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>doing well with sobriety the past 3 weeks
>relapse once, but shake myself out of it quickly before it gets bad
>tonight get uncontrollable urge to drink so strong that I'm already putting my coat and boots on and walking to the store even though I don't even feel like drinking
>get home and sit there staring at booze with no desire to drink it or get drunk
>drink it anyway

>>10084872
I gave in. Just fuck me in the ass and make me bleed to death already, life.

So for the past 8 years or so I've gotten blacked out drunk nearly every single night. Been trying to quit on and off, but this time I don't have a choice because I'll be going through some shit very soon.

Anyway, point is, during the day I tend to be mostly okay, but when the night hits, during the time I'm normally drunk I'll get crippling to sometimes an almost suicidal depression. Is this a common thing? For it just to tend to occur when you'd normally be wasted?