/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>>10018908
None, I'm fucking garbage lad
Maybe next year I'll self post

I feel like dying, my hair is falling out.
>stress more so more hair falls out
>stress eating so can't lose weight
>stress making me break out
>stress causing constant headaches
It's an endless cycle.

I don't even know what is stressing me out, but it never stops. I just want to yell at everyone and break things.

>>7969711
Here

I read all the replies, thank you everyone. I am starting to worry about this as it's becoming a bit more severe in my head. I am now paranoid to eat more, i check calories on everything and I'm scared to even eat a piece of bread. I make sure to make myself eat at least a good meal but, between my thoughts and lack of appetite I know I'm not getting what I need. I was just trying to clean a bit and I got too lightheaded and had to lie down.

I'm not sure how I'm going to talk to someone about this. I'm just too shot to. I tried talking to my mother the other day about something else on my mind. as I have been thinking I might hav borderline personality disorder but, I'm always met with "You're being a hypochondriac" or I feel like I'm being laughed at. I've been on medications since I was 15 for anxiety and depression. I feel like even if I try I won't be taken seriously anyways.

I can't have myself start to have an ED, I need to snap myself out of this. All I keep doing is finding all this self-destructive behavior.

God dammit, all I want to do is be thin again right now. All I have in my mind is "I'll feel better if I do this".

I have so many mental problems I couldn't even put down into one damn post. So many things I want to complain about.

>>7728825
Going on, I dont blame anyone with this statemeny because i thought they wer right. I use to be a little known tripfag, I use to to use my trip or "avatar" on threads i didnt mind people knowing they were me. I became so self conscious after being picked on for bein fat on here I gained a problem with myphysical appearance. I still do, I always feel so fucking fat even though I really am not. Chubby maybe now but not fat.

I guess majority of anons were right on one part of me. I am not a troll but, I defiantly am "crazy"

trying to type drink2hard. Basically, I don't blame this board or any of that. It IS all mind. And yes now i look back, while i wasnt trolling i was defiantly a shit-poster. Though I lever left, always lurking.

>Mfw when my little sister wants to cosplay with me
>She loves Madoka so she chooses that to cosplay as
>I like Kyouko anyways so this is perfect

But.... I'm extremely scared because these past years I've become a complete shut in and ive gained a bit of weight, I wouldn't say really fat but, chubby. Though the problem is she is a very thin girl. My little sister. Standing next to her will make me look like a beluga. I have never been so self-conscious about my weight as ive been these past couple months. I want to lose weight of course but, I'm pathetic and can't get over the depression and anxiety to go out and work out.

She like wears a 00. Next to her I really am a whale. I'm going to do it either way to make her happy but, I'm feeling really anxious I won't lose the weight by then.

TL;DR I feel like a whale next to my little sister who I want to cosplay with.

>mfw I'd love to wear a yukata one day but I'm 5'9 and am pear shaped. Would probably look stupid.

My weeaboo hopes and dreams..