/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I’ve ruined my husband and it’s all my fault. I don’t think I’m in love with him anymore, I just feel obligated to stay with him because I’ve created him to be so dependent on me.
I make enough money for the both of us so I do all the work while he smokes weed all day.
Literally first thing he does when he wakes up is smokes, and I don’t think it’s healthy.
I run my own business and he won’t help with the business because he gets too afraid of helping me because it’s a creative field and it’s not something he’s used to, but I tell him all the time any help is better than no help.
He also can legit do nothing by himself because of the way his parents raised him, and he’s super meek and won’t confront anyone in any situation, I think it’s from his anxiety.
He can’t cook, can’t take care of appointments, can’t dress himself, can’t take care of his own hygiene, always has snot hanging out of his nose (and when I call that out he gets like irritated that I don’t just ignore how gross it is).. the only thing he’s got going for himself is that he has perfect genetics and he goes to the gym daily.
When I married him I wanted a husband not a fucking infant but now all I feel like is his caretaker.
Best part is when I have mental health problems (had some severe crippling anxiety a week ago) he doesn’t know how to handle it and just gets angry at me for “thinking this way”.
I’ve told him before that it’s him that’s killing me but I legit don’t think he understand that when I’m saying it.
I’m so unhappy but if I leave he’ll be forced to live life on his own and I physically know he couldn’t handle that.
I’m suffering and I can’t kill myself because that’s the same as leaving him.

To keep it lolita related as I buy more dresses he’s been sneaking in more ‘daddy’ jokes enough to where I think he’s actually into that shit and he’d better not get the wrong idea just because I like lolita.