/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I've suffered from really bad maladaptive daydreaming for as long as I can remember. It basically means that in situations where I feel powerless or inadequate, I daydream to the point where I forget about the reality around me and become fully immersed in my mind. For instance when I was a kid and used to get bullied, I would often fantasize about transforming into a magical girl in front of everyone and protecting them from some evil monster Sailor Moon-style. They'd be so grateful and impressed by me that they'd all clamor to become my friend.
It's not so bad in that it's one of the less self-destructive methods of coping, but it's definitely not an effective method either. In extreme states it's easy to fall into your fantasies for hours at a time, and to any other person you'd probably look crazy, just sitting and staring blankly into space. With the help of counseling I've been able to learn new ways to help overcome my issues, and it's been a while since I've had a full-on daydream.
However, just yesterday I found out that my ex started dating her best friend almost immediately after she broke up with me. We'd been dating for 4 years and were really serious, until one day she decided she was super ~mature~ and that nobody she knew lived up to her standards. She broke up with me under the premise of "traveling and doing charity work" and then never left the city. She tried to string me along under the premise of "being on a break" in a way that I'd always be there to baby and love her, but she wouldn't be obliged to return the favor. I told her to fuck off and never contact me again, and of course I'm glad I did. But after finding out that she really just saw me as a side bitch after giving her all that I had and for who knows for how long, I fell into the most intensive daydream I've had in years.