/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>Been having weird things happen to my body lately and can't explain it
>wake up sore with no explanation
>constantly have no energy
>mind in a fog

I actually want to start seeing a psychiatrist because I have a hunch I have had ADD pretty much all my life [it would make a shitton of sense], but the only one that takes my insurance has a 6+ month long waiting list, and my symptoms aren't severe enough to go to the community mental health center in my area.
However, I may qualify soon, as my desperation and hatred for myself and my situation are spiraling me into a depression to where I'm crying almost every other day and not taking care of myself.
I NEVER CRY, DAMMIT.

CGL-related feels:
>Been half-assedly watching what I eat and feeling the onset of hunger
>Hope I lose weight so I can fit into my dresses better
>WRONG
>GAINED 10LB.
>I'm now 143lb.

This is gettin' me down. I'm going on the 500 Calorie Diet starting next week.