Almost made it, but now I reached the overthinking part

[Anonymous No.29238484]

Why is happiness always in the future or the past? In the last few years I started feeling that happiness is something that is always out of reach somehow. Like, a few months ago I quit my job after reaching low six figures, and my dream of being able to sleep how much I want, watch anime all day, play games and research crypto while talking to anons around here all day was fulfilled. But somehow I still feel empty... Back when I was a wagecuck I was dreaming of doing this, now that I'm finally here it's ok, but not amazing desu. Will it be like this when I finally find a gf? Right now I'm a lonely fuck, have no gf since 5 years ago when I thought I had my first gf but she was a bitch that fucked half the town, and I can't wait to find some cool hot chick that also likes the stuff I like. But what if I can't find her? What if I find her but my insecurities and social awkwardness and shit will get in the way... I keep remembering the normies from work, how oblivious and content they were with everything that happens around them. It's like the less you know the happier you are or something, because the dumb brain can't process the complexity of the surrounding world so it chooses to ignore it and live in a bubble. Anyway, now I'm in the mid six figure hell, so at least financially I'll make it in the next few months (my goal is 2 million), but just making it financially doesn't solve everything I think.. Maybe some anons around here can provide advice on how they improved their life, how they got out of these depressive thought loops or something. I had a rough day today and that's what got me in this state I think, so I needed to vent a lil bit