/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

Prefacing now, there's no saying this without sounding like an arrogant ass. And It isn't going on /r9k/ cause they go ballistic if a guy says he's managed to meet one (1) woman in his entire life who didn't vomit at the sight of you

People in my local scene / circle hang out quite a bit outside of conventions, probably more than average. Just about all of them treat me with this sort of reverence that I've never understood but more than welcome. For the lesser of the problems here, is my tendency to break down into histrionics after enough time has passed and I start to get all these paranoid ideas about how everyone must secretly hate me. Those tend to go away soon enough.

The main issue is something I hinted at in another (deleted) thread: on con floors, I can draw in tons of attention from girls, get their contact info, hang out during / after, even flirt with ease. And as of today, not a single one has led to anything more, fling or relationship. Sometimes it's me being dumb and honestly not understanding the hints, but those are the exceptions. The fact is, I straight up DO NOT know how to take things further, and also don't feel open enough with anyone to ask for help, if they even know how at all. It's obvious that being a late bloomer has setbacks too, and this is the worst one by far.

All that is BEFORE I noticed almost everyone around me is hooking up or finding girlfriends, which (big surprise) is why this bad thought train is getting worse. Maybe this is just talking to the void but it has to go somewhere other than my miserable brain