/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>ugly (nasolabial folds, witch nose, eye bags, donkey face)
>15 pounds overweight
>bad hair, bad teeth
>have embarrassing online presence from being a teenager with untreated BPD
>ruined so many friendships
>the past five years have been nothing but a series of embarrassing behaviors that I wish more than anything I could go back and change
>want to message old friends and tell them how sorry I am for being such an immature fuckwit, but scared of bothering them
>trying so hard to clean up my act and be an honorable, positive, kind person
>everytime i think I accomplish something, i remember how disgusting i am for everything i've done in the past and i just fall into a deep state of depression
>tfw you were trash in the past and trash now
>tfw you would give anything to make up for your mistakes
>tfw people still hate you and always will
>tfw not even pretty

Happy Holidays, seagulls.