I'm drinking tonight because I generally have been drinking all day everyday for about a year now. If only I have nothing else to do.
Mouthwash in the morning/afternoon, till I pass out at ~3 then wake up around 5 and chill and switch to vodka around9 then pass out again around 11
Today though I started working for my dad since I haven't found a job yet (graduated in June with a Physics undergrad from a top 5 university), a lot of it is probably because I drink all the time and haven't really looked. Need to learn Java and SQL for a potential opportunity that I finally got a call back for.
Surprisingly i didn't seem to have much withdrawal like I have had in the past after drinking a lot the day before. Didn't sweat much aside from right after the shower.
Have low self esteem and it makes me forget how much of a POS I am. Hopefully quit soon, stopped smoking after I moved back with my parents and idk
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