/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

Everything reminds me of my exbf. I broke up with him for a bunch of pretty serious reasons, but we were still so compatible when we were just hanging out together. I know I'm romanticizing in my mind how happy we always were, but I can't stop.
It's taking over my life and brain and now it's even eating into my lolita hobbies
>see cute new taobao kitty release
>omg exbf would love this
>oh wait he's gone
>finally get dream dress
>was going to use it in a disney-themed couple coord from our favorite movie
>was going to go to disneyland lolita day together
>now I'm only ever going to wear it to some dirty mall alone
>am I ever going to meet someone who supports me wearing and buying lolita fashion as much as he did
>am I ever going to meet someone who loves all the same cute lighthearted stuff that I do
It's been 4 months and I'm half thirsty for a lolita gf, half praying every night that he'll change.
Sorry for emotionally vomiting on this board, I know I'm being a pussy, but I'm just so depressed lately and even my one joy in life, lolita, is turning on me.

>sleep through all of my free time and never get to my commissions or working out
>lil brother had to go out with friends for dinner because I didn't make anything
>fucked up sleep patterns that I can not seem to fix
>missed my bodyline package that I've been obsessively waiting for because it has the shoes I want to wear this spring
>get email from ex saying his cat, who I really loved, just passed
>which is a reminder that my cat is about the same age and probably will soon too
>another painful reminder that my mentally ill but very sweet exbf is really not over me and borderline stalks me online and irl
>low key scared he's going to be in my driveway with a gun someday when I come home
>get in bed again and cry
I hope tomorrow will be better. I need a hug and someone to make me dinner.

I love gyaru and I'm pretty loud and confident, but the one thing holding me back is my dad. I love short skirts and heavy makeup and fluffy bleached hair. I can ignore people who yell at me on the street but I hate seeing my father disappointed in me. He's always very kind, but once he was really angry and told me I looked like a whore. I was really taken aback. From then on, he just makes little comments that hinted at how he disapproved of what I was wearing. Whenever we go out together now, I end up wearing a baseball hat with jeans and no makeup because people kept thinking I was his young wife and I know it made him sad.
I'll probably pick it up again when I move out, but for now I'll just stick to knee-length skirts.

>>8917444

I'd... I'd really rather not share anon, I'm so sorry. Its absolutely nothing personal, but I have so many people request how I do it, I'd feel like a fool to let up something that I've been told really makes me stand out from other resin artists.

>pls no bully

Thank you for the compliment though, and I wish you luck on your endeavors ! Never stop experimenting and trying new techniques. Its so rewarding when you figure out a new way to make cute resin. I still experiment myself all the time!