/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

this is whiny but here it goes anyway. i have health problems. i got put on medication that made me gain weight and i'm not loosing any of it. and it made my hair start falling out too. i wasn't pretty to begin with. but lolita is one of the few things that made me feel pretty. now my clothes just sit in my closet because they don't fit me anymore, and even if they did bald-lolita isn't a good look and i don't wear wigs. if it gets that bad and i'm able to fit into my clothes again i'll consider getting a wig. but i've lost hope of ever loosing the weight at this point.

i'm starting to think maybe i need to give up on lolita, and maybe even give up on all fashions. i don't want to leave lolita but unless my doc suddenly has an epiphany about my health i can't see me wearing it again.

i'm not really asking for advice, i just need to tell someone who will understand how much having to stare at my beloved BTSSB i may never wear again hurts.