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Mall drinker here

I fell off the wagon face first

>>9920616
I probably won't make it long either. I can't remember the last time I took 3 days off. Even 2 is a stretch.

>>9920626
Isn't it the worst? I'm ready to go back to the mental health clinic for detox and Valium

At least I have two fifths left..

>>9920654
I'm probably just going to sit at home and sweat it out for a week. I'm feeling masochistic atm.

Anyone accidentally drop your 5th and the top broke off and you ran the rest through cheese cloth to filter the glass shards out before continuing drinking?

Nope but I've spilled my vodka (muscles get real weak) on a carpet and sucked it out

>when you get so drunk and you want to conversate with anons in al/ck/ but youre too drunk to finish the captcha so you get your roommate to use your credit card to get a 4chan pass but it took a half hour to find youe wallet because you drunkenly put it in your hiding spot you always put your shit whem youre hammered and when you come to and your roommate leaves a note that says he got the oass etc and instructions you come back to post but the threads archived.

>>9920665
I have re-ate half disolved painkillers after puking them up in the shower... did it quick without letting the thought sit in my mind.

>>9920703

I've sat in a chair with two glasses in my hand.. One for puke, one for vodka.

>>9920574
Day 2 without drinking. I blacked out 5/7 days last week. Pissed all over my dog new years night. That was the last straw. Feel like shit, but no shakes or nausea. Just a cobstant headache and pressure on my face and eyes. Also anxiety. I guess I don't have it so bad. Is this the peak of my hangover?

>>9920715
you should also be pissing in old vodka bottles and leaving them around. It trains you to be a much better guesser, and aides in psychic awareness.

>>9920678
lol

>>9920732
Youre only at the 4th layer bro, we have to delve deeper into the abyss.

If you aren't having a seizure/seeing shit you'll be alright, piss bro

Does anyone drink half a fifth before eating? I feel off when i eat then drink, and i also like how hard it hits on an empty stomach.

>>9920732
Maybe? Looking back, the head pressure/disorientation was actually the worst. It should be gone by day 4. I'm on day 75 and the headache is still here though...

>>9920842
You grinding your teeth while you sleep? My gf says I do that and weird shit in mine

Day 2 of Sobriety boys LET'S GOOOOO

Didn't really sleep last night but i got up at 8am and ran 2 miles on my treadmill, plan on walking my dog around the block even though it's 15 degrees. I feel better than yesterday, still not the best. My blood pressure is high and when i got off the treadmill i thought i was going to have a heart attack. My heart was going crazy in my ears

>>9920784
drinking liquor on an empty stomach is a great way to get a stomach ulcer

>>9920892
day hundred and 2. it still sucks, but is better than drinking.

>>9920899
Good for you anon

Keep it up. I'm still knee deep in this shit

>>9920905
you still got legs bro. you and only you can pull yourself out.

>>9920909

Thanks man. I just think I'm over my head. I literally love and hate booze

>>9920867
No. I drool like a bitch when I sleep sober though. It's lessened a bit but still pretty bad.

>>9920919

Sorry to hear man. Migraines run in my family. My old man takes codeine for his. Then again he's a "recovering" alcoholic as well

>>9920934

>>9920934

>>9920892
I had before but i think theres enough scar tissue to tide me into my 20s.

>>9920947
>into my 20s

...how old are you?

>>9920959
30's sorry.

>t. 19 y/o alck currently 28

I had ulcers in my early 19-20s but i stopped for about the 8 years after. Dpesnt help my father has golden liver genetics and is a current 40+yr alc with no ill jealth markers.

>>9920968
Interesting...I'm 23 and when i binge i drink 2 or 3 pints of liquor a day. How much were you drinking to get ulcers so young? And then you were sober for 8 years and fell off the wagon?

Is it normal for withdrawals to go away for say 6 or 7 hours and then come back how they were before? Haven't drank since 6pm Sunday.

Feel really worried.

>>9920616
how long were you on?

>>9921026
Like 7 shots of 151 dehydrated after working at a bar with no food for the next 4 hours. Woke to sharp pains shitting blood.

8 years later and Lesson is? I drink hards but not 151 hahaha and cook a real good steak med rare with potatoes to drunkenly gorge on.

>>9921100
Couldn’t tell you why, but it’s 100% normal that it comes on in waves. I.e backs off, hits again, repeat. What is really worrying is that it can appear to be improving, then hit you like a fucking steamtrain, much much harder than the last. That’s when people get kil, they just don’t see it coming so don’t take action against it, then it’s too late and they can’t do a thing about it.

Just fucked up 8 days sober, The longest I've been sober in half a decade.


Thanks to my nigger neighbor blasting music 24/7, I can't sleep unless I'm hammered drunk and the police don't even come when you call them living in Detroit.

>>9921186
>living in Detroit
Tell me more please, if you don't mind.
Lately I've been watching these hood tour videos on Youtube, most of them are in Detroit. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C_WOPN-jtV8

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>>9921206
I live in north west detroit (oak park) so It's not as bad as south west. But you should not walk around or drive around detroit unarmed, No joke.

>>9921186
sucks. roomates and apartment neighbors are always shit. in fact, living in a single room apartment is is usually as shitty as having a live in roomate. you can hear your next door neighrbors fart and everything. smell their onion stew cooking, etc

>>9921213
yeah so they can get hooked on benzos too? fuck off man.

>>9921186
Noise pollution will ruin your damn life. 6 FFFFFUUUUUUCCCCKKKKKIIIINNNNGGGGF YEARS I had to listen to my FAT FUCKING CUNT SLUT WHORE BITCH neighbour’s FUCKING retarded dog yapping CONSTANTLY, at FUCKING NOTHING. It was all I could think about, it made me ill, and complaining did fuck all. One night I totally flipped, and threatened to rape, set fire to and crucify their child if it didn’t FUCKING SHUT UP.

It didn’t and they went to the police. I had to sell my house to escape. At a huge loss because nobody wanted it thanks to the noise.

I’m still going to get revenge one day. That shit has cost me relationships, a job, money and my health.

>>9921223
yea i live in an apartment. I can hear my neighbor have conversations as clear as day, So when I'm not anxious about being robbed and shot because I'm white. I'm listening to rap 24/7

>>9921206
I saw one of those videos where a bunch of really skinny Negresses were twerking on a street corner. Ostensibly they were hookers.
Absolutely animalistic.

>>9921231
Are you a man of your word or not? Get a hard on and some nails. You have work to do.

>>9921231
bro, you have no idea.

I've been living this hell for 4 years. An my car has been broken into twice, I'm mostly an alcoholic because I can never sleep and because the paranoia of being robbed and shot is overwhelming.

I haven't slept longer then 4 hours in over 2 weeks, No exaggeration

>>9921221
Have you ever been in any sketchy situations?

>>9921234
and yet fascinating, in a strange way. Easy to say when you're just watching from the computer.

>>9921250
I lost count how many lol.


I had a crackhead try to carjack me once, I had hookers show up to my door uninvited, I've seen 2 shootings, I hear gunfire at least bi weekly if not weekly, I saw a body while parking my car in mexicantown.


Shits rough over here, If you don't own a gun your a fucking dead man in a month

>>9921230
Hey, some people need them. Getting a klonopin perscription changed my life from a complete shut in to someone who can function without panic in a crowded grocery store. As long as you don't pop em like candy or mix with booze, they can be a great aid, especially during alk wd

>>9921262
if you are a substance abuser, you tend to abuse substances. Call me an asshole if you want though, because I am an asshole.

I posted in some wrong places multiple times already.blame satan

>>9921259
Its amazing how despite how many shitty cities we have, the US is still easily the greatest country in the world. I'm not being sarcastic, I truly believe it. Even when the dollar is down, at least we can contain our shittier humans to certain cities whereas theres some places in europe where the entire country is one big detroit. And thats not even taking mexico, africa, or australia into consideration

I just don't understand why humans are so fucked, or why fucking with each other is such a huge priority. The only constants in human history have been our drive for conflict and degenerate sex. Even in good times without real war, we still fuck with each other socially just to get our rocks off. Why is this the only life we get? Why are there no other alternatives?

This is why I drink and do drugs. I just don't want to feel.

>>9921273
I mostly agree with that, but until you get so far down the road that you become physically addicted to something, it is still a conscious choice to abuse that you can just as well not make. Easier said than done I know, but people need to take agency for their actions.

Besides, with something like benzos, abuse makes your tolerance rise so that they become less effective when you might need them for legitimate reasons like in a panic attack.

>>9921300
I agree with everything you just said man.


I hate society, It's fucked.

I feel safer in Mexico (literally) then Detroit.

At least you can see the cartels coming in convoys, Here in Detroit you can have a crackhead or 16yo kid walk up behind you and put one in your brain just for the money in your pocket without any hesitation. If you read fox 2 news just the other day a 16yo kid killed 4 people in Detroit for less then 300 dollars.


I hate the generation and year I was born, I would give anything to live in the 50's.

I drink because I'm afraid of being murdered and I HAVE to live in this dump. I can't afford to live anywhere else. An I can't move out of state because I'm concerned about my father aging and being left alone


Life is fucked

>>9921245
I’m so used to people robbing and stabbing me that my pulse rate doesn’t even rise, lol. I got stabbed by some junkies a couple of years ago when I was on heroin, kept going back and got into a four-on-one fight as well as being stabbed, still no fucks given so kept going back and got stabbed a third time. It’s just a part of life amongst junkies, still no fucks given to this day. I’d probably be there now if I hadn’t got off the crack and the smack. The noise pollution was A L O T fucking worse.

>>9921313
addicts cannot get past the feeling of not feeling high. it happens because being way up... too far up, becomes the norm. You chase it and can't get there after awhile. this seems to be the nature of all mood altering substances. If there is one that does not do this, please tell me so I can get to work figuring out how to abuse it.

>>9921206
seen many of those videos, all interesting
>>9921259
how did you get out of that carjacking situation?

>>9921377
>how did you get out of that carjacking situation?

I have a CPL (concealed pistol license).

I put my gun in his face and he ran, He almost got me out of the car. When a dude is high on crack he is stronger then he looks


That was the closest I ever came to killing someone

>>9921334
Actually, most addicts just don't want to experience withdrawal. Drunks, dope fiends, bartards, its all the same really. While under the influence you take a vacation from all of life's anxieties and heartaches, but as soon as the substamce leaves your system it all comes back twofold, and thats just the mental effects. If you've been in it long enough, your physical body could even go into shock and seizure.

All that chasing the dragon talk is really only true for cokeheads, but those are always normies- either fratboys or sluts or bigwig CEOs or rappers. True addicts aren't chasing a high per se, just an escape from the cold nature of reality.

>>9921397
no, shit talker. It is about mood control and a dissatisfaction with life.

you talk a lot of nothing and I do not like you.

>>9921324
I can't imagine what its like to actually live in a Detroit, Chicago, or Atlanta ghetto. I thought I had it bad living in Leavenworth, KS with all the prisoners coming in and out of the pen and the welfare layabout drunkards causing a ruckus day in and day out. All I can say is I hope you can find a way out man, with your health intact. Save your money and move

>>9921404
Okay? You sound like you're either really fucked up on something right now or are just trying to "win" a conversation about something you don't have a lot of first hand experience with. I'm not trying to prove anything, just sharing my thoughts and feeling concerning my own life that while young has been mostly spent in the grips of addiction. Go take a breather, bud

>>9921417
That's what I'm doing currently, Saving my money.

I'm hoping to move in another year or so, I want to move to Ann Arbor (liberal college town, very safe) but it's very expensive.

I'm saving every dime I have to get out of here, But my biggest fear is being killed before I can move.

The paranoia will eat you alive, I honestly don't blame the dudes around here who are heroin addicts. If every day you had to worry about it being your last just walking to your car or stopping at a stop sign, It takes It's toll on you.

I'm so paranoid I rarely am able to relax enough to wear headphones, listen to the tv louder then I can hear people walk in the hall, or even leave my apt if I don't have to.

I just hope if I do get shot, It's quick and I'm drunk when it happens.

>>9921431
Don't start a post with "Actually" unless you expect to be called a cock. Your posts are wordy and annoying.

>>9921434
As fucked up as it is it sounds less like paranoia and more like basic survival instincts. When you get to a better place you aughta try to find a professional to talk to or at least some kind of group therapy so that you don't have to carry that damage around with you for life. You sound like a good dude who was dealt a bad hand, & it'd be a damn shame if after working so hard to get out of there if you still had trouble holding down jobs or something because of the way your old life conditioned you to be. For most people therapy is a total meme, but for people with things like PTSD (real PTSD, not tumblrina PTSD) it can be a life changer. It made a world of difference for my pops when he came back from fighting in Iraq and Afghanistan, & it wouldn't suprise me if your psyche has undergone similiar stresses

>>9921442
Actually, you don't have to read them if they trigger you so much, Randy Retardo.

>>9921186
Hey Tsu.

>>9920892
Day 3 for me, did good last week and only had 24 drinks over 3 days, I feel like I might be able to kick this shit after almost a decade.

>>9921470
>12 years is almost a decade

Fuck me, I still can't think clearly apparently.

>>9921461
You are so full of advice and shit. In the real world, you'd fold my laundry and stand where I tell you.

Anyway, fuck you. Write less. It sucks.

>>9921453
Thank you for the kind words, It means a lot to me.

I don't have any friends so my only interaction is with 4chan, my parents, and occasionally my oldest brother. All my other siblings moved and don't speak to anyone in our family ou tof their own selfishness. They left me to take care of both of my aging parents alone....Which upsets me.

So i appreciate the kind words! It's rare I hear anything kind lol

I think I definitely have PTSD, My mom pointed that out to me a couple years ago. But going to see a doctor about it is hard....especially for men who were raised to not talk about feelings or act like a special snowflake.

Maybe after a few years of living in the suburbs in a few years my ego will be able to take that hit.

My dream in life is to move to a safe, quiet area and get sober indefinitely so my parents don't worry about me, An I'm not constantly keyed up and paranoid.

That's my biggest dream, I'm hoping it will come true in a couple more years.
Take care of your pops, It upsets me when I see a parents raise a child then the child abandons them in a assisted living facility when they are older. That breaks my heart.

I could never do that to my parents, They raised me and took care of me my entire life. I owe them

Shoutout to the cunt who linked the new thread in the old one.

Just watched a video of a standup comedian totally bomb on stage and literally piss himself before walking off, and I swear to Christ I’d prefer that over the cringe I’ve imposed on myself while drunk. I think I need fucking help just dealing with all this cringe, it’s too much to deal with when I can’t just drink until I don’t care

>>9921553
link

I think I've mistaken alcohol withdrawal with benzo withdrawal, getting fucking awful anxiety related symptoms and all sorts. Been taking them for a year and a half, but never had any problem stopping them for a short amount of time before. They're Etizolam. Hope I don't start convulsing, pretty scared

>>9921553
We have all done way worst then you I bet.


There are people who aren't even drunks who are cringelords, All the tripfags on r9k are a prime example. Eggman....That nigga was touching dick tips with a guy in drag.

I doubt you've danced with a tranny while thousands of spectators watch and laugh at you

>>9921561
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=o678vRzYTmQ

>>9921562
Have a drink, it’ll stop WD from both. Just don’t overdo it, drink until the symptoms are unpleasant but not scary

>>9921569
I’ve had an audience on the street multiple times. Like fifty people standing around watching and laughing before the police show up. You’ve no idea how bad it is. I’d be specific but I cannot stand to talk about it.

>>9921578
Oh and filming on their phones, obviously. I know I’m on YouTube, so I have to avoid all keywords which might yield results of me after blacking out on benzos and vodka.

anyone else only get horny when they are drunk?

I haven't beat off once in 8 days of being sober, But when I'm drunk I beat off at least twice a day.


Also i think the article about beating off every 7 days does increase testosterone

>>9921594
2 much whiskey dick 4 me, lad

>>9921594
Nah, opposite.

>>9921594
Withdrawal horn is where it's at.

>100+pm heartrate
>sweating
>can't sleep
>can jerk it 6 times or more a day

wew lad. alcohol withdrawal is basically being a stim freak by accident

>>9921562
You definitely don't want to take a benzo with as short a half life as etizolam every day, if you have been

day 7 sober, no significant cravings until I noticed that the shops will soon close... now I’m frantic, craving like mad. If I know I can get it I don’t feel like I need it half as much. It’s ten times worse with illegal stuff, because even if you’ve got the cash there’s no guarantee. Fuck me society is so backwards, they make this shit so much harder.

>>9921682
If you're craving that bad go to your doctor and get naltrexone. Doesn't work for everyone but it's worth a shot

Stay clean faggot.

>>>/vg/200000000

anyone else get really angry when they don't get drunk enough? I chug 6 sips of vodka and get furious when it doesn't hit me

>>9921709
I just chug 6 more...

>>9921262
Don't use benzo for social anxiety, that's how you get addicted since you go out regularly.
Use them for a week, 10 days max to taper. Pop one when you have a big craving or a panic attack if they're far apart.

>>9921300
>in europe where the entire country is one big detroit
That's fake news. Our dark skinned are in their containment neighbourhoods, just like you. Main difference is that the suburbs are poor and city centre is rich.
And no no-go zones either, that's fake news too.
You can add "why did I got convinced to believe the rest of the world was shit just to justify USA being the greatest of all?" to your questions. It's related to the general aggressivity of society I suppose.

>>9921334
Apparently LSD and shrooms aren't addictive in the usual sense of the term. Still abusable, and it doesn't sound like a good idea to abuse them.

>>9921453
Can confirm, you don't need to go to war to get PTSD, just some shitty life events can be enough to cause a stress disorder. Can even be more complicated to "cure" when there isn't a single event to work on.
Fucking stupid brain getting traumatised or addicted and not working properly.

>>9921562
>I've mistaken alcohol withdrawal with benzo withdrawal,
They're the same. Use one or another to taper.

>>9921221
I live in rural ScotsFag land and my biggest threat is my 80 year old neighour forcibly cutting my front lawn because he's bored...

Luckily no diversity here yet...

Pro tip: it doesn't fucking matter how many times you 'fall off the wagon' as long as you keep trying with sincere willingness. If you really wanted to stop you would slowly but surely make baby steps towards mental stability because without it you will be in the same place in 2019 and 2020 wondering what happened and lying to yourself.

I'm very depressed al/ck/

I'm not even a full on alcohol yet but am getting there. I drink mostly out of boredom and probably escapism too. My life isn't really that bad but I still hate it. I'm so fucking lonely, I haven't had a date in 4 years. I developed a crush on a clerk at my work because she's the only girl who I talk with. Not going anywhere as she's in a relationship and I'm too much of a pussy to impose myself. Probably wouldn't fly even if I had the balls. If I had the balls I would have hung myself already.

Oh well, can't do that to my father. Drinking makes acting like everything is ok easier. Most of the time.

Happy New year?

>>9921906
Homesly, if you think you're there it's too late. Once the thought came to me I'm an alcoholic it was too late.

>>9921940
I am psychologically dependent but not physically yet. I drink probably 4/7 nights a week. Used to be worse when I drank liquor now it's only beer wine. I also limit myself to 1 bottle of wine/1 six pack per session. I don't really even want to quit drinking. It has yet to cause me health problems, I can afford it, and, it gives me something to do. This shitty blog post is probably better suited for /r9k/ but that place is too spergy even for this sperg.

>>9921969
What you're drinking isn't that bad. I've tripled you on a daily basis. Your on the way though, it's a slippery slope

I just ordered a Domino's pizza. I don't even really want pizza tonight, but my post-new years bender withdrawals are so bad that I don't feel up to cooking dinner

>>9921771
FUCK OFF. Why, why WHY am I craving?? Why the fuck would I crave that shit?? FUCK!

>>9922004
Oops, that wasn’t meant to be linked to >>9921771

Also fffffffffUCK.
I’m getting one.
Just one. I’m going crazy here.

>>9921978
Yeah,
I'm not worried about the drinking so much at this point. I was/am an avid drug user and chipped with pills/dope for 7 years without becoming addicted. Only stopped when my brother OD'd in my dad's house (where I live) so I wouldn't bring the shit around him. Now I only smoke hash oil (3.5g a week) and do psychedelics once in a while.

If I stopped drinking I would still be retarded, just would have to think about it more.

>>9921731
Low dose klonopin has been fine for my social phobia, especially since I actually do not go out every day. I actually take less than my my psych prescribes me to most of the time. I do agree its bad news to take shorter acting benzos like xanax regularly though

& I didn't say all of europe was like detroit, but some countries like Serbia, parts of Romania, Ukraine, fucking MOLDOVA.... Cmon now

>>9922042
Oh yeah and the main one- "Europe's Black Hole" Transnistria

>>9921771
agreed. its all about improving.

>>9921980
What did you order?

>>9921980
Shoulda done pizza hut friendo, they're doing 50% off online orders till the 8th

>>9921969
>I also limit myself to 1 bottle of wine/1 six pack per session.
If you stick to this rule you should be OK. It'll be less and less effective and you'll want to drink more after a point. Take sobriety breaks if that happens.

>>9922042
Oh, yeah, former USSR sucks. My bad. (But most of them are pristine white, I don't think that's applicable to Detroit...)

>>9922121
I wasn't even talking about from a racial perspective, just how humans in general fucking suck and even the best parts of the world are overrun with pricks who want to ruin your day. Whether its on the low end spectrum like picking at your self esteem or at the high end with robbery/assault at gunpoint, theres no escaping it. Then you get an entire half of our species with such a twisted psychology that we still can't figure them out who is driven purely on sexual desire at the cost of wholesome purity and family bonds, going so far as to use ideals like feminism as an excuse to be whores... Everything just fucking sucks is the point I was trying to make. Sorry if it seemed like I was shitting on you just for not being american

>>9921300
>the US is still easily the greatest country in the world

Have you ever the the US?

>>9922165
Your point of view will allow you to mistreat people and add to the same situation you envision. A different perspective may increase your own self worth. Just a theory I am picking at myself.

>>9922198
Have I ever been outside the US? As an army brat I lived in Italy and Germany & vacationed to Greece, Venice, and Amsterdam growing up. I will admit that nothing beats the beauty of a european countryside and that the people there who live off the land are some of the kindest in the world, but overall from an economic and oppurtunistic perspective I do still think the US is #1.

>>9922121
Yeah, you're right. I can feel my self control waning. I guess that's why I'm here. My existential anxiety is pretty bad. I just sit in my bedroom when not working because my job takes a lot out of me. I say I am lonely but I dislike being around most people. I'm my own worst enemy.

Good news is I am out in an hour and have a blue moon and some errl at home. And GTA on my stinkpad. Before you know it I'll be thirty getting drunk playing games in my dad's basement.

By then maybe he would need someone to take care of him so I could justify my existence. Hopefully not.

Sorry for being such a Debbie downer guys.

>>9922215
Naw I'm the type of person who is practically a doormat unless I get pushed far enough to fight back, mostly I wish I could just be invisible, hence my relative shut in status. I'm just commenting on what I've seeb in my experiences, it seems like no matter how much love & positivity you try to spread it just fades into the void of shit eventually

Took 50mg librium around noon so I could try not drinking for once. Just past 7pm now and thinking about a drink.

>>9921697
dennis would probably agree

pic related

>>9922252
Librium ime does practically as much as or less than hydroxyzine, its basically just to keep your CNS from overclocking when your in a recovery state. But now that you've taken it you really shouldn't drink on it, you wouldn't die or even blackout like with a typical benzo but it would just do more harm than good overall, if nothing else it would definitely defeat the purpose of taking it in the first place

>>9922248
Pretty negative dude.

I had a great moment once where life just kept getting worse and worse, and I saw a way to enjoy just seeing how low it could go.

If you can force yourself into a different way of thinking, it changes things.

>>9922294
You realize you're posting in the al/ck/ general right? Whatever, if it works for you at least one person around here gets to be happy

>>9922308
Thats the spirit. You can all also send me five dollars and I will make a fucking pamphlet or something.

Just had a puke, looks like a bit of blood came out. I assume I have a stomach ulster? Am i going to die? Never puked blood up like this before.

>>9922334
It's hard to tell, but that looks like quite a bit of blood. I've only ever had little spots of blood after long benders.

>>9922334

The Royal Ulster Unionist Blood Brothers. I'm certain of it.

How is your acid reflux, hiccups, burping?

>>9922334
youre probably ok
t. puke pro

>>9922334
>ulster

up the ra

but seriously go to a doc

>>9922334
If you had to make yourself puke, you might have scratched your throat... you saucy whore. If not that, you may have an ulcer somewhere, but that is fresh, not digested blood.

I drank like 2 pints of distilled water. 20 minutes later I puked and there was nothing in my stomach. How does a person not in a desert become that dehydrated?

>>9922355
I regularly chug 1.5L or 2L upon awakening desu. drunks needs lots of water.

>>9922252
Benzos don't stop cravings. It stops the worst part of withdrawals (or brings a weird drunkenness). You still have to "just don't drink", but now it's physically tolerable.
They don't mix well with booze, it's ugly blackout town with possible death.

>>9922334
https://www.reddit.com/r/cripplingalcoholism/comments/z42l8/cas_and_vomiting_blood/

>>9922346
No, didnt make myslef puke. Been drinking for the past week and a half. Probably 15 - 24 beers a day.lying on couch now. Sucks, puked up a really good meal I made.

>>9922361

no wonder my back aches all the time.

>reddit

Reading through this thread, not to sound sanctimonious, but I'm glad I don't drink.

>>9922406
I'm sad you don't sky dive.

Who gives a fuck?

>>9922364
Librium is barely a benzo though, its very atypical in its makeup and effects. Its what they'll give you in a hospital if you come in with WD symptoms before sending you home if they don't wanna give you actual valium or xanax. He won't die or blackout but he still shouldn't drink on it either.

>>9920574
Holy shit today was terrible.

Why did go on a bender this weekend. I looked like a visible wreck at work today. Sweating through my clothes and just acting retarded.

Starting the taper and going to AA. Fuck this.I don't know how you liquor alcs do it

>Reading through this thread, not to sound sanctimonious, but I'm glad I don't drink.

>>9922165
Most people are evil. In fact, being a good person is a rare thing indeed. Be the change you want to see in the world, anon.

>>9922477
enjoy it anon. I hate this.

>>9922477
Escaping reality by poisoning your mind is for pussies.

>>9922334
that's definitely blood. I was the anon that yakked up some blood a few weeks ago but mine was mostly just pink, so I assume that I tore something while in the act of vomitting. The fact that it's all in one big clump leads me to think that it's clotted and that there was something there for a little bit.

Good luck anon. I'm going to AA soon myself. I had the worst withdrawals of my life today and the 6 beers I drank at dinner to taper barely helped.

Working on my first 24 hours sober. Just got home from work and this is where the craving really sets in. I'm too tired of the unending quest to drink and wake up feeling like shit every day. I'm stress eating, but it's got to be better than drinking all night, right?

>>9922478
The thing is, I used to live my life with that attitude, and when I was younger in college it evem gained me friendship and respect in some smaller circles. But ever since becoming a real adult and having to make it alone in the real world, its become obvious that goodness is either seen by the majority as a weakness to be laughed at if not taken advantage of, or an attempt at trickery to be wary of. Trying to be a good person at work just gets you shit on by coworkers trying to dump their load on you, being a good person on the street just gets you jeered or snickered at if not targeted in bad areas, being a good person to women makes you seen as either a gay pet or an orbitor to be used.

Nice guys finish last, unless you have already gotten ahead in life to the point where you have no worries left or gains to be made.

>>9922672
Bout the only thing that makes me feel good anymore is when I have the opportunity to help somebody. Figure there isn't much here for me on earth mine as well help other people find what they are looking for.

True that most everyone is unethical in how they take advantage of kindness but I doubt its because of evil. More likely ignorance. Or even the opposite, they have been trained to take what they can get. We don't have to live like that.

>>9922672
>this is what morons actually believe

I always saw this general on this board and I thought it was just used to discuss different kinds of alcohol.

Now I am just kinda sad.

Finally got through the withdrawals and all I can think about is alcohol again. I want off this fucking ride. It's like self inflicted torture.

>>9922598
>I'm stress eating
I've actually been doing that all day. Second day sober.

>>9922743
hang in there man.

>>9922672
>>9922711
You know I can't really fault people, ever since I read about the story of the scorpion and the frog. I believe it's in their nature and they don't even consciously process the fact that they're monsters, all you can do is be on your guard for them..

What I'm saying is you can still do good things (like helping people, as you said) while being aware that the world is a cruel place and that most people are psychopaths.

Ride the tiger, my man

I just got really drunk, broke my resolution and dumped in the webm thread until I broke the bump limit. What the fuck am I doing with my life.

>>9922768
No, I completely agree. I never put myself in a position to lose something I may need. I tend to be pretty meek and therefore don't need much in the first place. Most people don't need all they have materially and don't know what they have otherwise. Sometimes bridging that gap can be the most helpful thing.

As for myself most of my needs are met and I spend most of my time trying to convince myself to want nothing more. Us humans have really complicated this living thing. . .

Craving for anything to drink right now.
Making excuses to my self

>>9922743
You start to feel a bit better and that's when you want it again, because you feel good again. Shits fucked up.
Don't believe the lie your body is telling you.
You are starting to feel better only because you stopped, don't go back to square one

Red wine time.

2.30am, can’t sleep although I’m exhausted, alone as always, cold because my heating is shit, hungry because too depressed to cook, ears ringing because booze-induced tinnitus, bank account overdrawn because of addiction, unhappy, lonely, depressed, getting old and body ruined by booze. Remind me why I stopped drinking again? Life like this isn’t worth living

>>9922903
It's just so fucking weird to try and be without it after all this time. The longest I've ever managed to go in 11 years is maybe 2 weeks. But fuck, the second you start again you instantly regret it, and as soon as you know it you're on another fucking bender and feeling like garbage again.

>>9922889
Its useful for me at least to think of these thoughts as symptoms of alcoholism instead of unique thoughts from a great mind. It is hard to consider your own thoughts as a sympom or anything other than a unique idea, but I fear this is the case. The animal part of your brain is sending signals that get abstracted into an idea but that is nothing more than your bodies to desire to return to its unnatural homeostasis as quickly as possible. Luckily you are (hopefully) capable of higher-order reasoning and will be able to resist this urge if you are up to the challenge. You can do it.

>>9922920
>and feeling like garbage again

have you tried sticking to clear liquors and chugging a bunch of water before you go to bed

Detroitbro here (see itt)

Lonely as fuck and panicky, still trying to go back to not drinking because of paralyzing shame of drinking. But anxiety and paranoia are forcing me to drink

Anyone want to hang out in Michigan? I'm very shy but relatable and friendly, I'm not black or a serial killer. Lets go to del taco in Warren and smoke a big joint

Sick of being alone 24/7 and always not having someone to talk to.

>>9922937
My poison of choice of vodka chased by water. That doesn't help when you start drinking day and night every single day though.

>>9922946
Would totally but I am in NH so too far away. Wish you could come live here, no one has ever tried to kill me and the only time I hear gunshots is when I go hunting.

>>9922743
You need a hobby. Pastime would be a better word, since everything will be boring at first.

>>9922946
Try /soc/ maybe.

>>9922957
You are a lucky man. I would totally move there if I could. Country living looks comfy as fuck

How's the weather there now? It's been in the teens or below zero here for weeks. Colder then normal

What's it mean if you don't really have any appetite and don't want to eat anything until you've had a couple drinks, then you get hungry?

>>9922975
I live in the country. The bad news is that if you're an alc you'll fine any reason to drink. It doesn't matter where you live.

>>9922967
>You need a hobby
There's no doubt about that. Drinking actually caused me to lose my hobbies in the first place.

>>9922920
Yeah quitting any thing feels weird.
I quit a 20 year cigarette habit about 3 years ago and while I still drink too much I have stopped for 3 months earlier this year.
I know the feeling that you've lost something or depriving yourself of something.
You aren't depriving yourself though. You're ridding yourself of it and your body/brain is adjusting to life without it.
There will be some pain and weirdness but I promise you shit gets back to normal

>>9922979
babby withdrawals. I get like this.

>>9922979
I have the same thing.

>>9922979
Alcohol makes you hungry, that's all it is.
You get drunk and eat lots of disgusting food

>>9922975
Not exactly country where I am, I am only 40 minutes from Boston. Nice because its about 1:30 from the mountains, 30 minutes from the sea, and, close enough to the city. I am close to Lawrence, MA though which is (not as bad as Detroit based on your description) pretty dangerous. Only if you are trying to get dope though, and even then the Dominicans are smart enough to leave the custies alone most of the time.

Ever notice you never see a black all?

That's weird as fuck. If I was black I would drink constantly because I'd be afraid of being killed by the police 24/7.

>>9923012
>all

I meant alk

>>9923012
I've read addiction is actually linked to higher intelligence. I don't know how true it is obviously, but if it is...rly makes u thnk.

>>9923018
How many black people do you know?

>>9923012
All abbos in Australia are alcoholics. Something about their genetics means they can't really process alcohol efficiently or something.

>>9923012
You have never met a homeless black drunk?
Yes, they're may well be significantly less functional black alcoholics but even then there are plenty of people with demons they don't reveal.

>>9922987
I thought it might be little babby withdrawal. I only drink late at night, so I'll stomach a little food during the day but I'm not really hungry for it. But as soon as I get a couple drinks in me I raid the fridge and cabinet like some kind of stoner blaze it faggot

I think someone slipped me something on new years, because I was on drink 8 (started at 7, got to 12:30) and then BAM got sicker and the spins like a motherfucker out of nowhere. Had a terrible hangover on new years day, and haven't had a drink since.

>>9923024
Alcohol was introduced to them, so they don't have a long history with it nor did they build up good genes for tolerance to it like Europeans.

>>9923033
People are retarded and don't know what drugs do but I am having a hard time thinking of something you could mix with a drink that would make you sick but not black out/pass out and why they would dose you with it.

>>9923033
Does your ass hurt?

>>9923024
The more Caucasian you are the better you can metabolize alcohol.
Goes for animal milk too.

>>9923038
No, I was lucky enough to already be in the ride home. I got home, induced vomiting and then passed the fuck out.
>>9923041
No, private limo (friend of a friend owns it) and barely made it up my stairs and passed out with all the lights on.

Do you guys believe in the paranormal

>>9923077
skeptical but open i guess

>>9923077
why yes, I have brain damage and am high.

>>9923077
When I'm going through WD I'd believe anything.

>>9923077
Why?

I'm actually quite proud of myself. Got drunk on christmas then stopped, then got drunk on new years and i've been sober since then. And its not like I fell off the wagon or anything I just decided to drink because it was the holidays
I think I can work with this

>>9923101
Just curious.

I've never experienced anything but I believe the paranormal/ghost exists.

>>9923112
I don't know if ghosts in the traditional sense are real, but the universe is fucking huge and there are a metric fucktone of things that we don't understand.

>>9922741
It's a unique thread. There's usually more alcohol discussion but I think with Christmas/new years blues in full effect more people are posting and reflecting on their habits. Maybe that's just me projecting, though.

>>9923126
I dunno. Al/ck/ has kind of always been this way. It doesn't take holidays for us to hate the lifestyle, that's for sure.

>>9923112
I’ll spend like an hour a month on /x/ if I’ve got weed, I used to urbex when I drank less, I like spooking grils in the woods at night, I believe that the entire universe is a single unit of energy - a living thing of which bits like us happen to be conscious, I have a blood type which shouldn’t exist according to medical science and I think some grils are so attractive that it should be physically impossible, guess some of those are paranormalish

>>9922334
Looks rough man. Stomach problems i would say. Don't drink for a couple of days if you can. See if you feel better.

>>9923138
>the universe is a living single unit of energy - a living thing of which bits like us happen to be conscious

Yes, this is a prominent idea in Jewish Kabbalism, what you are referring to is Ein Sof

>>9922741
Al/ck/, and all the chans, is my social media. I like it more than Facebook and all the others. I also don't have any real friends so that might be another reason :^)

>>9923077
I like to pretend like ghosts and spirits are real and active because I love the idea of it being true, but deep down I don't actually believe in all that. I believe in life outside of our solar system but do not think we've been discovered by intelligent beings yet. I believe in a non-interventionist god, but not a god in the traditional sense of the idea. Every atom and everything in the universe is part of "god" and consciousness is just the universe experiencing itself subjectively.

>>9923162
It’s not an uncommon conclusion
>In Hinduism, Brahman connotes the highest Universal Principle, the Ultimate Reality in the universe.[1][2][3] In major schools of Hindu philosophy, it is the material, efficient, formal and final cause of all that exists.[2][4][5] It is the pervasive, genderless, infinite, eternal truth and bliss which does not change, yet is the cause of all changes.[1][6][7] Brahman as a metaphysical concept is the single binding unity behind the diversity in all that exists in the universe.

>>9921754
kek'd hard at this.


You are a lucky man

Do any of you consider yourselves to be generally attractive, all things considered?

>>9923219
I'm a 4/10 to me, But my parents think I'm like the most handsome mother fucker to walk the planet. But what parent doesn't say that of their child?

My mom thinks because her 60yo friends say "he's so handsome!" that I'm like fucking Ryan Gosling

>>9920867
Hah, I grind my teeth and yell or chant in my sleep when I get crazy drunk. Never met anyone else who did the latter, so I'm curious if that's the "weird shit" you mentioned.

>>9923219
Yes. But at times i feel equally unattractive, ussually on the inside. How i sound, act, etc. concerns me more than my genetic appearence.

>>9923162
>what you are referring to is Ein Sof
And brahman
And atman
And wu wei
And satori
And nirvana in general

It's not a particularly unusual concept, really, most of it originating and spreading out of the sanskrit-speaking areas out east and west (into china and the arabian peninsula, predominately)
It's also why there are so many cognate words between languages that otherwise have 0 similarity.

>>9923219
Yes, but I am narcissistic. I was more attractive before I started drinking, now I have a slightly more rounded face and quite a beer belly thing going on. It subsides after a few days of abstinence though.

>>9923219
I’m like a 9.8/10 I guess.

( https://youtube.com/watch?v=8RBvh-9JGIo )

>>9923219
I'm told I am, so I guess...? I have low self esteem though.

>>9923219
I've been told I'm quite good looking when I clean myself up, but every time I do all I can see is all of my grotesque features and flaws that are better hidden behind a thick wooly beard and semi-kempt head of hair.
I find myself a 5/10 at best, probably closer to a 3/10 with my alcoholism and permanently annoyed demeanor

>>9923219
I used to be attractive. I got fat. I still think I look better than lots of lads my age.

>>9923253
Peep Show is my favorite TV show. Always hits way too close to home. Who wouldn't want to party with Super Hans and Jez?

We've gone with age (last thread) and self perceived attractiveness, how tall and how much do you weigh Al/ck/?

>>9923321
6'2", 265lb.

>>9923321
6ft3, 190lbs, 6 inches before you ask.

>>9923321
5'1" 104lbs

6'4" 215

>>9923276
Bet I could drink hans under the table. While smoking two camberwell carrots.

>>9923349
I just want a night over in his grans room and pet all of his snake bois desu.

>>9923329
fatty

6' 6" 215 lbs or so.

I don't know how my girlfriend or my muscles haven't completely left me yet. Is my morning obsession with eggs?

>>9923392
iktf

Have you ever actually tried to quit though? The people who know I have a problem generally see that it's hurting me a lot at this point so they've been a bit more understanding than they used to be.

>>9923396
>Have you ever actually tried to quit though
A few times, but not because I wanted to quit. I did it for legal/relationship reasons. Now 2 years later I'm ready to cut back...tomorrow is my first day of work after 3 weeks off and I haven't really tapered that much. Fug.

I'm going to end up giving in and buying booze before the store closes, I just know it. I have to somehow make it nearly 5 hours until they do.

>>9923378

>>9923430
not for you

>>9923219
im a strong -3 out of 10

>family over for the holiday
>just went into my basement and found an 11 year old bottle of wine I got myself for a birthday open and empty

I am trying really hard to nit flip.

whew lads. what to do to take my mind off it.

>>9923452
>-3
This looks like an emotion for an aerial view of a girl with a ponytail and huge tits. I love ponytails and huge tits.

Muscle cramps fuck off.

>>9923457
Play some music, take a shower, fap while grunting everyone's name you ever had a crush on. Whatever keeps your mind occupied.

>>9923457
Reading until I fall asleep usually does it for me.


Read about your favorite topic

>>9923138
>I have a blood type which shouldn’t exist according to medical science
elaborate

>>9923457
Get away. I love my family but I'm just not used to the drama and being around so many people. It really gets to me after a few hours, I'm a loner. I like to go for a drive, maybe have a beer or two at the icehouse.

>>9923414
Well that's that. Gave the fuck in.

Anyone else afraid to take a shower while having WD's because they're scared they'll slip and fall? I don't have much control over my body to even walk let alone stand on a slippery surface during that shit.

>>9923535
During the WD's I love showering because when I throw up I can wash it away. Sounds retarded but I hate throwing up in sinks/toilets.

>>9923540
My legs just stiffen up and tremble so much while I'm withdrawing that I actually get afraid to walk down stairways.

>>9923535
Why not use a little chair to sit on in the bathroom?

>>9923551
Well I could just sit down in the tub, but my shower head is retarded and doesn't move so I get sprayed in the face.

When I'm WD I love a nice hot long shower, it helps calm my nerves and wash the sweat off. I've got a seat in my shower though.

>>9923535
>not sitting down under the stream of warmth as it washes away the the grime of the previous 24hrs.
I can barely imagine leaving home without a shower first. I'd rather be 15min late to work than skip my morning shower to be on time.

>>9923559
How do you stop it from slipping around? I've been meaning to get one of those rubber bath mats to help ease my fear of slipping.

>>9923571
When I go on benders I can go a week+ without a shower. I feel absolutely fucking disgusting but I'm barely conscious half the time to even have one anyway. I usually just cold turkey my WD's and then take one, and it feels incredible.

>>9923571
When I work I have two showers a day. I dont't want my coworkers to know, plus I could get fired.

>>9923578
>How do you stop it from slipping around?
I've never found that the be a problem. Lived in many houses with tiled/plastic/concrete shower floors and slipping for me has never crossed my mind. Do you have a balance disorder?

>>9923589
When I'm having withdrawals I can barely stand let alone walk, so it's a problem for me. I end up just panicking in showers, especially since my anxiety is so bad. I have a plastic tub though, so it doesn't help.

>ate almost 3000 calories today after not eating for over a week because of a bender

Fellow Al/ck/'s I need job help.

I've been at my firm for 8 months. I hate it, the place is filled with chinks and pajeets willing to work minimum wage for a technical job. It's making me drink like nothing else. Would it be sensible to resign, obtain government benefits, and then apply for jobs I want? The downside is if I quit I can't put my current job on my resume because I fear the new hiring HR department will see 8 months and think "oh this employee isn't loyal, into the trash it goes".

>>9923639
I used to make up jobs on my resume, Either real companies or made up companies and give them my dads cell phone number.


No one ever calls previous employment companies unless you are applying for a job in law enforcement or something like that.

I literally used "gardaworld" as a previous employer for YEARS and no one even bothered to call them. I think 10 or 11 years now.

I used it as recently as 2 years ago and still no one has called them.


Also no one calls personal references eitther


Take it from the son of a large business owner, 99% of the time employers are looking for a long work history with the same company. They never even call the companies

>>9921587
Please give details.

what should i mix with jacks?

>>9920574
I'm not an alcoholic but I just drank almost a fifth of jager AMA

Can you go into WD's from 2 nights each of 1 micky of vodka?

>>9924110
Sorry it was more a night and morning mickey. Canadian mickey.

Cola of choice.


How do y'all shake the anxiety at work? Fuck I hate needing the bottle.

>received a job offer
>this is a part of their contract
Sounds like a great place to work. Would you work there?

>>9924121
Looks like it was written by a feminist dance major.

>>9920574
I am not a drinker, so I can only use beating the needle and quitting smoking as analogs for what withdrawals must be like. It is possible to beat addiction. I've been clean for 12 years at this point. I could not be more glad that I quit, and not in a smarmy "look at me" way. I encourage anyone here to quit, it will be the best decision you've made recently. To anyone who is currently detoxing, stick it out. I have faith in you.

>>9923188
>>9923240
It's also the Force in Star Wars.

>>9923321
1.70m, 71kg

>>9920574
I have a question. I have drank heavy for 3 nights a week on average over the last ten years. I'm 29 now and I always get what I refer to as a second hangover. Basically I still feel slightly shit the day after my hangover, possibly from not sleeping great, but my main problem nowadays is that my eyes look terrible, like my eye bags are swollen, which I don't even get on my actual hangover. Anyone else have this problem or know why it's happening? It never used to happen so I'll assume it's age, but my eyes in general don't feel good when I drink most of the times these days. They seem to go shit after a few drinks, even though I never had this problem in the past. Sometimes I look so bad that I don't even want to see people or look at them, but the day after I'll go completely back to normal.

>>9924113
kratom or xanax, Not both though


kratom is a godsend for anxiety

>>9924121
This is why women should not be in the workplace

I think I have diabetes and low t from abusing HGH when i was younger but I'm too afraid to go to the doctor and find out I have 6mo to live or some shit.


The last time I got bloodwork done was 8 years ago and they said my liver had severe scarring from drinking, But if i quit then It would still "bounce back".

I can't imagine how it looks now

>>9924121
Doesn't seem too scary, I'd say don't get alarmed until management starts talking about a 'code of conduct'.

>>9923502
>Error, our system thinks your post is spam
Ffs. Hitoshimoot is one of them. Is nowhere safe?
Google “illuminati mystery rhesus negative blood”

>>9924696
Science doesn't say Rh- gives Jedi power. Sound more like something someone would say on an acid trip.

alright lads

>>9924198
I'm trying to stop smoking cigarettes, i can get really stressed out and aggitated.. but after reading here a bit it should be easy compared to feeling wd's.

Got a DUI last night and went to jail ask me anything

>>9924198
I've beaten some pretty savage oxycontin/heroin, and meth habits. I quit smoking too. I'll tell you though, that alcohol has been worse. I don't know if it's the availability, or the fact everyone else drinks, but I don't know if I have it in me to kick this one. It's gotten harder as time goes on. I feel all used up. It's like I don't have the fortitude to man up this one last time.

>>9923658
I lied and said I worked for Google once and got the job lmao

>>9925022
First time by the sound of it?
Just wait until the second, they really are not happy. Third is mamdatory prison. I’m not even gonna get my license back, too perilous.

Curre ntly in rehab bored as fuck, wat do??

>>9925053
Pass time by making young nurses rim each other?

>>9925048
My little brother got two in the span of a year and a half and he never even lost his license. Hell, he never even got one of those ignition locks where you have to breathe into it and prove you're sober. Little shit always has been the family favorite, they must have spent about 20 grand on lawyers

>>9924532
Kratom is great until it randomly stops working for you ime. It doesn't seem like daily or semi daily use is gonna build up a tolerance until one day you've just got one, and it takes forever to go away too

>tfw drank cheap red wine yesterday instead of lager and vodka

I feel like someone is pinching me from the inside, Christ it hurts

>>9925048
Yeah, first time. 0.14. Didn't even feel drunk. I think I fucked up too because I admitted to drinking one, and it was morning, so I could have probably gotten it down to reckless from the night before.

>>9925068
An ex of mine is a lawyer, she pulled strings and got me one of the best legal firms in the country who specialise in DUIs. There are mandatory minimum sentences though, so I was b& for a year with a fine first time, and second time I drove 4 times over the limit and crashed, so narrowly avoided prison, got b& for 3 years and got fined a shitload. Not gonna get my license back, just gonna buy a CBR900 and take the plates off.

>>9925064
Funny enougj one of the rules here is that youre not allowed to visit any other patients room cuz they know everbody would be fucking non-stop once the withdrawls gets better

>>9925086
That WD horn is a killer, esp when all the staff at the hosp near me are teens/early 20’s hotties. I was so lewd with one brunette aged like 19 and a blonde aged like 22. I secretly took a million candid pics - must have unloaded about 1/2lb of population paste on their bathroom floor.

>>9925095
Theres this super hot milf blonde nurse here thats a spitting image of the porn lady named wifey. God I want to come on those big titties

>>9925111
Meh, don’t be fooled. They can’t compete with youthfulness.
Christ, wifey, takes me back. She’s gotta be like 60 now.

>>9925009
Yeah, I would say that quitting smoking was more trying than heroin, desu. Heroin was painful and awful, but for much shorter a period of time. I also have no desire to use again, whereas I'll probably be actively saying no to tobacco for the rest of my life.

>>9925024
I believe it. The culture supports drinking a lot more than it supports meth or smoking. It's also really physically addictive and devastating. Usually I'd offer advice, but the fact that you're at least as much of a vet as I am makes me not want to waste our time giving you pointers. I know you can quit, and you know you can too. It's just really fucking hard.

>>9925121
she's a charcoal incinerator these days

my weekly handle of cheap vodka
>open it up, smells weird as fuck
>oh boy, this is gonna suck but I'm gonna drink it all anyway
>mix with OJ
>actually delicious, better than my usual vodka OJ
>raining out, cloudy, no sunlight in my room
>comfy drinking in bed, might watch a movie
it is 9am here btw. gotta get my drinking in on days off

>>9925152
wow that is unfortunate, it cut off the first part of my shitty anecdote about my current activities

I bought a 375 of cheap whiskey with my weekly handle and it's actually good

>>9925044
Didn't the new employer searched your name on googl- oh, well played.

>>9925086
Don't they have a rule about leaving the door open?

>>9925009
Vape. It works great. You don't need a douchy steam locomotive.

>>9920660
No but a fifth is expensive so I'd do that too

>>9922913
I literally read the title first, then what the doc said in the first pic, and THEN read the red-outlined bit of dialogue in the second box followed by Mario's line at the bottom.

As for drinking, I have a 1.5L of 20% that I'm considering on drinking tonight, though I'd feel quite proud if I could remain sober for my first 4 days of 2018 then drink on the 5th day. Monday-Thursday sober? It's like I'm... normal...

>>9925298
But you’re not normal, so you won’t maintain that. R.I.P

>>9923043
That explains a lot. I'm white, all my research into my ancestry seems to be white (Irish, English, and a small dash of French), and I can hold my liquor like a mofo. Looks like I'll have to find a white woman to have kids with so that my children can enjoy drinking as much as I do. Wouldn't mind having a black woman to breed though, and of course the thought of a loyal, small, obedient, and intelligent Asian wife is God-tier. If I were to marry a non-white, it'd be a slant-eye for sure. Asian Americans make more money on average than white Americans, the only race I'm aware of with a higher IQ than whites is Asians (unless you include Jews), and Asian culture is pretty cool. No, I'm not talking about anime. Samurai, Bushido, Confucius, Sun Tzu, Chinese invented gunpowder, the first fireworks, the Manchurians were the first to use firearms/cannons in warfare back in the 13th-14th century or so, Korean women are FUCKING GORGEOUS, and there's something about the high suicide rate in Japan that I respect. If memory serves, suicide is more often seen on average by those of higher intelligence than those with lower intelligence, which is why suicide is a bigger issue in the west and in Asia than in other parts of the world, not to mention I'm pretty sure white Americans have a lot more suicide than black Americans.

It's interesting... to the best of my knowledge, everything I've stated here are facts (though granted the 'slant-eyed' comment was pretty damn crass, but I didn't mean it with any sort of hatred or anger), yet many would call this post racist. The insanity of the left, which brings up another thing about Asia. In China they have a term of offence; "Bai zwah" I think it is, if memory serves. It translates to "white left", because even the fucking Chinese can see how pathetic and effeminate the male feminists and male SJWs are in the west. I mean, Asia isn't exactly swimming with big, hairy, testosterone-filled guys. They call Trudeau "Little Potato"

>>9925335
ganbei 那個

>>9925076
>just puked for the second time

fuck wine

>>9925335
korean women are the ugliest east asians. don't fall for the plastic surgery meme.

nips and northern chinese are where it's at.

>>9925348
I drank a bunch of milk in the middle of the night to try to prevent waking up with a hangover and instead I had to mash giant chunks of cottage cheese down the sink drain.

>>9925352
I met 3 Korean chicks, one of whom were in her 30s. They were quite attractive. One of them was actually 2-3 years older than me as I recall, in her mid or mid-late 20s at the time, but I swear she looked like a teenager. Being a huge white dude, my sweater was practically a robe on her. Very cute, but very traditional and decent. Went on several dates, kissed a few times, but never did anything heavy. I later learned that apparently in Korean culture (was told this by a Korean), it must typically be verbally confirmed that they're in a relationship before anything will happen. Wish I had known that, I would have been fine with being steady with her. Our dates always went great save for the lack of fooling around.

>>9925346
At first I thought you were correcting 'bai zwah', but I looked it up and apparently 'ganbei' is a toast? If so... fuck it. I'm gonna drink tonight. Or rather, today. I was sober on the 1st and 2nd, that's good enough for me. Also if you're an Asian dude, that's AWESOME! You're more of a man than any of those pathetic white lefties who'd get their panties in a bunch over 'slant-eye', I CLEARLY have respect for Asian culture so FUCK anyone who thinks in their ideologically delusional mind that I'm a racist. Ashamedly I had been one such 'bai zwah' (to an extent; I don't think I've ever been a full-blown Liberal, always pro-gun) who would easily get butthurt over politically incorrect stuff, but I've been red-pilled hard. Post-modernism can suck my proud Conservative Caucasian Christian balls. GANBEI!

>>9925424
Stop spending so much time claiming not to be a racist, it makes you sound like a racist.

>>9925659
I don't give a damn, I'm just sick of the left's bullshit. They can think whatever they damn well please. Non-white leftists are bad enough, but white leftists... there's something uniquely weak about that, and yes, the term 'cuck' is aptly applied. I don't blame the Chinese for calling Trudeau "little potato", he's pathetic and he's disgrace. His wife Sophie Gregoire or whatever her name is, practically carries that "male feminist's" balls in her purse.

>>9925659
Fucking this.

>>9925674
You sound really boring.

>>9925412
I ate a bunch of white rice with some chicken. Feeling comfy now.

>>9925679

Less bitchin, more lynchin

>>9925700
Yeah awesome. Let’s lynch our way to peace and happiness.
Gonna be quiet now? You’ll just look like a kid spewing /pol/‘s poisonous nonsense here.

If I drank a 375ml last night and continue this morning, and then stop will I get WD's? That shit scares me to death.

i'm unironically still hungover from new years eve even though i only drank for one day and didn't even start in the morning

seriously considering just stopping this shit once and for all

>>9925704
yeah... we would be better off if we just sent all the spooks and arabs on a space ship to explore the sun. Simple truth. Welfare and immigration are standing in the way of natural selection.

Moving to HK soon. Any al/ck/ mates try baijiu before? Is it more or less tolerable than 151?

>>9925729
>I’m not racist, I just want to kill all other races

>>9925729
Cringe.

>>9925745
I never said I wasn't racist. I have accepted the education the world and the races in it have shown me. I am also against women's rights. It is a bad idea. They are too moody and irrational.

>>9925751
Fascinating. Kindly take it to /pol/, it’s dull as hell.

>>9923219
I'm reasonably attractive when I'm not drinking and when my eczema isn't flaring up.
Eczema may be the only thing preventing me from going full alchy degenerate mode; the dehydration is just too much for my skin to take.

Also you folks need to try out Kratom as an alternative to alcoholism. It's basically a powder made from crushed up leaves and you drink it for it's weak opiate-like effects. It's slightly addictive, but it's much safer than actual opiates and alcohol and it's pretty cheap if you buy it online. Headshops sell it but it's usually way more expensive than it should be in those places

>>9925754
I don't go to /pol/ as I also like to talk about alcohol recovery and cooking.

>>9925709
It’s a poison, it wreaks havoc with a ton of bodily systems
At this point just one or two drinks simply revs my compensatory reaction so high that I have the fast HR and anxiety before I even get the drunk, it is literally pure bullshit for me now and my body cannot handle it

I drink a six pack and wake up with my body just red-lining, entire nervous system acting like a gay fag trying to give my a heart attack cuz “muh GABA downregulation and muh glutamate upregulation”

Like just get over yourself already nervous system

>>9925755
Illegal here. Everything is illegal here.
>>9925758
A playground then. Just please stop imposing that narrow-minded brat shit on here.

>>9925764
Counter it if you can. I am always willing to learn. I don't think you can though.

>>9925755
Illegal but in the case I want to take the risk, where should I order it in Europe?

>>9925774
No, I refuse to shit up al/ck/ with such trivial shit. I know a guy who owned a hardware shop. He was I furious about the price of nails. He kept it to himself instead of galloping into every corner of society and angrily pontificating like a brat. Fuck off you tedious cunt.

>>9925762
That's a problem with your heart, not the alcohol. Try 30-60mg zinc gluconate for a few weeks to balance your electrolytes.
Zinc ions electrically stabilize your HR.
If your HR does soar, the anxiety can't increase past a minimum baseline.

>>9920574
Can anyone offer advice?

I'm trying to quit but I can't stop fuckin shaking and I'm afraid I'll have a seizure. I read that benzodiazepines work and I do have some. Is that the way to go in your experience? How much trouble am I in right now? I can't walk correctly either.

I've never experienced the shakes this bad before.

>>9925804
Have a drink.

>>9925804
If you’re losing control of your limbs that’s serious (ataxia)
Yeah benzos will counteract the withdraw from booze. IF you can stop drinking, take a benzo. Won’t help with the walking but it’ll help protect against seizures. It’s also ludicrously addictive. Alternatively, buy cider/beer and just drink one if shit gets too real.

>>9925812
I've been doing that with less and less powerful drinks. I've been off it cold turkey a day now. It sort of worked but the shakes still are scaring me.

>>9925816
Yeah I've heard if you just drink beer instead of hard liquor it helps. I'll try that although I don't like beer much but oh well.

>>9925822
Drink enough that it’s no longer scary, but not a drop more. It’ll still be uncomfortable, but it should keep you alive. Only safe alternative is proper benzo use or hospitalisation.

>>9925835
Now I know this is a dumb question before I ask it but if I take a benzo can I still have a beer or some other low percentage drink if I'm still shaking?

After getting sober I’m suddenly aware of like 20 new aches and pains which had been dulled for god-knows how long by booze. Ouch.

>>9925854
Fuck I know the feeling. I also have time to think about my life and I hate that.

>>9925845
Ask a Doc and you’d be told that it could relax your nervous system to the point where you stop breathing. So, that, I guess. In truth though I took as much as 200mg of diazepam alongside as much as 2.1L of vodka every night of my life for 14 years. So, take from that what you will.
Instinctively i feel like you’re looking to feel good as opposed to being willing to suffer a taper. In which case I’d leave the benzos well alone and just get drunk. You can’t just stop in the way you have. It’s causing you irreparable brain damage right now. I ignored it, now I’m partially sighted sand can’t properly control my hands. I’ll be walking with a cane a few more years down the line, assuming I continue to baffle doctors by being alive at all.

>>9925862
Yeah all the shit from which I used to hide by way of drinking, is still very much there when I sober up.

>>9925845
drinking with benzos is a very good way to forget 20 hours and later hear how you've lost every friend, shat your pants and attempted rape

>>9925877
>Instinctively i feel like you’re looking to feel good as opposed to being willing to suffer a taper

Honestly I've never taken a benzo. I guess I'm ignorant but I didn't know they were used recreationally like that. I'm not trying to feel good but now I'm afraid I'd get addicted to that.

Truthfully though I've tried many drugs and alcohol is all I like. I'll just drink an even weaker drink today.

>>9925885
Thank you. I definitely will not mix them then.

>>9925885
Yeah this too. It feels cosy, but you’ll black out hard. I used to wake behind bars multiple times per week when I was really hitting it.

>>9925891
Which benzos are you using?
Doesn’t really make much difference, just curious.
I’d definitely leave them alone based on what you’ve said.

>>9925775
>>9925764
no idea hamalams, I'm in the US and it's legal to ship to most states. Some states have made it illegal or put restrictions on it, but I'm in New York and it's totally legal here.

>>9925901
Ativan. So Lorazepam. Yeah I have 1mg in my hand and I don't know if I should use it.

Anyone else did ye olde holiday relapse trickeroo?

I've been boozing for two solid weeks or something, hoping I won't get withdrawals.

>>9925827
>I don't like beer much
Even better, it'll be easier to end the taper.
You tapered too fast if you have shakes.

>>9925901
Benzo are safe when used properly. Better ask a doctor for the correct dose corresponding to your alcohol consumption (or have other sources than 4chan), and don't get "benzo-drunk" and drunk at the same time (mixing small quantities is relatively safe.)
Limit your benzo taper to one week, to avoid addiction.
Also take B vitamins, a multivitamin mix and zinc (iirc), that helps prevent brain damage and shakes.

>>9926001
Only take it if you’re definitely not going to drink. Or if you want to risk your health, feel great now, but have even worse WD when you actually do try to quit.

>>9926097
No you guys have successfully convinced me never to drink with benzos. I'll just save what I have for when I've tapered off enough days and then I'll take the ativan on a non drinking day.

>>9926008
Yup 2 weeks too here but first night sober now. Planned to make yesterday the first night but stuff happened...

Can anybody tell me what withdrawals feel like?

I often wake up with tremors and especially shaking hands after a night of drinking.

But my alcoholism kind of comes and goes, some years I'll barely drink, others I'll perform rather important social interactions completely blackout for months on end. I'm in a "months on end" period.
I don't know what withdrawals feel like. Are DTs just the tremors or are they more uncontrollable? How do I know when I'm at a point where I might get brain damage if I abstain?

>>9924666
ok Satan

>>9926148
I'm nursing a few beers to be sure, started to feel trembly.

I forgot how much work being a full time drinker is. It's all so tiresome.

>>9926172
you'll know. trust me.

>>9926172
>Are DTs just the tremors or are they more uncontrollable?
The main symptoms of delirium tremens are nightmares, agitation, global confusion, disorientation, visual and[9] auditory hallucinations, tactile hallucinations, fever, high blood pressure, heavy sweating, and other signs of autonomic hyperactivity (fast heart rate and high blood pressure). These symptoms may appear suddenly, but typically develop two to three days after the stopping of heavy drinking, being worst on the fourth or fifth day.[10] Also, these "symptoms are characteristically worse at night".[11] In general, DT is considered the most severe manifestation of alcohol withdrawal and occurs 3–10 days following the last drink.[9] Other common symptoms include intense perceptual disturbance such as visions of insects, snakes, or rats. These may be hallucinations, or illusions related to the environment, e.g., patterns on the wallpaper or in the peripheral vision that the patient falsely perceives as a resemblance to the morphology of an insect, and are also associated with tactile hallucinations such as sensations of something crawling on the subject—a phenomenon known as formication. Delirium tremens usually includes extremely intense feelings of "impending doom". Severe anxiety and feelings of imminent death are common DT symptoms.

DT can sometimes be associated with severe, uncontrollable tremors of the extremities and secondary symptoms such as anxiety, panic attacks and paranoia. Confusion is often noticeable to onlookers as those with DT will have trouble forming simple sentences or making basic logical calculations.

>>r9923129
36 hrs sober. Ive got to post my accomplishments somewhat because I sure as shit ain't putting this on my family.

>sober
>starting to hear voices

What the fuck?

>>9926643
Delirium.
Have a drink.

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>>9925780
This sounds silly, cuz I've tried everything, but ehh, worth a shot. Any amazon reccos?

>>9923012
>Ever notice you never see a black alk?

There are shitloads of them. I had a coworker at a fast food joint when I was a teenager who would drink 3-4 40 oz of malt liquor a day. He said probably half of the people in his row of subsidized housing ("the hood", for non-americans) lived like that.

They just don't drink hard liquor for the most part, which is why I think they're underrepresented in alcoholic stereotypes.