/ck/ - Food & Cooking

So i've managed to reduce my drinking from every day, to every other day, to every 3rd day, and now to every 4th day, by taking low-dose benzos with agmatine on my 'off' days.

At this point i might as well just stop completely. The magic of drinking is gone. Every drunk night is the same; the same music, the same conversations, the same failed relationships. It's dysphoric and i can't remember the last time i wasn't filled with regret the morning after. At the same time a part of me enjoys the chaos it brings, and the dull monotony of sobriety always brings me back.

I don't know. There's nothing i really hope to gain out of a sober life, nor is there anything left for me in the bottle. So then what?