/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

My new year's resolution was basically to make 2019 my year of lolita. Last year I finally took the plunge to start my wardrobe, and by now I'm just free falling deep into the rabbit hole. I love getting lost in this wonderland, pun intended.

Today I was hanging out with some friends who were home from Christmas break. Being with them made me realize how much I've changed already. There were small positive differences, like getting a compliment that my skin was looking great. I got excited and started something over how much I'm enjoying my skincare routine and they just... Seemed perplex and lightly confused. I've always been a hype friend who gets really into things, but I suspect they never thought beauty and lolita could be such fun for me. Nobody knew about my two silent years of lurking and admiring the fashion alone.

My friends are still happy that I'm happy, and we had a good time today. It's just that I'm left with the taste of melancholic nostalgia. Nothing will ever be the way it was, and change is a natural part of life. It just... Hurts a little bit to live, that's all.

>>10039326
I'm so sorry for you Anon. I would have hoped a guy switching jobs would see it as a positive opportunity to date an ex-cooworker instead of a current one. Don't know if you're working in an office, but office-relations and all that. Can you still be friends? Are you going to go to that concert together? Is there still time to confess for the sake of truthfulness and giving him a boost in confidence for the future? He did post on another board and sound unsure if you liked him back.

Or perhaps it's best to let love die for now...

I feel ya'll on that big boob trend.

I am in the process of loosing weight, (I'm down two dress sizes and twenty pounds right now so I'm feeling good about that at least) but my boobs are still too big. I bought a few OP's on sale from brands and while I can get them over my waist just fine now as soon as I hit the chest its a struggle.

I also really dont have any lolita friends and so I feel too nervous to wear stuff out (I do have plenty of skirts and stuff that fit so I can wear my non OP's out) so it just feels like a losing situation for me right now. I keep hoping that the smaller I get that maybe my confidence will boost again but who knows. And with a lot of the dress's I do have that fit pretty good I still dont want to wear too much because I keep telling myself I'm going to keep getting fit and I dont want to stretch anything out by accident.

But the dress's are just so damn pretty I cant stop myself.

>Got a new shoulder length blonde wig
>Supposed to cut it way shorter
>So short I'm fearing I might mess up if I try to cut it myself on a wig head
>Remember cosplay friend who's really good at cutting wigs
>Their mom is a hairdresser and all that good backstory
>Get pumped up figuring all will be fine if I ask/pay friend to cut the wig
>Oh wait, I haven't even tried it on to check if it's actually thick enough
>Excited as I shove my hair in the wigcap
>Forget I'm having a particularly rough day with my shitty skin
>A He-Man a kid used the red crayon for skin colour looks back at me in the mirror
>Blonde hair just makes everything look so much worse
>Get depresso thinking about that I won't look good in the end
>Cosplay friend always looks so much better than me blah blah
>Sadly remove wig and let down dark hair
>The contrast from the blonde wig lingers
>Look just as bad without the lighter frame

I hate my skin so much. Doesn't matter how well you wrap the present if the paper is just plain bad.

>At least the wig quality made the cut
>Still sad

>Go to con alone
>Really excited, feel really cute and like I look true to the character
>Walk around con and see all these happy groups of people with their weeb friends
>Remember how painfully alone I am all the time because I have a hard time meeting new people and becoming friends with them

To quote "I was hit head-on by a brutal loneliness. I felt dark and hollow. Abandoned, unnoticed, forgotten, I stood on the sidewalk, a nothing, a gatherer of dust. People hurried past me. and everyone who walked by was happier than I. I felt the old envy. I would have given anything to be one of them.”

>Plan on saving a lot more
>Get told I'm being laid off
It never seemed like something I'd have to worry about in my mid 20s. At least I'll be able to work on cosplays non-stop and enjoy my convention in a month. Then I can worry about the rest of my life.

>>9311048
>give myself a cute manicure
>ruin it a day later while crafting

>>9166820
I'm sorry. I'm genuinely curious.

>Work pays pretty well
>Pretty miserable at the end of every day
>Constantly dream about changing jobs
>A job that makes me happier probably pays worse
It doesn't help that in about a year I might be moving and changing my life completely. I'm freaking out. I like being happy but hearing all of these stories from friends about the job market scare me.