/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I'm super envious of all of my friends who aren't in school right now, work one or two jobs, and are buying all the lolita they want.

Meanwhile I'm stuck in grad, in a shit program at that. I'm studying stuff that I'm completely uninspired about, am bored, stressed, and severely depressed.
And I might be able to forgive ALL of that, if it wasn't putting me in veritable debt and preventing me from doing things that I sincerely enjoy (I had no debt as an undergrad and I remember being so much happier). Beyond lolita, I wish I had it in me to read for pleasure and to buy books; can't do either because reading is now a fucking chore and I can't afford new books for myself either. I haven't written a poem in months even though that's another thing I loved.

>inb4 incoming advice
Don't bother, I have no spine to stand up for what I want. I'll never face my family and tell them I want to drop out, how I don't want to go to law school either, and that it's time for me to fully focus on making myself happy and not what they want for me.

My family are cunts and I'm stuck leading a life I don't want to live.