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I need some advice on how to cope.

In 2017 I turned 15k of savings into almost 650k. Lots of ups and downs but I cashed out around 290k total. Not great, but not bad, can't really predict the top anyways.

I went to S. Korea to bang the fuck out of asian sluts (I'm white and pretty good looking so I absolutely CRUSH in asia). I ended up hooking up one night with this girl I met at a language exchange mixer. She was educated in the US and spoke good English, but was Japanese in origin.

The thing is, she was not attractive at all. Looks like a fucking japanese rice farmer peasant, but her family is really rich and she was SUPER into me. Like desperate for me.

I basically ghosted her to date a whore. Literally a karaoke whore who I took on lavish dates with my crypto money. We just drank and fucked and I fulfilled every carnal fantasy with her.

It's now almost 2 years later, I have no money besides like 100k in cash and stocks, no job (been lazy about getting a job again, told my former boss I left to go back to school which I was actually going to do but never did... so probably can't go back). I mean hey it's fine, I had some amazing experiences and what not HOWEVER-

I find out this Japanese bitch is from a multi-millionaire family. Like probably 250MM+ family net value. She has a apartment in Tokyo that's worth almost 10MM, and it's just hers no strings attached.

I've been following her on social media and have truly realized the depths of my failure. I could have been worth hundreds of millions of dollars if I ended up with this girl (she only has one sibling, a sister).

I don't know why, but it just fucking clicked that I completely fucked my life up by now railing this desperate girl and making her my waifu. I pissed a way a once in a lifetime chance to marry into some insanely wealthy family.

How do I cope? We're friends on IG and I see her bullshit everyday. She found a guy and she seems genuinely happy with her life now. What a fucking ugly bitch