/fa/ - Fashion

I want to get skinnier so bad, but I just keep gaining weight... Like, I'm not fat, but I'm like bordering to overweight (above what's normal) and I feel like absolute garbage
I'm pretty sure it has a lot to do with my boyfriend
I have very low self control and basically no impulse control, so if there are snacks or fatty foods or soda, I will eat or drink it, because I have a extremely hard time resisting, and he buys a lot.
Like, it's gotten a lot better because I've talked to him about it, but maybe 5 liters of soda per week, and even if I try my best, if it sits in the fridge, I basically can't not drink it...
Even if he doesn't buy, he constantly asks if I want him to get me something from the store, and again, if I'm really craving something, it's really hard to say no
I know I suck, and I should be able to not consume shit food just because it's there, but I really can't..
I don't know what to do, I don't want to have to break up with him because of this, because we've been together for almost 3 years, but in those years I've gained almost 10 kgs
I feel so shitty, and disgusted with my body
Please help /fa/, I really don't know what to do, and I can't really talk about it with anyone because everyone I know has the attitude that weight doesn't matter etc

>have generally good fashion tense
>dress very "fashionably"
>get called gay for not dressing like a retard or wearing anything slightly out of the average comfort range
>girls prefer guys who dress like cuck retards in vinyard vines and ralph lauren
>no girlfriend