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>>6907623
It starts small. It starts with little risks, like cutting a long line or telling strangers to get the fuck out of your way when they block the doors on the train. It starts when you tell an SA point-blank to just leave you alone, and you make eye contact the entire time.
It starts when you're stuck in traffic and you decide to drive on the sidewalk for a few blocks because fuck it.
It starts when some kid in your social circle says something truly rude to you in front of your peers and you instantly slap him with an open palm and then never mention it again.
It starts when you hit your father or your bully back for the first time. It starts when you just forget about all the shit that's bound to hit the fan.
I guess it starts when you've finally had enough of the status quo, and that's a personal thing that changes from person to person.
Remember that it's always easier to get forgiveness than it is to get permission. Just do whatever you want until you get called on it, then make note of where the boundaries are, apologize and continue doing whatever you want. More surreptitiously, this time around. You have to get used to that fear of reprisal. Me, I used to be legitimately more scared of 'getting in trouble' than I was of death. My worst fear was the idea of being in trouble. Pathetic. I just ground away at that fear until it stopped hitting me so hard.
Courage isn't being fearless, it's going through with whatever you had planned in spite of how racked you are with deep, primal fear.

As for the rest of your question, I have to think on it.