/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

Not about the recent release, and this might belong in the feels thread, but holy hell, I don't think I'm ever going to get the remaining dresses on my wishlist.

I hope AP continues to rerelease things, because I don't want to get in a shitty bidding war for a stained dress. Every Milky-Chan JSK, etc is in terrible condition or is bought at lightning speed. I guess I waited too long to make finding these particular prints a priority, but even two years ago, listings went fast.

I just feel so fucking stupid and so disappointed every time I try and fail. I have so much old AP shit, and I can't be happy anymore because the secondhand market is a complete clusterfuck. My wardrobe feels like it's at a standstill because buying anything in sweet is so volatile. I hate that the fashion that brought me so much joy just brings me pain now. It feels like I need to completely step away from it all, but I know I'd just be even more crushed if I missed a sale for something I wanted.

I know someone is inevitably going to say I'm a poorfag or whatever, but I'm so tired of feeling like I'm fighting a thousand people to get one item. It's not even really a money problem. ClosetChild is ruined, mercari and fril feel desolate, and LM was always a gamble. I'll still be here in 5 years looking for the same dresses, but the condition of every one will just be worse by then.

How the fuck do I stop feeling so discouraged when everything good is fading into the past, and I'm at the mercy of dumb luck or AP granting us popular rereleases?