/fa/ - Fashion

I want to fast today. It'll be the first fast I've done in months because my stupid stressed depressed ass has ruined all my hard work and I don't remember what hunger feels like anymore. I miss the high of a genuinely empty stomach. How clean and pure it feels. I miss feeling my hipbones. I miss my thinner face.

I was so close to my goal weight over a year ago, then I completely let myself go and now I'm back to where I started. The weight was gained slowly so I didn't notice until one day I stepped on the scale and saw my SW.

Yesterday I exercised a little (as in actually getting out of bed for once and dancing/jumping/squatting/stretching) and the little endorphin boost makes me forget how much I want to die. So that's a good start, at least.

Staying under 900-1000 calories seems to work well for me. Since I'm 5'4" I don't require many calories in the first place.