/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>have social anxiety and depression that worsened over a couple years
>slowly start talking to friends less and less
>gets to the point where i feel awkward talking to them because I've left off so long
>horrible cycle
>don't even know how to reply to messages most of the time
>start avoiding basically every social network because of unanswered messages (hoping they assume I just never saw because I'm never on)
>haven't hung out with anyone that isn't 20 years older than me in over 6 months
>really miss old friends but terrified to talk to them and unsure of what to say
>trying to build up the courage to pull myself out of this god forsaken hole I've dug

Just now
>gather up bravery to open skype
>appearing offline as per usual
>see old best friend is online
>the one I miss the most
>decide to change display pic first since I hadn't in 6 months
>2 mins later
>deep breaths
>you can do this
>friend is offline now

I'm hoping to try again later at least...