/ck/ - Food & Cooking

Went on a bender all weekend because it was my birthday. Girlfriend came over and we all got blackout drunk.

Regret it. I have work in 2 hours and I slept like total shit because I kept waking up in terror for no reason while I'm trying to keep it together for my gf.

She understands though which is nice. She drinks just like me. I can't have 1 beer without wanting 9.

She's super in love with me and I love the shit out of her but I'm so afraid I'll hurt her emotionally because of the drinking. I self medicate for anxiety with the booze and it's getting hard to keep up with.

Going to my psychologist on Tuesday. Gonna really open up this time. See what I can do to get help and clean up. Went to one AA meeting and felt out of the loop. Everyone there was either court mandated for they literally wrecked their life drinking. I'm just a high functioning alcy in the making that wants to nip it in the bud.