/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

Thought I was only a nuisance while drunk but I guess it turns out I'm also one while sober. I've been making many new healthy decisions but it feels like it's for absolutely nothing if I have nobody to share it with, my friends are now talking without me. Moreso I'm the one whos to blame for it all. I just don't know what to do. I feel so lost, alone & sad having nobody I can really talk to anymore.

will it ever get better? is it too late?
My mind is telling me to just remove my entire prescence altogether but I know isolation won't help, just like alcohol won't.