/ck/ - Food & Cooking

>>15254088
Alcoholic based anorexia.

>>15254088
try posting this on /fit/ lol, i assume nearly everyone here is an unrepentant fatass based on the fast food posting. seems like its only an "eating disorder" if you become skinny from it.

Binge eater. It started when I was like 13 because we had to rent our house out to someone, and he would eat all the fucking food in the house, so I had to hoard food in my room, or eat it as soon as we got it or he would, which developed into me only eating one meal a day, but usually eating well in excess of 3000 calories to try and "stay full". Ballooned up due to it. I've recognized it now, and I'm trying to fix it, it's just such an odd concept after eating one meal a day for over half of my life, to try and eat multiple meals a day. Everyone assumed I just don't eat cause I never, EVER eat at work, and never go out to eat. Pain in the ass shit.

/blog

large intake of food in conjunction with those other signs
???

>>15254088
Yeah every time I'm at a restaurant I EAT DIS ORDER!

*audience laughs*

>>15254088
i eat my feelings

>preoccupation with feeling fat
>actually has a gigantic fucking gut in pic

>>15254088
it's a website, i don't think it can eat..

>>15254148

>>15254088
/fit/izen here

I struggled with bulimia throughout high school. It got to the point where I had to be hospitalized for a week because my body developed a pretty bad infection. I took all that to realize what a fucking retard i was and to quit that shit

Been 13 years now and I'm as healthy as can be. I'm 5'11 180 lbs

>>15254088
woman problems

>>15254181
how did you stop?

I was once a vegetarian for a month

veganism is an eating disorder

Medical professionals are quick to classify every behavior as a disorder yet have no real cure for any of this shit.

>>15254308
>>15254313
Meat eater same fagging cope

>>15254323
And they're overwhelmingly pedophiles

Anorexic during high school partially because my mom was hooked on vicodin and didn't bother feeding me. She insulted my weight, calling me fat and whatnot (I was about 103lb at the time) so I took it to heart. Once I got out of college and a fuckton of therapy, I started stress eating instead and ballooned up. Vicious cycle.

>>15254088

No, just poor dietary choices

>>15254305
i became trans

>>15254401
This supports my theory that /ck/ only has women, trannies, and fat people.

If you aren't any of those then you are just a closet tranny.

>>15254395
Yeah, that's based tho

>>15254396
That’s what weak, vapid people deserve for caring about their weight for the sole purpose of social confirmation. If you just tried to be healthy instead of trying to get approval from a bunch of faggots who don’t give a fuck about you(or your weight). Maybe you learned from it, but probably not.

Yeah i eat way too much high calorie food. Normal food just tastes bland to me. I guess i have no self control or i'm feeling the need to eat because of a trauma from something.

>>15254088
I fuck around a lot and people have noted patterns in the things I say and topics I ruminate on, I'd say my live has extensive experience with disordered eating. That's probably the best way to put it. I've been different weights throughout my life but typically a metabolism that has kept me from Ballooning to this point in my life, and I've eaten all different kinds of ways. I'll fuck around and skip meals, binge my face off, spend days with bricks of food in my stomach, maybe other times a very spartan diet plan, other times absurdly bloated. I like to eat varied things and I've had phases where eating a well-balanced, nutritious diet that I enjoy sticking to. I was a doughy/'husky' kid growing up but also working active jobs as an adult, keeping active and eating right looks GOOD on me and fed my vanity, but as a creature of habit I also fall into other bad patterns, like mcdonald'saddiction.

ugh yes.
I hate it. If I could have my way I'd eat under 1000 cal a day but I end up snapping a couple times a month and eating 3k+. I've maintained my weight but I fucking hate the overeating, it hurts.

>>15254088
I'm a picky eater because of the 'tism. Does that count?

>>15254305
Lots of therapy and working out. Other anon isn't me

>>15254088
6/6 baby let's go

Bulimic since 11, parents consistently harassed my weight since I quit sports due to stress. Had outpatient treatment last year for 8 weeks, did jack shit, trratment won't get any better since I am not a skeleton.

>>15254148
DANGEROUSLY based

>>15254088
yeah, I'm a pretty severe bulimic. its

>>15254088
Pica. Playdough and crayons, mostly. Sometimes soap.

>>15254099
well there's a lot of fatties, but there's a lot of fit people if you check the /cbt/

>>15254088
0/6 of those except I don't really understand what the electrolyte one means.

>>15254148

>>15254088
Man I wish. For like a month I got so stressed out I'd vomit like 3 times a day. It was awful. Absolutely awful. However, I only ate fast food at the time, and had to switch to salad because it was the only thing that would stay down. Terrible for the soul, but damn, my face turned from a chubby gamer one to a solid bone structure. Only downside was it was impossible to work out because I would vomit. Anyway, don't eat fast food everyday. I cook all my own food, eat a normal amount, and my face hasn't turned chubby again

>>15254088
I had some anxiety issues a few years ago and one aspect was being anxious around others while I ate for some reason. I would get anxious that I wouldn't be able to eat the food, it was really weird.

>>15255585
My dog has that. He sits and guards his food when people are around, then when he gets time alone he eats half of it and buries the rest.

>>15254088
The only reason why have any hangup about gaining weight is cause i know it goes straight to my face. Although Im fit and eat a pretty clean diet normally

>>15255728
Fat face will be good for concealing wrinkling when you're older.

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>>15255737
You might be onto something, people often assume im college freshman/highschool senior

>>15254088
I LOVE EATING FOOD!

>pic related

>>15255867
This guy loves reading food.

>>15254095
How do I get thats?.

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>>15255879
Drink so much alcohol for so long that your body stops registering a need for food.

>>15254469
If you want to get away with posting this gay little quip, you'd better post your timestamped physique.

>>15255879
for me, the routine is to not eat all day, then get drunk, then binge eat whatever ridiculous drunkard snacks i come up with, then black out. repeat at least 4x/week

>>15255970
I'm praying for you bro

>>15255970
are you bragging? that is pretty cringe

>>15255879
liquor

>>15255970
kek you are a hero

>>15254088
I don’t think so but I hate myself whenever I eat something. I’ve gone days without eating because of it.

u r all women

When I was a kid I randomly started getting nervous when eating out or around others. I avoided eating. My parents solution was exposure therapy so would take me to restaurants or to eat with other people. It would end with me throwing up a lot of times.
I was finally able to get it under control, but realized years later it was due to crippling social anxiety. Thankfully I was able to resolve the social anxiety issue.
Even today though, when I'm anxious or stressed I have zero appetite.

I’m able to undereat with a half hour wagie lunch break. How do mukbangers even?

Yeah I think I got bulimia, I make myself vomit pretty often, usually after junk food. I'm skinny fat tho, so no one could tell. I should do something, but I won't.

>>15254503
Picky eaters have a life disorder you fucking manchild

I never stop thinking about what I'm going to eat, when I'm going to eat it, and how much it's going to cost, and the longer it goes without me eating and the less money I spend to do it, the more "good" I feel. This makes me sound crazy, but I live an otherwise normal and healthy life. I am just really anxious about food.

>>15254148

>>15254148
kek but unironically

>>15254088
I stress-eat, does that count?

>>15254088
Checked and HH

For the love of all that is good never date a woman with anorexia or who is still recovering

It's so bizarre, my ex has an eating disorder (that wasn't nearly as bad as it was before I met her) and the stories she used to tell me about binging and purging were on another level.
Eating huge servings of random shit that was easy to throw up, just so she could go throw it up. Think a massive bowl of melted cheese with tomato sauce purely because it came up easily. A bunch of bread mixed with milk, etc etc.
Her mum and dad fucked her up pretty bad via mental and physical abuse, leaving her with BPD traits, OCD, Bipolar, eating disorder, body dismorphia etc. Be nice to your kids anons.

>>15254088
My teeth are so bad that my jaw is misaligned, so I have a very hard time actually chewing and swallowing food. Its hard to talk for long periods of time too.

So yeah, its a disorder. Im only /ck/ because I need to make food I can actually eat.
I most likely will need full sets of dentures at 30.

I have the teeth of a methhead, without all the fun years of meth euphoria. It sucks.

>>15256670
My best friends GF was anorexic
She would barely eat a small bowl of white rice and then purge it every day. She forced him to eat lots of food so that juxtaposed he looked fat. My buddy comes from a skinny ass family, its in his genes to be slim and scrawny so obviously he never gained weight. It was an issue because he could just pound whatever trash food he wanted. Still to this day in our early 30s eats whatever and still scrawny.

We didnt know till they broke up and he aired his dirty laundry. She was at a perfectly normal weight so from the outside you couldnt tell.
She had a lot of other really weird hangups, was pretty fucking crazy.
She broke up with him and started dating an actual fat guy.

I dont have facebook and hadnt seen anything about her in over a decade. My other friend found her doing some videos on facebook.

These last 13 or so years havent been good to her, she looks like a skellington.
Its actually pretty sad, I liked her well enough when she wasnt having a crazy spell.
She's someone who really needs to get help with her disorder.

As much as my buddy tried, he couldnt change her, and It seems nobody else has either.

Eyup

>>15254148
holy fucking basted

>>15254148
Just Googled this, and it's a real condition.

>>15254088
Is feeling fat really considered a disorder if you actually are fucking fat?

>>15256670
W-Why? My gf is a recovered anorexic, should I be worried?

>>15254148
Nice

>>15254160
>Filename
>Pregnancy and eating disorders
That's not a gut, that's a bun in the oven.

>>15254088
Yes. Binge eating and bulimia. The throwing up is going to kill me one day.

>>15254148

>>15254412
which one are you?

>>15254148

i was full bulimic aged 14-16 odd, then took up running which both helped my mento health and kept me in good shape
still kinda obsess over my body and weight but at least i aint chugging orange juice after my meals to make it easier to chun them up anymore
im 6'3" and about 150lbs rn which feels like a decent balance between skinny and 'healthy'

>>15257014
no she's just as deserving of love as anyone also anon. just be patient with her

>>15257204
You're skinny as fuck, start lifting, gain some weight and you will look a lot better

>>15257206
It's not even really a big deal, she's been over it long before we met and at a healthy weight. She just gets triggered a little easier than most women when it comes to her weight and is obessed with working out but I don't mind that. If she suddenly relapsed it would kinda suck though so I was wondering what that anon meant.

>>15254088
>psychologist feels I have eating disorder.
>psychatrist strongly disagrees, so I'm confused
>For context, my mother has proxy anorexia. Male children get normal weight, girls (me and sister) only allowed up to 14bmi max.
>She believed I was obese when I gained up to 17 bmi and begged me to go back on her vegan diet.
>ran away from her and moved in with bf.

Before going on mirtazapine (i dont trust ssri antidepressants so the psychatrist had to compromise) I was stuck at 17 to 19 bmi, found eating impossible 3 years straight of trying anything to gain weight naturally. hated eating. Hated cooking. Etc.

After going on my meds, I now can eat constantly. Every time I feel full, I stop. Then get very hungry 10 minutes later and constantly want to buy snacks, but ignore to not get fat. I love cooking "complex" meals out of nowhere lately. I do exercise "a lot" but that's because I am into light bodybuilding (muscle). Am 22 bmi and keep track.

>>15255945
Exactly good point. These are likely angry lard asses that are pissed they failed with their own bodies.

We are all wired by biology to be affected by parents and how they treat us. Even nazis knew this 101 of psychology and empathized more than the angry anon.

>>15254473
What do you usually eat, example meals?

>>15257014
Yes. Relapse can happen if the psych doesn't do their job properly. If she ever has economical, job related, or other stress, she can snap. Just force her to be a house wife so she doesn't relapse just because she had a bad day at work or something. Jobs are stressful and often lead to ED relapse eventually. Women weren't built to have "careers" anyway.

Another note. I've lurked ED forums, vlogs, and have some ED friends I questioned a lot. They get nostalgic about when they used to starve, even if they "recovered" years ago and are aware how deadly it is.

>https://youtu.be/EdnIHWv6V1s

I don't buy the "you can't cure an ED!!!!" bullshit. To me that sounds like some moron who never fully recovered to begin with. I got nostalgic about harming myself first couple weeks, but when I fully recovered, I had 0 urges to relapse since. Just make sure she fully truly has recovered and doesn't have any small weird quirks like joking about being a failure.

>>15257364
The reason your psychiatrist recommended ssris is because we understand their mechanism of action and side effects much better. Mitrazapine is not well understood, but if it works for you kudos. Having said that the studies don't show mitrazapine as being effective. See Table 2: https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC6007635/

>>15257422
>if the psych doesn't do their job properly
She never even visited one. She ended up in the hospital due to anemia and realized that anorexia is dangerous, so she quit on her own.

>They get nostalgic about when they used to starve, even if they "recovered" years ago and are aware how deadly it is.
She could stand to lose maybe 5lbs (still ideal BMI though) and sometimes makes comments like
>at least I was skinny back then teehee

>make sure she fully truly has recovered and doesn't have any small weird quirks like joking about being a failure
She actually does that too, damn. I think the underlying issue is a lack of self-esteem and I'm trying to work with her on that.

>>15257425
ncbi has at least 3 studies there that disagree to yours and say mirtazapine is indeed extremely effective even for those with severe depression. Stop cherry picking studies that appeal to you.

SSRI's are outdated garbage, there are even thousands of online support groups for people who can't even get boners anymore because SSRI's are poison that ruins your sex drive long even after you quit the pills.

I hear horror stories with ssri's but never seen support groups made because mirtazapine ruined someone's life.

Anorexia. Recently relapsed after a 6 year period of remission and starting outpatient treatment again. Love reading /ck/ threads when eating to reassure myself that other people relate to food as well.

>>15257477
Well, then make her see therapist. Make her talk out her past. To prevent relapse. Does she have daddy or mommy issues, did any of them beat her or neglected her as a child or teen? Has she spoken ill of either parent? My 1 friend has two eating disorders in one, and even she never comments about "lol I was once skinny" when referencing the past. When she sees old pics, she admits she was underweight.

>>15257483
Mukbangs used to help me. Not the sloppy gross kinds, but ones where the host knows basic table manners. Try it maybe sometime. Chatty ones also helped me.

>>15257482
Fair. I generally agree ssris are over-prescribed, but we really don't understand mitrazapine well. From a provider's point of you it's the devil you know vs the devil you don't.

>>15257498
She used to be a chubby girl when she was younger and her mom (who still has a very fit physique, even though she's over 60 now) would constantly make comments about it and tell her to eat less etc. When she started to eat less she became more popular at school and that kinda reinforced it. I talked to her about seeing a therapist, but she is reluctant to do it. I think she believes she has beaten anorexia for good because these are just "small" underlying things that she probably doesn't notice that much.

>>15257498
>>15257531
For example she would say things like
>I'm so ugly/ dumb/ fat etc
when she's sad and when I told her how horrible it sounds when she puts herself down like that she seemed like she had never stopped and reflected what she was saying.

>>15257204
>6’3”
>150lb
>healthy weight
This is spooky skeleton tier. I’m 6’2” 175lb and skinny, you are auschwitz mode

>>15257508
You're misquoting. They note they don't know how it HELPS people exactly once the process begins. But they DO know how the process looks, what it blocks, what it slows down, why it may make people's stomachs feel a certain way, how the body reacts, how long it stays in the body, what chemical reactions occure, how neurons react to it, etc.

We also don't know how ssri's help, either actually. We just know mirtazapine has less risks than ssri's and is safer for people with heart issues, and has 0 toxicity in the liver vs most ssri's have low but constant toxicity in your liver.

>ssris are over-prescribed
Very true. All meds are. Even antibiotics.

>>15257540
>>15257531
Shit, man. That isn't good. Then tell her it isn't about anorexia, but that she still feels sad and she needs to tackle her self esteem and melancholy itself, maybe then she'll listen. My friends still feel down because they can't make a healthy relationship with their abusive mothers.

Also i remember america, Britain, etc, runs psa ads sometimes that show a person who got ptsd, but she ignored therapy until she was a granny, and it shows a shadow creep and strangle her. Message basically being "dont wait until youre sick enough. Get treated early while your depression/illness is still young and weak". Maybe find some psas like that. Also there's some Kati Morton cunt on youtube, but she made one good video you could show ur gf.

>https://youtu.be/r6CTseon-N4

>>15257589
Thanks, those are some good tips.

>>15257553
I am 6'1 and 145 ilbs.
I am the skelly king. But seriously though i might have an eating disorder because I hate eating most of the time and i refuse to eat when i feel depressed which is unfortunately pretty often.

>>15255945
except that he's absolutely right and you should only care about keeping healthy for yourself.
managing anything seeking for approval of others is a terrible strain on the mind and body, just don't worry about it broski lol

>>15257565
I'm not trying to be argumentative, but what's the target receptor for mitrazapine and location for anorexia specifically? If I had to guess it's the 5ht-2a antagonism in the hypothalamus which controls hunger and satiety.

All doctors have a bias towards treatments that were common when they were first trained and educated. It's a struggle to stay open to new therapies while being critical of financial incentives to push new medications.

I'll definitely keep mitrazapine in mind though.

>>15254088
I do all of these and don't think its a problem (yet). Just part of normal cutting imo

>>15254099
>seems like its only an "eating disorder" if you become skinny from it.

imagine being this stupid

>>15255938
but also don't eat while drinking

most people eat more
like me

>>15254148
so based

>>15254148
baste

>>15254148
Please have my babies

>>15257381
Hamburger, pizza, burritos or sandwiches.

>>15254088
Fear of becoming fat (which will hardly ever happen since I calorie count)

>>15256745
maybe u should do meth then

>>15256774
pics?

>>15257553
im still fashionably skinny yeah lol but i never get light headed and i work manual labour so im pretty good i think

used to be like 138 and every once in a while i crave being that skinny again

>>15257207
no im not a fag that exerts effort for male approval. i do the exercise i love to keep my body the way i like it

>>15254088
>excessive exercise
>eating disorder

Stress based anorexia

>>15259905
how will /fit/ ever cope

>>15254148

My eating disorder is that I'm too hungover to eat until around 4PM most days

>>15254148

>>15256595
What was your childhood like?

>>15254148

>>15261059

Poor

Im a hardcore alcoholic if that counts.

Yeah. I just spent $40 on fast food tonight.

>>15254148

>>15254141
It's not a bunch of symptoms of the same eating disorder, retard. There are at least five or six kinds not counting EDNOS.

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>>15257364
>"don't trust" SSRIs
>willing to take dangerous and outdated NaSSAs because you don't know anything about them
Congrats, you memed yourself out of feeling better. Probably an antivaxxer to boot.

>>15254088
all of the things in the image apply to me
>grew up fat kid
>start chew and spit
>exercise but can't quit junk food
>eventually lose some weight and keep pushing
>more and more restriction
>full anorexia sets in and cannot manage to eat more than a few hundred calories without extreme anxiety
>be over a hundred pounds smaller, 84 low before family steps in
>start eating, start purging
>bulimia sets in and I start eating thousands of calories and purging compulsively
>become alcoholic
>death in the family, derail, dui happens
>quit drinking
>start walking, swimming, finding /fit/ hobbies
>still struggle with b/p issues
>mostly just regulate calories
>fit, healthy weight average at 120
>still disordered af
>body rekt
no happy ending for me

>>15257885
>target receptor for mitrazapine and location for anorexia specifically?
I never said I am anorexic. It's 1 side effect is that it fixes low apetite/makes you hungrier, not cures anorexic people who hate their bodies.

>>15257628
Yeah I want to lose weight because I enjoy outdoor activities like hunting, and with a heavy body it puts a lot more strain on my knees and body overall. Healthier weight also means having to spend less on medical bills. For me it is entirely selfish thing to want to stop binge eating. Looking nice for my wife is just a bonus.

>>15254088
I am fat, 230lbs at 6'1", I have a gut and man tits. I eat healthy when I'm home, but I'm a chef and I spend my whole day eating and eating and eating some more. I excuse myself by saying stupid shit like "gotta taste at every step", but I've calculated how much, on average, I eat, going by how much my tasting spoons can fit, and it's like, two bowls of soup, two cups of whatever sauce, two cups of whatever sweet shit I'm making, a couple of slices of cheese cake, I make fresh bread but I usually make an extra loaf and spend all day slathering slices of it in butter and gorging myself on fresh bread because that's my fucking kryptonite, and then there's family meal twice a day, and I eat a couple of plates of that as well. But when I'm home, it's salad and fruits and roasted or steamed veggies, rarely any meat and no carbs, aside from what may be in the fruits.
As I type I'm realizing that maybe I'm a binge eater. When I started cooking professionally, at 19, I was 180 and jacked. Ten years later and I'm fat. I don't lift as much as I used to, but I still hit my home gym at least three times a week, and I try to excuse myself by saying I'm on my feet and running around and lifting heavy cambros and hotel pans and whatnot all day, but clearly it isn't enough to burn the calories I take in by eating a whole loaf of bread with a whole stick of butter, among other things.

>>15254088
mate im 4/6 of those, and possibly abnormal electrolyte balance as well, booking a doctors appointment now

>>15262470
By definition if your bmi is over 16 then no you're not anorexic, but anorexia is the only eating disorder that antidepressants are indicated for specifically. Of course eating disorders and depression are often comorbidities.

If the goal was just improving appetite I'd consider something like dronabinol before any kind antidepressant.

>>15254088
>excessive exercise
>person is fat/american

>>15254088
I am forever stuck in the body of a 14-year-old male cursed by God eternally

>>15261603
I hope you're doing better, fren. Maybe you could incorporate nutritional goals into your autism? Like challenging yourself to see how little can you spend and get X grams protein, X mg iron, X calories. You'll probably settle on lentils or something, but your body would feel much better. A multivitamin might help.

>>15254088
Yes.

I come here to look at food.

I am the wheetbix, bananas and low-fat anon.

Some of you may know me from other threads.

>>15254181
>5'11
>healthy
HAHA!

>>15257364
>girls (me

>>15262773
The diagnostic criteria for anorexia nervosa is a BMI of <18.5, i.e. 'underweight', not <16. You might be confusing it with the BMI categorisation for severity where <18 is mild, <16 is moderate, and <15 is severe.

Tangent but it's so telling people who ham up their mental illnesses online for clout are always so seething at the weight criterion for AN diagnoses. It's a clear tell that they don't actually suffer from a condition that causes such anxiety and repulsion towards a basic bodily function that sufferers end up dangerously underweight.

>>15254469
based anon. i’m currently recovering from an eating disorder of my own and i feel the best i’ve felt in a long time, eating delicious, fulfilling meals. don’t give a shit what others think, gonna eat like a horse and get back into sports so i can become a happy chad

>>15254148

>>15254148

I don't struggle or suffer in any way what so ever, but compared to others I have a very low drive to eat. When I eat, I eat less than others. I literally couldn't fit the amount of food an average 30yo male would eat when eating any close to full.
I don't feel nearly as bad when hungry, hungry is just a bland feeling of emptiness for me. It doesn't hurt me or make me unable to function over obsession of getting some food.
I don't enjoy food at all compared to others. Or hate food for that matter. 90% of food for me is just okayish, nothing to get excited about either way but if I could eat something else, I would. Rest is good in a way that it's somewhat enjoyable in reasonable quantities. This is what others consider "omg best food" like sushi, steak, cake and what not.
It's impossible for me to accidentally gain weight, and really really difficult to do it on purpose. I'm not even worried about that, it's not a disorder of fearing obesity or anything like that.
I'm currently at 63kg with 173cm and it's been like that for over a decade.

>>15254088
I eat massive bowls of lettuce with lots of shallots, cider vinegar, salt and pepper. We're talking an entire shredded lettuce all to myself every couple of days. I like it but it's probably not great.

I drink 2 gallons of water a day

>>15257231
>and is obessed with working out
It sounds like she traded anorexia for orthorexia, which won't kill her, but I hope you aren't planning on having kids with her.

Recently I've got the feeling that I'm slowly slipping into an eating disorder, binge or whatever, I'm not sure. I was obese once and lost a lot of weight (22 bmi now), but I still struggle to maintain a healthy relationship with food and think about my next meal all the time. I can mostly control my urges pretty well, but if someone brings cookies to work for example, I usually decline them first, but eat them as soon as people aren't looking. In these situations I eat a lot more than I originally wanted, and even though I'm not gaining weight (yet) I feel ashamed about my lack of self-control. Last night I punished myself with an ice cold shower after one of those binges. I really thought everything would be better after getting thin, the sad truth is that I'm a fattie for life, even if my body isn't fat anymore, my mind still is. It's like a program I simply can't delete or overwrite.

>>15256745
what is it with cu/ck/s having shit teeth. just fucking brush them jesus christ

>>15254088
I eat pretty clean, always cook my meals and I really only eat a light lunch and dinner every day. I don't eat overly fatty foods and stick to the veggies with every meal rule. I'm a fat fuck because of pic related. I put away a twelve pack almost every night now.

>>15266222
Must not be drinking enough vodka.

>>15254088
I drink way too much soda, does that count?

I eat nothing all day then get high after work and binge. Though I'm at the point now where I can only eat normal levels of food on the weekend when I'm higher than during the week. Going to stop after Christmas I'm so sick of this shit. Sober I have 0 appetite but even when I'm really high I can't eat as much as I could 5 years ago. I hope it's not permanent

>>15254088
I'm a very picky eater, is that an eating disorder?

>>15255585
I get anxious after eating and have panic attacks thinking im going to throw up, which in turn, makes me feel sick and like im going to throw up. Takes about 30 mins to pass.

>>15267727
Yeah, it's called being a little bitch

>>15267757
Then I have that eating disorder.

>>15254148

>>15254148

Non purging bulimic here. 38 years old.

I restrict for a few days then binge, then start the cycle again. Current meta cycle started at beginning of pandemic. No weight gain ever. I stay the same through the cycle.

5'10", 165. Want to be 5'10" 155 only to have a lean physique. Been lifting for a decade and have little to show for it despite 5 workouts+ each week with no exceptions ever.

Most of my life is consumed by trying not to eat too much. Hoping to get off the merry go round. I come here to look at what I can't have.

Often I get a little motivation from imagining the disgusting creatures that overeat here.

Jesus, this might be the saddest thread I've ever read. Train your brains, anons. Wake up every morning and tell yourself that you are just fine the way you are. You are not less or more because of your weight. Go to therapy and have your therapist tell you if you can't do it. Everyone goes to therapy nowadays there's no shame. Praying for all of you ITT struggling.

>>15254107
Split that one meal in half for breakfast and lunch and eat a snack for dinner. Literally the way to eat.

>>15268665
>You are not less or more because of your weight.
Bullshit
I am literally twice the man you are

>>15254088
Yeah I have a seafood eating disorder, I SEE food I EAT it

>>15254088
sometimes I just forget to eat and suddenly it's 5:00pm and all I've had is coffee. But when there's something that I enjoy eating, I'll eat incredibly fast.

>>15268805
....

>>15254148

>>15256745
Unless you want to "live" on babby food and soup for the rest of your life, you REALLY need to start seeing a dentist.
If you're afraid of going because it might hurt etc. this worked for me.
>lie down at dentist
>close eyes
>get local anesthetics
>open wide
>let dentist do his job
Not actually seeing what's about to happen takes a lot of the stress off.

Optionally agree on a "safeword" like, "if I raise my hand please stop, it hurts" or something like that. But if the dentist is even vaguely competent, getting dental work doesn't hurt with anesthetics.

t. has shit teeth as well

>>15254088
Every woman in this graphic whose stomachs are visible is fat

>>15268784
>man
Anon, that's not a man you're replying to. It's a hamplanet preaching fat acceptance.

>>15254148
ebin

>>15266470
>tfw 2:30 pm and craving after that image

>>15255970
uhh based?

>>15254148

>>15254396
>unironically being female

>>15254095
gotta eat somin or the booze will get ya, lack of food is what prematurely ended my drinking career

>>15268805

>>15254088
>ate myself up to 300lbs over the years
>water fast for 2 month straight
>down to 200lbs
>few years later
>now at 350lbs
>oof how did that happen
>water fast for 2 month again
>this time it's a total pain
>down to 250lbs
>fug me, there has to be a better solution
>now I am eating like an unhinged pig for around 3/4 of the month and water fast for the rest of it

Everything is ok.

full time bulimic here
severely underweight

>>15254148

A friend taught me how to secretly starve myself in high school so I could get down to a normal weight. In retrospect, this friend had an eating disorder. I ended up learning how to throw up because this was the era of eating disorder Lifetime movies that for some reason gave viewers very explicit visual depictions of how people did these things. Had to move back home after college and gave up purging, binge-ate like crazy instead. For a few years I went cycles where I'd binge eat constantly and gain weight, then purge and restrict for a few months to get it off, then binge eat and gain weight, then purge, etc. Little by little I gained weight in each cycle that wouldn't get burned off later on.

Now I'm trying to lose weight in a healthy manner but it's hard. I keep wanting to just engage in eating disorder behavior. Like oh, limiting your calories? Might as well go obscenely low. Or if I order some takeout, I think why am I ordering the "diet friendly" stir-fry when I could just order whatever I want and barf it out?

Like god damn brain let me lose it normally for once.

>>15254148

People I know tell me I have an eating disorder. I only eat two meals a day and weigh 160 pounds. I can't eat anymore than that, it makes me feel guilty and fat. I was working out intensely for a couple months but then I stopped so now I feel even worse about eating. Do I really have a disorder?

>>15272781
If you feel guilty and fat about eating, while not being even close to obesity then you have a very unhealthy perception of food consumption. It's only a disorder if it's causing your quality of life to degrade. Examples are throwing up, starving etc. Whatever it is, you should work on it, work on introspection and maybe even talk to a psychiatrist because that's where you go when your brain doesn't work the way it should. Nothing wrong about that anon, go improve the quality of your life (unless you're in the land of the free, in which case you're fucked)

>>15254099
Post body

>>15257131
He's a fat tranny

>>15254088
Appalachian Southern Baptist of Irish descent. So, basically, my family taught me to shun alcohol until I was in my late 20s when I was alone and became an overnight severe alcoholic due to addiction issues. Same ones caused me to be fat growing up and waffle between severe bouts of bulimia. Pulled a Bowie in my early 30s where I lived on nothing but vodka and eggs and got down to 150ish. Now I'm in my 40s, the lockdown has made me revert to my earlier drinking habits, and I'm a fat old drunk. God bless America.

>>15273599
That irish blood must have been in contant conflict with the puritanical southern baptist blood. Nice to see the based irish won out. Cheers!

>>15254088
I have what most would consider a dissorder I suppose.
Around here it is considered normal behaviour but if I moved to any other country I would be hunted down with extreme predjudice and beaten to death with a garland of garlic

>>15254148
kek

I used to snack all day and I was fat. I could barely put away a whole meal without feeling full, but I was always eating.

Then I found OMAD/fasting. But now I am practically a binge eater because I can eat 3-4x as much as I ever could in one sitting. If I am not 100% with limiting myself, I could eat multiple giant meals in one day. Or if I eat bad food like McDonalds, my order is what you'd get for 2 or 3 people. Calorically and physiologically (following fasting principles), it's not an issue to eat 3 or 4 burgers at once. But psychologically, I have shifted to a place where I normalized this behavior. I lost weight and have kept it off. It's just a concern I now have.

Perhaps trading one food hangup for another is fine if I'm no longer overweight.

>>15254148

>>15254088
yup

>>15254088
Im fucking overweight

i have an eating disorder and pretty bad body dysmorphia. i'm a closet tranny as well, but i ignore the feeling because i know it's just a mental disease and shaving my head and mutilating my genitals isn't going to make me any less confused and miserable with who and what i am.
that being said, i also enjoy the nervous edge being hungry makes me feel. i will go days without eating to stay 'sharp'. i consume most of my calories in alcohol. i abuse stimulants and recently stopped smoking meth.
the less human i feel, the more comfortable i am, and i like to push my body to physical limits because i don't feel particularly attatched to it. i'll break bones and go to work the next day ignoring the pain because a stronger person could do it. i am 25 now, though and getting a little old to be living like this, so i have begun making efforts to settle into a more palatable presence and be less of a nervous freak. my body is all fucked up.

>>15254148

>>15254088
I skip eating some days in hope of saving food for later.

>>15268805

>>15268580
You rub me off as the guy who only goes to group therapy just to brag about how well their life is going.

I have really high blood-cortisol levels and, among other things, it can completely mute my appetite some days--I'll often go a full 24 or 48 hours without so much as a snack, inadvertently though.

>>15254148

Christmas is my eating disorder.
I swear to fucking god Im going to get diabetes. I don't want to eat for the entire month of january

>>15254148
Blessed and based post

>>15254099
>implying /fit/cels aren't also co/ck/s
every dieting thread here is swarming with those gays

>>15254088
>Large food intake
Lololol
Reminded of this 210lb 5'2 woman who came to speak to our school about how she was anorexic
Her lowest weight was 150 lmao

>>15255970
was doing this for years and just started breaking out of it in 2020. Coffee coffee coffee in the morning 7pm start drinking, smoke weed order 2 meals from somewhere and slip into a dreamless sleep. It honestly is more effort sometimes then a healthy lifestyle would be, but thats life with the monkey on your back