/ck/ - Food & Cooking

Finally down to a 100ml bottle in the morning and then after forcing myself to do normal things and chores for 6-8 hours I get to drink a 375ml and do whatever.
I bought:
>four 375ml 80 proof of cheap vodka
>four 100ml of the same kind.

So far it seems to be working.
I try to limit it to only 4 of each kind in case I accidently a bender.

I was buying 2 handles and splitting them into 500ml portions every day but the urge to keep drinking on an open handle was too strong.
Hopefully within two more weeks I can get down to just buying a 375ml of something half decent and drinking on it all day instead of needing the 100ml bottle when I wake up.

I also got me a half gram of some good speed to get a bump of in the mornings to help me try and get off my ass and do yardwork or bathe more.

Good news is
>My seperated-from wife is still talking to me
>I have 60$ in savings and a budget now
>I worked on my van with repairs
>Gnomes are gone and I was able to reflect on my life
>Started being nicer to all my old friends and family I pushed away

It's been a hell of a ride with yall but I feel like I have a chance for once.

There's my blog, cheers

>>10101213
Wait don't mess with me here , did you get gnomes too?
I have never met someone else to get the gnomes.
What did you see.

Waterloo is full of gnomes too, so beware!

>>9029998
When they poison me I get Gnomed out of my dome. IT is horrible

Denial is an impairment of your fear.
One more second chance would be ideal, but what is done has been done.
Maybe I can lavish in this uncertainty,
but my dear alcohol let me ask you.
Who can be without you?
How can I live to tell the things I have seen?
Why must I endure the Hell that comes with the drink?
How I can continue to justify this when my failing health is choking me?

How I can sleep at night?

I ask the questions to my bottle as if it has the answers I'm looking for.

This life of self-destruction has left me with no option but the hand of God i'm too tempted to bribe.
I'm getting old and growing weak.
Is this giving up?
Sabotaging your own inner-light
I failed to remember how to seize the moment, my life can end on a dime
>I just want to cease the torment, Its ruining my mind.

There is a glimmer of hope.
Remember that brothers.

>>8917096
How can you tie down their magic?
This all sounds a sort of insanity saying it out loud but
>A gnome caught me
>Cursed me
Now I am drinking myself to death to get the gnomes out of my head.
Their influence originally stopped at the state line, but this time i moved all my belonging to Tennessee and now they are here. Not physically but their agents or magic or something.
>I think they followed me
>by planting something in my belongings.

When I get back to my house after I leave this hidden cot in a basement I will have to search my stuff.