/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>Diagnosed with depression in various stages of my life.
>Happened early on so have trouble connecting with people in many ways.
>Finally get a crush on someone for more than a week.
>Find out like a month later they like me.
>Wow this is great holy shit.
>They don't want to date whatever that's cool.
>Get really attached to them anyway over the next four or so months.
>Go through major depressive states, always handle it on my own. Whatever.
>Today it was about them.
>We're talking and conversation veers in a direction where I could talk about it.
>Whatever. I'll talk about it since in my one previous relationship and various friendships, my lack of being able to communicate problems was the main issue.
>End up really upsetting them.
>Definitely said too much-- nothing mean, just upsetting.
>Really fucked this shit up.
>Ended with them going to bed really upset before I could explain everything.

To make it somewhat /cgl/ related we met through animu.

>Broke from trip to Europe.
>Hours get cut.
>Trying to find a new job, no one wants to hire me.
>Well except for a really good job that I can't get to because no car at the moment.
>Supposed to have Severa done for an upcoming con to do a group with friends
>Post about it in feels thread
>Seagulls are awesome and telling me to do it on a budget and rock it anyways.
>Hours get cut again
>No hope for Severa.
>Little hope for new job, but still trying.
>Officially had to let my friends down.
>Trying to scramble to get something cheaper done so maybe I can still do something with them.
>One doesn't seem interested in having me join their other group even though I'm the one only one that loves the series they're cosplaying from.
>Going to have to hear someone else insist they should have been Severa all along.

Feels bad, man. I hate having to let people down.