/ck/ - Food & Cooking

>>17411475
stop being mean to the person helping me

>>8318226
I recently watched family movies over the holidays. Seeing myself at age 11, when I was skinny and perfectly normal and knowing that while these were being filmed, my mother was constantly telling me I was "obese" and subsequently put me on the SlimFast diet (2 meal replacement shakes a day, and I wasn't allowed to eat dinner with the family)

I used to hurry and binge before she would get home from work, and it led to a massive struggle with bulimia and binge eating that I still struggle with 13 years later.

It hurts to know that the happy kid in the videos was in the midst of abuse and developing not only eating, but mental disorders, that would effect them to this day.

Granted, I've lost about 30lbs from my highest (known) weight, and I'm buying shoes this weekend to start working out again next week.

The struggle with my binge eating is still hard to beat, but now that I'm living alone, it's easier to manage since I control what's brought into my house. I am probably going to go on a raw diet for a few weeks soon to get rid of my cravings for shitty foods. I did a vegan diet before, and lasted about two years or so, and lost 50lbs, but fell off the wagon and gained a bit back. Hopefully I can stay on track this time and not fuck up.