/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

preemptive apology for wall of text

>>9803606
thanks for taking the time to type out such a thorough and kind message, anon. i'll take your advice to heart. i think part of the issue is that i really have no time to even lie in bed, relax, do anything, or see anyone because if i'm not working i'm studying and vice versa. i actually just put in my 2-weeks notice hoping that having less on my plate will make it better...

please take care of yourself too, and take your own advice even if it's tough. hopelessness is such an awful feeling.

>>9804264
thanks for being kind anon, i know killing myself would be selfish which is the only thing that's really keeping me from doing it. i just wish i could kind of disappear from everybody's lives without hurting them but i know that's not possible. i don't know how much longer i can go if i'm thinking things like "i really wish that car had hit me"

>>9804269
i'm a lonelita and i don't really want to put that kind of weight on any of my friends... if something did happen i wouldn't want them to feel responsible or think "i knew how she felt and i still didn't do enough" when i'm sure they'd do their best

it's why i'd rather keep these feelings a secret, so it reduces the feelings of guilt other people might have

>>9804630
that's not me but if she's doing as badly as i am, please reach out to her and tell her that