/fa/ - Fashion

I'm turning 29 today and nothing I planned to do this autumn has turned into reality.
>going back to university
>send in an assignment that is practically done (need a few tweaks) that I have pushed that in front of me for a year now
>not looked for a new apartment in the city the university is in, so I have stayed at my parents house in my hometown since the beginning of the summer
>Have zero friends left in my hometown, so I haven't talked to anyone outside work and family since August
>not checked facebook for 3 months because of the anxiety I feel having contact with all friends I have in the university city
>work 6 nights a week so I never see the sun and I have no energy to go to the gym (which is my biggest passion)
>I work, sleep, go to the local hockey game, sit on the computer, then do it all over again.

Everything is shit and the funny thing is that there's an easy way out, aka finish the assignment and start searching for an apartment and just move.

But at the same time I basically only feel apathy and sadness.

>see myself in the mirror
Doesn't look that bad, avarage I would say
>see myself in photos
Ugly as fuck, to the point where I most often flat out refuse to be in pictures and never look at the ones I'm in

Why is this?