your car you stupid faggot

>>13912348
ill be your friend bro

>>13912257
I hope you've been implicit in your interest in her because if you haven't, you most likely don't have a shot because she doesn't see you as a sexual being.
Not trying to be negative or anything, but I just got a vibe that you have been coy because you said she would be "Surprised" if you called and asked her out. Either way good luck! Women are just a numbers game so if it doesn't work out, just learn from your mistakes and move forward.

>>13912374
I did crashed
It jus wasn't a tree

Don't be so harsh, I made a stupid fucking mistake and am paying for it dearly.. I am truly grateful that things aren't worse.

>>13912392
Stop talking like a child dumbass, unless you can't help it because it's a product of your alcoholism you fucking faggot.

>>13912392
Huh. I kind of wish I were you. I don’t know why. The world is a complex place and then we die. It will all be okay.

>>13912397
>>13912399
The schizophrenia of 4chan.

ZIP WOOP DOP DIDDLE!!!

>>13912397
you are not a fren

>>13912400
I don't think you know what schizophrenia means

>>13912364
where do you live? im US and had two DUIs in the span of like 7 months and they didnt revoke my license permanently. i dont drink and drive or even drink anymore though and thankfully noone got hurt. regret it a lot and i paid a lot of money but overall im glad it got me sober

clothes are so fucking expensive!!!!

I just want a nice top coat but everything I like is >$500 goddamn.

>>13912422
Go to a thrift

>>13912410
In the US. I lightly tapped another car and blew 3x's the legal limit so it's been quite expensive.
My license is only revoked for 6 months, but I have to get an interlock put on once I get it back. This shit is costing me close to 10k
I really wish I could just go back and Uber that night
I will never, ever get behind the wheel of a vehicle again after drinking

Glad you got through it m8
I cant wait for the day that I can say this is finally over

>>13912439
yeah its a massive headache but you can pull through anon. i was just speeding but blew around the same, i think around .19. still have my interlock on for 3 more months but i honestly thanked it first because it constantly reminded i needed to stop being so fucking dumb. the dollar cost really sucks yeah and im glad you seem to have learned your lesson as well. hope you get through it all right, take it easy man

lifecons
>2 months out of a relationship I thought would never end
>motivation for school/work is very low due to readjustment in life priorities without another person in the picture
>feeling a bit lonely
>feeling a bit ugly
>would also like some pussy

lifepros
>lost ~15 lbs recently, starting to look a little leaner
>suddenly interested in music, art and fashion again
>taking a long trip abroad with my brother over the holidays
>might get pussy during said trip
>feeling free and hopeful for the future

>>13912403
I have friends who got DUIs and they're alright with me but I really dislike you anon sorry.

i'm too small for normal clothes. shopping in the girls section is slightly embarassing and frustrating. i feel like i have to go out of my way for more mature looking pieces. even shoes suck 'cause it's so hard to find nice shoes in a women's US size 5/sometimes 6. shopping online worries me because i can't try on before i buy. :^(

>pic rel
>smol artist
>pretty anxious
>oblivious to flirting

>>13912529
why don't you get them tailored

>>13908779
Feeling lost and depressed. Don't have a job right now and kind of dont want one. Last one was 5 months ago maybe, left it for a different one that didn't pan out. Not qualified for anything that isnt dead end. I don't know what to fucking do with my life, 23, never going back to college, don't want a trade, dont want to join the military either. Everything requires debt to learn, my civic died a while back so no car either. Just gonna sit here with 3k in the bank, pay my monthly student loan and phone bill wasting away. Only thing I have is living rent free with parents.

Pic related died recently and it hit me a lot because of what the show meant to me, and how bad I feel that I will never do create or do something anywhere near as amazing

>>13912386
ladies and gentlemen we fucking got em. Going out Friday morning. Thanks for the kick in the ass we got it done

>>13912568
Fuck yeah dude

>>13912529
How tall are you?

>>13909080
Why

>>13912533
i was thinking about that! dunno the pricing for that stuff so i'd have to look into it. atm i'm kinda shy about splurging on myself, i have a lot of medical bills due to a pos ex and i'm kinda on a short term disability because of it. i fear losing my job if it doesn't get better. when i was younger i always wanted to get into fashion, like making it myself. pretty sad now though, pls send good vibes!
>>13912582
4'10"ish last time i checked.

>>13912728
getting clothes tailored is very cheap, and making them is not nearly as hard as you think

I've been breaking out again, this time it's worse than before, so I have to cut down my dairy intake drastically. I'm afraid of failing uni classes, I'm horrified of ending up as some bum on the street, and you think that'd serve as motivation, but it really hasn't. Aside from that, I can't muster up the courage to get in front of a camera. Don't have any girlfriend, not that I'd want one, it's a waste of time, and I'm not ready to go through the annual bullshit that stems from a relationship. Other personal obligations have been causing me to lose sleep, energy, and stress out to the point of gaining strands of gray hair.

Life is on cruise control. Let's hope I don't crash.

>>13908779
Took to much Zinc, head hurts
Submitting my application for something last minute like everything else with my life. Unmotivated and unfocused. I know I have the will to change, but I lack the passion, the fire that burns so brightly in everyone else is absent in me.
I want to do, to just go and do things, but I can't. I just lack the will.
It's also so fucking cold I hate it. I'm wearing clothes but my fingers are frigid and I can hardly type with them.
I haven't been reading either. Managed to finish Meditations but haven't moved onto the next book. There's so much I want to do but so little will in me to do it.

It's been 10 months since I decided I would move once I've saved up enough, and 8 since I broke up with my girlfriend.
I figured my hand would be enough to last me until I moved and settled down in a new area, but I guess I have less willpower than I thougt.
Downloaded tinder and gone on dates and fucked a few women since, but I've recently started talking with another that I'm really beginning to like, but doesn't want any casual relationships.
I'm a weak and lonely man that only feels validated when given sexual attention from women.

>waitress at cafe asks me where i got my boots
>ordinary m77 combat boots
>i show her on my phone
>she thanks me and goes
>feel a tiny bit warmer now
appreciate the small things, frens

>>13909250
try supplementing those ritualistic things concerning weed with something else
evertime you get a feeling that you should roll one substitue it with something else instead - make yourself a tea (it can be ritualistic as well) or cook some good food, doodle some ideas. Change your habit loop (it's already there, you just change a part of it)

There is a certain sense of futility that comes with dressing "well" and looking after oneself. Sometimes I just think that in the end all of this won't matter in the great scheme of things, I realize that what I'm doing in regards to my external appearance is just a massive excuse not to think. Drowning everything in a sea of noise to keep myself too occupied to care that no amount of self care has brought me of this misery.

The funniest thing is that by all metrics I should be a happy-go-lucky young man who should only be thankful.

>>13908779
m

i can't draw gyal

>>13913070
very cute i hope u enjoyed ur coffee anon

>>13909133
Pretty rarely now.

>>13910785
just go full /biz/ then

>>13908809
Its 2018, those with little have done it to themselves.

my photography skills are improving I just don't know at what level I should take myself seriously as an amateur. networking is hard too I only have like one friend in the music scene but they're like 2 hours away. also my city is big but its stupid boring

>28
>have a decent job
>bought house, car etc
>finally have enough disposable income to buy any expensive effay piece I want
>realize I look kinda stupid wearing stuff that’s on trend right now...

What does somebody my age wear? Im to old to go all #streetwear but Im still not boomer enough to wear dinner jackets and pleated trousers allday.

>>13913596
Similar situation to you, but 31yo and married. Money gives you time to thrift (which could be potentially more money) and get really crafty with your looks.

I've found a middleground between art-bro, vintagehead, dadcore, scumwave and well, the typical stuff 50/60 years old neighboordudes wear (a 70s Fred Perry racing jacket as well as the most vile 2000s dragon shirts). Then you just mix according to context. Kinda like what decent people of any race used to look before hiphop and "alternative cultures" went mainstream. Sporty, casual, semi-formal, and if you want some edge pieces from the late 90s and first half of the 2000s.

Streetwear feeds from all those but add rebranding, manufactured exclusivity, overgraphics, unconfortable and excessive accesories, etc.

>>13910785
>>13912197
>>13910547
>>13909307
>>13909239

>>13913596
im 27 and in the same situation. i just do what i always did:
1. go thrifting
2. buy cheap things i think are cool
3. go home and see if anything goes with anything i already go
4. have fun building outfits

>>13914701

Thanks for the reply, got any inspo or insta’s with this kinda stuff?

>received numerous compliments on a sweater i recently purchased
i'm a happy lad, felt good as fuck

i want to hug you all

>>13915288
i want to eat your ass daddy

>>13915288

>>13915295
>>13915296

t-thanks

>>13909265
Stay strong Anon. This sounds exactly like me.

>>13908779

I just helped the girl I love get back on good terms with a good friend who she lost but always loved. I feel like it was the right thing I do but I'm pretty fucking bummed, guess I'll just drink it away.

At least I got accepted into my first choice college. Still feels like shit though.

>>13915379
Good news is regardless of what happens between you and the girl you'll lose contact when you go off to college so it won't matter :D

im 5'7 with a size 8 us feet. i look like a clown wearing any shoe

>Country is going to shit (Philippines, and before you say "lol the Philippines has always been a shithole, well this time it's going to hell because politics)
>Studying law here is stressful as fuck and the environment is toxic
>Want to become a public attorney to help the downtrodden, probably isn't worth it but I just want to help people
>Can't afford the shit that I like here because the wage is piss poor
>Only have a few /fa/ pieces, all of which are imported

Is it worth it bros?

I really want to become a bloomer. I wanna see the positive things, to my daily routines, habits, positive shit. But somehow I fail and I know my problems (fucked up sleep pattern sleeping az 5am, weed everyday, not going to Uni in weeks) FUCK but somehow I know I‘ll make it


>>13916041
keep studying, I respect your ambition

>>13916076
Thanks anon, will do. We're all gonna make it. Someday.

>>13908779
>smoking a spliff with one of my best friends on thursday night otw to to McDonald's hell yeah
>get pulled over
>fuck there's like two grams of weed in the car
>get ARRESTED fucking put in handcuffs brought to station in a cell for an hour and a half
>cops won't let friends grab my car even though the one i was with had to get picked up by them and they easily could have taken it back to campus
>have to pay ~350 the next day to grab it
>charged with unlawful possession of marijuana for fucking 2 grams
>never been in trouble with the law before
>have no idea what my life is going to look like in a month when my court appearance is
>just staying calm and making jokes about it to stay sane
>im fucking fucked

>>13912362
"they're not the kind of people i'd want to be friends with"
no offense man, but it sounds like you're the one isolating yourself and allowing this to happen. trust me, ive been there. eat an eighth of shrooms and just chillout overall. adding a layer of irony can be making the best out of a shitty life. :)

>>13916191
>I'm heavily introverted and most likely avoidant,

i tought i was 1,93
>1,87
its over

>>13908779
>Failing Universtiy in third semester, constantly dropping classes because i can't motivate myself to do their assignments
>Already switched main subject, about to switch side subject too but don't have passion for anything
>literally 0 friends, i only go outside for grocery shopping
>basically estranged from my family, feel nothing for them
>most of the things in my apartment are broken and i can't really replace them because i don't have the money, and am going to have to look for a new one in half a year anyway
>underweight
>Hair is falling out, feel mental state degrading: can't sleep, sometimes see shadows moving, weird paranoia at random times etc.
>don't feel sad, don't feel angry just....don't feel anything
I-It gets better, right? At least i recently got a new haircut and i think it looks nice

>>13916974
Do you use drugs?

>>13916998
No
I tried drinking alcohol regularly but it only made me more miserable, then i tried smoking cause its supposed to help with stress but it did nothing for me so i just stopped again, and i've never tried anything more

Good - semester is almost over, passing all my classes, had a good day at the gym, life has been pretty good in general
Bad - Can't stop thinking about /her/.It's only gotten worse as time goes by, keep dreaming of her, every other smell reminds me of her. I don't know how the fuck to get over it. I've already found another relationship and there's a 99% chance we will never be together again, but that last 1% won't die.

>>13917240
that kinda hit me.

>>13917240
how long has it been anon? I was in the same position three months ago but now it’s been six and I hardly think about my ex anymore

>>13917286
about 4 or 5 months, I don't remember exactly. There was a few months break and the girl I'm with right now we've been together for almost 2 months. She's great and all, lots of same interests and on paper we should be good for each other. I just don't feel the same for some reason.

>>13916041
Keep going man, you sonund like a great person

>>13917286
you probably werent in love

>>13917240
>semester is almost over, passing all my classes
>had a good day at the gym, life has been pretty good in general
>I've already found another relationship
get a load of this normie chad over here

I have little motivation for my academics or doing anything related to my projects at home. There's been days where I do nothing but listen to albums and sit and think. Sometimes I recollect my thoughts and I get a bit less anxious but usually I feel worse. I still occasionally hang out with my best friends but we live so far apart that its difficult that I don't get to see them fuck, and my friend group at uni is noticeably distancing themselves from me. It's not really my doing its just that I grew out of my past interests and we no longer have much to bond over. One of my friendships grew into a loving fun relationship, I really do love her. its just that some days I don't know what happens to me I just start thinking. There was a day where we watched some movie that made me think about my current situation and the future, I talked to her about the concepts and she had little input. She left and I hugged her goodbye went to my room and just sobbed. Like another anon said earlier, sometimes she makes me feel miserable, I fear the day she leaves me because how fucking retarded I am.