/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>be me
>have no friends first year of uni
>join the uni cosplay club
>everyone pretty mediocre & lame & already has their own group of friends
>except one girl
>know her from local con in the past, but have never talked to her
>qt cosplayer, qt girl, good taste, funny
>want to be her friend so badly but 2 shy 2 talk
>eventually cosplay club goes on a con trip
>me and her hang out the whole con
>she starts to like me
>f-first friend..
>secretly check her tumblr every day, not following her because I don't have a tumblr nor wanting to make one and follow her and she know it's me
>notice she's posting about being depressed about something, mostly her appearance
>she is so beautiful pls do not be sad
>buy her flowers, buy her candy
>treat her like princess
>depression posts start becoming rare from her
>become good friends, she starts makin me feel happy
>stop having depression myself
>lay back for awhile after schoolyear ends so she doesn't think im clingy or some shit
>we message each other once in-a-while so far over the summer
>she really likes talking to me
>says sweet things about me
>start actually doing cosplay and not be a lazy piece of shit
>check her tumblr today, as usual
>she posts about how she can't stop thinking about this certain someone
>PLS BE ME

If she reads this I'll die, but I need to say it sooner. Strong feels are real. I just want her to keep posting on tumblr what she would normally post without worrying about what I think.