/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

Everyone abondone thread? Damn I think I need s some reality slapped into my face so I can learn to appreciate what I have in my life.

>plz respond

I am scared/

I want friends. I want to be good at something, I want to be noticed, I don't want to be invisible, I want to do something with my life. I don't want to be alone.

I want to be told I did a good job. At anything.

I hate my family, does anyone thing running away is a good idea? I feel if I stick around I will likely go insane. If I leave then my only choices is what my mom says I will be. Some kind of stay at home wife since I can't do anything right. For some stupid reason I made this place my safe place. Even though it makes me feel like shit. "turn off the internet" "Go on a different site" I don't even know if I can possibly do this. When something shitty is going on in my head all I can think is
"Go vent on /cgl/" since I have no where else to go. I can't keep pushing all my problems on my only friend and my family will just yell at me. This place keeps me sane. I don't get it. It ruins my thinking yet, keeps me from the pills. I can come here and distract myself. Get away from my world. I'm not abused in anyway anymore but, it's stuck with me. I detest everything. I want to be myself again... I was so happy making everyone else happy.

sage because.... this is all just.... long blob of fucking nothing from a worthless shit that uses drugs to cope.

This I why I don't browse /cgl/ while eating.