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I can buy an apartment back in Zagreb for cash, or a small one in a smaller city here ing Germany.
I'm very muscular, I look much better, I can get a job, I don't need booze to have fun at all, I had actual sex, I'm still funny and entertaining to pretty much everyone I meet

But also I am 35, tremendously lonely, I need a gf but I work as a programmer remotely from my apartment in the most boring city with the least amount of females in Germany and I can't speak the language, I am a huge extrovert but came here just 2 months before Corona lockdowns happened and for months and months I did not see or speak with a live person at all, this year I was invited to one party from a gym buddy and I immediately mingled with everyone and got a nice girl to follow me around there but then I fucked up the date part by being too passive since this was my only chance in years and I did not to push it faster. I get mires from girls in the gym but they come with their BFs, I get 0 matches on Badoo and Bumble even though I have normal pics. Everything I do I get shit return on investment, everything goes wrong even with careful planning.
I am miserable and will return back to my home country like I planned initially. What if I'm too old now?

I legit have noting that makes me happy in the moment, I only have delayed gratification. I only have hope and spite pushing me.
I wasted my life.