/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>write letter to santa asking for cute gf
>he doesn't deliver
>not even a "I'm sorry" response
Santa has abandoned me. There's no hope now.

>meet girl in steam
>don't talk much
>start playing together more and more
>we end up playing a lot of time together, talking with mic
>she has a boyfriend
>we talk like 6 hours a day
>don't want to fall for her
>think it's okay and keep it at bay
>time passes
>I really like her, but she has bf, so stop
>more time passes
>get jelous and actually fucking angry when she plays with other males
>realize i'm actually in love
>she somehow notices that sometimes I get jelous because I start being passive aggresive
>fast forward and she tells me I'm the most important person for her after her relatives and bf
>I.cant.handle.this.mp4
>mental breakdowns
>life becomes hell
>have to see her and talk to her knowing I'll never have her
>some day I don't log into steam
>the next day I don't either
>repeat
>eventually decide I'm not going back for a while
>fast forward to now
>~3 years have passed
>I haven't gone back
>left my steam account with a bazillion games 3 years again and I still don't have the balls to get back
>wouldn't know what to tell her
>not sure if I even want to see her again
>one of the saddest episodes and periods of my life