Alcoholism

[Anonymous No.8601024]

for me day 4 without alcohol, are you drunk? right now I don't miss being drunk, but I know it can change within an hour.

[Anonymous No.8601156]

>>8601024

>went on a 5 day bender last week
>was sober for 2 days but still felt like shit
>had 2 beers in the fridge so decided to taper off
>immediately feel better
>next day still feel like shit
>come home and apartment has no electricity
>go get some candles and beers because alcoholic excuses and I would be bored otherwise
>drink about 2 beers and the electricity is back up
>buy more beer because happy for electricity
>drink a total of 10 beers
>make some food and go to bed
>wake up without feeling like shit
>just wanted a glass of water and that's it

I'm scared that I'm at that stage where I don't feel any side effects or withdrawal symptoms as long as I keep drinking. I don't want to drink but afraid that the withdrawal will creep up.

[Anonymous No.8601161]

day 8 sober. how mad?

[Anonymous No.8601165]

Ive already asked this but got no answer.

Those of you who got sober: is it possible to drink lets say a few drinks on saturdays?

[Anonymous No.8601171]

>>8601161
Day 5 here

[Anonymous No.8601175]

I haven't had a beer or any other alcohol since Christmas day

I haven't been liquored up since I was at my nieces wedding almost three years ago

I haven been completely pass out drunk in over seven years

[Anonymous No.8601209]

>>8601165

Probably if you're in the right mindset and really determined. I can't do that, just one beer or a shot of liquor and I'm on the hook like a fish.

[Anonymous No.8601241]

>>8601165

Addicts will be addicts
You can't ever take it again

[Anonymous No.8601373]

>>8601165
most ex-addicts that I know cant even handle drinking a single beer without going batshit crazy chugging a keg.

I however can deal with it, but not every Saturday, I can go out to a pub maybe once a month.

[Anonymous No.8601381]

>>8601373
Why only once a month? Do you experience withdrawal after? Or is it psychological mostly?

[Anonymous No.8601404]

Day 9 here, NEET. Can't fix my sleep schedule for the life of me. Nothing seems to work, also tried pulling an all-nighter and going to bed at a reasonable time.
Since I have no reason to get up I just sleep as much as I can.

[Anonymous No.8601405]

>>8601165
I can't. Told myself a few months ago ill just drink once and ill be fine. Im an addict/alcoholic though. I dont think ill ever be able to just have a few drinks.

[Anonymous No.8601409]

>>8601404
Try getting a job or a hobby to keep you from drinking. If i just sat in my house all day i would go crazy

[Anonymous No.8601416]

>>8601409
I have no urge to drink whatsoever, that isn't the problem. Getting a job might be detrimental to the effort since I can only get low tier jobs that for a multitude of reasons piss me off. I'll study again but only in 6 months.

[Anonymous No.8601423]

just woke up it's 9:20 no work today time to hit the liquor store

[Anonymous No.8601434]

>23 days sober
>4 days ago, have 1 beer at lunchtime
>drink another 30ish
>back on 2-3 bottles of vodka daily
Yeah. I'm gonna die. Fuck.

[Anonymous No.8601478]

>>8601434
i guess at some point we're going to have to realize the "have just one" meme is a fucking joke. and a dangerous one at that because it gives real booze hounds a false confidence.

also what's up with my eyes and face looking all swollen and sunken in after a week long hard bender? chronic dehydration?

[Anonymous No.8601596]

>>8601478
>chronic dehydration?

Probably, you need to drink shit loads of water when you drink

[Anonymous No.8601607]

I'm also on day 4. I've been using kratom every night and that's been taking the edge off. Highly recommend.

[Anonymous No.8601621]

>>8601434
I met so many people in rehab that were back after completing he program and being out a couple weeks after doing this dumb shit.
>make it a month or two sober
>figure they have control
>drink a couple beers Monday night
>fine
>have a few Tuesday night
>fine
>by Friday, they're back to hammering plastic bottle vodka and they lost their new job
>Back in rehab Sunday

Get it through your thick skulls, people

[Anonymous No.8601624]

>>8601024
Not had a drink since Sunday.
Got no money but got £10 voucher for my local ale shop which I'm resisting to spend... trying to drink a lot less than before and so far it's actually working (not that you can do anything about it when you've got no money).
Well in the mood for a strong dark rum.

[Anonymous No.8601655]

>>8601621
Well, that's the really scary thing. I realised years ago that I can't have any. ANY. But I did it anyway, knowing full well what would happen. It's like I went into autopilot mode, like I wasn't in control. Even as I picked up the trampnectar from the shelf I was silently screaming, Knowing fully well that it was all just going to start again. I went home, cracked it open, downed it in one go, then bought a few ciders, and a crate of 24 Stellas. I do not know what's wrong with me, I do not know what to do.
>>8601478
Truth. I've just been drunk for so long (23 years) I am not sure I can ever function without it. I think I may actually rather die. I wish this shit, every molecule of it, could simply be banished from the universe eternally.

[Anonymous No.8601752]

I've gone from 6-10 beers every weeknight and more on the weekends to 7 beers in the last 15 days. Thank you desipramine.

[Anonymous No.8601772]

>>8601165
No. One drink ends up being 15. I tried once, it's like skittles. You can go without, but if you have only one, you need at least 4 more to feel satisfied with having it.

[Anonymous No.8601780]

Tomorrow is my ex's 3rd anniversary so I've been getting trashed since Valentine's Day. Currently at work with a bottle of sake feeling pretty dazed and out of it. Tomorrow is going to be a hell of a night when it comes to the bottle. Be safe, boys.

[Anonymous No.8601784]

>>8601780
>Tomorrow is my ex's 3rd anniversary
wat

[Anonymous No.8601787]

>>8601784
I had a girlfriend, she's now my ex girlfriend, she got married 3 years ago as of tomorrow. What's not to get?

[Anonymous No.8601789]

>>8601780
Can I have your stuff

[Anonymous No.8601790]

>>8601787
That's kind of what I was thinking, but I was hoping it wasn't as pathetic as that.

Grow the fuck up, dude

[Anonymous No.8601800]

>>8601780
I never want another relationship as long as I live. Fucking eight years since I screwed it up with her, she still dominates my thoughts. Hasn't spoken to me for over a year, hasn't said anything nice to me in around five years. Still love her like mad, only girl I've ever legitimately been in love with.
Reading her Facebook update one night, complete with the news that she is engaged, did not work wonders for my ability to reduce my alcohol intake.

[Anonymous No.8601813]

>>8601165
OP here, not for me.

[Anonymous No.8601828]

>>8601800
Eh, it was a Jr high to 19 years old thing for us. She got a new boyfriend about 2 weeks after we called it off, she kept in touch, ended up cheating on her bf with me then one day just deleted me from her life. She got engaged a month later and here I am. My boss was actually the minister at their wedding, so I'm constantly reminded.

[Anonymous No.8601946]

>>8601800
>>8601828
holy shit man up no wonder she left you

[Anonymous No.8601960]

>>8601946
>that one know-it-all kid
Hush now.

[Anonymous No.8602003]

>>8601772
Lets say I have 10 drinks, but Im determined to not drink the day after.

[Anonymous No.8602022]

>>8602003
Determination is fine and all, but talk to the needle freak who swears it's his last bender.

[Anonymous No.8602025]

>>8602003
Ha I thought that too

People like us just can't drink man

[Anonymous No.8602177]

>>8602003
I decided this yesterday as well. But now I'm hankering to walk to the liquor store again. Man, this sucks.

[Anonymous No.8602256]

>>8602177
Its def not too late to stop

[Anonymous No.8602298]

Okay. Just went to a place I never wanted to visit again. Ghetto as fuck, but every drug you could ever need. Picked up 20 lorazepam x 1mg for £25, and tomorrow I WILL. NOT. FUCKING. DRINK. I am DONE with this fucking nightmare.
This needs to work. Now or fucking never.
>halp

[Anonymous No.8602310]

>>8602003
>>8601165
Don't listen to these defeatist faggots. Only you know what will test your willpower, and you might need to try to find out. Some people can drink and stop, others can't. It depends largely on the situation too - if you are having a meal round a friend's and are offered a glass or two of wine, you might find it easy to leave it at that. If you are planning on buying booze specifically to drink a little by yourself, that's going to be much harder to moderate.

[Anonymous No.8602349]

>>8602310
This. I drink at dinner on special occasions and no longer chug it all. I used to get really drunk on special occasions. But now I only drink if others are going to drink more than the couple of glasses of wine.

I'm going to the bar with a friend this weekend and he's driving, so we'll probably only have 2 beers each.

[Anonymous No.8602397]

Can't strictly say I've been "sober." My wife and I shared a bottle of wine at dinner last Saturday, but that was it.

Yesterday, I cooked something that had beer in it, so I bought a big bottle, used half anday drank the rest. About the equivalent of a 12oz beer. And that was it.

With those exceptions, I haven't had had a drunk on almost a week. And I was coming off a major bender, so normal "can't sleep, feel like shit" stuff for a few days. Feel great today, though.

[Anonymous No.8602398]

>it's a muh trying to stay sober episode

Why don't you faggots fuck off to an AA meeting and do your crying there?

[Anonymous No.8602399]

>primarily drink out of boredom and anxiety
>last night
>nothing planned for the night, nothing to do but dick around on the internet
>incredibly bored
>for some reason, feel absolutely no desire to drink whatsoever, and the thought actually sounds completely unappealing
>spend a night bored and sober

...What the fuck is going on?
This is not the life I live
Is this how normal people feel about alcohol?
Am I just... Happy?

[Anonymous No.8602405]

>primarily drink out of boredom and anxiety
>last night
>nothing planned for the night, nothing to do but dick around on the internet
>incredibly bored
>for some reason, feel absolutely no desire to drink whatsoever, and the thought actually sounds completely unappealing
>spend a night bored and sober

...What the fuck is going on?
This is not the life I live
Is this how normal people feel about alcohol?
Am I just... Happy?

[Anonymous No.8602413]

>tfw had an outbreak of gout

Nothing will get you to cut back on drinking quicker

[Yeet No.8602416]

I used to drink daily, but not too much daily, I would have about a double shot of vodka in a glass of sprite in the evening. That would usually do it for me. If I got really fucked up, I would grab a six pack of beer from my local gas stations, and I would get smashed and have about 3 or 4 shots (maybe more) of whiskey straight, and then start getting into the beers. Weed was also something I was about so I would get decently high as well.

It just got to the point where alcohol stopped being a special occasions thing and became a daily occurrence and I didn't want that at all, so i stopped after a wedding party on 12/27(?)/16.

I've been clean since then and I feel a shit ton better and I've been doing better in school and at work

>>8602310
>If you are planning on buying booze specifically to drink a little by yourself, that's going to be much harder to moderate.

This was my problem lads, beware.

[Anonymous No.8602419]

i drink heavy 4 times a week. but im 21. thats normal,right?

[Anonymous No.8602423]

>>8601800
>8 years

thats not normal lol

seek professional help or fuck a hooker. indulge in drugs or something else, move to a different country or god knows what. but change something, youre not sane

[Anonymous No.8602449]

>>8602423
I've told my GP, I've been to CBT, I'm on seroxat rn, i've been addicted to crack, heroin, cocaine, weed, benzos and meth, I've overdosed on codeine and diazepam – resulting in my be locked on a secure ward, I've been to jail 3 times because of her and I would let her kill me if it made her happy. Love is a brutal thing.

[Anonymous No.8602452]

>>8602416

Turns out all the grown-ups were right about drinking alone. I always really loved it, downing G&T's or malt liquor by my self, watching a movie or something.
After the Cubs won the World Series, I was fucking shitfaced, I walked home from the bar, started banging more gin, and ended up bullying my girlfriend so badly she broke up with me. Good call on her part.
The next morning I dumped everything I owned down the drain. Very cathartic. Would recommend. I cut open the beers with a knife so they'd spray over my hands, still get that aroma and whatnot. Savored watching that gin swirl around the drain.
I never intended it to be forever, just a period to get my head straight and stop drinking reactionarily. Made it about a month and a half, and when I did have that first drink back, I made damn sure that I wasn't drinking for any bad reasons. I've still had periods where I've overindulged, worried a bit about it. I'm doing quite well now, comparatively. But the one thing I've never backed down from, was never drinking alone. Even if it means knocking back a pint at the end of a bar, by myself, talking to no one. No more of these feral nights in my apartment.
When there's other people around you (or, speak for myself, around me) you can still get quite drunk, but there's an upper limit. Drinking alone, in the dark, with your own bottle, I just drink and drink and drink until I'm unconscious. The sky is the limit, if that. And THAT'S no good.

[Anonymous No.8602454]

>>8602419
Can you put me in your will now?

[Anonymous No.8602456]

>>8602452 here
apologies for the blog post

[Anonymous No.8602457]

>>8602398
Or maybe you could, I dunno, not read the thread?

[Anonymous No.8602464]

>>8602449
Breh that's not love that's just mental illness

[Anonymous No.8602465]

>>8601024
Day 3 dry
Really hate myself and how my body looks atm
Wanting off this ride
How are you doing folks?

[Anonymous No.8602471]

>>8602456
Blogs are ok in al/ck threads anon. We're all used to shitposts/shitposting and general rambling. Have at it.

[Anonymous No.8602485]

>>8602419

There are people who drank heavily at that age, and organically had that behavior fade away as they matured.
There are people who, at that age, were perfectly sociable, light drinkers, who are currently laying face down in a gutter.
And there's plenty of people who drank too much at that age, and never got it off their back.

The way that is called "the way" is not the way. Truth is a pathless land. Check yourself, don't take others' stories as a guide to your own, believe it or not, you're unique. Life is not a paved road, it's wandering through a field, you leave the path behind you as you go. Occasionally stop to make sure you're headed in the right direction.

[Anonymous No.8602501]

>>8602464
Nah, I really do love that girl. Before her I dated 13 other grils, I thought I was in love with one of them – with whom I spent seven years, but it wasn't until I got with her that I realised how intense human emotions can be.
I know she loves me too. It's so obvious. Her fiancé looks just like me and has the same interests/hobbies, plus I know she occasionally stalks me online, checking up on what I'm doing. W/e mang. At least since I fucked things up with her, I'm no longer plagued by the stress of craving sex; if it's not with her I can barely bring myself to fucking bother.
Brb alcohol.

[Anonymous No.8602566]

Hi I want to get into being an alcoholic but I have no money.
Any advice?

[Anonymous No.8602571]

>>8602566
steal mouthwash

[Anonymous No.8602576]

>>8602566
Dont

[Anonymous No.8602580]

>>8602566

Brew your own.
For the bare minimum, baker's yeast, white sugar, water.
If you buy champagne yeast online (50 cents a packet!) it'll taste better and ferment to a significantly higher ABV.
If, rather than just sugarwater, you actually brew with juice (apple or grape are best, though you will need to add additional sugar) it'll taste better, and potentially be something actually worth drinking for more than just the alcohol.

I was a broke 19 year old once, if I could do it, so could you. Look into homebrewing.

[Anonymous No.8602585]

>>8601024
i went sober for a year and it was the best decision i could have made at the time

now im back on the wagon and its pretty fucking good, just gotta be careful to not go off the deep end again

i think quitting for good would probably be the best thing but i cant imagine a life of complete sobriety, id go nuts

[Anonymous No.8602906]

>>8602585
I thought off the wagon was when you are drinking, and on the wagon is when you are sober.

Am I really this retarded to have it wrong? I've seen multiple people in these threads say this, but I've never heard it that way in my entire life.

[Anonymous No.8602909]

>>8602906
Yeah dude it's off the wagon when you resume drinking, I was right.
The fuck is it with you retards?

[Anonymous No.8602910]

>>8602906
>When you 'fall off the wagon', you go back to drinking alcohol in large quantities after having abstained from it for a while.

[Anonymous No.8602932]

I"m an alcoholic. I go to meetings drunk and pretend I'm sober.

How fucked up is that? I don't deserve this 30 day chip.

[Anonymous No.8602934]

>>8601175
Nice. How does it feel?

[Anonymous No.8602964]

>>8602934
Giving up liquor was the hardest thing I ever had to do in my life.

But the clarity that I feel right now makes it all worthwhile.

I can honestly say I will never drink again, ever.

[Anonymous No.8602970]

>>8601024
i could go without alcohol if i had a pill to knock me out before bed. like pain pills i could get hooked on because it makes night time easier. shame, cause im getting blackout drunk nightly to sleep, and im getting pains in my lower back

[Anonymous No.8602971]

>>8602964
k lahey

[Anonymous No.8602974]

>>8602970
im starting to lose focus during the day, like ill catch myself and be like, what was i doing just now. i feel like im going to be the person that gets called crazy because my mind is scrambled

all while finishing my 13th shot of 101 right now

[Anonymous No.8602984]

I drink about 20 beers on fridays or saturdays

thats it.

[Anonymous No.8602994]

>>8602932
I've got two 24 hour chips. I was privately questioned if I had been drinking after a meeting once. I said yeah, and everything was civil and fine, but I went to one more meeting and then just left. Didn't want to lie, managed to cutdown on my drinking somewhat without help.

[Anonymous No.8603008]

>>8602970
They're called sleeping pills, bro. Had some prescribed years back and within 30min I was fast asleep.

[Anonymous No.8603027]

>>8601024
Good for you, OP. Made it further than some.

>be 18
>can't drink legally
>alcoholism runs in both sides of my family
>like the taste of alcohol
>probably will never drink b/c I don't want to be an alcoholic

[Anonymous No.8603037]

4 months here but only because i was hospitalized

it's...really...really fucking hard for me to stop before i end up going on a 5 day long bender and ending in the psych ward...

i can go like a week maybe but fuck

once i start again i'm as good as gone, it's just a matter of time until i lose control

[Anonymous No.8603049]

>>8602984
is this bad?

[Anonymous No.8603051]

>>8602964
>I can honestly say I will never drink again, ever.
You cannot think like this. The reason every program touts "1 day at a time" is because it's the truth. You have no idea what's going to happen in 2 or 20 years or whatever. Being in la la land is just going to let you get complacent.

Sounds like you're going through pink cloud syndrome

[Anonymous No.8603060]

>>8603051
that post was a quote from the show Trailer Park Boys

the character (Jim Lahey, the trailer park supervisor) is pretending to be sober while carrying around a water bottle filled with vodka all day

[Anonymous No.8603079]

Don't fall for the "just one drink" meme. I was clean and sober for six months after winding up in the ER with internal bleeding from drinking three fifths of whiskey over three days every single week for months on end. Then I had just one beer. Then just another. Then I might as well go to liquor because I'd be ingesting fewer calories ("It's actually a decision I'm making for my health!", I convinced myself). I'm back up to half of what I drank back in January 2016 already.

Once you get out, stay out. Don't look back.

[Anonymous No.8603201]

Its me again, gotta finish this bottle from yesterday.

I like this daily post It makes me feel less alone.

[Anonymous No.8603227]

>>8601165
1 is too many and a thousand is never enough, anon.

Been sober for a little more than 2 years. Help will always be out there if anyone is ready to take the first step.

Also willing to answer any AA/NA related questions anyone has.

[Anonymous No.8603243]

>>8603227
Why does AA focus on the past so much

I don't want to think about the fucked up things I did on various substances

[Anonymous No.8603250]

>>8603051
nigga he said hes never going to drink again

how is that complacent

[Anonymous No.8603310]

>>8603060

I much prefer
"I'm on top of the liquor. I am the monkey in charge of the bananas!"

Jim Lahey is a drunken bastard.

[Anonymous No.8603315]

>>8603243
I spent about 6 months regularly going to meetings before I started working on things from my past.

The reason for it is because the reason why Alcoholics (at least me) Drink has to do with a combination of childhood trauma and shameful acts during my addiction.

If nothing changes in the way I live my life, I condemn myself to the same way of thinking that made drinking the only escape.

[Anonymous No.8603338]

>>8603310
>watching after season 4
yikes

[Anonymous No.8603341]

have any of you guys weaned off drink onto pot instead? has this worked?

[Anonymous No.8603357]

>>8603227
Oh, here's a good one. Why does AA have an 90%+ recidivism rate, but it's NEVER the program's fault?

>you slip up and drink
YOU'RE NOT TRYING HARD ENOUGH
DO THE 12 STEPS AGAIN
GO TO MORE MEETINGS
DO YOU HAVE A SERVICE COMMITMENT?
>you succeed and stay sober
MAKE SURE TO PASS IT ON BUDDY

[Anonymous No.8603358]

>>8603338

Come to think of it, that is coincidentally where I stopped.
But, as someone trying to stay on top of the liquor, to be the monkey in charge of the bananas, I really loved that clip
Considered getting me a breathalyzer!

[Anonymous No.8603372]

>>8603008
do they actually work well? how do i get prescribed some?

[Anonymous No.8603388]

>>8603341
I'll admit I might be a special case, but as drunk as I've ever been, I've never made the same regrets that I have on weed.
I feel guilty a bit if I drink too much, but about as bad as it's gotten is friends getting annoyed that I wanna get fuckin' rip-torn instead of knocking back a beer or two on a quiet night casually. But even when I get there, I don't cause a ruckus.
Meanwhile, a couple months of regularly smoking weed, my friends called an intervention, I had my best friends threatening to kick my ass I was getting so out of hand. I gave it up, but recently I considered buying a vape and getting back into it and I had them fuckin' horrified.

Weed ain't for everybody. And, personal experience aside, I've never bought into the "it's harmless, natural, candy!"
Maybe give kratom a try?

[Anonymous No.8603393]

Ordered 500 grams of kratom online. I find just the idea of having something at home to relax a bit with stops me from stopping at the liquor store on the way home.

Only problem is that instead of getting used to doing a toss n wash or making a slurry i'm actually developing a gag reflex to it and have almost puked it up a few times.

[Anonymous No.8603416]

>>8603388
i hear ya, i used to smoke too much also, quit cause it gave me panic attacks, a year later i started drinking alone, that was 10years ago. id like to go back to weed cause although it might make me stupid, it wont rot my organs..ihear high cbd strains are good for anxiety, i was hoping to transition to that

[Anonymous No.8603421]

>>8601655
>I do not know what's wrong with me, I do not know what to do.
I know that feel

[Anonymous No.8603430]

>>8601800
sort yourself out

[Anonymous No.8603437]

>>8603393

I didn't find the taste bad at all. Kinda just like a really bitter green tea. Apparently I'm in the minority there.
I ordered 100g off some reddit user, thinking I could use it as a substitute for "boozing myself to the floor to loosen up around people whenever I go out" (cheaper, to boot). So far I only tried it once, 2g. Would have to try a larger dose next time, really just made me kinda tired, a little emotional, and I closed my eyes and listened to a song and it sounded really good.

[Anonymous No.8603457]

>>8602452
>The next morning I dumped everything I owned down the drain. Very cathartic. Would recommend. I cut open the beers with a knife so they'd spray over my hands, still get that aroma and whatnot. Savored watching that gin swirl around the drain.
fucking dramatic moron

[Anonymous No.8603472]

>>8603457
What? Why? It was a cathartic moment, I needed to get rid of several gallons of alcohol quickly, and it all smelled delicious as it went down the drain. And it was a symbolic gesture that I got to look back on and keep my feet to the grindstone about sobriety for the time I wanted to make it through.

What should I have done? Drink it all?

[Anonymous No.8603486]

>>8603437
I find that 4 to 5 grams is the sweet spot for me to give me at least an hour of a noticeable high, then the rest of the night of feeling all right.

Experimenting with the differrnt varieties has been fun too. I now avoid Red Kalimantam after it made me really hot and flush and I couldnt hold my arms still.

[Anonymous No.8603492]

>>8603472
>several gallons of alcohol
oh come on, stop making shit up, your making your life sound like a lifetime movie

[Anonymous No.8603497]

>>8603492
Idk man. Ive drained some liquor before too. Thia guy just has a penchant for writing schmultz.

[Anonymous No.8603508]

>>8603486

that certainly seems to be about it. but I'm a nervous one when it comes to drugs (except, of course, our current Guest of Honor substance, here in al/ck/) so I did all the reading and everyone said "no matter what, start with 2g your first time, work your way up incrementally and find your sweet spot".

>>8603492
A handle is half a gallon, and a fifth is... A fifth of a gallon. I wasn't dumping "my daily ration", I was dumping my collection. It's not hard to accumulate that much, don't be a dick.

[Anonymous No.8603535]

>>8603508
>It's not hard to accumulate that much
I take it you're new to this thread

[Anonymous No.8603743]

Fuck guys.. after being jobless for a few months due to dui and alcoholism, I just got a job. I'm pretty worried since work is pretty much my biggest trigger. How do I not drink at work? I can't even fathom working in a kitchen without drinking before, during breaks, and after. It's going to be so depressing and boring. But I know I'll become even more depressed if I get into my vodka drinking again. I'm such a quiet guy, and I just feel so unfriendly and unapproachable at work if not buzzed or drunk

[Anonymous No.8603781]

>drink from friday afternoon up until early sunday morning
>see parents later on sunday night/evening
>parents think i don't drink anymore
>have to act normal even though I've been borderline blackout for near 2 days straight
>feel walls coming in
>shaky, anxious as fuck, feel like i'm not in control of my body
>get back to gf's house, immediately buy a 4pack of tall boys and drink two just so I can even attempt to get to sleep
>can sleep, still feel like i'm not in my body, cold sweats, sleep that feels like i'm not asleep
>white knuckle monday

and here we are. I do this to myself every weekend. I swear off of the booze and then friday comes around and I say fuck it.

Really making an effort not to drink much this weekend. I'm going camping and I want to have fun and remember it.

Here's to hoping.

AA was okay, but the meetings everyday kinda bummed me out. Although to be honest, every sunday night i think about going on monday if i get the feels bad enough.

Anyone else know these feels?

[Anonymous No.8603792]

>>8603457
>>8603492
Yeah, if there's one thing that drunks are known to have zero tolerance for, it's "wingeing on about your personal life in the company of strangers"

[Anonymous No.8603797]

Can the taste of an alcoholic drink trigger a relapse in recovering alcoholics or does it have to actually be alcohol?

Say if I made a sauce out of bourbon but cooked off the alcohol.

[Anonymous No.8603798]

>>8603492
real hard alcy's stock up dude. The ones that are in relationships stash them around the house. It's very possible a hard alcy could have multiple gallons around the house.

[Anonymous No.8603805]

>>8603797
when I was in AA they said never use the shit ever again, in anything. don't even cook with it.

Alcoholics brains love to trick themselves. You'll think that the little thing of wine you use to make your sauce wouldn't hurt if you took a little sip, next thing you know it's been 1 week and a half and you haven't showered.

Depending on what kind of drunk you are. I'm a slow build up.

[Anonymous No.8603833]

>>8601024
5th day sober and still fantasising about getting a bottle and getting drunk as soon as I finish work.

I felt the same last night and pushed through it but life just feels so pointless without alcohol. Or I'm more aware/conscious of how pointless it is.

[Anonymous No.8604278]

>>8603357
If you blame others for your problems you are not going to get better.

[Anonymous No.8604288]

Why can't you fags go to /adv/? This isn't even about food or cooking. I bet the mod is alcoholic and that's why these threads are up

[Anonymous No.8604291]

>>8601024
it's been since last september, so... almost half a year soon. had to stop because i was arrested while being a drunk, violent idiot.

AA really was not for me—luckily, i had more willpower than i thought.

[Anonymous No.8604293]

>>8604288
>Why can't you fags go to /adv/?

What for?
Half of us don't even want to quit

[Anonymous No.8604410]

>Buy another bottle just before going to sleep
>Sleep 13 hours
>Wake up
>Almost morning, sun coming up
>Don't even feel like drinking
>4 hours later
>Still don't really want to take even a sip
>Previously I'd have cracked one open within an hour of waking up

[Anonymous No.8604513]

>>8602970
I used to take Melatonin to expedite me blacking out. Just get it at Walmart.

[Anonymous No.8604696]

>>8603372
The ones I had did, like described, can't remember which type though. You can probably get prescribed some by being honest, you want to quit drinking and need help falling asleep. Also keep in mind that it's not a permanent solution.

[Anonymous No.8604699]

>>8603797
Takes very little to set me off. I once relapsed in the back of an ambulance, being taken to hospital because of DTs, by chugging a bottle of hand sanitizer in which I could smell alcohol.

[Anonymous No.8604710]

>binge drink 2-3 days
>spend the next day spewing blood from the anus.

So, according to my doctor I should eat more fiber and not drink alcohol.

Any good snacks with fiber that I can munch while drinking?

[Anonymous No.8604734]

>>8604710
1 cup of oats, 2 cups of vodka a splash of cranberry juice.
Wala

[Anonymous No.8604746]

>>8604710

If the blood is red then you just have hemorrhoids or an anal fissure. I don't see how that's booze-related; if anything the alcohol is softening your stool.

[Anonymous No.8604815]

I need more fiber too, every fucking time I shit there's some that just won't come out, the end shit just won't come out and it's driving me mad.
I figured I could avoid the infinite wipe by pushing the toilet paper into my ass a few times and then wiping normally, I can't tell what it does, pushes it back inside? Maybe, but it helps

[Anonymous No.8604818]

>>8604710
Fibre makes my intestine bleed and hurt like a bitch. If nothing else works, I bet www.gaps.me will help.

[Anonymous No.8604821]

>>8604734
It's "voilà", you Neanderthal

[Anonymous No.8604828]

>>8604821
Its wa la you newfag

[Anonymous No.8604848]

>>8604815
It's like toothpaste for me. Ugh.

[Anonymous No.8604877]

Time to put on some tunes and solve sudokus for the next 3 hours then pass out

[Anonymous No.8604941]

Day 9 faggots. I feel great and the urge to drink is minimal. Whats weird is that the non-compulsion to drink somehow gives me a peace of mind that makes me feel like its OK to drink. Some real psychological warfare mates

[Anonymous No.8604963]

>>8604941
Pretty sad how much I'm sure we can all relate to these feels. Don't know what to tell you other than what you already know, i.e that it'll never be ok, you'll only start again if you pull the trigger on that first drink. I had 23 days until very recently, like 5 days ago or sth, have had something like 10 litres of vodka since.
Well done on your 9 days. Fingers crossed you don't fuck up like I did.

[Anonymous No.8605154]

>>8601165
That's the true definition of being an alcoholic vs these memes that get convinced by their wife that they are...

No, an alcoholic cannot control their consumption, they will not be able to stop at a drink or two.

[Anonymous No.8605169]

I was sober for two days

Just bought four liters for the evening

Then its no drink for 4 days

Im gonna buy a Tudor or a Rolex to motivate me. Actually its still not enough. I should go like -600k€ to drain enough and I would still drink.

[Anonymous No.8605239]

>>8604941
>Whats weird is that the non-compulsion to drink somehow gives me a peace of mind that makes me feel like its OK to drink
This is one of the truest feels I've ever seen posted in all my time on alck threads over the years. It's a tough one to know.

[Anonymous No.8605250]

>>8605239

It makes perfect sense. I dont really need to do this because I didnt do it for x amount of days. So now its ok and makes no difference. Nevermind that it will or might slip, badly.

[Anonymous No.8605253]

>>8605250

And those days wihout drink were counted by you.

[Anonymous No.8605410]

I cannot imagine having to be sober all the time.
Alcohol is really fucking everywhere and so cheap and easy to conceal.

That shit can't be easy to ignore.

[Anonymous No.8605442]

Day 4 dry I think? Possibly 5
Got through the worst of withdraws and pains
Now I have the urge to drink tonight
I have to see one of my parents for the first time in a year on the weekend
Not looking forward to it guys. So anxious.
I can't decide what I'm going to do tonight. It's like the worst itch in my brain

[Anonymous No.8605500]

>>8605442
drink pussy

[Anonymous No.8605501]

Anyone use weed to lay off booze? I've done it successfully for years. Usually i just smoke bud on weeknights now and drink beers on the weekend.

Ran out of weed last week and dealer is dry. Immediately start pounding beers and vodka shots every night. Fucking hell i feel like shit. I just need something to deal with my chronic insomnia. Cannot sleep without something. Plus, it's so fucking boring be totally sober . I have no idea how normies cope with being sober.

[Anonymous No.8605510]

>>8605442
Ride the anxiety bro, cut myself down to weekend benders but trying to cut that out too. Sick of pushing away dealing with my depression and anxiety with drink and drugs. Still gonna induldge here and there but I wanna learn to feel bona fide with out liquid courage and powdered self confidence in my brain

[Anonymous No.8605516]

>>8605501
Wish I could, I can stop drinking over night if I have a couple of grams of medgrade to puff on daily. Reefer madness is still rife in this fucking retarded country however, so instead of risking being locked in a rapecage for smoking a joint, I just have to die from alcoholism instead.

[Anonymous No.8605591]

Been sober since Dec 14, so a little over 2 months now. It's tough, and I want nothing more than to just get a bottle of vodka and play video games/surf the Internet like I used to, but the good outweighs all the bad. I don't miss hangovers, REALLY don't kiss withdrawals, and I can go out to eat with friends and family and actually enjoy time with them rather than being constantly worried about when it would be acceptable to order another drink, or if I could sneak away to do a shot. I dropped 10lbs almost over night after quitting and am back to working out almost daily. It's not easy, and lots of days I want to give in, but it's worth it. Good luck Bros

[Anonymous No.8605654]

>>8605591
I have only ever gone a month straight in the past 9 years before the futility creeps back in or I become too disgusted with everything.

[Anonymous No.8605672]

>>8603781
>Friday rolls around
>buy handle, tell myself I can drink it Friday night and Saturday, then sober up Sunday
>Sunday rolls around and there's usually 1 or 2 shots left in the handle
>what the heck, might as well finish it
>got a taste now I want to keep drinking
>go back to store for more
>now drunk all Sunday as well
>go through withdrawals on Monday
>rinse and repeat every week

[Anonymous No.8605682]

>>8605510
Yeah man I'm just gonna watch a film then try to sleep
The urge won't be as bad tomorrow morning
It's always around the evening the urges get really bad. Tonight I'm saying no

[Anonymous No.8605778]

>mom calls
>no idea if she realized i was drunk or not
>she didn't mention it

hopefully she didn't realize

[Anonymous No.8605784]

>>8605778
She knew, anon. They always know, everyone knows.

[Anonymous No.8605786]

>>8605778

I hate that my parents can tell if I've been drinking even when nobody else can. Even if it's only a few drinks and I'm not close to drunk, just subtle changes in my facial expressions or mannerisms they notice right away and can call me out on it. I was used to going through life with a mild buzz, but can't around them

[Anonymous No.8605788]

>>8605672
That was me to a lesser extent this past weekend...but I'm doing good so far this week and am confident I'll be off the sauce for a bit now. Been learning the past few months how to put in more effort to actually maintaining sobriety....weed helps immensely

[Anonymous No.8605791]

My father is a functioning alcoholic. He goes to the store at 9 am to buy beer.

He makes 250k€ (Plus bonuses, no living costs) drinking at home, answering emails, some confrence calls, coordinating projects.

If his family and everyone else related werent a bunch of lumberjacks in northern finland with nothing to encourage him. One of his patents could probably still sue Apple.

[Anonymous No.8605796]

>>8605784
>>8605786

God damn it
I try to say as little as possible, FUCK

[Anonymous No.8605806]

Wait, if I become a serial killer or something similar to that, would my parents completely forget that I was an alcoholic, so basically it would redeem me, you know, do something worse to cover up the shittier thing, yeah, that would work, yeah

[Anonymous No.8605816]

>>8605806
not a bad idea honestly

[Anonymous No.8605832]

>>8602413
No knowledge of gout. This is me now though, the result of relapsing. No drugs, just extremely heavy alcohol use, dehydration and malnutrition did this shit to me. In too much pain to sober up, I'm drinking myself to death. This ends. FUCK you alcohol.

[Anonymous No.8605839]

>>8605832
what the fuck are with all the scabs and shit?

[Anonymous No.8605846]

>>8605839
If I so much as brush my hand against my legs, the skin just tears off. I'm dying.

[Anonymous No.8605848]

>>8601165
Good luck getting sober if your goal is to "be able to" keep drinking as much as you can.

[Anonymous No.8605849]

>>8605846
what? r u serious?

[Anonymous No.8605850]

>>8605832
used to work with a guy like this, but way worse. scabs all over his arms and legs. he always used to make up stories about how he got them from hockey hahah
he always smelled like absolute death

[Anonymous No.8605853]

Day 3 without booze.
Had a £10 voucher for a local booze shop, not spent it.
Definitely gonna get hammered tomorrow.
Might even get some Buckfast.

[Anonymous No.8605861]

>>8605849
Yeah.
>>8605850
I don't stink, I can't cope with consciousness without a bath every morning, My body is just utterly ruined. Kidneys, liver, brain, blind in one eye, can barely move my fingers or toes and lost so much muscle mass since my relapse that I need a cane to walk. Just waiting around to die at this point.

[Anonymous No.8605862]

>>8605853
What does 10 pounds get you anyways?

In Canada, you'd just be able to get a bottle of wine or 12 pack of beer for that price

[Anonymous No.8605864]

>>8605672
Did this for years Agee college. Hangovers got too much for me around this year (26) and it was making me less productive. Weened down to half handle for the weekend, now down to 375ml for the weekend. Generally have a couple shots Friday, get drunk Saturday, and keep a couple shot for Sunday. I have some beer peppered in through these days but just buying less has helped tremendously. Just don't go to the store to buy more.

[Anonymous No.8605874]

>>8605861
How old are you?

[Anonymous No.8605875]

>>8605864
yep i can only drink friday or saturday nowadays. usually have 20 beers one of those days. works well

[Anonymous No.8605882]

>>8605874
41.

[Anonymous No.8605883]

Im turning 29 this year and I look like an unrealistic teenager on the OC.

[Anonymous No.8605886]

>>8605882
Feel bad for you mate. Hope you turn yourself around and get some help

[Anonymous No.8605915]

>>8605886
Thanks anon, but nah I'm finished. I don't want to get better. If I'm gone, I can't relapse.
Sounds edgy. Wasn't meant to. Alcohol really has cost me everything. I welcome the peace of it all just fucking off.
Don't drink, gents. Shit will eventually fuck you up too.

[Anonymous No.8605950]

>>8605862
Not much, a few expensive posh ales.
A bottle of mead is £8.99 in there.
2.5 litres of draught ale is about a tenner.
I get money tomorrow so will no doubt spend that voucher and get a bunch of other shit.

[Anonymous No.8605980]

>>8605915
How much did you drink?

[Anonymous No.8605988]

>>8605791
>t. son of mr. nokia

[Anonymous No.8605990]

>>8605980
As much as I have. I did once drink 80 pints of Stella in 1 day. No idea how much cheap scotch I used to hit. Just, all of it.

[Anonymous No.8606010]

>>8605990
>80 pints of Stella in 1 day

NEW WORLD RECORD

[Anonymous No.8606024]

>>8605990
>80 pints of Stella in 1 day
bitchin dude

[Anonymous No.8606029]

>>8606010
Not quite, I think Oliver Reed drank something like 110 pints in one night, and that huge dude from James Bond movies claimed to do something like 150 iirc.

[Anonymous No.8606052]

RIGHT NOW I'm holding my phone, her number entered, and a message which tomorrow I know will make me facepalm and want to die, but I'm incapable of deleting it.
>finger trembling over 'send'

[Anonymous No.8606059]

>>8606052
don't fuckin do it man. turn your phone off and wait til morning and see if you still want to send it

[Anonymous No.8606064]

>>8606052
send it, it will be much better than wondering.

[Anonymous No.8606078]

>>8606059
>>8606064
FUG
Brb seeing how I feel after a few more shots.

[Anonymous No.8606079]

>>8606052
Is it something lovey, or just like "I want you wrapped around my dick", because that makes a difference

[Anonymous No.8606081]

>>8606029
Are you sure you aren't thinking of Andre the Giant?
I haven't heard anything about the Jaws guy drinking.

[Anonymous No.8606084]

>>8606059
>>8606078

I make it a point to wait until i sober up to send serious messages, but i almost always do. Drunk words are sober thoughts- people get shitty when they're drunk because they're shitty all the time.

But waiting to edit helps if you're getting sloppy.

[Anonymous No.8606086]

>>8606052
Don't do it at any cost. I hope I'm not too late to tell you this. It will ruin your life. Do not do it.

[Anonymous No.8606090]

>>8606079
"I can't carry on feeling this way. Please just say something. Anything. Tell him that if he really wants to slit my throat as I sleep, to go for it. I need you in my life. I love you so much that I feel like I can't breathe"

I sent it :|
Brb lots and lots more booze. Fuck.

[Anonymous No.8606092]

>>8606086
This post sounds like it's sent from future him hahah

[Anonymous No.8606093]

>>8605832
>extremely heavy alcohol use

How much and for how long?

[Anonymous No.8606098]

>>8606090
you idiot

[Anonymous No.8606099]

>>8606086
Well, shit.
Fuck it, I have booze left. I am currently invincib... oh shit response incoming...

[Anonymous No.8606103]

>>8606099
post response

[Anonymous No.8606105]

>>8606090

kek

[Anonymous No.8606109]

>>8606099
FUCK
GODDAMN IT
I HOPE THIS TURNS OUT ALRIGHT FOR YOU, SHIT I DIDN'T MAKE IT IN TIME

[Anonymous No.8606116]

>>8606098
Well
Seems like maybe you were right.
I'm going to get very very drunk now, and delete all evidence that this happened.
I...
Oh fuck it all.
Kbye.

[Anonymous No.8606119]

>>8606116
The descent into madness is exciting.

[Anonymous No.8606120]

>>8606099
Omae wa mou shindeiru

[Anonymous No.8606123]

>>8606116
rofl

[Anonymous No.8606130]

>>8606116
Post response, and context for that matter

[Anonymous No.8606137]

Any one switch to opiates for a few days to take a break from alcohol?
If I consistently does 40-60 mg's of oxy through out the day for like three days I have 0 desire to drink, or eat. Or really do anything, it's a nice break from alcholism.

[Anonymous No.8606142]

>>8606084

This is a problem for me because I don't know how to write politely in emails, so I end up sending emails to professors that sound super serious, it's worse when I'm drunk, because then it sounds as if I'm angry.

How the fuck are you supposed to write "I want to know this and that, and why hasn't this and that been done yet?" politely, what the fuck: "I'm sorry to bother you but I'm wondering if you could maybe please tell me, if this and that, again I'm so sorry to bother you...." etc..

[Anonymous No.8606146]

>>8606090
NO, IF ONLY I COULD HAVE COME HERE SOONER.

[Anonymous No.8606152]

>>8606116

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IQe7YViyJGs

[Anonymous No.8606158]

>>8606142
There's a way not to be a prick without apologizing a million times. Wow, the alcoholic doesn't know how to moderate

[Anonymous No.8606173]

>>8606142
I hate overly polite emails, email etiquette has always been retarded. State your purpose, any politeness can be saved for the ending.

>>8606116
It doesn't matter what you delete it happened and she still has records. Also that part about letting him kill you was awful be a man.

[Anonymous No.8606174]

>>8606158

That's the fucking thing, the first example is what I would actually write when I'm sober, except I've been told it comes off aggressive and shit, how the fuck am I supposed to write it, it only becomes filled with subtle anger when I'm drunk

[Anonymous No.8606418]

>>8606116
Can you post the answer first here? It'll be deleted when thread 404 anyway. And I could use a laugh.
Your relationship is toxic, you have to forget her. And don't tell me "but I love her", your love is the very reason you have to get the fuck away.

>>8602298
How is it going? I had written a lengthy encouragement post yesterday but firefox crashed before I could post it.

[Anonymous No.8606441]

>>8606418
>firefox
OH FUCKIN WEW ARE YOU SERIOUS

[Anonymous No.8606444]

>>8605990
This has got to be some sort of bullshit.
You'd die long before you get to 80.
That's about 160 units of alcohol... people have been known to die from anything as little as 40 units.
I can almost finish a 1 litre of whiskey which is 40 units, and I can fucking put booze away like nobodies business.

[Anonymous No.8606529]

>hiccups

[Anonymous No.8606565]

Seattle anon here. I'm headed downtown for drinks right now. The retro on third and Stewart. Any Seattle alcoholics want to join me? I'll buy you a shot and we can play some pool.

[Anonymous No.8606575]

>>8606529

She's about to blow

[Anonymous No.8606619]

>>8606575
There's no way I'm puking out the amphetamines I just swallowed.
No fucking way, besides, it's only going to be about ~5 hours until they are fully ingested after which fuck everything

[Anonymous No.8606625]

Just getting started on a 1.5lt wine bottle. Won't be getting asleep otherwise

[Anonymous No.8606645]

Day 10 coming to an end here. What I really don't miss is the walk of shame to hit the cornerstore 5 minutes before it closes. It's one of the shops where I earned the privilege of not having to pay for a bag because I go there so often.
Also, I'll have 2 events of social drinking on sunday and the following weekend, respectively.

[Anonymous No.8607112]

Man a lot of boards have drinking threads but you faggots dont fuck around

[Anonymous No.8607122]

>>8607112
What other boards have them? Also welcome to hell newfriend.

[Anonymous No.8607224]

>>8607122

/r9k/, /b/, /pol/, /toy/- the usual suspects

[Anonymous No.8607380]

6 hours until class starts, I figure I can just take my adhd pill, one more shot, and then be sober enough for class when the time comes

[Anonymous No.8607422]

What else are you lads addicted to? I've leveled off on alcohol to a flat fifth of whiskey a day alongside some beers and wine but my cocaine use is through the roof. I even smoke crack. I don't like weed but on weekends I'll take some norcos or a bit of H

[Anonymous No.8607439]

>>8607422

Nicotine and amphetamines.
I consume about 100mg of nicotine per day

[Anonymous No.8607440]

>>8607422
I'd say I'm addicted to molly although I try to restrict my usage to once every 3 months. Sometimes I last longer, other times I hit it harder. My main problem is how much I enjoy sex on it compared to sober.

Other than that, cigarettes and food.

[Anonymous No.8607477]

>>8606418
>firefox

If you absolutely MUST have a firefox-like, switch to Pale Moon, you won't regret it. Otherwise just get chrome, nu-firefox is just a poor imitation of it anyway.

[Anonymous No.8607481]

>>8607422
Damn man, a fifth of liquor plus beer, wine, and cocaine? I don't see how you could ever consider that "leveled". No judgements from me, I used to down a fifth of plastic bottle vodka every day but that was enough to keep me from living a normal life after awhile so I have no idea how you even function :(

[Anonymous No.8607513]

>>8607481
Yea it seems like too much when I say it but it doesn't feel like it day to day. I'm sure it isn't sustainable forever though. I'm a car salesman and all the booze and coke just fits perfectly right into my life.

[Anonymous No.8607533]

>>8607513
How long have you been going at it like that? Are you a bigger guy?

[Anonymous No.8608142]

Oh.
It's that 'morning' thing again.
Fuck this. 15min bike ride (banned from driving as usual) in the rain, while shaking, puking and barely able to focus. Kay then. Never tire of this.

[Anonymous No.8608146]

>>8606174

Response?

[Anonymous No.8608165]

>23
>never drink
i know i would have been ever more miserable with myself if i ever took up.

[Anonymous No.8608211]

>>8606444
40 units gets me... well, I was gonna say tipsy, but it's more than that. More than tipsy but definitely not drunk. And yeah I really did drink that much, it was actually more than 24 hours to be fair. Id smoked a shit load of crack stayed up for something like 30 hours, with three little naps of like two hours during the session, and proper meals/snacks, because there was food everywhere given that it was Christmas time.

[Anonymous No.8608219]

>>8605788
>been learning how to maintain sobriety
>getting high on drugs really helps

[Anonymous No.8608374]

>>8606441
>>8607477
Thanks. I was happy with FF 1.0, compared to ie6 or whatever it was at that time, haven't really tried anything apart from early chrome (with mostly empty setting page and obviously no adblock, due to google making money out of ads.)

[Anonymous No.8608399]

Day 10 faggots. Feels like I haven't drank in months

[Anonymous No.8608418]

>>8608142
>3 hours later
>12 units gone
>buzz dissipating
>raining af
>here we go again
Now with added need to steal it due to no monies. Thank you gubmint for ensuring that if I want to escape reality, alcohol is the only way.

[Anonymous No.8608422]

>>8608418
Government here,

Suicide is always an option citizen.

[Anonymous No.8608442]

>>8601024
>started out drinking at 18
>first I drank together with friends
>20'S school finished ,we slit into different locations
>still meet ociasionaly ,starting drinking more and more alone
>friends dont drink so much no more
>get gf ,stoped drinking for 5 months
>drinking again ,gf gets pissed
>22's gf says if you drink I leave
>23's - alone ,no job ,living with parents
>24 start an new job (apprentice I think in english)
>still blackout drunk every fucking day
>as soon as work is finished 10-15 bottles of beer ,most of the time some wine too
>winter always drinking a 0,7 of vodka /jäger /some cheep schnaps
>be 26 ,have givining up on giving up ,drinking heavier then ever before
>dont talk to parents no more
>no friends left
>I work ,get drunk ,repeat - 7 days a week
>Boss asks why I work 7 days a week
>"Otherwise I'll be dead"
>best worker hes ever had
Dont even want to quit no more ,sure Im lonely and addicted but somehow I imagine myself as an old and lonely guy whos happy with his choises .Cheers my friends

[Anonymous No.8608449]

>>8608442
>26

Meh, you're still young enough to get away with it.

I'm guessing you're Irish.

>the only problem with the Irish is they treat everyday like Saturday

[Anonymous No.8608456]

>>8608449
After drinking for 8 years with a litteraly 5 month break I dont see myself stopping
every walk into the supermarket is a dream come true . Everytime I moved ,I knew every single bar ,gas station , small shops ,who sell alcohol
>dem 2 am 10 km walks just to get 10 beers and walk home
im not irish im a lithuanian fag

[Anonymous No.8608473]

I just had my 21st birthday
alcohol is overrated, if I'm going to have some fancy cocktail I'd much rather have the fruit juice or whatever.
adding alcohol ruins it

[Anonymous No.8608734]

>>8608456
>im a lithuanian fag
And for a second a thought I wasn't the only gerfag in these threads.

>tfw when it's carnival here with normalfags being alcoholics in public for a week wearing shitty costumes and pretend to be happy

[Anonymous No.8608747]

How the fuck to get past the first four days?? One morning and my teeth are chattering, I'm drenched in sweat, I feel like this is not entirely real, like it's all Some incredibly uncomfortable nightmare. Four days of this shit? Fuck, I don't exaggerate when I say this is worse than coming off heroin. Wtf do

[Anonymous No.8608756]

>>8608747
Stick it out and don't go back, dumbass

[Anonymous No.8608757]

>>8608747
Jesus how much were you drinking you booze soaked wretch?

I hope you do relapse and go back to the sauce holy shit

[Anonymous No.8608760]

>>8608747
>Wtf do
get your ass to a doctor

[Anonymous No.8608847]

>>8605501

yep i'm trying this now.. got a bunch of cannabis oil caps and take one around the time i usually start drinking.

when high i have zero desire to drink, so it's working

[Anonymous No.8608871]

>>8608734
I live in germany my friendo
>carnaval best time - getting shitfaced drunk wearing a bane outfit

[Anonymous No.8608872]

>>8608847
Pls pls gief weed, am kil

[Anonymous No.8608904]

>>8608871
You don't say. Where do you live? Cologne here.

[Anonymous No.8608914]

>>8608871
>getting shitfaced drunk wearing a bane outfit
xDDDDD

[Anonymous No.8609130]

>Boss pulled me aside in the office and said someone smelled alcohol on my breath
>Asks to smell inside of my to-go mug (it's a screwdriver)
>Tell him no, invasion of privacy
>Tells me to go home for the day
>Scared to go back to work tomorrow

What do guys

[Anonymous No.8609141]

>>8609130
Sober the fuck up, retard

[Anonymous No.8609158]

>>8609130
Spike his coffe with scotch, get HIV, rape his gf. Wa la, boss is fired and dead.
Or tell him to fuck off, none of his business what you drink. Also set fire to building to kil snitch.
Or, suicide pact? I couldn't manage one morning sober. In 6-figure debt, unemployed and drunk again.

[Anonymous No.8609213]

>>8609130
Start looking for a new job

[Anonymous No.8609236]

>>8606645
>>8606645

Day 7 here, Im the anon that asked if you could have a few drinks when sober.

Will you drink?

I have a social event this WE and still undecided

[Anonymous No.8609244]

>>8607422
Day 7 anon here

Benzos and codeine

[Anonymous No.8609255]

>>8609236
Yeah I will drink, looking forward to it, actually. It might not be a huge amount because the other guy there is a heavy pot smoker and that curbs my drinking.

[Anonymous No.8609300]

>>>>8609236
Personally, I can't. I don't think it's like how some people say, where if I have one drink it's OK FUCK I'M OFF THE WAGON, BACK TO A LITER OF VODKA A DAY. Last time I was sober for a month I thought I could go back to just social drinking, having 2 while out to dinner, etc. And at first that worked, but I slowly slipped back to where I was. 2 with dinner turned into another one or two when I got home, because "it's not like I'm drinking like I used to right". Then that turned into "well I might as well just have one tiny bottle of vodka instead of 4 beers, because of calories". And soon enough I was back to alcoholic mode. I'm now 2 months sober and don't have anything because I know in the long run I can't control it. Having a couple while at a social event probably won't make you go back to where you were, but it can start a slippery slope of getting back into old habits.

[Anonymous No.8609328]

>tfw to intelligent to be an alcoholic

[Anonymous No.8609357]

>>8609300
Im thinking of having more than a couple, a dozen maybe, but Im now in sober mode, I can't see myself relapsing. However the dozen of relapsing stories makes me wonder about that.

[Anonymous No.8609361]

>>8609255
Do you not fear relapsing ?

[Anonymous No.8609391]

>>8609357
I think it just depends on what type of person you are. Like I said, some people have one sip of alcohol and they're instantly back to butt chugging 151 daily (not srs), while others like me it takes a while to slowly build. Luckily I'm able to recognize that and just choose to not have anything, but it's up to you

[Anonymous No.8609409]

>>8609361
Not really. I got really tired of it all, it wasn't anything special anymore, I wasn't even having fun anymore...

[Anonymous No.8609896]

Ok, I need some Numbers to call. I phone the Samaritans, ex-friends, ex girlfriends, churches, AA, Family members, extended family members, extended family members friends, the police (??) Wrong numbers, even fucking salesmen to buy things I don't want and can't afford... I've demolished every source of conversation/affection/human contact available to me. Totally driven them down to the ground. I feel like if I contact the suicide hotline, the person answering the phone will end up killing themselves.
Who do you guys cool when you absolutely need some form of human contact outside of 4chins? Who the fuck can I turn to? My family has just about disowned me, and if I text/call my ex one more time I think I'll kill myself with embarrassment. I'm so fucking suicidally depressed and bored laying here alone on the floor day and night, downing spirits and fapping over jpg's. Who am I gonna call??
>inb4 ghostbusters

[Anonymous No.8609911]

>>8609896
>when you absolutely need some form of human contact outside of 4chins?

I don't, why do you?

[Anonymous No.8609938]

>>8609911
Shitposting here gets boring after 9 years of it. Fug, just want to talk with a human from time to time. Chatting up grils (or well, trying, and one invariably failing) while shaking/puking in line at a corner shop buying vodka and frozen pizzas gets old fast. Then unbearable after many years.

[Anonymous No.8609949]

>>8609896
g-ghostbusters?

[Anonymous No.8610024]

>>8603315
great album fampai

[Anonymous No.8610025]

>>8609896
Mormons

[Anonymous No.8610032]

>>8601024
no but i was earlier. I dont really drink every day but quite often. Feel so shitty all the time so i dont know why i even bother,

[Anonymous No.8610253]

>>8601156
Oh it will my man. It will. Its easier to stop now before it gets worse.

[Anonymous No.8610379]

just dropping by from /pol/ because I had to witness anon's claim of /ck/ having alcoholic generals
cheers and hope you all make it

[Anonymous No.8610432]

>>8610379

I wish I had alcohol right now, but the stores are closed

[Anonymous No.8610440]

>>8606090
That's gay

[Anonymous No.8610451]

I'm going to cease imbibing the liquid intoxicant jew.

[Anonymous No.8610485]

It's night and a storm is blowing outside, a bit of rain brushing against the window. Fuck, this is the most temptation I had since I quit 11 days ago. Now a bit of quiet jazz and a drink would be maximum comfy albeit pretentious. Makes me nostalgic of the days rainymood and "the fragrance of dark coffee" was a fad on the chans.

[Anonymous No.8610488]

>>8610485
just have a drink ya wiener

[Anonymous No.8610627]

>>8610488
Gotta wait until sunday. I don't have any liquor in the house except some selfmade limoncello of the missus... and that stuff is too sweet and makes a dull hangover the next day because it's made with polish spiritus

[Anonymous No.8610645]

>>8601024
I,for some how quit for 3 full weeks.
And I just picked up the habit just like that...

[Anonymous No.8610806]

>>8609130
this happened to me one time. they said a coworker smelled alcohol on me, and they asked if i had been drinking. i told them no, and they asked if they could take me to the hospital to get a blood test. i refused the test. they sent me home and suspended me for a few days. then i went back and no one said anything. went on with my life still drinking at work. its been about 3 years now. i guess they just don't care anymore.

[Anonymous No.8610809]

>>8606529
Had me bad last night, I haven't been eating anything.... just drinking

[Anonymous No.8610811]

>>8610809
that's a horrible idea. but i'm sure you know that already. if not, you will soon enough!

[Anonymous No.8610814]

>>8610811

Not all of us can afford food every day

[Anonymous No.8610818]

>>8610814
kek, just alcohol? sad!

[Anonymous No.8610823]

>>8610818

Not sad, what would be sad is if there wasn't any alcohol either.

[Anonymous No.8610830]

>>8610811
You couldn't be more wrong, little one :^)

[Anonymous No.8610831]

>>8610823
what will be even sadder is you drinking without eating for too long and getting awful withdrawal

[Anonymous No.8610855]

>>8602501
Bro i am so sorry you can not see you have a mental illness. I am truly sorry.

[Anonymous No.8610865]

ITT grown ass adults do not live in a weed legal state in america and actually have to deal with drinking alcohol as their only means of anything.

for fucks sake.

[Anonymous No.8610873]

>>8605915
Hey man, I hope for your sake you can find a solution that doesn't lead to death. Life is always a struggle and some of us have learned to cope in unhealthy ways.

This may sound stupid but smoking marijuana really helped me reduce my alcohol intake. It doesn't carry any of the relapse properties and can be used to slowly replace alcohol.

I would also recommend taking a B vitamin complex because I can guarantee your body has been stripped of it.

[Anonymous No.8611064]

How do I pace myself better when drinking hard alcohol? Vodka has been my go-to since I was 19 or so and now I can drink a fifth in a night no problem. I want to pace myself but I still want to have a good drunk going, i've tried beer but it does absolutely nothing for me because of the alcohol content and getting way too bloated.

[Anonymous No.8611066]

>>8610865
DUDE

[Anonymous No.8611086]

Been drinking each night for two weeks.
Im on a good run.

[Anonymous No.8611100]

on my ~15th beer right now, feeling rather good

[Anonymous No.8611109]

>>8610865
I tried weed as a replacement for booze. I ended up just liking the taste of beer more.

[Anonymous No.8611190]

>>8608747
Tapper or take benzo.
Count how much you drink daily. Say it's 20 units of alcohol. The next day, only drink 18.then 16. until you're sober without too much withdrawals.
Or see a doctor /hospital.

You can die from withdrawals...

>>8609896

Tell you what, try having 3 beers. Just to see if when you're tipsy you want to get smashed. Then don't drink for 2 full weeks and two sober weekends.
It shouldn't be too hard. If you fail, don't panic and give up and go on, just stop the sooner the better.
You won't get severe withdrawals if you keep it under a few days. Just PAWS, they are the sneaky ones and last months or years. So might add well get used to them.

>>8609896
>Wait until you're 30.
>be powerful wizard, free of visceral needs.

[Anonymous No.8611220]

>>8609300
This. I'm the exact same way. Different for everyone, but ultimately we end up slipping.

[Anonymous No.8611331]

>>8610823
Take it from me, you don't want to continue to disregard eating. I remember when I got to the point in my alcoholism where I stopped eating food...and anything besides water and booze that I tried to put in my system immediately was thrown up. That was the end of my rope, I couldn't carry on any longer and God knows I had been trying to.

[Anonymous No.8611340]

>>8610873
I agree I hope he makes it, but at this point smoking weed and taking a B vitamin isn't going to do him much good - he's at the point of needing to medically detox so he doesn't have a seizure and die. It gets to a point where tapering and "slowing down" really are not options any longer. It's sad, and I think he knows it, but I really do hope he is able to make it through...hate seeing other people lose their battle with this shit.

[Anonymous No.8611352]

Lads, I need help. How much is too much? I drink a litre bottle everyday for 5 days straight, sleep for a day and night then might manage to turn my washing machine on and try and eat well for a day. It's bad, isn't it? How did you sobebros do it? I have no friends, I have family but they don't really know because I refuse to interact until forced then I scrub up and an gour of family time will involve a few drinks so I can get leathered again without it being noticeable Just failed my honours year at uni as well. I'm just going now to keep my student loan payments..

[Anonymous No.8611399]

>>8611331

I'm not completely stopping, I just eat every other now, sometimes I eat daily when I get the genius idea to buy a loaf of bread so I can munch on that periodically
But most of the time I forget and just get booze and cheap frozen pizza

[Anonymous No.8611475]

>>8611399
Not the guy you replied to but any solid is good. I have had acute pancreatitis twice and it was always after a few days of not eating. Eat any cheap shit you want but just make sure and eat.

[Anonymous No.8611532]

>>8611352
Yes, I'll be honest and say you're in a very bad way right now. A liter a day is a massive amount of liquor to be consuming - that level of drinking simply is not sustainable. Before long you will be in a hospital...not necessarily because you're dying or irreparably fucked, but because your body just won't be able to take it anymore and you'll need to detox. I've been there man; reached a point where I couldn't get out of bed anymore. Couldn't keep any sort of food down, so I had zero energy. And I was on a fifth a day, not even a liter. Go to a hospital and be medically supvervised through the withdrawal and detox. It's going to suck, but if you don't do it now, I promise you'll end up there sooner rather than later because you will have just ran out of options.

[Anonymous No.8611540]

>>8611475
How much/long had you been drinking before you got pancreatitis? Do you still drink now?

[Anonymous No.8611545]

I'm on day 6. I haven't gone this long without drinking for more than 3 years. My vision is better, I wake up without feelig like shit, my kind is clearer, and I have so much more energy. I've been cooking great meals when I get hone instead of drinking on an empty stomach to get as drunk as possible. I've been eating about 3 grams of kratom a night, which subdues the desire to drink. It's not a perfect solution, but I feel really good.

[Anonymous No.8611569]

>>8611545
Good for you anon, keep it up

[Anonymous No.8611577]

>>8611545
You'll be back, they all come back. A life of lies or a short, drunken truth mercifully ended by liquid suicide? If I'm going down I fucking hope you are as well. Fuck this faggot circle jerk. I hate you all and hope you suffer more than me.

[Anonymous No.8611592]

>>8611577
See you in hell, friend.

[Anonymous No.8611601]

>>8611577
checked, and I love you too anon

[Anonymous No.8611606]

>>8611592
.>>8611601
When you come back here crying about failing you tell them Beelzebuzz sent you. You worthless piece of shit, fucking crying on the cooking board of 4chan. You disgust me more than I hate myself and I'm a fat cunt sitting naked and smelling his smeg.

[Anonymous No.8611629]

>>8601024
ive been off opiates for a week , you drunks make me laff ! weak cunts .

[Anonymous No.8611632]

Fuck, sorry guys. I have been an asshole, even if it was only meant to be '4chan' humour. I thought it was funny but reading i back I just want to say I haven't been cruel enough to you fucking lightweight cunts. Seriously, fucking neck yourselfs you dysfunctional pricks.

[Anonymous No.8611635]

>>8611606
What are you drinking tonight anon?

[Anonymous No.8611638]

>>8611629
Haha, drunks can actually die coming off alcohol. Smackheads just cry.

[Anonymous No.8611647]

>>8611635
I was drinking rum but now I'm drinking emergency beer and need to go to sleep as it is half 5 in the am.

[Anonymous No.8611648]

>>8611632
Are you ok? Do you need to talk?

[Anonymous No.8611654]

>>8611648
Fuck off, I hate cunts that want to talk. This soft shite is what got cunts here in the first place. Call a cunt a cunt and be fucking done with it.

[Anonymous No.8611846]

>2 hours until store opens

[Anonymous No.8612257]

>>8608456
>lithuanian fag
cheers cunt, same here

[Anonymous No.8612344]

99th birthday

[Anonymous No.8612415]

the ol' still drunk after 7 hours sleep

[Anonymous No.8612436]

>>8611632
Kek go drink again you mad cuck.

[Anonymous No.8612437]

I can do this.
I can.
I will achieve this.
One step at a time.
I will. I WILL manage to eat something.
Wish me luck, I'm going in for a bite.
>braces self
LETS FUCKING DO THIS THING. *warface*

[Anonymous No.8612439]

>>8601209
Yeah.. so Am I.
Gotta finish the whole pack once its started.

[Anonymous No.8612443]

>>8601423
Ma nigga

[Anonymous No.8612444]

>>8602298
U still Alive famalam?

[Anonymous No.8612455]

>>8612444
Meh. Surviving. This isn't living.
How's you anon?

[Anonymous No.8612464]

>>8612455
I'm good. I have to leave for work, just had 2 Café Chemineau. It will makes me last until the evening.
Have a good day anon.

[Anonymous No.8612468]

>>8612464
Forgot pic

[Anonymous No.8612469]

>>8612464
I won't, but thanks Breh. Lorazepam plus vodka is pretty cosy. Helps me to ignore how fucked I'm about to be when I try quitting both.
*drinks one on you*

[Anonymous No.8612492]

>decided to lay off the wine last night
>drank 18 beers instead
god fucking dammit

[Anonymous No.8612598]

>>8612469
I miss my xanax and IPA days really bad sometimes when the world just becomes too much to handle

But then I guess I remember the rapid and unsustainable tolerance increase and withdrawal

[Anonymous No.8612614]

>>8611654
......................uhhhh

[Anonymous No.8612673]

>>8603743
Fellow chef here.

Get into a kitchen with more straight cut dudes. Some place that takes a clean image seriously.

I've been between kitchens where chefs rarely drink, and where chefs drink 1-4 beers after knock-off a couple of nights a week.

The difference it'll make out of your habits is noticeable. It's a path worth taking to, especially if you're serious about your career.

[Anonymous No.8612678]

Are there ever any grils in these threads? Like, at all? Approximately how sausage is this?

[Anonymous No.8612727]

>when you haven't cleaned your piss pot for so long that the smell wakes you up at night

[Anonymous No.8612740]

>>8612678
Leave while you can, friend.

[Anonymous No.8612743]

Last night I drank something strong as fuck (two kinds of rums with brandy and other shit) and now my throat is really sore and my voice is bad.

How long til I recover? Should I eat/drink something specific to heal faster?

Pls help me alcoholics, first time this happens to me when drinking ;_;

[Anonymous No.8612806]

>>8612743
Drink beer and it will smoothen up everything.
Typical blonde ale (5%), cold if you can.

[Anonymous No.8612882]

;_;

[Anonymous No.8613072]

I had a very good day, and a decent night, and to celebrate I decided to get drunk and listen to Leonard Cohen and now I'm very sad.

[Anonymous No.8613087]

>>8613072
No need to be sad hombre.

[Anonymous No.8613092]

>>8613087
Lenny makes me sad.

[Anonymous No.8613118]

>>8601165
Depends. For me, no. There is no such thing as one beer, and I have to be very public about my sobriety so the weight of the people I'd disappoint becomes heavier than my desire.

[Anonymous No.8613415]

>>8601165
I can't stop once I have started.