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Anyone else reached their goal and now stricken with anxiety that they're gonna crack and lose all their progress?

I'm down to 18 BMI, I'm eating healthier than I ever have in my entire life, my days are almost nutritionally complete. Everything's going great, and yet I can't get it out of my head, I keep seeing those posts about how "diets never work" "you're gonna end up gaining all the weight back" "it's gonna backfire" all the resentful looks I get from the fat girls at my job, they all keep offering me junk food with these weird, coy smiles on their faces. Fuck I'm losing it man

I've had my fair share of binges, I know that it's never worth it, my self-control is way better than it used to be, and yet I can't help but feel like I'm gonna have some awful week and gain back all of the 30 lbs I've lost, or I'm gonna become jaded and "broken" by how hard I pushed myself this fall and lapse into being a bitter fat again, telling all the hopeful young girls that "diets don't work"

I really want to eat healthy, I want to be thin, and of course treating myself every once in a while isn't gonna fuck up everything, but now that I've reached my goal and can put a hold on the dieting for a while... this is all starting to feel like one big lie I'm telling myself... Fucks me up desu senpai