/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>>10059082

>teenage me, ed
>young adult me gets it mostly under control
>insert trauma, eating habits swing the opposite direction and fat ensues
>adult me tries to lose weight in a healthy way
>hyper focusing on food and calories causes relapse into ed
>now lying to partner about eating habits so he doesn't know I eat < 300 calories a day

At least I'm losing weight. Burando will comfort me, right?

>worked really hard to lose over 50lbs to fit into more burando
>found out dad has stage 3 cancer on top of added work stress
>queue depression and anxiety spiral
>gained all weight back

I dunno gulls. I was doing so well but now I just feel like an orca again and none of my clothes fit let alone lolita. Do I just sell my stuff and call it quits until I lose weight again?