/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

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Hey anon. I'm in a similar situation. I can't drive, I don't have a job, I never went to college, my aging parents pay for my lifestyle, but don't realize that what I really need is help with a few simple things to kickstart my recovery, and I'm mentally ill. I've had crippling OCD my whole life. Because of my compulsions some normal things I can mostly manage, and other I cannont. Many days I can barely get my self water or eat. Hell some days I don't. I can barely sleep because I wake up as soon as I hear anyone disturb the acoustics in my room out of paranoia, and have to keep part of my brain awake at all times to do my OCD compulsions.

Thought regulation, to unthink bad things, twice or four times, then burn them out, then block out the nonexistant thoughts, then clear my mind. If I fail to do this I wake up in a state of dissociation I cannot tell the difference between anything except for anxiety. Things like the concept of "Up" or a sound, or emotion, or a thought are all indistinguishable to me. Because of this I cannot tell which thoughts to block and end up have seizure like convulsions for several minutes. with the ever present back ground sensation of absolute anxiety.