All I do is struggle in this life

[Anonymous No.49258488]

As I watch everyone undeserving get whatever they want, wealth, health, women.
Scammers making massive profits
Liars getting away with literally anything.

I walk the path of honesty and love of god and I am returned with agony, anguish, depression, failing health.

Yet I never succumb to evil and I continue to struggle.
I want to KMS most days but I can't because it goes against everything I've ever striven for.

Will I ever be rewarded or is joy on this earth only allocated for the wicked and doomspeakers?

[Anonymous No.49258532]

Welcome to The Test.

[Anonymous No.49258535]

didnt read. you need to realise nobody cares about you because you were born male. thanks for playing

[Anonymous No.49258573]

Who are you to decide who is and isn't deserving of anything.
You're a cretinous rat on 4chan like the rest of us.
Fuck you.

[Anonymous No.49258588]

>>49258488
Your path is its own reward

[Anonymous No.49258599]

>>49258488
Your reward is not whst you deserve but what you get.
When you get into situation thats full retard don't try to go half retard or something, go full retard as its the only way to win.
Theres some cats that live in my backyard.
One had 3 kittens the other had 6 kittens.
I give them some catfood but I can't go around the yard to catch grasshoppers fir them. Kitten that plays catches the grasshopper and has a bonus snack.

[Anonymous No.49258643]

>>49258532
When does this test end?
Also is everyone literally just fragmented memories torturing me daily through interactions that do and go nowhere?

[Anonymous No.49258690]

>>49258643
no one's gonna save u fren, u need to save urself. What exactly is the problem? As long as its not some uncurable chronic disease u can make it.

[Anonymous No.49258695]

>>49258488
Who says they don't deserve it? You don't know them.
Don't get all high and mighty on me buddy. What have you -really- done to deserve anything, my narcissist friend?

[Anonymous No.49258749]

>>49258488
You got a BRO ID, bro. You're gonna make it but stop thinking and talking like a little bitch, you just envy other people wealth because you're a poorfag and you call it "suffering", and what's worst you think you are somehow virtuous for never succumbing to "evil" and expecting a "reward" on this earth. Fuck that. It's all in your head you deluded fuckwad, stop thinking like a loser or you'll live as one your whole life

[Anonymous No.49258751]

>>49258488
Read the story of Job in the Bible, then learn about Spinoza. If you have a low attention span Nigger brain look up Will Durant Spinoza on YouTube. You are a piece of dust in a cosmic universe. God is above good and bad, god is above meddling in human affairs, prayer is in vain, humans are only a part of his creation and you’re retarded life is the least of his worries. Even using the term “his concerns” is cringe. God is not even comprehensible to humans, he doesn’t take a form that we understand, he is essence, god is nature, god is all substance and math and phenomena. Not advocating atheism, just want to give a more complete perspective, so you drop your fairytale peasant-tier religion cope and become a big brain philosopher.

[Anonymous No.49258761]

>>49258488
There is no reward beyond a noble life is its own reward.

[Anonymous No.49258799]

John 15:19

[Anonymous No.49258813]

>>49258690
I'm very ill, likely something uncurable I've spent years trying to find out what's wrong with me and nobody came up with an answer besides I'm rapidly aging and decaying.

[Anonymous No.49258835]

>>49258488
>If the world hates you, keep in mind that it hated me first.
>If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you.
>Remember what I told you: ‘A servant is not greater than his master. If they persecuted me, they will persecute you also.

[Anonymous No.49258842]

>>49258751
I've read the book of Job and many people here said I'm living it, maybe we all are.
But it doesn't appear that way, I deal with wealthy people daily and they are rarely good people.

[Anonymous No.49258864]

>>49258813
You are a narcissist suffering from the disparity between your self-aggrandisement and the reality of your failure. You seek to blame it on anything but your mind.

[Anonymous No.49258911]

You need to smoke weed. It's the only way to remember being grateful for life even if it seems really bad at the moment.

[Anonymous No.49258916]

>>49258864
How am I a narcissist?
By the way 99.9% of the time people who are narcissistic quickly blame others of their own condition?

[Anonymous No.49258917]

>>49258813
im sorry fren

[Anonymous No.49258944]

>>49258842
>I deal with wealthy people daily and they are rarely good people
is it all about wealth for you? is that what you consider a reward?

[Anonymous No.49258968]

>>49258944
Living a life without worry access to whatever you want when you snap your fingers is wealth, I'm talking truly wealthy people not internet investors.

[Anonymous No.49258977]

>>49258916
You promote yourself as virtuous and honest, and you are quick to brand others as wicked.
You're not a martyr; you need to dig out the filth in your own soul.

[Anonymous No.49258999]

>>49258488
Chin up anon, it’s the same for a lot of us

[Anonymous No.49259010]

>>49258835
My man.

[Anonymous No.49259029]

>>49258968
you are chasing a carrot on the stick, it won't make you happy

[Anonymous No.49259054]

>>49259010

[Anonymous No.49259057]

>>49258977
You assume you know me, which is the definition of narcissism, take a look at yourself fren but I'm not here to argue with the self righteous.

[Anonymous No.49259062]

>>49258842
That mindset will poison you anon. Try to make excuses for others when you are tempted to accuse them

[Anonymous No.49259092]

>>49258488

https://youtu.be/_QzcrflqDCg

Listen to the song.

I feel the same way all the time my brother, but then I remember that this world was usurped by satan long before we were born, so I will strive to turn away from sin and be an inspiration to those with the eyes to notice it. 99% of the time I see someone with more worldly pleasures and luxuries than me, I am blatantly twice the man that they are, and have been through way more harrowing and horrifying situations. The reason you feel this way and notice these things is because you were meant for more than what is in this world. Carry on soldier.

[Anonymous No.49259176]

What you haven't realized yet is that the only morality that is consistent with everything you have observed in life and with rationality is "Do what is in my genetic interests". That's it.

You should do that which increases the probability that there will be an increase in the number or power of those who resemble you, genetically, or the extent to which their group average resembles you. Life is all about genetic dominance. You should seek an ethnostate of your clones that dominates the galaxy and beyond.

Take the egoism pill.

The only sin is self-harm.

[Anonymous No.49259221]

>>49259092
I'll listen I gotta go get dinner I'm pretty sickly but I'm hungry which is rare hopefully this is up still when I get back but I'll open it in another tab incase.

[Anonymous No.49259271]

>>49258488
Literally me. Being a christian made me suicidal. I don't think I'm making it to 30 (currently 27). Been alone forever. Got fucked with jobs. Down over 200k losing ~95% if my portfolio basically.
I can't do this anymore. I also get panic attacks daily and multiple times.

[Anonymous No.49259279]

>>49258488
Checked, the way i cope with this is with "is that everything you got?" attitude, and it works pretty good, specially when things start to get better. Im not a good person and i deserve everything bad that happens to me, so ill take it. But that also means that i deserve everything good as well. Im not a nigger, so i dont steal, im not a jeet, jew or russki, so i dont scam, im not a woman or fag, so i dont whine and talk shit about others, im me and Im better than that

[Anonymous No.49259293]

>>49258488
>BRO id

>>49258749
>You got a BRO ID
>bud id

>>49258835
COP id

>>49259029
>you are chasing a carrot on the stick
>meh id


what does it all mean

[Anonymous No.49259304]

>>49258977
>You promote yourself as virtuous and honest, and you are quick to brand others as wicked.
Ya and maybe that's a fact. Ever think of that??

[Anonymous No.49259375]

>>49258813
Go on the Keto diet with intermittent fasting (only eat within a 6-hour window each day). Make sure to drink plenty of water and supplement with electrolytes.

[Anonymous No.49259388]

>>49258488
without failure you can never truly appreciate success

[Anonymous No.49259415]

>>49258488
>failing health
here you go
retain hope in despair

[Anonymous No.49259455]

>>49258488
As we know blackpillers/incels are very toxic, but one important point they make is that not every starts off with the same hand. You could do all the right things and still end up mediocre or worse.

Take memory for instance. If you have a great memory, you only have to read an article or book once or hear someone say something once, and have that forever to your advantage in all kinds of situations. If your memory is mediocre or worse, you're always chasing back in such situations to find again what people think you should have known already, due to no fault of your own. The point is that life isn't fair.

[Anonymous No.49259469]

>>49258488
Correct - being a soulless sociopath is practically a prerequisite to getting rich in modern times

[Anonymous No.49259474]

>>49258488
God gives the toughest battles to the good. Your life will eventually improve and the victory will be sweeter than anything the scam artists and liars will ever feel. Don’t give up on yourself or on God.

[Anonymous No.49259501]

[Anonymous No.49259544]

>>49258488
Live a life of honesty and God will keep your life simple.

Don't leave a simple life just because of a few social media lies that tempt you. Money is a tool, only the devil makes it a God.

[Anonymous No.49259717]

>>49258488
I spent most of my adult life believing that being good and honorable was important. And I kept losing. I never got promoted, never got the girl I really wanted, never never never. Then one day I realized that by being an underhanded slimy piece of shit I would rarely lose. Now all I do is win. I can't believe I wasted 34 years trying to be the good guy. All these spiritualist clowns claiming that being the heel is a noble thing. Fuck those faggots. If it was apparent before it should be now thst /biz/ is full of Hindus and their comical beliefs. In this life you are the boot or you are the ass. Which do you want to be? Let me tell you anon, being a boot is fucking wonderful.

[Anonymous No.49259739]

>>49258588
thanks rabbi

[Anonymous No.49259790]

>>49259474
God fucking sucks shit

[Anonymous No.49259847]

>>49259790
Shameful. Grow up, kid.

[Anonymous No.49259864]

>>49259847
God made niggers and j*ws.pretty sure he's not our friend if he is real.

[Anonymous No.49259935]

>>49259304
Man lotta replies I'm back sorry reading now.

[Anonymous No.49260002]

>>49259847
Life is nothing but pain which we are all forced to deal with God's incompetence painfully and slowly while we watch anything we ever loved die. Also >>49259864

[Anonymous No.49260044]

>>49258488
What’s up man. You’re not Job. Trust me. Job suffers the MOST of all the patriarchs. Some - not all - of Jobs suffering can be looked at as metaphorical. There is a Job. And it is his job to suffer for now, but not forever. Once this Job breaks free, so too do good people. Humble people. But - it takes time. Effort. Planning in the dark. Understanding and consideration of all. Strong, good peoples time will
Come once again, for it is needed. Overall. Stay strong and be good.

[Anonymous No.49260045]

>>49258751
This. We've been dropped on this Earth to do as we please.
We allow all crime because we are unwilling to stay criminals ope ly in the street. Thievery is the root of all crime. Cowardice causes every problem.
If we want a fair world we need to take it by force. Because as it stands there is a baby born this month who will grow up to traffick young women. Many of them will die, he will live his decadent, heinous life, and he will never ever be punished for it. He will die an old man after hearing the torturous screams of thousands of little girls.

[Anonymous No.49260118]

>>49258488

[Anonymous No.49260312]

>>49258488
My benchod if you redeem your karma you will enjoy your next life

[Anonymous No.49260317]

>>49259375
dont do keto unless you want to lose your fucking gallblader

[Anonymous No.49260318]

>>49260312
How does one redeem ser?

[Anonymous No.49260382]

>>49259092
Listening to it now brother, I like Childers heard him before.

[Anonymous No.49260485]

>>49260317
OK boomer

[Anonymous No.49260505]

the entire world is a scam anon sorry no refunds

[Anonymous No.49262368]

>>49258488
Hanging could be the last option for you pajeet. Even some liquidity providers on Dot Finance ain't worrying about the market right now. You must be happy on what you have and stop sniffing meth.

[Anonymous No.49262599]

>>49258532

[Anonymous No.49262708]

>>49258488
Look up Jake Ducey on YouTube immediately. You need it

[Anonymous No.49262901]

>>49262599
Peak non descript faggot boomer advice. Retards like you make this world insufferable with your gay shitposting.

[Anonymous No.49263064]

>>49260382
Have you even done anything to help others or improve the world?

[Anonymous No.49263074]

>>49258488

[Anonymous No.49263784]

>>49258488
I’ve decided that I’d rather die poor and alone - fuck every single worthless piece of garbage filth

[Anonymous No.49263846]

>>49263784
Based

[Anonymous No.49264185]

>>49259062
>Try to make excuses for others when you are tempted to accuse them
Actor-observer bias. The observer sees the actions of other with their own bias (assumptions, limited info, projection) and the actor sees their actions with their own bias. Much easier said than done though.