Al/ck/ - glimmers of hope edition

[Anonymous No.10580362]

old >>10571309

How you doing tonight lads?

[Anonymous No.10580369]

I have nerve damage. I had a stabbing pain in the top of my foot, the middle of my shin, then my hip.

[Anonymous No.10580375]

>>10580362
Currently drinking vodka.
Feel miserable.
I am having a meltdown with my life and don't know what I'm doing.

[Anonymous No.10580377]

>>10580369
I know it's a Korn lyric, but sometimes I genuinely cannot feel my face

[Anonymous No.10580389]

>>10580339
I thought sticking around here once I'd stopped drinking might make me relapse. Very much the opposite, it reminds me how fucking awful it becomes, and helps me to stay clean. I hope we can keep al/ck/s quality (and average poster age) up because this place is a really valuable resource.

[Anonymous No.10580413]

>>10580375
What's going on?

[Anonymous No.10580418]

>>10580389
Oh and this pic helps. I can feel the nausea, hear the tinnitus, feel the heartburn and the desperation of waking to withdrawals and having to struggle/stumble/fall/slither to the nearest source of vodka. every day, day after day. fuck. that. life.

[Anonymous No.10580432]

1.75l anon here. I’m not dead, I just haven’t posted in a while.
I’m finishing a round of kidney dialysis.
I’ll miss you guys but I can’t fuck around anymore.
I died briefly and went through a forced detox, apparently my shit is all fucked up. On the bright side, I have no desire to drink, reassuring myself that my addiction was purely physical. They had to keep feeding me benzos after I came back to life.
A lot of my ribs are bruised or broken from cpr, I think I was declared dead for a total of 23 minutes.

[Anonymous No.10580446]

>>10580432
Have a good recovery man. Drop in and let us know how you're doing sometime.

[Anonymous No.10580475]

Anyone else hate living with there parent's? Wherever I drink I am very awkward around them and they know I am drunk. I wish I had my own place, so I don't have to be around my fucking mom. Also, the enable me to drink

[Anonymous No.10580486]

>>10580475
I live with mine and yeah.
I drink at night when they go to sleep and just drink all night in secret, but sometimes I can't wait all day and start hitting the bottle throughout the day.
I thought I could pull it off but you can tell my parents knew I was up to something, but I was a bit off.
Like me too, I wish I lived on my own so I wouldn't have to feel ashamed for drinking.
Like I want to go out and hit the bar and have casual drinks at home, but my parents shun it so much, and I think it jut makes it worse.

[Anonymous No.10580488]

>>10580479
that's just the default way of feeling if you're day drinking and not eating. i used to force food down maybe twice a week, normally just tins of fruit which i'd keep around my bed.

[Anonymous No.10580492]

getting tired of the mental sickness meme tbqh

[Anonymous No.10580503]

>>10580492
how do you mean?

[Anonymous No.10580507]

>>10580362
Just had a nice cool beer, feels good to be able to control myself

[Anonymous No.10580508]

>>10580503
hypochondria and physical dependence on amphetamine, minor psychological dependence on alcohol

[Anonymous No.10580515]

>>10580486
If I lived by myself I think I would be better off and I wouldn't drink so much. My mom is also a alcoholic and causes my depression/anxiety for the most part. Its not healthy to be around your parents so much, especially if your a grown man.

[Anonymous No.10580520]

>>10580362
>glimmers of hope edition
Nice.

Got up at about 3:30 pm today and started drinking.

[Anonymous No.10580523]

>>10580508

You're probably sub 30. Later in life you body starts to fail you. You're not bright enough now to know that but it will happen. Eventually you'll have shit going on that you can't believe. Random neuropathic pain, arthritis, osteoarthritis, rheumatoid arthritis, your body will betray you. You're just too fucking young and stupid to know any of this. But you will live through it.

I know how you die.

[Anonymous No.10580527]

>>10580515
I just want to put in a warning, I lived with my parents a bit too long and when I finally got out of there my drinking actually worsened because there wasn't a single person around to give me the slightest reason to moderate at all.
I'm not saying that would happen to you, but I would definitely say be careful.

[Anonymous No.10580540]

>>10580527
Living alone, especially if you don't have any family or friends nearby, is brutal for drinking. Nobody even knows how far into /alc/ I am because I get it together the best I can for the rare times I see them. As far as they know I just like to party a little too much.

[Anonymous No.10580587]

>>10580362
what we drinking tonight lads? just sipping bourbon since afternoon.

[Anonymous No.10580617]

>>10580587
Pic related is what I do every day since I stopped buying liquor for the house. I also pretty frequently compliment a six pack or so of this with a 500ml box of chardonnay at night.
Needlessly expensive but it keeps me drinking less than I used to even though I'm still physically drinking like all the time.

[Anonymous No.10580751]

>>10580540
My pregnant wife told me at 5am that she wants to 'take our son away somewhere for a few days'.
I think I should let her but even the thought of it is so scary.
This current bender I just keep drinking even though my stomach screams no. I continue to drink when I'm just on the verge of total body shutdown.
After today I think I'm headed for the ER. Well it's been fun. Keep safe fellow al/ck/s

[Anonymous No.10580796]

>>10580751
i used to have a gf on whom i relied a lot emotionally. well, two actually. the bender when they leave, christ help us, it's absolute savagery. i once spent like 2 and a half days without water because ataxia fucked my legs even when drunk. i eventually spent like half a morning managing to reach the kitchen. i wasn't sober one fucking hour for years.

[Anonymous No.10580804]

>>10580362
Hope everyone is hanging in there. I'm currently wrapping up a week dry. On naltrexone to curb cravings. Took work off to focus on a full detox and recovery so I've been hitting the gym like hell along with meetings. First time in my life I'm feeling confident about life without alcohol. Hoping I can keep the positive momentum going.

[Anonymous No.10580831]

>>10580796
How long sober for now anon? I hope you made it.

[Anonymous No.10580844]

Just got back into weed after six years as an Armyfag. I've only had like two drinks this whole week, down from a litre a night.

Feels good man.

[Anonymous No.10580864]

>>10580796
man this brings back memories. well, fragments of them

[Anonymous No.10580869]

>>10580831
>sober?
0 hours. no booze since feb 1st though. so nearly 100 days. only problem is weed tolerance, and uk prices being demented because it's illegal here. i'm spending thousands, but it's fucking worth thousands. i'd give everything i own to stop drinking. i mean if i don't it'll take everything anyway, and i'll still be drunk.

[Anonymous No.10580892]

good, since i switched to a huge cup and little alcohol. Alcohol is starting to back up. I now have to much alcohol. I'm stock some away though.

[Anonymous No.10580941]

>>10580869
Oh, you are the UK Brah.
Yeah, I've gotta talk to my wife about this after my next horrid stint of withdrawals.
I think I could convince her weed is the lesser of two evils. Fuck I hope I can. It is truly by far the lesser of the two.

[Anonymous No.10580966]

>>10580892
little sip here and there, i think i'm moving into a soda faze. not all that interested in alcohol anymore.

[Anonymous No.10580968]

well its time to get started i suppose

[Anonymous No.10580969]

>>10580869
any plans to get off the green eventually lad?

[Anonymous No.10580971]

>>10580966
*phase

[Anonymous No.10580977]

one week sober today. get results from blood test, breath test and ultrasound this afternoon. Wish me luck boy.

[Anonymous No.10580979]

>>10580523
I'm turning 30 in a few months and the reason i've been mentally fucked up is i have noticed that the body starts to fail

i caused a bruise by slapping a table too hard

admittedly that was because i was talking to someone who said his friend had 1.3M in crypto and lost 500k

I, on the other hand, had 1.3M and only lost 400k.

oh yeah, crypto is why my amphetamine usage turned into a dependence.

fuck crypto forever

[Anonymous No.10580990]

>>10580432
As someone who was semi-regularly buying 1.75l, this post is pretty scary.
Maybe this self forced sobriety business isn't so bad.

[Anonymous No.10580992]

>>10580977
Breath test? Too see how bad your breath is?
Also good luck!!!

[Anonymous No.10580993]

>>10580969
no plans. i mean i hope i can ditch that too, but if im not drinking idgaf how much i have to smoke.

[Anonymous No.10581001]

al/ck/ is scaring me straight

[Anonymous No.10581005]

I would say drink till you get sick of it, but not always works.

[Anonymous No.10581006]

>>10580432
Oh jeeze I missed this post. Good luck anon. The paramedics really didn't want you to say goodbye.
I hope you have a great life now that you are on the other side of it.

[Anonymous No.10581010]

>>10580993
Fair enough. Try not to turn into a brainless stoned wanker though, we've got enough of them already. And I love the stuff myself.

[Anonymous No.10581020]

>put slice of lime in shitty imperial vodka
>feel like James Bond

classy, yeah

[Anonymous No.10581042]

>>10580369
swollen right arm, swollen vein right side neck, spleen pain, upper chest pain
it is what it is

[Anonymous No.10581059]

>>10581020
read the original bond books
guy was hammering it

[Anonymous No.10581065]

>>10581059
I must do this actually, always meant to. Wasn't he based on a young Christopher Lee?

[Anonymous No.10581068]

>>10581042
Doesn't sound good anon.
How long for? Sounds like a trip to the dr to me

[Anonymous No.10581112]

any opiate users on? i'm constipated and don't know what to do to pass this stool

[Anonymous No.10581115]

>>10581068
slowly crept in and gotten worse over the last couple months
collapsed january, had chest x-ray and blood test and all came back "normal parameters"
might have to set up another appointment and say hey btw, blood tests and x-ray might not have covered everything

[Anonymous No.10581120]

>>10581065
christopher lee biography is worth a read in itself
... brb amazon

[Anonymous No.10581122]

>>10581115
Has it made you think about trying to go dry at all?

[Anonymous No.10581123]

>>10581112
nah, fuck that horrible stuff. there's nothing you can do as far as i'm aware. just be thankful you don't have constant diarrhoea.

[Anonymous No.10581131]

>>10581112
It's gotten so bad for me that I've had to go up there with a finger and scrape it out piece at a time. It doesn't get out much, but it gets the need to poo to go away for a day until you need to 'scrape' again.
I strongly recommend you use a glove.
No homo.

[Anonymous No.10581136]

>>10581131
did you hear about the constipated mathematician?

he had to work it out with a pencil

[Anonymous No.10581142]

>>10580804
You're gonna make it.

[Anonymous No.10581147]

>>10581136
Before I had to use my finger I tried the handle side of an old toothpaste.
It wasn't painful but oh lawd the amount of blood. Would not recommend.

[Anonymous No.10581149]

>>10580804
Just remember if you wreck again you've already made a start and you know what to do next time. Good luck m8

[Anonymous No.10581150]

>>10581142
Yeah his story is motivational as fuck.
*takes another long swig
I'm pathetic

[Anonymous No.10581159]

>>10581122
i only drink once, twice a week now, 4-6 pints a time
and as said before january blood tests said no problems here
probably heart or cancer

[Anonymous No.10581165]

>>10580992
lol nah, meant to somehow be able to tell if you've bacteria in your gut by blowing into a balloon, idk. Thanks man.

[Anonymous No.10581176]

>>10581123
>>10581131
>want to get rid of it
>can do so
>but forcing it can damage you forever and cause fecal incontinence

life is awful

i'm ordering helium
\
going to go walk around for 20-30min and plan my suicide when i get back

[Anonymous No.10581179]

>>10580362
4 days sober, got blitzed well this is two days I have phoned in sick.
Yesterday I slept then got drunk 9-10x 500ml cans, so today is a no-show.

[Anonymous No.10581182]

>>10581159
Please get a full checkout. They did a half assed job the first time anon. All the best.

[Anonymous No.10581187]

>>10580375
Everyone feels like this.

It......gets better....... with age

[Anonymous No.10581189]

>>10581176
Please no.
A finger is gent all and you can feel what you are scraping out.
Think of it as a game for adults that you would never tell another living soul.

[Anonymous No.10581195]

>>10581159
Could just be severe chronic anxiety and exhaustion.

[Anonymous No.10581196]

>>10581179
Damn please go in tomorrow, and get a doctors certain today to keep them happy. Don't loose your job over this shit tier drug.

[Anonymous No.10581200]

>>10580751
Try not to fuck your family up.
Try being a weekend warrior, no one needs a daily boozer.

[Anonymous No.10581201]

>>10581189
i'm jk i'm not gonna kill myself

however after walking idk wtf to do since i'm pissed and i'm passing this but the last one made my hemmeroids bleed a bit and i dont want to damage muscles forever

[Anonymous No.10581202]

>>10581112
I remember a time I went to new orleans for a couple days drinking the entire time, I puked the first night there and then snorted a painkiller on an empty stomach, I think vicodin. Might have snorted one or two more times throughout the trip. Thought I might die when I finally took the massive shit in a rest area on the way home. Biggest shit of my life.

[Anonymous No.10581207]

>>10580979
It fails after 25, you notice it at 30.
kek, I moved 5000 miles away before I turned 30, worth it.

[Anonymous No.10581214]

>>10581112
You're not dosing enough.

[Anonymous No.10581219]

>>10581214
I've never taken opiates. I just know opiod addicts know how to manage constipation.

[Anonymous No.10581224]

Anyone else bought a homeless go-bag? Im scared that I’ll relapse and this time lose my home. So scared that I’ve bought a tent, sleeping bag, large water bottles, tins and a portable gas hob. Trying to get a solar panel together for phone charging. Thinking about burying food boxes and backup resources while i still have the means. Anxious as fuck about being on the street.

[Anonymous No.10581229]

Sorry to just butt into the conversation.
Long time lurker, first time poster.
I guess this is a dumb question but I'm not sure.

I go through 4.5 litres of cheap ass wine per day. It's $3.33Au per bottle to be precise.
Anyway I read that a lot of you don't eat while drinking. I cannot do it. I just drink directly from the bottles. I count the mouthfuls so I know I've gotten to 10 but I aim for 15. It tastes so fucking filthy that I need something to eat immediately afterwards. I'm talking a small mouthful. Can be almost anything as long as the flavour can hide the flavour of the wine so I don't want to throw up after.
Anyone else do this or is me the autismo breed?

[Anonymous No.10581236]

>>10581201
Oh shit you didn't mention you have the piles, man. Yeah I have no clue what advice to give you then.
Do you have super bad chronic pain or you just addicted to the opioids?

[Anonymous No.10581242]

>>10581182
god bless the nhs
the x-ray i had was at a hospital where a few years back a friend had an operation and they left shit in him that gave him brain damage
... an another mates mum died of cancer after being treated there and he said he wanted to kill the doctor in charge
i just took it as guy being upset his mam had died
maybe paying for private health care like bupa is the way to go after all

[Anonymous No.10581244]

>>10581196
Damn, it is the breaks of abstinence where we realise wee are fucks.

I'll try tomorrow, funny how you make 100 excuses how I deserve a sicky, worked 12m not one sicky, used to go to work sick, battle through.
But after I got sober, got a virus, recovered, first thing I did was get hammered, work up today, reached for the booze.
Reason I can't drink vodka is because I have no control.
I have a really easy job and it is high paid, at least to what I am used to.
I will go to work tomorrow.
Chairs

[Anonymous No.10581248]

>>10581224
>hob
fellow bong, yes? Obviously having all that is better than not having it but I don't think you should worry too much. If you're not 100% 'raving in a bus stop' mentally fucked or on smack it's not hard to stay off the street here. If you have your wits about you enough to go and see the council you'll at least be put up in a hostel or something.

[Anonymous No.10581257]

>>10581195
no job, no wife, no kids, no stress
living off savings
bp 107/70 pulse ~70bpm
dont think its exhaustion or anxiety

[Anonymous No.10581265]

>>10581219
I found suppositories worked when I was a smack addict and it had been weeks since a movement. But mostly I'd just ignore it and get high.

[Anonymous No.10581275]

>tfw cant stop shitting myself, vomiting or sweating

When this taper is over I am never drinking again holy fuck, the withdrawals were brutal this time round

[Anonymous No.10581281]

>>10581229
Why would you eat while drinking, unless you are using alcohol, responsibly :)

You need to chill your wine so it is cool, try adding ice cubes, or put in the freezer, it will taste better.
This will mask the taste 100%

I don't know your crazy ozzy taxes, how shitty your wine is, but
You need to slam the first 500ml in 30m or 1hrs, the faster you drink the faster you feel it, the less you notice your drinking piss.
Try drinking out of a pint glass, have you tried adding robena or a cordial.

[Anonymous No.10581296]

>>10581242
I'm in Australia, so I'm unlucky-ish.
I should be dead but they look after you for free -once you are on deaths door.
Alcohol has had me in intensive care twice.
I don't know why they care because it's my fault why I'm there. Each time I've been ready and willing to die but they wouldn't let me. They really did a fantastic job.
Then I go to a local GP asking, no, begging for benzos to help me take a break, and without using these words, they tell me to fuck off, and act as if I'm wasting their time.
The medical system is so broken here too, just in another way.
I hope you can have a great life from here on out anon. I can't give advice how to make it however I'm so sorry. Even with a great wife I can't make it.

[Anonymous No.10581315]

>>10581244
Chairs to you too anon.
I'll be here tomorrow, I'm sure. Please tell me when you are on your way to work. You can do this!

[Anonymous No.10581328]

>>10581281
Thanks for the feedback man.
I'm usually into my second bottle by 30mins.
I'm usually finished that by 1hr and onto my third.
Then I go pass out in bed until its either want to die vs drink rinse repeat.
I hope that makes sense.

[Anonymous No.10581353]

>>10581296
Diff Anon, they don't care they have a duty of care.
Bezos are the devils whiskers, they are doing you a favour, go to inpatient detox or taper down to 4 beers a day, and if you can maintain 4 a day, just stay there.

[Anonymous No.10581364]

>>10581296
never been intensive care but ive had doctors say cut back on the booze mate
so i did from 2016-2017 and since then only drink 1-2 times a week about 4-6 pints a time
which is why now im going is health issue booze related? nah cant be, blood tests say im all good....

[Anonymous No.10581371]

>>10581328
sleeping during the day, I know that feel, I used to drink drive and have 50+ units a day.
You can't keep that up long term, so thats why I tell all boozers, eat something motherfucker, bc you will regret it, not eating is how you get really had withdrawals, fuck up your entire body ect ect.

I have typed used to in ten fucking threads now whats up with that.

[Anonymous No.10581386]

I really want pussy so bad right now.

[Anonymous No.10581390]

>>10581386
sent ;)

[Anonymous No.10581399]

>>10580362
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GwmVfewqu7I

[Anonymous No.10581428]

>go walk for 15 minutes & squat on toilet
>Constipation kinda solved.. can pass small pieces

I hate being a hypochondriac

[Anonymous No.10581439]

>drinking buddy/older brother moved from 4 hours away to only 10 minutes
>we are the two black sheep of the family


I can feel the stabbing stomach pains and pancreatitis already

[Anonymous No.10581440]

>>10581428
constipation made me drink.
t;alkie

[Anonymous No.10581474]

>>10581399
ow, my heart

[Anonymous No.10581512]

I visited the ER on monday. I was at work and starting shaking and my arm and neck kept locking up, eventually I couldn't keep up with what they were asking me to do. I was like "I need to sit down" My boss got all serious and thought I was having a seizure, which I have before... None of my friends and family were answering the phone to come get me. My boss was taking it very serious and wouldn't let me drive home. They called the EMT to get me out of work, and they took me to the hospital. They said my blood pressure was way too high. I got to the hospital and they started checking me out and asking questions. The thoughts of suicide came up and I told them my plans were too drink myself to death. I had been slamming liters of fireball and a lot of malt liquor. My question is can I really just die from drinking too much? I was only in the hospital for like half the day because I told the psychiatrist I didn't want to go to inpatient therapy, so they basically just sent me home and to go to detox.

[Anonymous No.10581517]

>>10581265
and here i am panicking about no (well, a partial) movement in 2.32 days

being a hypocondriac substance addict is the absolute worst. i am scared of quitting my pathetic drinking habit due to fear of kindling

[Anonymous No.10581548]

>>10581512
If you are drinking litres of fireball you deserve to die.

[Anonymous No.10581549]

>>10580475
I used to think it would suck, but really I'm just happy to not be sleeping in my car anymore and am able to shower. Definitely appreciate my mom giving me the spare bedroom.

[Anonymous No.10581564]

>al/ck/ - trouble defecating general

[Anonymous No.10581568]

>>10581512
Also hadn't eaten for a day. Which turned into two days after I got out of the hospital. I'm just wondering if my body is weakened enough, like no water or food for a couple days and then I slam like 10 fifths of fireball over a weekend can I just die? The way I just went home after the hospital made me feel really worthless. I'm on a couple medications, but I'm not happy with it, and going back to drinking while on them doesn't help either. I'm really depressed. I just the last 3 days in bed just sleeping, that's it, got up for water couple times a day and ate when I could which wasn't much. Today was a day I actually moved around. I called work and plan on going back tomorrow . Haven't drank since Sunday, I was literally about to on wednesday start slamming some, but someone walked in my room to check on me. So I haven't drink still..... I want to tomorrow after work... probably try my plan again soon.

[Anonymous No.10581595]

>>10581512
America. No coin so no help anon. You should still still be in hospital. I'm sorry your Jewish system failed you so badly, but it truly has.

[Anonymous No.10581651]

I love the country I live in. I'd never really given it much thought beyond a vague sense of it being pleasant scenery before but I've been doing some outdoor work recently and it's beautiful. The countryside is an absolute riot of fascinating shit everywhere you look, it's not just a flat image of green/flowers/walls/sheep.

[Anonymous No.10581735]

>>10581512
at that intake you could easily die of DTs if you don't manage it properly. your boss sounds like a good dude

[Anonymous No.10581736]

>>10581142
Thanks brother. I check these threads daily so all of you guys - sober or not - are contributing to my recovery.

[Anonymous No.10581744]

>>10581150
You're not pathetic at all, man. I was an all day every day drinker for close to a year. A very functional one, but still drowning in the sauce.
Detox is the worst you'll suffer physically. If you can persevere through that then you can overcome this shit.

[Anonymous No.10581746]

>>10581399
if were doing the whole music vid thing then
https://youtube.com/watch?v=spVBy5FxZcg

[Anonymous No.10581755]

>>10581149
Thanks man. I've relapsed once before and it's fucking shitty. Dealing with withdrawal knowing full well what you're going into is awful and a strong motivator to stay sober once it's over.

[Anonymous No.10581791]

>>10581755
I had the worst WDs of my life a couple of weeks ago and I was convinced it would scare me off drinking forever, but my 'taper' is already turning into just getting drunk every night again. Crazy how sure you can be and all for nothing, and in such a short space of time. If nothing else it made me slow down enough so I don't have to worry about waking up terrified to find out what I did for a while. I mostly feel pretty hopeful these days, meeting people in AA and stuff who took years and dozens of attempts to quit before they made it has taken the pressure off, in a way. Long as I can keep it somewhat under control and not go totally crazy every night I'll get there in the end.

[Anonymous No.10581808]

>>10581744
I overcome it for a few days, then I find an excuse to drink again. Then I drink so much to avoid the anxiety I don't even feel when sober and then rinse repeat.
I want alcohol out of my life but it's a two minute drive one way and a three minute drive the other way and I just need to buy a box cutter for my arms.
I'm not serious I'm too much of a coward to do it. I think about it plenty but the closest I have come is just a lot of pills and a car gassing. Clearly I failed at both :/

[Anonymous No.10581819]

>>10581791
Yeah I'm almost 40 and had the worst wds ever the last few weeks. I'm on another bender.
God I hope you make it anon.
I have a great wife and a great kid but I still drink to forget the pain. I don't deserve to be alive.

[Anonymous No.10581834]

>>10581819
shoulder to the wheel man, just keep trying. you'll make it or you won't

[Anonymous No.10581846]

>>10581248
>hostel
nah fuck that. they're extremely violent. a bunch of insane, drunken, tortured people are thrown into a building together and left to it.

[Anonymous No.10581859]

>>10581275
yeah they're much worse every time. problems really begin when you start seriously trying to quit. it took me years of constant relapses to get off booze, all that constant stopping/starting tingled muh kindles hard.

[Anonymous No.10581867]

>>10581846
I meant an actual hostel for the general public, not a shelter. Where I am the council put up some of the newly homeless in shitty lodgings. It's still pretty grim but it's not like you're fighting off bums with needles all night

[Anonymous No.10581878]

Friend's dad is getting his fucking legs chopped off due to complications of previous 'lism. Was walking, driving, and not drinking for the last few years, now his entire fucking legs are being chopped off and given less than two years to live.

Hope you guys have fun!

[Anonymous No.10581887]

>>10581878
I'm too tall anyway

[Anonymous No.10581902]

>>10581878
Holy shit - what's the diagnosis??

[Anonymous No.10581906]

>>10581902
Guessing diabetes but not guy you are replying to.

[Anonymous No.10581913]

>>10581808
I've been at that point too, man. I was also too much of a pussy, though I sliced my arms and tried to od on pills.
Are you at the point where you need to taper to stave off wd's? If you find you can't get through the day without a mood altering substance, have you ever tried weed?

[Anonymous No.10581915]

10 days without booze after another fuckup. Docs put me on decent benzo taper so WDs were fairly easy to get through this time. Ended up back in my hometown and am hiding from social media due to shame.

[Anonymous No.10581919]

>>10581902
some odd cardiovascular constriction in his legs that they just found, despite him being on dialysis for years and having regular checkups. Hasn't even lost a toe or foot to beetus or anything, but gonna be a regular Lieutenant Dan soon enough (if he doesn't kill himself first).

[Anonymous No.10581926]

>>10581913
Just blow your fucking heads off, Jesus. Or stop being such sad sacks and enjoy your booze while killing yourselves slowly like the rest of us.

[Anonymous No.10581934]

>>10581791
There's a tipping point for everyone that's just before the descent to the bottom. Sounds like you've gotten close. If you can, evaluate your current habit and see if you can devise a plan to cut back. My therapist has said that for those that can't go cold turkey (like me), a gradual "break up" process helps address both the emotional and physical struggles of quitting.

[Anonymous No.10581937]

>>10581926
don't be like that

[Anonymous No.10581946]

There is neither happiness nor unhappiness in this world; there is only the comparison of one state with another. Only a man who has felt ultimate despair is capable of feeling ultimate bliss. It is necessary to have wished for death in order to know how good it is to live.....the sum of all human wisdom will be contained in these two words: Wait and Hope.

[Anonymous No.10581949]

>>10581937
No. As a gun owner who has contemplated his self demise at his own hands, you do it or you don't. Anyone who doesn't have the wherewithal is hurting his personal support relations much worse than getting drunk and falling down the steps. I'm serious, don't use booze as an excuse for being a sad sack. We're all pathetic fucking losers, but don't do that.
Hope you enjoyed my pep talk.

[Anonymous No.10581956]

me and some of the other lads have been talking and...
well, this is an intervention

[Anonymous No.10581959]

>>10581919
That's insane, man. Very sorry to hear. Hoping he doesn't an hero although that's terrible to deal with.

[Anonymous No.10581961]

>>10581949
sounds like you've got some things to work out and that's cool, but there's no need to tell other people to commit sudoku. It's just rude

[Anonymous No.10581964]

Is alcohol a meme?

[Anonymous No.10581966]

>al/ck/ - constipation and suicide general

[Anonymous No.10581967]

>quit drinking
>life still sucks
heh

[Anonymous No.10581968]

>>10581961
I'm talking about faggots who discuss slitting their wrists for attention, nobody else in this thread need apply, so sorry for giving that misconception. Unless that is you, then in that case, quit being a fucking attention whore, if you're actually going to do it then do it and stop stringing everyone along.

[Anonymous No.10581970]

>>10581913
I loved weed when younger.
I'm in for a bad set of wds soon.
4 bottles left arm. I'm not even enjoying it anymore.
I need to find a weed dealer, that would likely save me. Did it save you?

[Anonymous No.10581975]

>>10581934
I'm waiting on a doc's appointment and I'm going to pretty much throw myself at his feet and ask for any help available. Like you say I've been pretty far down but nowhere near the bottom, but it'll happen soon enough if I don't get it together.

[Anonymous No.10581978]

>>10581959
Yeah it's fucked, but honestly I would take a sober look on my life. On one hand, you can make it through, and you can live with your daughters and see a few more milestones of their lives.

On the other, you'll be confined to nursing in a wheelchair, and the combination of surgery plus ongoing therapy may be an ongoing burden on your family, as well as making you want to give up the will to live later.

It's a goddamn moral conundrum of if you just want to take the exit door at that point.

[Anonymous No.10581985]

>>10581975
Outsider perspective, but what the fuck are you actually expecting? Him throwing benzos at you and telling you to go to AA while putting a gigantic mark on your medical record? Because you can do the first two without the third, if you were actually serious.

[Anonymous No.10581992]

>>10581949
I hope you have a happy and successful life anon. I truly do. Please understand that others didn't have great or even good parents. Please understand that every male in their family were all massive alcoholics. Please understand that not one of them told me to avoid alcohol, rather they glorified it. Please understand so many other things that is the reason why I am an alcoholic. I wish you all the best, I am sorry why this is what I do. I truly don't want to be an alcoholic, but it consumes my life. I want to kill myself but I guess there are a few good things so I am just too much of a coward.

[Anonymous No.10581993]

>>10581970
It helped me get to sleep and rest so my body could recover. If you're not prone to getting noided it can help with anxiety as well. If you know a dealer, getting a little bit to use as an alternative to booze/aid for quitting might benefit you.
I'd recommend portioning out your bottles solely for the purpose of killing withdrawal symptoms if they get too overwhelming. Write out a plan for tapering and stick to it.

[Anonymous No.10582001]

>>10581985
Not really, more hoping to get a quick line through to the mental health services for some kind of regular talking therapy and maybe some naltrexone to keep me on the straight and narrow until I can look after things on my own. I'm just going on what I know about the stats for treatment outcomes, I'm long past the point of thinking 'I don't need any of that DOCTOR shit yo I'm my own man lmao'. I just want to get out once and for all.

[Anonymous No.10582002]

I think the worst part of depression is that there are so few “success” stories. It’s a problem so many people have but it seems most live with it until their final days.

[Anonymous No.10582007]

>>10581992
You, like me, want to be an alcoholic. We didn't want to become alcoholics, but we want to continue. Don't give me that paragraph of excuses, you want to keep drinking, as do I. What do you think this thread is? Let's stop bullshitting each other.

[Anonymous No.10582017]

>>10581975
My doc gave me some meds to combat my anxiety through the first few days on top of some meds for long term use for cravings. It's a very good step to get your doctor involved as they can objectively evaluate what you need.

[Anonymous No.10582024]

>>10581978
That's very true. Just personally, if I decided to make the ultimate decision I would at least make my intentions and motivations as clear as possible to my family to minimize guilt on their end.

[Anonymous No.10582031]

>>10581993
I'm that guy that buys stupid amounts for the discount bulk buy then just drinks it in a day or two.
I should post on /b/ to find a dealer in my area. That works right? Otherwise what do?
I just want to stop feeling so sick 24/7 (unless passed out)

[Anonymous No.10582039]

What am I doing.

[Anonymous No.10582040]

>>10582001
What I was saying was that therapy was free in many forms, and that whatever drug you try to use (benzo ween, naltrexone, the pill from the Sinclair method) is obtainable.

Honestly, unless you want to go through government channels with an asterisk, or are seriously fucked an need an IV bag administration, then doing some research is better than throwing yourself at the whims of a system that probably won't give a shit about you. Then again, it's entirely your choice.

[Anonymous No.10582048]

>>10582040
It sounds like you're quite embittered towards doctors and healthcare, and I'm sorry for whatever happened. I'm just feeling more optimistic than that. Maybe I'll regret it but there's only one way to find out.

[Anonymous No.10582049]

just found my clonazolam liquid has leaked and I've lost more than half of it

[Anonymous No.10582060]

>>10582007
>truly doesn't want to be an alcoholic *doesnt want
>from his whole entire actual paragraph you are certain he wants to be an alcoholic even though everything he states says otherwise
>you still talk shit to him and everyone here because you are just an angry little man
God I wish you were in my house right now so I could beat the shit out of you right now. You are just an angry alcoholic who is also a lost cause. I wish I could beat the shit out of you right now.
T. Alcoholic who hates on other alcoholics because he is better then them.

[Anonymous No.10582063]

>>10582031
I'm admittedly a long time lurker who just started posting here and in /fit/. In principle, finding a dealer on /b/ sounds like a pretty bad move. Do you know any friends who might know a guy who might know a guy?
In the meantime, try portioning with the intent of quitting like I mentioned previously. If you're still really having difficulty falling asleep and can't find a weed connect anywhere, try pic related. It's a sleep supplement drink that I've used in the past - both before and during my alkie days - to get some shut eye. You can find them in some gas stations and most grocery stores.

[Anonymous No.10582065]

>>10582048
Opinions from my experience, my doctors who are in the current field, and my combat medic friend who came back with ptsd. If you're expecting a magic bullet, you will be sorely disappointed, because western medicine has only gone so far. They probably won't even know about some of the other methods or drugs that I outlined, let alone trust patient sovereignty for you to dictate that you would like another method. But like I said, it's your life.

[Anonymous No.10582068]

Has anyone really been far even as decided to use even go want to do look more like?

[Anonymous No.10582074]

>>10582060
If you truly didn't want to drink, then you'd start taking personal liberty to try and stop instead of doing this woe is me bullshit. It'd probably be easier for you to beat the shit out of me than put down that fucking glass.

Anyway, want a beer?

[Anonymous No.10582076]

>>10582065
I already clearly stated that I'm only looking for a little help to get things under control on my own, and that I'm going into it with an open mind. Nothing to do with any kind of 'magic bullet'. This is getting pretty tiresome now lad maybe we should drop it.

[Anonymous No.10582084]

>>10582076
Probably should, but if you want to get it together on your own, then you have to want to do it in the first place. It sounds like you want to throw yourself at the system, and will disappointed and come back to old habits.

Or not, spite me and prove me wrong. Just be weary of benzos.

[Anonymous No.10582107]

I have no one else to tell
But I found a lil snake on the walk back from the liquor store today.
He was on the side walk. Just laying there. Looked like he was trying to cross the road. It was an overpass, so there was no "other side" to go to.
I tried to nudge the lil guy with my boot. He got mad and snapped at it. Wee shit snappin at a boot 100x his size. Gotta feel something for the fighter.

Picked up a twig and lifted him up back to the bushes. I hope he's ok there an doesn't try to cross the road again

[Anonymous No.10582116]

>>10582107
Wholesome snekpost

[Anonymous No.10582118]

>>10582107
I like drunkenly wandering my parents' property shooting rabbits until I got 3-4 of them to put in a stew.
Rabbit haunch with cream mustard sauce on a bed of potatoes is GOAT

[Anonymous No.10582126]

>>10582107
based protector of snek. I rescued a tiny frog the other day and it felt great

[Anonymous No.10582127]

>>10582118
Unrelated (you) but still appreciated.
Rabbit is very tasty. Kinda like chicken but gamier

[Anonymous No.10582142]

>>10580362
was 3 weeks sober and then i stepped on one of he snails that been living in my yard this morning not watching where i was fucking going tired.

im 24 beers deep so far

[Anonymous No.10582144]

>>10582142
loving every laugh

[Anonymous No.10582147]

>al/ck/ - small wildlife general

[Anonymous No.10582152]

>>10582142
I know exactly what you feel
I see smooshed snails all over the walk
I hate it
Watch the fuck you going you morons.

I'm only "15 drinks" in now.
Regulatory drinks. Which are nothing

[Anonymous No.10582155]

>>10582144
>>10582144
finally gonna drink myself to death this time, not stoppoing uintil its over

[Anonymous No.10582157]

>>10582147
I have nothing else to love
Wait till you hear my opinion about the birds.

[Anonymous No.10582159]

>>10582152
You'll love having to mow the lawn after a hard rain near a wetlands area. Literally frog genocide. Even worse with the line trimmer, because you're manually killing them and flinging parts into your shins.

[Anonymous No.10582164]

Does anyone buy live lobsters from the fish market and set them free?

[Anonymous No.10582165]

>>10582152
stay strong my friend

[Anonymous No.10582184]

speaking of snails, I've had a recurring dream/vision since I was a kid of a gigantic snail in a moonlit garden at night looking at its own reflection in a pond. always makes me feel peaceful when I think of it and it comes back every few years. I wonder if it means anything.

[Anonymous No.10582187]

>>10582164
I buy them and boil them
Food is food
I halt my lawnmower for frogs. Don't get me wrong.
I have mercy for the wee things.
Accidental deaths.
Non-useful deaths.

Animals killed for food is A-OK.
Fucking give me their flesh.

I hate killing small animals because they are not edible. Not because they have intrinsic value.
Any animal I eat is given the highest of value.
A lobster eaten is elevated.
A snake stepped on a side walk is nothing

[Anonymous No.10582191]

>>10580362
First I did 4 days, then 6, then 9 + entered ketosis (felt god mode approaching). Then 4, fell off again tonight.

Getting pretty tired of this. Knowing to feel great again i need to climb the same hill. Whatever. I will, but fuck you life, fuck you time. You were never anything but a trap.

[Anonymous No.10582198]

>>10582191
but that's the fun part

[Anonymous No.10582197]

>>10582159
I used to live on a big property when I was growing up. We had a stream defining our land. Lots of frogs and shit.

They'd never get to our grass. Thank god. For the reasons you say.

But grasshoppers? Hoppercaust. Every Saturday.

[Anonymous No.10582203]

>>10582191
Ketosis is lack of carbs, right?
Can't add anything relevant to this journey.
I like carbs

[Anonymous No.10582207]

>>10581967
Yeah but we suck less when we aren't alcs. Life will always be a cunt, sometimes beautiful and fulfilling like a woman when you're in the mood and seeing all the good in her, but none the less - a cunt

[Anonymous No.10582224]

>>10582203
Just less than 50 grams of carbs a day (including sugar), maybe a tiny bit more if I went to gym that day. Feels very good, face becomes very slim and handsome, aura becomes strong and feel highly confident. All undone within two nights of drinking and eating carbs and sugar at "normal" levels. It's all an illusion.

I will always be a fat asshole trying to be something better. One slip from being just a fat asshole. I once lost 50 lbs. And gained it all back in 2 days.
Being fat through puberty cursed me in so many ways. Fuck anyone who judges me for drinking. My life is a cruel joke.

[Anonymous No.10582240]

>I once lost 50 lbs. And gained it all back in 2 days.

this is literally impossible, did you mean 5lbs?

[Anonymous No.10582252]

>>10582240
;_; im a monster anon. I can deflate my fat cells by giant amounts, lose tons of water weight, and undo it all in a few days. Worst possible genes for weight loss. Worst possible adolescence for anyone who wants to be a fit adult.

Look away from me.

[Anonymous No.10582254]

>>10582252
Are you a sperm whale?

[Anonymous No.10582266]

Been browsing the alck threads for around two weeks now, and you all seem cool as fuck. Maybe it's because the threads consists of an older crowd. Hope everyone's doing well.

[Anonymous No.10582270]

>tfw I blacked out after only 4 pints

What the fuck. They were 7% but jesus, I literally don't know how I got home. I can't see an Uber receipt in my inbox so it's a mystery to me. Anyway it's 6am and I need to go to work ffs

[Anonymous No.10582272]

>>10582266
By "cool" you mean "like you"
We aren't cool
We're all losers.

But we can provide comfort to other losers.
No one is alone. Even us

[Anonymous No.10582276]

>>10582270
>going to work after drinking hard
The most hellish hell

[Anonymous No.10582285]

>>10582266
for a thread where drunkshits gather to vent the quality of this general is bafflingly high. Like you say, it must just be the age group.

[Anonymous No.10582286]

>>10582276
I'll feel it later, but thankfully I'm at a point where I have woke up early and still feel drunk so I'm okay. Sometimes it can be a blessing.

[Anonymous No.10582288]

>>10582272
I'm actually doing good compared to most losers, I think most of us are. We have jobs and aren't virgins and probably have talents and skills many people dont.

>>10582266
Lots of retard losers become alcs but they don't end up in this corner of /ck/. This thread attracts mostly high iqs. Low iq alcs don't even want to admit they are alcs or associate with the thread.

[Anonymous No.10582294]

>>10582286
Pff, been there done that. Three hours into work and it's manual breathing can't get enough oxygen need to go home mode. Good luck.

[Anonymous No.10582298]

>>10582288
>We have jobs and aren't virgins
Haha, yeah, that's us alright...

[Anonymous No.10582313]

>>10582294
Thanks anon. It's really pot luck whether I get bad withdrawals, but I have a break at 10am so I can always sneak in some drinks if they're bad.

[Anonymous No.10582318]

>>10582298
I almost envy neets and wizards.
Wait what am I saying, I totally envy neets and/or wizards.

[Anonymous No.10582321]

>>10581112
Take handfuls of Duralax you newb.

[Anonymous No.10582330]

If I could just go back to a life of staying home and playing wind waker and getting buzzed either stoned or drinking
Just the thought brings tears to my eyes.
Come back sweet youth.
My only hope now is to make enough money to retire early. Then I will return to the womb for as long as I can before society sucks me back in and I have to get a girl and have kids or something.
Prob be like 6 months to two years. Will be glorious.

[Anonymous No.10582336]

There are so many great new games I haven't played yet ;_; don't have the time. Wait for me, fun. I must hold you again before I die.

[Anonymous No.10582340]

>>10582330
Hardship is good
It's not work you're afraid of. It's work for no reason

It's why I'm in the process of of joining the military. I want my life to push society forward some

[Anonymous No.10582343]

>>10582336
I feel the same. But also, not. I'm beginning to feel like I'm too old for many popular games.
"Fortnight" is hell to me.

I do like the new God of War.

[Anonymous No.10582371]

>>10582343
I played lots of new games a couple years back but barely scratched the surface.
What I really miss are light hearted and fun games, Nintendo stuff. I want to play the new Zelda but I can't afford the system yet.
>>10582340
So many other goals seem more important but I'm starting to realize they're not. What's important is having fun and not just working all the time or trying to fulfill myself with pussy or drinking. I want that neet life again if only for a while.
Reeeeee

[Anonymous No.10582376]

>>10582371
> I want to play the new Zelda but I can't afford the system yet.
just emulate it faggot

[Anonymous No.10582379]

bourbon
I think I've fucked up my life but bourbon fixes that for now.

[Anonymous No.10582404]

>>10582379
My exact feeling except with rum

[Anonymous No.10582418]

>>10582376
That's not what little 8 yr old me would want for myself in the future bro. It's all about attaining childhood dreams and escapism for me now. But I have to wait until I've paid for more important things.

[Anonymous No.10582423]

Munching some microwave buffalo boneless chicken and spear pickles. Holy shit yes.

[Anonymous No.10582440]

>>10582343
i bought a load of new games recently. can't even get past the loading screens without wanting to exit because i'm bored. far cry 5, only game which doesn't instantly bore me, is great though if you can run it on max settings. use a gsync monitor as well and it looks legit real. play it high and it looks freaking better than reality.

[Anonymous No.10582442]

>>10582418
only recently occurred to me that this is why people have kids, to relive their own childhoods. an escape from reality, like booze. i'd like to have an babby.

[Anonymous No.10582553]

>>10582442
Get a hobby. Buy a music instrument and get good at it. Go to the store and buy the weird meat that's on sale and quickly learn how to cook with it. Engage your sense of child-like learning. The draw is still there. There is no better way to get that mental high from succeeding and not have kids.

[Anonymous No.10582561]

I'm usually one of the negative nancies in this thread because I look around and I rarely see people that turn their life around. Life gets worse, people get old and ill and sick and never stop drinking.

When I was 25 I told myself that in 2 years I would be sober. Just 2 more years of partying then I'll be a grown up and settle down. I'm 30 now and this month I've drank more than a college dorm's alcohol supply during spring break.

We can hope to be healthier and cut down in the future but the reality is, it's a constant battle, and most of us just don't have the strength to win it, most of us will die as a result of alcohol-related disease and become another statistic.

NOW the good news is, if you're one of the few that actually manages to quit, I hear that after about a decade of sobriety and a good healthy lifestyle, your body can return to almost normal. The liver regenerates; your lungs go back to functioning as they should; and your brain, well, with the brain you only get one chance but your cognitive abilities and memory WILL improve significantly.

From the extensive drunk-depressed research I've done regarding the topic of regaining your health, my top three tips would be (in addition to obviously exercising and eating a healthy diet):

1. Fasting - yearly 7 day water fasts to improve neurodegenerative disease risk, as well as regular alternate day fasts.
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/24440038

2. Mental strain - this is important for the mind to stay sharp. Most people don't really engage in difficult mental tasks past their schooling years, but it's basically the thing that "exercises" the mind. I recommend something like programming for you guys.
https://www.health.harvard.edu/blog/mental-strain-helps-maintain-a-healthy-brain-201211055495

3. Socialising - solitude is as bad for the heart as smoking cigarettes. Post is getting too long now so I can't elaborate but it's ridiculous how important being around other humans is for out health.

[Anonymous No.10582696]

i can feel myself slipping further and further down this hole but i can't seem to stop it. both of my parents died a year ago and my drinking has spiralled sinxe then. Not at a catastrphic level yet but I down a 750ml of Evan Williams a night and I can't seem to stop it. i wish I had willpower but its just so easy to bury myself in this numbness.

[Anonymous No.10582713]

>>10582561
"Water fasting" does not exist. It's starvation. Broth for electrolytes is always taken during fast and does not break fasting.

[Anonymous No.10582715]

>>10582553

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o1dBg__wsuo

idiot. Do you ever just feel like a dumbfuck failure that never understood anything in life but didn't die from it?

[Anonymous No.10582718]

>>10582696
That is a catastrophic level already friend. Well beyond it in fact.

[Anonymous No.10582733]

>>10582713
Since fasting is the latest trend, as you can expect, there are tons of myths everywhere. YouTube, blog articles, reddit's /r/fasting. Don't listen to any of those. The link I posted (a medical review) will explain why you're wrong. Fasting means nutrient deprivation, with ad libitum water intake.

[Anonymous No.10582751]

>>10582733
I don't need your link. I am the person who explains this to you, not vice-versa.

Basically, you don't ever deprive yourself of electrolytes. Ever. All "fasting" includes requisite electrolytes intake when done for health purposes. Period. Otherwise you are kick-starting about 500 different inflammatory processes in your stupid broscience-addled bkdy.
"Water fasting" DOES NOT EXIST. YOU WILL ACHIEVE RESULTS WHILE CONSUMING ELECTROLYTES.

and stop linking shit you didn't read or comprehend it's fucking pathetic

[Anonymous No.10582762]

>>10582751
>I don't need your link. I am the person who explains this to you, not vice-versa.
Lmao this is how people on 4chan think.

You post an academic journal and they call it bro science. They post a nonsensical claim without evidence and call it the truth. Yeah for sure I'll take your word for it. "Electrolytes" is literally a meme.

[Anonymous No.10582772]

>>10582718
you're right. cheers

[Anonymous No.10582776]

>>10582772
>>10582718
yeah this is definitely at "you need rehab" levels of drinking.

i have been at almost a pint + a six pack per night and i'm terrified.

[Anonymous No.10582777]

>>10582762
You haven't read what you posted and don't even know the contents or context of it. I'm giving you invaluable advice which you are ignoring.

Good luck. Too old to waste my energy on you. I guess I'm getting a masters in nutrition for nothing

"Electrolytes is a meme" -person who purports to understand published science. What a joke.

[Anonymous No.10582787]

>>10580362
>tfw kindling effect is real

i get fucking shakes every night now and drink no more / less than i did before my last two week long breaks

[Anonymous No.10582816]

>>10582777
Nah mate, I'm the one doing you a favour because you're a real spastic. Half of the studies referenced in that literature review define fasting as "food/nutrient deprivation" with water intake.

Even if you were scientifically illiterate it should be common sense to you that through our evolution, we did not have fucking electrolyte drinks - we still evolved and developed protection from nutrient deficiencies.

You have yet to show me anything that explains how lack of electrolytes in a fast will cause any harm other than broscience reddit bullshit. I bet this dumbass takes salt and potassium during his fasts lmao.

[Anonymous No.10582821]

>>10582816
>Electrolytes are a thing that are only found in Gatorade

Keep digging it's funny

If you need an explanation of the role of electrolytes in the body, I suggest starting with Wikipedia article: electrolyte

[Anonymous No.10582873]

For me it's the McPabst. The best cheap beer sandwich.

[Anonymous No.10582888]

I've been off the sauce for over a week now. Got a new job and didn't want to risk fucking it up with my insane drinking. Sleeping has been really hard but the past couple nights I actually managed to pull it off without waking up 25 times in massive pools of cold sweat. Real sleep feels good. I think the only way I can stay off the sauce is just full on workaholic. I'm doing 12+ hours a day now and it's saving my life. Good luck people.

[Anonymous No.10582948]

>>10582715
All the time. It happens no matter how much you understand. There is simply too much to understand.

[Anonymous No.10582952]

>>10582821
Lmao you lost right there buddy. I said electrolyte drink during a fast, specifically. Had to resort to bringing up Gatorade.

It's obvious you have no education hahaha a masters my ass. I'm off now, see you later fatso.

[Anonymous No.10582965]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f4it9vK6G7o

[Anonymous No.10582992]

>>10580362
going to the liquor store to buy a handle of cheap ukrainian wodka with the wire bail stopper. i've got like 6 of these bottles saved up, i dunno what to do with them. beans? rice? spices?

[Anonymous No.10582995]

get mad at my thriftiness

[Anonymous No.10582997]

None of you are gonna make it
But i guess you already knew that
Degenerates.

[Anonymous No.10583002]

>>10582992
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e7kJRGPgvRQ

[Anonymous No.10583003]

>>10582965
nice song

[Anonymous No.10583009]

>>10583002
nice. i'll be playing this later because wodka makes me awesome!

[Anonymous No.10583015]

>>10583009
It does dude. Have a good time.

[Anonymous No.10583017]

i think i'm white trash

[Anonymous No.10583024]

>>10581595
And yet for this 'help', he'll prolly pay $3k on top of his $150/mo 'insurance'.

[Anonymous No.10583051]

>mfw anything over 20% abv make me instantly start puking
fuck this gay earth. I've got the shakes and literally can't get enough beer into me to get them to stop

[Anonymous No.10583077]

welp, guess i'm addicted to tramadol. i'm on a drug-seekers list with my doc so can't get a damn thing prescribed, so buy opiates to cope with back pain so severe i can barely fucking breathe at night. just woke with blatant withdrawals which fucked off half an hour after taking 100mg. this gun be gud.

[Anonymous No.10583093]

>>10583077
I fucking love tramadol, but it is the only drug I have flushed down the toilet.

[Anonymous No.10583360]

watching a girl i've known online for like 9 years, have a nervous breakdown. youtube vids literally saying shit like "please help me", "save me", "i just... take my anti depressants now, it's all i do" etc. hasn't signed into mfc for 2 years, adultwork profile is gone, moved in with her gran, working in a shop, is drinking excessively and getting high, dyed hair purple and blue, dating "lots of crazy guys"... etc. she's absolutely screaming for as many dicks as possible while coming to terms with getting older in the porn industry. the temptation to relapse, buy all the vodka and weed in the world and party to death with her is near-overwhelming.

[Anonymous No.10583373]

>>10581919
How old is he? If he's under 65 that's a bitch. If he's 65-70 that's when you're getting ready to die. That could happen to a 69 yo person who's been healthy their whole life,no drink,drugs,etc.

[Anonymous No.10583394]

>>10582031
Where the fuck do you find a drug dealer? How about a roomful of junkies?
Go to a couple of AA/NA/Mixed meetings and you'll find anything you want. Half the people do not want to be there but were forced to go by family,the Law,whatever. And a LOT of people in AA/NA smoke weed to stay off meds.

[Anonymous No.10583401]

>>10582118
An on-topic food,cooking,and alcoholic post. Great job!

[Anonymous No.10583409]

>>10582184
I have a memory of that being a picture in a children's book.

[Anonymous No.10583418]

>>10582270
Sounds like someone slipped you a mickey.

[Anonymous No.10583428]

>>10581878
never go to the doctor man, they will chop your legs off.

[Anonymous No.10583436]

>>10582276
>tfw your job sober is borderline hellish

[Anonymous No.10583453]

>>10583428
if i only had two years to live i think i would just keep the legs.

[Anonymous No.10583497]

My doctor prescribed me infinite xanax. I have 60 1mg pills and 5 refills, so like 300 mg of xanax. How much is enough to get fucked up on? How do you not get so sleepy? Obviously it’s dangerous to mix with alcohol, but does anyone do it anyway?

[Anonymous No.10583511]

>>10583497
i mixed valium and vodka every day/night for years, most days and nights for like a decade and a half. i've read reports from doctors online saying that it's a lethal mix, a death sentence almost. weird that they're exaggerating.

[Anonymous No.10583515]

>>10583497
xanax just makes you feel completely normal. you don't get fucked up on it. if your drinking it will probably work against it. but i have only taken it like twice.

[Anonymous No.10583525]

>>10583511
The problem I had with doing that was blacking the fuck out and going nuts.

[Anonymous No.10583529]

guy in the shop recommended this for late breakfast, not a bad cost/units ratio. not as good as tramp cider but I'm not that far down yet. let's see how it is

[Anonymous No.10583549]

oh it is just tramp cider in a girly can. doesn't taste too bad as these things go though

[Anonymous No.10583552]

stealing Lightly Sparkling for a band name

[Anonymous No.10583571]

>>10580362
Yall should give weed a try
Makes me dumb but i can actually work out the next day

[Anonymous No.10583572]

>>10583552
By band do you mean cock sucking?

[Anonymous No.10583576]

>>10583571
I would if weed didn't give me unberable anxiety

[Anonymous No.10583616]

>>10583572
that's backstage

[Anonymous No.10583619]

>>10583576
i only get a 20-ish-min rush when i smoke my first joint. if i remind myself that it's just the weed, which it is, i stop caring, and 20m later i just feel good. i can imagine it feeling intimidating if you can't consciously dismiss the anxiety.

[Anonymous No.10583626]

>>10583576
if you get drunk first then only smoke a little the alcohol kills the anxiety

[Anonymous No.10583688]

friday morning drinking

[Anonymous No.10583712]

>>10582107
I saw a vid of a dude torturing a mouse with scissors
For every.fucking animal person out there, there is a good guy
I truly hope so

[Anonymous No.10583803]

>>10583712
most people are ok, anon. maybe not great but not monsters either

[Anonymous No.10583845]

>>10583373
He's 59.

[Anonymous No.10583907]

>>10583497
I've been getting 120 mils with 6month refills for years and drink ontop of 3 to 6 mils regularly. And that's less than I used to get. Then again I was one of the kids who got a ritalin&benzo scrip in grade school. When they called them "behavioral meds". Also can't take any ssri's. Anyway benzos are very hard to overdose on-even while drinking which is why they used to like prescribing them. But I don't drink the way alot of people do on here. Daily drinking about 6-8 beers a night. Sometimes I'll go through a 12 pack.I don't blackout.

[Anonymous No.10583936]

>>10581224
You can get solar panels for charging off Amazon. They're like £30.

[Anonymous No.10583938]

>>10583626
>get drunk first
most people would throw up. definitely don't get drunk first, just have 2-3 on standby in case the anxiety hits. i don't like drinking at all if i've had a smoke, it pollutes the high, but a small amount of both can feel pretty superb from time to time. just remember that you'll instantly be five times more drunk/wasted if you smoke even a little, so beware room spinning and uncontrollable vomiting.

[Anonymous No.10583949]

>>10583936
i've kinda looked into it. realistically that's not gonna charge a modern phone. i think to keep one charged every day would require a solar charged battery and a couple of grand's worth of panels/equipment if you want it to always work reliably.

[Anonymous No.10583951]

>>10581229
Pickles are a god tier chaser

[Anonymous No.10583957]

Sat on a packed commuter train blitzed to hell and listening to ved buens ende lads. Feeling quite weird.

[Anonymous No.10584081]

Time to bring out the white wine feelsgoodman

[Anonymous No.10584152]

>>10582816
Water is for toilets.

[Anonymous No.10584548]

I am so hungover right now that I was actually thinking of drinking more to feel better. The amount of alcohol i drank last night i should probably be dead.

[Anonymous No.10584554]

>>10583949
just get a battery adapter and get a bunch of aa batteries. I have about 90. but i think i might build one of these.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iuptAgcgGKg

[Anonymous No.10584648]

>>10584548
drinking more will only delay the hangover
just make sure to drink enough water, aspirin might help too

[Anonymous No.10584718]

>>10584648
Getting hydrated right now, was about to drive to the store a buy some 40s, but I will be better off without the booze.

[Anonymous No.10584755]

I'm curious. What do you guys usually do when you're drunk? I just vibe to music and shitpost

[Anonymous No.10584822]

>>10584718
Hydration, a protein-rich meal, and maybe 2 beers max to give you a buffer towards the inevitable while you try to mitigate with liquids and something in your stomach. A multivitamin and b complex wouldn't hurt either.

A gatorade, coconut water, or pedialyte would be good in addition to at least two liters of water.

[Anonymous No.10584897]

>>10583949
I found a 12 volt waterproof solar panel and a sae(solar panel) usb adapter. like 50 bucks. should work.

[Anonymous No.10584918]

>>10584897
i guess if it fries everything i might find a small battery to run it through. but it "shouldn't"

[Anonymous No.10585005]

>>10583497
Fuck me. In Australia they are so fucking stingy.
Zero repeats on benzos IF you can get them.

[Anonymous No.10585101]

Is the desire to have sex while stupid hungover normal?
I kind of do it to hide the pain but it's also so fuk good.
Also do women feel the same? I've only dated one girl who was a drinker and she said it was no big thing for her. Is it a guy thing or just a me thing?

[Anonymous No.10585146]

>>10585101
it's called hangover horn because the hormones are coming flooding back after being repressed by booze

[Anonymous No.10585157]

>>10585101
>>10585101
>>10585101
Once jerked off like 7 times in 2 hrs when recovering from a week long binge

Free hand was trembling rly bad as i tried to search for vids lol,at least took my mind off anxiety

[Anonymous No.10585165]

>>10585101
>>10585146
I have a raging boner every time Im shitfuck hung over. Could be useful, if I didnt feel like dying everytime Im in any other position than fetal on the left side.

[Anonymous No.10585172]

>>10585101
I love to fuck after a bender but I usually go doggy style so I can just fuck and not have to move my head to the side to avoid her enduring my bad breath.

[Anonymous No.10585182]

>>10585146
Always wondered why this happened

[Anonymous No.10585191]

>>10585146
>>10585157
>>10585165
>>10585172
Top kek, I guess it's not just me then.
I asked my girl if I could fuck her in the morning. She said yes but it's now 6:30 and I'm now 10 shots deep with another 8 left I know I'll go through b4 she wakes up. I guess my dik will have to wait for another day.

[Anonymous No.10585280]

Been sober for a month
You can do it too lads. Been filling my time with anime and cooking good food

[Anonymous No.10585320]

>finding a beer in the back of the fridge you had forgotten about
Is there a better feeling?

[Anonymous No.10585321]

>>10585280
I'd rather drink than watch anime

[Anonymous No.10585341]

>>10585320
iktf. I found a cheeky bottle of cider hiding under my pile of clothes in my room earlier.

[Anonymous No.10585345]

>>10585321
Try gibli movies.
They are all boss.

[Anonymous No.10585351]

>>10585320
Having enough beer to begin with

[Anonymous No.10585353]

>>10585345
I hate anime and weebs but I agree with this anon.

[Anonymous No.10585355]

>>10585146
It's a godly feel, voice even gets deeper.

There must be some way to accomplish this without alc. Goddamnit.

[Anonymous No.10585362]

I'm drinking way less of my 65% homemade booze so I don't get random stabbing pains all over my body from neuropathic nerve horseshit.

[Anonymous No.10585365]

>>10585353
I hate webs and those faggot horse guys too, but these movies are great to watch with your kids. Their reactions and comments and questions are golden.

[Anonymous No.10585371]

>>10585362
Congrats anon, glad to hear that you are making it.

[Anonymous No.10585376]

>>10585353

I crammed a tentacle up my ass once, all I got was a suction cup hemorrhoid for my trouble. It still bleeds.

BTW, milk your prostate every few months to avoid cancer.

[Anonymous No.10585388]

>>10585376
You are drunk anon. Go to bed.

[Anonymous No.10585427]

>>10585376
H-how?

Also, the next general should be totoro edition.

[Anonymous No.10585437]

>>10585427

The suction cups keep working after they're severed from the octopus. They actually have their own sub brains that control them.

Never fuck with tentacles. Your colon is no match.

http://discoverymindblown.com/articles/octopi-have-a-brain-in-every-tentacle/

[Anonymous No.10585481]

>>10585101
it happens to me too, and i've heard alchie grils say the same thing. going through withdrawal in hospital surrounded by perfect young nurses is murer.

[Anonymous No.10585495]

>>10585376
>gay people

[Anonymous No.10585499]

>>10585427
just for you my man

>>10585493

[Anonymous No.10585501]

>>10585495

Massage your prostate until you get the 'thick shit' out or you're going to die of stage 4.

[Anonymous No.10585508]

>>10585101
Just rewatching Rome, Cleopatra is WDing from opium, she suddenly gets the urge to fuck.
They know....

Also yeah, I get horny as fuck when withdrawing.

[Anonymous No.10585520]

>>10585501
>shove things in your asshole or you'll die of late stage cancer
Not sure I buy what you're selling there bud.

[Anonymous No.10585553]

>>10585520

http://www.nbcnews.com/id/40894129/ns/health-mens_health/t/ways-help-prevent-prostate-cancer/

[Anonymous No.10585600]

>>10585508
You basically start craving a dopamine release to stop feeling like death.

[Anonymous No.10585642]

>>10585508

That first fucking scene of Rome gets me. PULLO!

I could rewatch that show on my death bed.

[Anonymous No.10585676]

i think leek and onion soup may be saving me. i feel so much better when i eat. cheap as hell too.
>30g butter
>olive oil
>1/2kg chopped onions
>1/2kg chopped leeks
>2tsp fresh thyme
>2 bay leaves
>fry on med heat until very soft
>add one been pierre pot
>cover with water
>simmer for 20 mins
>down in one, feel full and cosy, lasts 2 weeks in fridge or forever in freezer
feelsnutritiousman.

[Anonymous No.10585677]

>>10585676
>been pierre pot
*beef

[Anonymous No.10585687]

>>10585101
Most always after I get a girl back to my/her place it always ends up a few more drinks,eating drunk food,listening to The Sex Pistols,Oaisis,Pixies,Jesus&Mary Chain,The Smiths,drunkenly making out and passing out in a pile together. Then waking up and fucking the pain away. 1/2 the time we'll hangout afterwards and get/make breakfast and watch movies and I get a new fuck buddy. The major drawback is when one of them blows up your phone or just come over at 3 A.M. when you've been sleeping and not drunk(I'm a daily drinker but don't get shitfaced every night). I make them something to eat,give them half an Ambien then fuck them in the morning. A couple I'll let stay when I go out and they clean my apartment.

[Anonymous No.10585706]

>>10585600
I don't think it's the dopamine rush that makes someone feel better when withdrawing. If someone where to take a highly dopaminergic drug like cocaine or amphetamine while withdrawing from alcohol it would probably just make someone feel a lot worse because their heart will be beating even faster and they'll have even more anxiety than they did before

[Anonymous No.10586556]

>>10585676
thanks anon. I've made something similar before. Winter is just starting to settle in here so I must try again.
Celery soup is also cozy af but not for everybody.

[Anonymous No.10586576]

>>10585687
>and they clean my apartment
Fucking winning
I only ever really had one legit fuck buddy. God she gave the greatest head.
I would always turn up there drunk if I didn't pickup at the bar. Happened a lot. She never turned me down until she got a boyfriend. She still let me sleep it off on the couch, bless her.

[Anonymous No.10586649]

That feeling when you have done a days work, knowing that you have alcohol at home, first couple of shots or drinks taste like shit, then when that drunk feeling hits you

its like total bliss, my life is total shit but right now i enjoy playing vidya, shit talk and get drunk

in 3-4 hours it will be gone, and i will be miserable again

[Anonymous No.10586669]

>>10586649
Wholly fuck. You are literally me 10 years ago anon.
In ten years you can expect your brain to be fried from all the alcohol. Then you will semi-suck at vidya.

[Anonymous No.10586676]

>>10586669

i already suck at vidya, but i need the social bs

i know i wont live long anyway

[Anonymous No.10586833]

>>10586676
How old now anon? I'm 40 and well towards the grave.

[Anonymous No.10587544]

oh man, thought i had to get dressed and go to the store because i only had one beer left. just looked in the fridge, which felt like looking at my bank statement, turns out i have a full sixer.