/fa/ - Fashion

>>13536750
I need to finish Champloo asap so that I can move to Cowboy Bebop
Really loving it so far tho

>>11478242
>tfw bupropion left you feeling emotionless but completely calm and collected but then an emotional wreck
i only took it for 3 days, the last being last sunday but i've been in a fucking slump ever since, i got switched to ritalin and its ok but it only lasts me 2 hours and this shit is supposed to be extended release

>>11178175
>women used to give me that look just by making eye contact with them
>now they just raise their eyebrows in pity ever since i've lost massive weight
>even my own mother goes out of her way to let me know im ugly before my day even begins
i get it you bitch, my big nose, narrow face, cheek bones and eye bags are unattractive but i dont need you to fucking remind me that i'm ugly when all the women i encounter outside let me know that by the looks they give me, atleast spare me for just one day

>go from 32 to 24 bmi,a healthy bmi range for the first time in 15 years
>parents start my day off by saying i look ugly and should eat more despite being borderline overweight, the same people that have told me i would look good if i lost weight
>girls went from wincing when making eye contact to immediately breaking eye contact
>failing all my courses, even the mickey mouse bullshit courses
>gpa down the shitter
>memory,concentration,speech and insomnia have been getting worse in the last 5 years
>no job
>cant suicide by military because i fucked up my back
>can't even cry anymore, i used to hate crying but i miss it now
>have absolutely no one to talk to irl
>look in the mirror and see the exact same fat fuck from a month ago
i dont want to die, i want to vanish and never have existed

>just got back from school
>look at mirror
>look like an easter island statue with sunken eyes
>freak out
>i look different in other mirrors
>look at the same mirror again
>my portions arent fucked up anymore
>don't know if a negress earlier was hitting on me when she said that i could sit with her despite there not being any seats or she was just making fun of me for being ugly
>can't tell if im ugly or not
>see myself 50 lbs heavier despite having lost that weight in less than 2 months
>don't know what the fuck i look like anymore
>can't tell if the attention im getting is because im attractive or actually getting uglier as i lose weight
>just binged on food and ate almost 1000 calories
>only slept 5 hours and i have to weigh myself tomorrow but i ate more than 400 calories and i might not make my 168 lbs mark
why couldnt i have been born smart, im going to go smoke and hopefully when i get back someone will post ugly people inspo